It was hard though. I got lots of comments like "Your image sucks" or even just "LOL." Of course, it made me sad but it also made me think that I will be better than you one day! Since then, my dream has been to get an award in an international photography competition and to make a photo album for my daughter to give on her wedding day. Life was good in that I could take lots of photos and memories with my daughter and I could improve myself day by day too. 6 years later I got pregnant again and had a baby boy. Of course, I started to take photos of him too. I also started to work as a photographer on a military base. I enjoyed it a lot but then my life changed suddenly.

I got divorced back in 2020, which was a really hard time. Back then COVID was around and I had to sell my camera and all my gear to make money to rent an apartment for me and my kids in my hometown. I cried so hard that I had to give up my dream. I still remember the day I sold my camera etc. I cried all night. I was lost and depressed for a while. But when I was cleaning up my photography album, it made me want to take up photography again for my kids. So I bought a camera and a lens with a loan. I even decided to start a photography job in my hometown too and tried but things didn't work well. Due to COVID-19 and since I didn't have money for marketing etc., I couldn't get many customers.

I had to give up again. Now I am working at my sister's company, which isn't a photography job, to live. To work to only make money to live keeps me away from photography now. Since I am busy with work and taking care of kids, it's hard to even think about what kind of image I want to take. I hope that my passion for photography will be back one day...

I will post some old work to keep it as a memory.