I'm an X-ray tech at a busy little rural hospital. What bothers me the most is the way people d**. It just happens. You expect to see their spirit leaving, or feel their presence vanishing at the exact moment they give up the ghost, but you don't . You think that the earth should bear a scar in the exact place where someone d**s, but it doesn't. You feel terrible, for a life extinguished, but you go on. I suppose that's why we have grave markers, to show the earth that we mattered for a little while.