“Panic Attacks”: 30 Things People Can Never Truly Understand Until They’ve Experienced Them
No one can experience everything in life. And sometimes, that’s a blessing! If you had to suffer through every possible traumatic situation, enjoying life would become extremely challenging. But the more that we have been through, the more we can relate to others.
Redditors have recently been discussing experiences that no one will ever fully understand until they’ve lived them, so we’ve gathered some of their thoughts down below. From grieving a loved one to being burdened with chronic pain, I’m sure you can relate to some of the experiences here. But perhaps this list will be a reminder to be a little more sympathetic towards the things you haven't seen first hand.
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Depression.
Grief.
That was beautifully put about something so painfull. I understood what you ment in a heartbeat <3
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Panic attacks.
A full blown panic attack is the feeling you are going to die. Can't breathe, sweating, shaking, blurred vision, vomit. It's not anxiety. It's panic, no matter where you are
Yeah, I had a few terrible panic attacks some years ago, and it's pretty hard to convey that feeling to people who never had them. And honestly, I wouldn't wish them on anybody. They're not fun. 😱
I've only ever had one really bad panic attack and it came striaght outta nowhere. Fully thought I was going to die. Sacred me something fierce, mainly because I didn't know what was truly happening to me. Now that I know I think that is what has prevented it from happening again. I had a panic attack and, not knowing that this is what was happening, proceeded to make it worse by panicking about what in the world could possibly be doing this to me. It was over 15 years ago now but I'll never forget it.
Same here. Good to experience it at least once. NOW I have empathy, not just sympathy.
Load More Replies...Had a lovely attack at work. Got caught outside chain-smoking 47 cigarettes. Well, that won't do. Got hauled into the office, HR was called, whole nine yards. "Why were you out when you weren't on break?" "Something terrible was going to happen, and I had to get away." "What was going to happen?" "I...don't know. But it was bad." "That makes no sense." "Yeah, I know." Trying to explain a panic attack to a person who's never had one is like trying to explain the color orange to a person who's been blind their entire life. At best, you might give them a rough understanding, but you'll never be able to really let them know how it feels.
Pet loss.
i miss my kitty Elsa everyday she was the best loved cuddles and you could have a full on conversation with her she would meow and i would meow back and she would do this everytime.
Yeah this is a reason I don't want a pet. I don't know why someone would get another one I don't know why they'd do that to themselves knowing the creature will pass.
Chronic pain.
Its easy to say, but since I have it. The worst thing you can do with cronic pain is let it stop you moving, because our whole body mechanism is designed around movement to make us healthy. Unless we move we dont get fresh blood to all our cells, we dont expell our waisteproducts efficiently. We stiffen and our musckle shortens, wich inpacts the bloddflow and the waiste products. Thats not to mention all the positive hormones you also dont get transported around your body. Our brain is so ready to give us the right medicine, but we are so used to thinking that movement and excercise is pain, that we forget that its nice to sit and rock, to swing our bodies gently, to roll from one side to the other. And the more we do the small, soft movements, the more we gain the positive effects, and even supportive muskles to ease the pain of the main. Pain isnt always the body telling you something is wrong. Most often its just to tell you that you are doing it wrong, or not doing it enough <3
As a fellow sufferer, good information - Thank you.
Load More Replies...To clarify, pain is always the body's way of telling us something is wrong: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/26548283/
yes, but it could be the way you are doing it... since we have all become amatours of our own body and especially moving it.
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An a***sive relationship
Always easy to say, "Well if my SO would use violence against me, I would be gone in seconds", until you've lived through it.
"I would never let someone treat me that way", until the one you love actually does...
Learned this the hard way.
There are a thousand reasons why someone can't or won't leave an abusive relationship. Maybe they have no money or nowhere to go. They might not know where to turn or who they can trust. Society in general dictates that being alone or single is a bad thing so they may have conditioned themselves into thinking that a bad partner is better than no partner at all. Maybe they've just accepted the abuse as normal and no longer think there's anything better or that they deserve better. It is surprising what you can get accustomed to and it is surprising how quickly you can get used to it. I've experienced all of these things. I could write a book on the subject.
I feel like half the women on Bored Panda could contribute to that book.... :(
Load More Replies...If you grew up in an abusive household, you are more likely to wind up in an abusive marriage/relationship. It's what you know. It is your "normal" Until you wake up one day and think "this is not normal"
I was 19 and homeless. Had no money, no where else to go, and he made me feel like no one else cared about me. Also threatened to end himself if I left him. 3 months of him being hot and cold with his emotions, massively abusive, was SA'd by him and a friend of his on more than one occasion, tried to force me to do heroine (luckily that didn't happen). Finally was able to get away when he almost beat me to death and some friends found me and got me away from him. He ended up taking off and disappearing. It will be 20 years this year and I am still so scared I will randomly see him somewhere.
Second time was when I was 22. Dated for 3 months then he started being abusive. Only happened twice till I throat punched him and got the hell out of there. Luckily I was able to stay with a cousin for a bit till I could move to my moms.
Load More Replies...Took me 5 years to leave my emotionally abuse relationship. Your brain tricks you into thinking you truly love them and they truly love you. I actually had a convo with a dating coach as I'm struggling to get into dating again and she said that the true meaning of a narcissist is somebody who doesn't have empathy for anybody, and they use peoples' vulnerabilities to make it advantageous for them. Opened up my eyes!
Migraines. I'd love for everyone to experience a migraine at least once so that they stop calling it 'just a headache.'.
the nausea might be the worst part. or the feeling of intense pressure/pain on your temples.
Load More Replies...I have chronic aura migraines, where I get speech problems, flashing in my eyes, nauseous, among other things. They are triggered by certain smells, flashing lights, and just happen randomly. I get one at LEAST once a week. There is another lady in my office that is the same. We currently have a few people in our office that habitually puts on the strongest grossest smelling lotions. Luckily our boss is dealing with it at our potluck/meeting next week.
This. I've lost count of the amount of times I've been accused of faking it when I've been in so much agony that I can't move.
Discrimination
Some people think it straight up doesn't exist because it's never happened to *them*.
Worse, many think that some classes aren’t discriminated against because “nobody’s trying to hurt you or kıll you or take away your rights”. Discrimination comes in a wide variety of forms, and they all hurt in some way.
I'm severely mentally ill and although 90% of people are really great about it, I still run into the 10%. I have dissociative motor disorder, mine looks like tourette's that is exacerbated by anxiety, lots of shouting and movement but also stuttering or slow speech and difficultly thinking unless I go at a slow pace and usually reading off a script. I can guarantee half of the phone calls I've made they have hung up on me. A small number people are not happy that I don't work(I did most of my life), until I offer to work with them(even for free) then they mean a job for my type of people?? A lot of the retired generation are plain ignorant. But women with kids are the worst, they will actively shield their children from the guy with milk, bread and eggs in a basket and use derogator terms to describe me e.g. "stay by there until the mental man/funny wavy man has gone"; I don't think most of the time there is any malice, they don't even realise what they are doing.
Clinical depression. Everyone thinks they understand it because they’ve been depressed, but true depression is a whole different thing.
Numbness is mostly what I remember from when I had it. I am so thankful that I managed to reach out to my mum when I was suffering and she made sure I got treated. I still have social/generalised anxiety but I find it easier to live with than how it was back then.
Period Cramps.
And knowing you're going to have them almost every month or so for 35-40 years!
Ahh yes. Nothing better than repeatedly blacking out from cramps and blood loss. Thank God my doctor allowed me to yeet my malfunctioning baby box last summer.
As a man, I genuinely am curious about what these feel like so I can have some frame of reference for what my wife and daughter experience. I can't truly empathize with my wife and daughter because I truly don't know if I've experienced a similar level of suck.
get a TENS machine, put it on your lower abdomen, turn it to 10 and try and get up and do normal activities. That is what it most feels like.
Load More Replies...I got them, but still didn't fully understand how bad it was for many people, because mine were never that bad. I can relate more now, after the pain from an ovarian cyst and torsion.
The outrage and despair when something really unfair happens to you.
People will tell you to just choose to be happy, or get over it, or forgive, but words are so cheap.
Moving past something and forgiving is a process you go through. You don't actually have complete control over it.
And it takes as long as it takes. Nobody really knows how they are going to handle a situation until they are faced with it themselves and nobody has the right to judge you.
The struggle of dealing with mental health issues in silence!
No need to be silent. shout it out <3 so you can get the help from those who see you shouting. The rest of them probably have enough with their own stuff or dont have the mental capasity to help anyway. But dont silence your self to please others. It only makes it worse, and many people want to help you, even if it is only a kind or validating word from an internet stranger, it is a start. Its helpful. It allows you to "be", in a context where you are not judged and if they judge, its not to earthcrushing. And so you learn to find your words, to feel the right to express yourself and with time and confidence, you learn what you want and need.
Addiction.
Losing someone close to you.
5 years ago lost my stepdad, then my aunt (my moms sister) a few months later. Last year my husband lost his uncle and I lost my uncle within a few weeks of each other. We just lost a family friend last month who I have known since I was little, so like 30 years.
Last year I lost my sister and my Dad within one day of each other. I don't know how to recover
Tooth pain.
i had a broken tooth one of my molars and i was eating a hamburger bit down on it as i was chewing i felt like someone just straight up clocked me in the jaw.
The damage and consequences of childhood abuse/trauma/neglect, the adult you now has to deal with living n healing CPTSD.
Jupp. But we also can be quite basa§§, good listeners, have great perspective on life, live in the moment, because we know thatt is is all we really ever have, and are strong enough to wake up and sieze another day by its horns while shaking of the nightmares that comes at night. Im not making light of anything here, but we are made to go through and live after much worse, so unless you are being eaten by a bear or a lion, there is hope you will find your way to the other side, as long as you keep moving your body, work through your experiences and have faith in your self and the fact that you made it here. And that is awesome (in the correct use of the word). Even the "gutter" has life and hope, and most of us have more than that. Even when we have or had very little. Love you all <3
Your home burning down.
The fire is only the first day, the following 2 years it takes to reclaim your life is so much worse.
I feel for all the people in Australia and North America who are experiencing this from the bush/wild fires at the moment.
War. Source someone who’s never been.
True loneliness and how it feels to be completely isolated.
As a child, my mother had all the ppd's posible and she couldnt stand touching me. My father touceded me but only to saticfy his own sickness. When they divorsed he would keep me and my brother (for status) and left us for days and weeks at a time from I was three til I was nine. I would walk in peoples shoeprints to feel a connection to others. I would sneak peaks into peoples homes, and i would stand outside favorite houses, so I cold smell their dinnertime and hear their laughter. I even learned to hug pinetrees, and had a few nests around, jiust to be close to other living organisms, besides the bacterias growing on my filthy body Cats and dogs would avoid my desperation. Now I have many friends, in my favorite tv series and documetaries, the love artists share when they make their content, internet strangers who see me, only for a minute while they read my comments. I could have real friends, but im not good at it, having been raised by dogs and cats. And i feel my life is full
being in a room full of people and feeling like you are the only one there
Or that you aren't even there amongst people, just outside looking in.
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Giving birth.
It's a truly unreal and terrifying experience from start to finish for an onslaught of reasons. It was the only time in my life I have wondered if I might just die from pain alone. When my daughter finally came out and they plopped this slimy, wet, purple baby on my chest I actually said, "oh my god, it's a baby."
Side note, *parenthood* is another one of those things you don't really get until you've done it.
Oh, that parenthood comment is so true. "But, I am an aunt/uncle/Nanny, etc." I was guilty of the same. Then I became a Mommy.
The way an abusive relationship truly wears you down and the lack of options you may face, or the harsh penalties you may experience for any choice
"Just go to a shelter!" 🤦♀️.
I love the "Just leave" people... Where should I go my man? Should I just go live on the streets while getting slandered to kingdom come with 0 reprecussions for the offending party?
I know its not easy. i have been trying to have my stepmom leave my abusive father for 30 years. But the resistance is also built into your head by the abuser themself. There are people out there who would help you in a heartbeat, but you ha e learned to trust "the fact" (wish is not the case) that you are worthless. The abuse lives in you like a cancer, keeping you from sharing, beliving in and leaning on others. Many people have been through this, and therefore there are many peorple who work tierlessly to help people as well. Even in a poverty stricken country, or even moreso there, people will help you, because they know what its like. They dont want you to live like this a day longer, and they would take you in. But you have to breakk the first stone in your wall, belive that you are worth it and trust in it <3 Sending you my support and love. I have hope for the best for you, always <3
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What it’s like to be seconds away from death. The fear. The fight. The exhaustion followed by acceptance that that was your entire life. The feeling of being saved at the last possible second. It’s hard to understand if you haven’t been that close to death.
I get to join this one. My 18-year-old is upstairs crying her eyes out because her Dad 54 years old just passed away at 3:30 this morning.
The only reason I'm here on Reddit is because I'm tired of crying my eyes out. I was married to him for 15 years. He was a good man and never should have died before me.
Homelessness.
My mum and stepdad took in a couple of friends of my late stepbrother in the last couple of years because they were homeless. Having to pack up their meagre belongings and move in with people they only peripherally knew was hard to comprehend. Now one is going to be homeless again, after finding a place to share for a while, and my stepdad won't help again.
OCD!
As someone with OCD, It is quite annoying when someone "jokes" about having OCD because all of "whatever" is lined up perfectly, and if anything is misaligned, they have to fix it right away. My OCD ruled my life. It was something that affected me non-stop. In addition to the usual "counting" thing, and needing to eat a sandwich in 8 bites, I had a major "oddity" that a friend insisted was OCD, and she didn't even understand the complexity of what I was doing. Friend dragged me to see OCD specialist at Johns Hopkins Hospital. When I told him about my thing, he looked very thoughtful and said that he had never heard of anything like that before, but he quite confidently said that it had all the hallmarks of OCD. I started getting better that day, knowing that it had a name. There are still aspects of it that control my life, but I'm able to override some of it now. So yeah, making sure all the pictures line up straght ain't suffering. Folks with real OCD actually suffer from it.
I wrote this on another post but I think it's worth repeating here "Touching on mental health, in OCD (obsessive thoughts) there are documented cases of people that believe they should be locked up because they could be abusers/r*pists even though they have no desire to do it, they have a constant thoughts that they could. OCD isn't a fun wannabe disorder now is it."
OCD is something that I struggle with, and I want to punch people when they say that they're 'a bit OCD' because they like things neat. When something isn't done correctly, or doesn't appear correct, it'll play on my mind all day to the point where I feel anxious and out of control and can have panic attacks. Don't glorify OCD; it's not a lifestyle.
You're perfectly describing my wife. Her obsessive thought is that she believes she is going to make those around her sick(covid was a strain) to the point that she has thrown out things that she believes may be contaminated. At it's worst I found the bedding, bags, coats and her brand new phone in the bin.
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How much I miss my dad 😭.
Me too. My dear dad passed away early on Christmas morning 2013. I think about him every single day and even now more than a decade later I still get emotional sometimes, especially at Christmas time.
The depth of love from a good mom.
Yes, this one is hard for me to understand. I did not have a good mom. I didn't feel the love.
Derealization/dissociation/depersonalization. I’ve tried to explain to people how it feels like you’re not really in your body, or life suddenly feels like a video game or a dream, etc. If you haven’t actually experienced it, though, it’s hard to understand.
I've checked the backs of building to see if they are real. Some times it can feel like I'm looking down from above myself, like I'm stretched out of myself. I feel a constant need to touch people(on the arm) to make sure they are real, it is too overwhelming for them all to be, even though logically they should be. I don't like going outside. I'm a lot better but things are still off and I do not know how to explain it better.
Kidney stones.
Weirdly, I had a stone blocking the pelvis of the lower pole of my right kidney and it caused little if any pain. I only found out when I had a liver ultrasound. I've got stones in that pole again. No pain!
I had what was suspected to be kidney stones for a while and I never want to feel that pain again
Aging - no matter your age, you probably assume you will get older. Getting older, you realise none of your assumptions were even close.
To quote Dave Barry, "It's important to exercise when you're young because exercise hurts. So it prepares you for when you're old and everything hurts".
Heartbreak. S**t hurts so bad.
Lsd.
A psychotropic d**g experience in the proper setting surrounded by people who are caring can be a life transformative experience. They are now being used in clinical settings to reverse addictions, depression, and PTSD. Taken in many other circumstances it can be your worst mental nightmare.
Even with all of that, it can still cause unwanted (and sometimes long-lasting) side-effects.
Load More Replies...Psychosis.
It is terrifying a complete loss of you. You have no idea when you're inside the storm, the madness is completely normal to you. I rang up my support worker because I didn't know how to clean up all the blood and hide everything after I had drilled a hole in my head "Should I use paper towels or tissues". And that was one of the good ones
Back pain.
Autoimmune dieseases.
Obesity.
I hate people being judged because of their size. Obesity has so many causes. It's not always a case of "eat less junk food". There are medical problems that cause weight gain. There are medicines that cause weight gain. I once got praised for losing a lot of weight. It was because I stopped taking a certain anti-depressant, which had caused me to gain weight when I was taking it.
Agreed. I'm waiting for the people who slam body positivity to show up here. They assume you can't love your body and be overweight at the same time. It's ok to know you're obese, be working on it and still love yourself.
Load More Replies...Scuba diving, more specifically the first breath you take wearing a regulator underwater. It's a moment of euphoria mixed with panic as you do something you've spent your life avoiding; breathing in water.
I am a lap swimmer. Sometimes I forget that I cannot breathe under water because swimming feels so wonderful to me.
Homophobia.
Correct, I don't understand homophobia. I don't understand why who you love should bother anyone else.
When you gamble your last money and the crippling sensation when you finally lose them all.
The complexity of balancing work and personal life!
I work full time, raise my kids and run my household. I'm also full time carer to my elderly mother who has multiple health and mobility issues. There are not enough hours in the day and I always need to be in two places at once. I could do with a lottery win so that I could afford to give up work or a three day weekend; one day for catching up with household chores, shoppingand taking care of everyone else, one day for socialising and hobbies, and one one day to rest and recuperate.
Death/CPR. Medical shows and movies make it seem like this small thing, push a chest a couple times and they can be saved - effective CPR is hard as f**k, exhausting, and IF you get a heart beat back it is a long recovery because you should have broken multiple ribs. Odds are you didn’t get back a heartbeat, so surprise, death is in the room with you.
Source: adult and peds trauma EMT before I flipped into medical IT.
It's not 'should' have broken ribs, it's 'probably'. Also, you are not getting the heartbeat back, you are keeping blood flowing until they have access to a defibrillator/d***s and the rhythm normalises
The challenge of finding balance between ambition and contentment!
JavaScript.
While it’s impossible to *fully* understand some things without experiencing them, some people use that as an excuse to not try or to accuse others having no idea at all. We should always try to understand things to whatever extent we can, and we shouldn’t try to prevent others from understanding what they can of our own experiences. IOW, don’t gatekeep compassion and understanding.
Gaining working knowledge of any software is entirely possible, though you may not know the coding behind, and better the UI, the easier it is to learn. This analogy applies here, I think.
Load More Replies...I'm going to add in: Being neurodivergent. They mentioned OCD but for me no one but an autistic person can truly understand being autistic. That said if any of my lovely fellow pandas have questions about autism please ask me I am always happy to educate but please keep in mind autism is different for everyone and I can only speak to my experience.
I'm also autistic. Can I ask if there's like, a favorite part or something that you really like about your autism?
Load More Replies...ADHD having racing thoughts all the time knowing that you need to do something but cant work up the drive to do it. Then hyper focusing on something and zoning out from everything around you to the point that you realise someone has been talking to you.
A loved one with dementia. It's an experience I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy's dog.
My grandmother, who was 99 at the time. "I love you. I don't know who you are, but I love you." Had to excuse myself from the room for a moment...
Load More Replies...Going from being a wife and mother who took care of everyone to being so ill you need to be cared for.
While it’s impossible to *fully* understand some things without experiencing them, some people use that as an excuse to not try or to accuse others having no idea at all. We should always try to understand things to whatever extent we can, and we shouldn’t try to prevent others from understanding what they can of our own experiences. IOW, don’t gatekeep compassion and understanding.
Gaining working knowledge of any software is entirely possible, though you may not know the coding behind, and better the UI, the easier it is to learn. This analogy applies here, I think.
Load More Replies...I'm going to add in: Being neurodivergent. They mentioned OCD but for me no one but an autistic person can truly understand being autistic. That said if any of my lovely fellow pandas have questions about autism please ask me I am always happy to educate but please keep in mind autism is different for everyone and I can only speak to my experience.
I'm also autistic. Can I ask if there's like, a favorite part or something that you really like about your autism?
Load More Replies...ADHD having racing thoughts all the time knowing that you need to do something but cant work up the drive to do it. Then hyper focusing on something and zoning out from everything around you to the point that you realise someone has been talking to you.
A loved one with dementia. It's an experience I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy's dog.
My grandmother, who was 99 at the time. "I love you. I don't know who you are, but I love you." Had to excuse myself from the room for a moment...
Load More Replies...Going from being a wife and mother who took care of everyone to being so ill you need to be cared for.
