I Draw Comics To Explain What It’s Like Living With Depression And Anxiety (30 New Pics)
I was blown away by the support on my previous post about mental illness, so I thought I would make another one with my new drawings.
I’ve been living with mental illness for as long as I can remember, and it brings many weird and dark thoughts.
I’m really bad at explaining these thoughts, so I started doing it through drawing which has always been a lot easier for me.
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Same. I have a family member who said to me 'when are you going to start helping yourself' whilst I was on two different anti-depressants and seeing a psychiatrist. I'd also had talking therapy. She didn't ask what I was doing just assumed I was doing nothing as I wasn't getting better. She also assumed that her minor depression when dumped by a boyfriend, which was actually Situational Depression, was the same as my Major Depressive Disorder. I have to remind myself that she genuinely isn't that bright and it's not really her fault she doesn't understand. Though I secretly itch to thump her...
Load More Replies...My sister did that to me. If I'd had any energy I might have considered thumping her.
In the doctor's office waiting to speak with her about my depression and the nurse who is doing the pre-visit check tells me 'not to be sad'. Thanks. :-|
I hope you mentioned that to the doctor so she knows just how ridiculously unhelpful the nurse was.
Load More Replies...While usually well intended this comes off as dismissive of the real issue and makes someone feel like they've chosen to be depressed. A better way someone could approach me (this is my opinion, we're all different though) when I'm depressed would be by asking if there is anything I'd like to talk about and lending a non-judgmental ear.
Ugh, someone just said this to me, yesterday 🙄 yeah...that really help...😒
Grrr. People should be warned that telling others to be positive is a dangerous past-time due to the extreme risk of being slapped around the head a few times.
Load More Replies...I absolutely HATE it when people say this like it helps
I reached out for professional help 3 years ago when it became too hard for me to hide my problems and handle them. Now, I see a psychiatrist regularly and have medication to take daily. My treatment changed a lot in the last 3 years because finding the right medication can take a long time. However, it's not useless. Even though many told me they would have lost hope and given up. It's very hard to stay patient when in pain but eventually I saw an improvement.
For me it's because I'm too anxious to speak to a complete stranger about my problems. It takes a lot of courage to seek help.
@Sunzilla While that may be one solution to a mild depression there are many variables that need to be examined closely. Sometimes depression isn't just depression. My "depression" turned out to be bipolar I disorder. Before this was discovered I was placed on a typical anti-depressant that threw me into a downward spiral and made me severely suicidal. I ended up being hospitalized twice for over a week in a short period of time. My GP no longer felt comfortable treating me. I ended up with multiple people trying desperately to pull me through. More than one psychiatrist (to find the right treatment plan), a therapist, my GP and a social worker. I was on MULTIPLE psych meds and lots of different therapies. I know my case was on the extreme side of things, but I think it is important that EVERYONE be vigilant about any shift in mood that isn't considered "normal" and for GP's to know when to pass on care.
Load More Replies...A psychiatrist doesn't bite. Seriously. And the pills they give really help. I am not joking here I am depressed right now. Though I admit I waited whole 8 months to do so. Now I am a bit angry at myself I didn't do this earlier...
I was on Venlafaxine for years and felt like an emotionless robot. Numb. It's taken me the best part of three years to come off the level I was on and I am now actually capable of feeling things. Sad is often one of those thing and I keep leaking tears when something sad happens on TV but it's better than being numb. So pills aren't always the answer and ideally should be prescribed alongside talking therapy.
Load More Replies...It may be annoying when someone says "Be Positive", but in many cases, it works. The current theory about happiness is that you decide to be happy NOW, not wait until you have your first million (when, of course, you will still not be happy, because you will then want to make your next million and on and on, getting greedier and greedier until you are one of the 1%.)
This happened to me earlier this year. Knew I should have gone to the hospital but because I had people screaming for me at work I got in the car. Started crying straight away and to cut a long story short ended up having a breakdown in my car outside the office building. Very scared and upset colleagues and one ambulance ride later I was in hospital. Nearly 9 months later I'm still not fully okay but back to a semblance of a life.
I struggle with this a lot. But for me is the anxiety to lose my son. He has no where to go and I don't want any one to know this. And then I go on and wait when I have my appointment with my social worker. Starting my traumatherapie any moment now, hopefully the anxiety and depression will get less when I have worked on my traumas.
This is exactly how I felt at one point. I thought that if anyone I worked with knew I was mentally ill I could lose my job.
Drawing aside, I try to find comfort in music, writing down my thoughts and talking to my friend. The latter helps a lot.To me, staying alone is the worst way to deal with these things.
Also, hearing "just be positive" or other random advice (please, stop with the mediation) is not helpful at all. It depresses me even more. I feel guilty because that doesn't work for me.
I would also like to add that everyone experiences depression and anxiety in different ways, and there is no one magic solution. Everyone's path to recovery is different.
Same here there is never good news. Man gets killed by dog attack headline news. Man gets saved by a dog from an attack see more on page 40 (on page 40: man safe dog is a good boy the end)
Load More Replies...That's why I don't watch tv, don't buy newspapers and try to avoid the news on the internet. I may be oblivious but at least I'm calmer. Many nice things happen every day, but they don't sell, so no one cares to talk about them.
Omg that's so me.. I thought I was the only one who worry a hell lot... Now I'm feeling relieved
This is why I try to stay away from as much negative news as possible.
This is me...I quit trying to make friends years ago because I feel like I'm just annoying everyone
Uhm...I'm pretty sure I actually annoy everyone. So I just have cats now :) They don't get annoyed.
Load More Replies...I can feel myself hurting my partner so much bc of my mental state. I hate myself for it. I know I should break up with him and let him live a better life, but i just live him so much.
Ah, but if he wanted to go, he could have gone. So maybe he just loves YOU that much and you are worth the tougher times.
Load More Replies...My daughter. I don’t know if it’s being a teenager or if she is genuinely depressed. Hoping to find ways to help her through life.
Teenagers are in that weird place where they really want to pull away from parental rules/judgements/advice/opinions etc but don't yet have experience or the autonomy. Letting her know that you will just listen and not tell her what to do unless she asks and that you won't judge - that's what I'd have wanted from my parents. Parents are often so caught up in parenting that they forget what it was like to be a teen. Try and recreate the mindset and put yourself in her shoes. Not easy, I know but may be worth a punt - my parents weren't happy with that advice when it was given to them by my doctor but it made them back off (which you might not need to do - but they did). Good luck - at least she has someone who really does care.
Load More Replies...Every. Single. Day. It gets worse when their reaction to you is "Oh, so you think I have poor judgment then?" or... "So you think it's okay to ruin someone else's day by being down or sad?" - which of course... very nicely reinforces and strengthens my feelings of worthlessness... Thanks guys!!! Way to go!!! It's totally ALL ABOUT YOU, who gives a flying **** about me? Proof!
wow- i have no friends and most of my "family" hates me...no all or mostly my fault as they wish me to believe
I am sure that whatever you are going through is not your fault and if you need friends the posters of bored panda can be there for you.
Load More Replies...This is why I I go to bed listening to Brainsync and other medition on headphones. Otherwise my nights are filled with thought racing and days seem scary.
I've started realizing that, that is in fact me.... I can't bring myself to get out of bed to go to class, I can't bring myself to clean my room or really do a whole lot other than laying in my bed.
There is always this kinda mantra in my head when I go to sleep. If I die, then ok. If I live, then well, ok too. It doesn't matter at this point...
This reminds me of a former neighbor. I knew him before his conscience caught up with him. Once it did, he sat on the end of his couch looking out his door for about two years, convinced he was either gonna die that night or be arrested if he left the street. Once the statute of limitations was up, he went back to his home state.
I try to keep busy and do my knitting in my crocheting and all that kind of fun stuff that's supposed to keep your mind busy, but all I do is come back to the thought of I can't even crochet for another person because I know nobody
Aww My son went into the children's branch of the local hospital to have some tests run last winter and they were giving out hand knitted toboggans and mittens to the kids when they checked in. There was a tag pinned on it saying it was made by the local knitting club. Maybe that could be something you could do.
Load More Replies...This is one reason I enjoy reading. I can get lost in another time and world and be someone else for a while.
my mind is not the best companion too and reading is great, but sometimes I can't even focus
Load More Replies...Will I ever know silence without mental violence? Will the ringing at night go away?
I wake up to feel tired the tired makes me sad because I think I'm just lazy and fat (which I am lol) which makes me depressed which makes me tired it's a vicious cycle
I always wake up feeling like I have a hangover - which irritates me immensely seeing as I've not had a drink.
Load More Replies...I can relate to this. You wake up tired because the night before you had a hard time getting your brain to shut off so that you could get a good night's rest.
This is gonna be weird but the speech bubble is in English, but the diary, the days are in Spanish
Amazes me still that these people can't go through this very simple thought process: 1.) The person who is depressed (the depressee) - how do you think they feel about themselves? 2.) Understanding #1 ... that the depressee probably already hates themselves or thinks they're a terrible person... why do you believe that guilting them or making them feel EXTRA bad about themselves... is going to be a good thing or have positive results? Example: If someone is depressed enough to want to commit suicide ... why do you think the RIGHT thing to say at that moment, their lowest moment, is "You were thinking of ruining someone ELSE'S life so you could end your own? You're so SELFISH". Hint: It is... really not the right thing to say.
To family and friends of mentally ill people: One of the emotions we feel very strongly is guilt. Please don't tell us that someone has it worse than we do because then we feel guilty for feeling depressed.
My therapist showed me a video by Brene Brown that illustrates that empathy rarely includes the word “but”. Changed my perception on who really cares about me (which is like 1 person)
Empathy is used incorrectly all the time these days. It's used when people actually mean that they feel sympathy. It's as though sympathy has become a dirty word. You can empathise if you've been in that situation. Parents who have lost a child, for example, are the only people who will really understand how that feels. Others can sympathise but they don't know, they can only guess at how awful it is. Guessing means that they may get the support wrong, but not that they don't care.
Load More Replies...Yeah, it's the best part when they tell you that you don't have the right to be sad, because there is someone out there with bigger problems...
There's 7bln people in the world, YA DON"T SAY?? A contender for Most Pointless Phrase Everyone's Heard A Bunch.
I had a really hard life. I was a monument, stone. For some time I was indestructible. About 15 years Then came first unemployment. It was this one drop too much. Then I developed anxiety, depression and many more. It is recurrent I am afraid...
Yup... nothing like the paranoia of having a strangely good day... "okay... so... when do I get crushed... it's coming. I KNOW it's coming."
That's me to a t. Everything went ok today and then here comes a problem.
I am terrified of death but just as terrified to stay alive and face another lonely day
Reading the comments makes me think that a lot of us Pandas are.
Load More Replies...Anytime I'm asked that, I have that same thought process, and just end up going with my most normal fear, heights. I usually choose not to say that I'm afraid of dying, living, people, social media, writing things down, trusting others, and a billion other things.
Oh so very true, coming home from work and having everything plannend but ending up sitting on the couch
I've worked so long to cultivate the facade of a kind of carefree goofy person that sometimes I wonder what my real self is like...
Ikr.. But to be honest it's not half bad, unless of course you must address some really important issues within. Like, when you are carefree and goofy and finally others get along with it- I've had times when i make other people's day just by trying to keep up a smile. And then, genuinely i feel like I really do mean my smiling, my silliness etc. So ya, it can be good sometimes. Just saying... Your real self is coping with whatevers that's going on for you, and your coping method can* be healing, if you want :)
Load More Replies...I have perfected my "happy, smiling face". I am not acting in any extroverted fashion, but I am able to smile with my eyes too, which fools pretty much everyone. One evening, my boyfriend asked me what was up. I smiled, said nothing, and he told me I didn't fool him, and he say how I looked when noone is watching. It was the first time someone noticed my deep feelings.
I try to appear happy even when I am not so that I don't bring down others.
I dont use social media like Facebook because I know everyone is doing better that I know. Don't need reminders that I f****d my life up
I blame the introduction of social media for the depth of depression it can push people to. As my Mother used to say to me when I envied someone or something I didn't have "What the eye can't see the heart can't grieve" so I opted out of Facebook and other media things and thankful that I did.
Deleting facespace was the best choice I've ever made. Even knowing my 'friends' are only posting their best selves, my anxiety and depression would use that as stress ammo. comparing myself against others has greatly dropped. One of the best way for me to fight anxiety and depression is to know what my triggers are, and try my best to remove them from my day to day.
Same here. Having an ok day so I don't want to dredge up the details, but... I've been there, said that, meant it. Internet hugs. You're not alone and you are important
Load More Replies...Thiiis hits a little close to home... Again... people... before you react to your depressed friend/partner/spouse in anger or frustration... ask yourself FIRST: "How do they likely feel about *themselves* right now" THEN: "What I'm about to say... will it reinforce or 'prove' to them that they're awful and thus not have a right to live"... THEN: "What's my goal here? Do I really want to drive them to that end?"
I've never spoken about this feeling to anyone, but this explains it all in one quick bite.
Every night... here's my little prayer: "Please, whoever is out there. I do not ask for much. I just ask that I close my eyes for the last time tonight and drift off. Please do not let me wake up. Thank you."
You are reaching out here on BP and it matters to us that you do.
Load More Replies...I say "I just want to go to sleep forever" to my friends all the time. They think I'm just joking or whatever, but I lowkey mean it
Anxiety: "But I can't miss another day! I'll get in trouble." Depression: "But you know if you go, you have to talk to people..." Anxiety: "TALK to PEOPLE? But we need to go..." My mental battle every morning.
It's the worst when I'm talking to someone who I consider a friend and my anxiety decides to say, 'Why are they friends with you? Maybe it's all an elaborate prank...' I mean, just last week, I was going to the movies with my friend and I was like 5 minutes early and she was 5 minutes late and in that amount of time, I had an anxiety attack. 'Maybe this is just a crazy joke that she's friends with me...'
I was actually told to do that! It was part of one of my therapies. The therapist asked me to make a list every day and that the first thing on the list should be "make a list" that way NO MATTER WHAT I had accomplished something. Seems trivial and stupid, but sometimes that "make a list" was literally the only thing I accomplished in a day other than breathing and blinking.
Load More Replies...Opening my eyes. Every morning I still surprise myself by actually managing to get to work. It's sooo daammmnnn haaaarrrddd...
Your job gives you a purpose no matter the job. Even if you flip burgers for a living its giving you purpose of some kind. I am on disability and can't work (overactive bladder scoliosis somatic anxiety etc) I cant work to serve a purpose you're lucky to have one
Load More Replies...Not true. You might believe it, you might relate to this, but just remember that you DO matter and we need you. Hugs
Load More Replies...This thought still goes through my mind every once in a while. Sometimes all you can do is repeatedly tell your brain to shut up.
This is actually a very interesting composition of random shapes that beg for color, patterns, and/or texture added! Get after it!
Well I am aren't I? No friends no job no education... I really matter. Not.
I have somatic anxiety so when I get upset about something I can go from throwing up to seizures and everything in between hot sweats cold sweats passing out you name it somatic anxiety is one of the worst mental disorders I think anyone could be burdened with
Same here. I have a bazilion autoinmune desises caused by anxiety too, it's f*****g ridiculous...
Load More Replies...This one is a mess. Specifically anxiety having no real cause but "you can have triggers." Anxiety is internally manifested. Stress is externally created.
Not true that there is no reason for anxiety, it is a stress response! A response to stressors! It is persistent because it is an adaptive response to a single event such as seeing a tiger, we are not adapted to live in a constantly stressful environment. Likewise stress can be persistent, permeant. The bodily response of of stress is anxiety, (an anxiety disorder being the chronic version) how stress is described here would better be called 'stressor' (eg. Exams). 'No real reason' honestly, people need to stop treating mental illness as mysterious when its external causes are definite and well documented.
As someone who suffers chronic stress, I beg to differ about stress not being persistent.
I agree. I know for a fact my anxiety is not persistent. It comes and goes. Sometimes I'm scared of open staircases, sometimes I'm not. That's how you can tell you're just wacked....
Load More Replies...For me, it's twofold: Obesity and depression go hand in hand. You're physically trapped in your body with fat, and mentally trapped in your body by depression.
I was told by "friends" in University: "Don't actually tell people how you're feeling. They just want to see you smile, just BE HAPPY for crying out loud. You're just driving people away by being down" - well... thank you and welcome to unhealthy coping mechanisms...
Well, then they aren't really friends, they misunderstood the meaning of Friendship.
Load More Replies...Having to go around pretending to be happy makes the struggle with anxiety and depression even harder than just having the anxiety and depression.
Wow... I'd have ... exactly 0 missed calls... My mom would definitely not call as I am a 'good-for-nothing waste of space' (her words), my brother acts like he's an only child since he's embarrassed by my existence...
Going to be extremely blunt here but they don't sound like they're worth pissing on if they were on fire. If they don't have the ability to look past any mistakes you may have made (don't we all) and see who you really are and how you are feeling then they are not exactly great examples of humanity.
Load More Replies...at least you have friends :( people dont call me cause Im to down to deal with
There is a difference between depression and feeling sorry for yourself. No one else is responsible for how we feel. There is help out there so use it work at it and deal with it.
.....and STOP with the pity party! It’s not all about you!
Load More Replies...Omg I know how this is. I didn't know anyone else knew what it's like to be tired yet u get sleep.
I make a point to differentiate tired and sleepy. If nothing else it saves me the trouble of having to explain every time since if I only use sleepy if I am sleepy and never any synonyms. I use tired when expressing being emotionally worn down and exhausted for physical (but not in the sleepy sense.)
This I understand completely, I am seriously struggling with motivation. This year has been bloody awful with my depression.
So sorry for the bloody awful year - and although your pain and depression are felt in a unique way to you (since there is only one you!), I hope you know too that you're in numerous company... you're not alone and there are those of us that understand. Keep struggling, it's how you get to that point of "making progress". We'll help if we can!
Load More Replies...I am thank you. I have a great GP who monitors my depression every 2 months and my antidepressant dosage was increased due to constant suicidal thoughts. I no longer have those thoughts but getting out of bed every day is a struggle and when I do get out of bed I find it difficult to do anything. I also see a psychologist but she is booked out at the moment so currently on the waiting list for an appt to come up. Fortunately I have a great support network, if and when I use them for support. It is often easier to pretend everything is okay so I don’t burden them. I know logically I shouldn’t feel that way but depression often isn’t logical. Thanks again
Load More Replies...At least depression is something being acknowledged there... while many country in Asia didn't. We don't even know where to seek help without being viewed as weak and crazy, family and friends reaction varies from... there's no such thing as depression, it's just over thinking, stop putting unnecessary pressure on yourself, don't hide it, talk it out, it will make you better... to... stop self pitying! They don't understand sometime it just out of our control.
I hear you and I feel you. Ostracized by my whole family... and I don't even LIVE in Asia... I just happen to be ethnically Asian.... I'm apparently "crazy" and should be "locked up"... but that would just bring shame to my family. Even worse... it's not "talk it out"... it's "Get over yourself.. you're just being dramatic for attention. Behave and get a better job/better grades and you won't feel so dissatisfied anymore".
Load More Replies...This is such an important thing! I put on a pretty good farce most of the time and my friends don't usually see the real s**t that is going on. Add the fact that I'm bipolar and that they sometimes get to see the SUPER happy me... this makes it even harder for them to understand.
How is he this depressed when he has someone to talk to...? Switch lives with me I'll take depressed with friends vs. lonely any day
I think you have a flawed view of what depression is. Depression is multi faceted. It's not just having no friends, or crappy people surrounding you, or just being sad etc. it really isn't as simple as that. I have people to talk to, I go to therapy, I take medication, yet still depressed...
Load More Replies...Since I lost my pregnancy I have gained 60lbs I'm pushing 200 now its definitely a combination of the loss and the depression
I think therefor I am. if you think, then you are. if you don't, you aren't./j
Load More Replies...My old boss was just like this, even though he was supposed to have had depression when his wife died.
i have a problem with this. i have spoken to many song writers and poets, and really, the song is whatever you want it to be. for example, a choral director and composer explained to us about how he wrote the melody to a poem, and in his mind it was about his insomnia. however, the original poem was about the crucifiction of christ. in his mind, it is still about finding rest after sleepless nights. my point is; no matter what the writer had in mind, the song's sentimental value to you, is yours. it means whatever you want it to.
My boyfriend is 24 years my elder so there's that... he's definitely gonna die before me and then I'll truly be alone. I cant even legally live with him due to subsidized housing rules
I'm pretty sure the person with depression is the one that is saying it. His eyes are big and dark and the speech bubble is pointing at him.
Load More Replies...My most common nightmare is watching the few family I have and or my boyfriend who is the only non family I know walking away and not looking back
I know everyone hates me. Today, my mom got mad at me, my dad yelled at me and my sister slammed her door in my face. My friend told me that I'm f*cked up, and need to stop talking to her, and I haven't talked to my girlfriend in a week.
I've been their. Instead of a cliff, it's a bottle, but it never seems to leave.
Well now I'm crying. This was a very accurate post on how everyday life is for me. Sending my love to all that suffer every day. We all need a little love
I relate to some of these, dang. I really hope things get better for you author. It's never easy, but I hope that you will push through
These hit me right in my heart. Thank you for your art, it is helping more people than you probably recognize.
You are not your mental illness... That's the most important thing I've learned during my therapy. To not identify myself with all the thoughts my inner troll slips to me. And clearly you're not your thoughts either, you're putting an effort, you're still fighting! For what it's worth, I'm proud of you for doing that! :) And I want you to stop for a second and think it through. To really see that you're doing everything you can. It may seem too little or not enough, but it doesn't matter. What really matters is that you keep on fighting the good fight, even if sometimes it takes a form of sth seemingly insignificant, like brushing your teeth. You ARE more than your thoughts and you ARE fighting! Appreciate yourself for that! Be proud! You DO have something to be proud of! <3 Also, I really like your style :) The piece in the reddish fog is stunning!
My teenage daughter is struggling to get over depression and axiety. It is a torment for a parent not to ne able to help. Thank you for these, they help me understand what she us dealing with. Hugs to those who suffer and their families. Hope you get better!
I'm really happy I could help you understand. Lots of courage to you both.
Load More Replies...As someone who has struggled with both anxiety and depression since I was 8 or 9, I can relate to much. Those are beautiful.
If the first meds don't help go back and tell them that. It takes time to get the match between your body and the meds right.
I've tried many meds in the last 3 years. I'm still hoping to find an effective one. But we're get closer.
Load More Replies...Well now I'm crying. This was a very accurate post on how everyday life is for me. Sending my love to all that suffer every day. We all need a little love
I relate to some of these, dang. I really hope things get better for you author. It's never easy, but I hope that you will push through
These hit me right in my heart. Thank you for your art, it is helping more people than you probably recognize.
You are not your mental illness... That's the most important thing I've learned during my therapy. To not identify myself with all the thoughts my inner troll slips to me. And clearly you're not your thoughts either, you're putting an effort, you're still fighting! For what it's worth, I'm proud of you for doing that! :) And I want you to stop for a second and think it through. To really see that you're doing everything you can. It may seem too little or not enough, but it doesn't matter. What really matters is that you keep on fighting the good fight, even if sometimes it takes a form of sth seemingly insignificant, like brushing your teeth. You ARE more than your thoughts and you ARE fighting! Appreciate yourself for that! Be proud! You DO have something to be proud of! <3 Also, I really like your style :) The piece in the reddish fog is stunning!
My teenage daughter is struggling to get over depression and axiety. It is a torment for a parent not to ne able to help. Thank you for these, they help me understand what she us dealing with. Hugs to those who suffer and their families. Hope you get better!
I'm really happy I could help you understand. Lots of courage to you both.
Load More Replies...As someone who has struggled with both anxiety and depression since I was 8 or 9, I can relate to much. Those are beautiful.
If the first meds don't help go back and tell them that. It takes time to get the match between your body and the meds right.
I've tried many meds in the last 3 years. I'm still hoping to find an effective one. But we're get closer.
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