I have a high functioning type of severe depression, meaning that I still keep up with the tasks expected from me to appear outwardly normal. It's an endless effort to put on the facade, but I've become very good at it.

I still believe telling others puts a burden on them, though all my friends and psychiatrists have said the contrary. When people ask me "how do you feel?" and actually want a genuine answer, I struggle to find the words. And thus, the drawings became a communication tool to show the turmoil below the surface.

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Shadows Of My Mind Closing In

Shadows Of My Mind Closing In

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Kikka io
Community Member
2 years ago

per me è sempre stata un grande buco nero che mi stava dietro. a volte più vicino, a volte più lontano, per un periodo credevo anche di averlo seminato, ma non si può cancellare una parte della propria vita e negli ultimi anni è di nuovo qui, più vicino che mai. for me it was always a big black hole that was behind me. sometimes closer, sometimes farther away, for a time I also thought I had sown it, but you can not erase a part of your life and in the last few years it's here again, closer than ever.

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#2

Stay Away In Case I Hurt You..

Stay Away In Case I Hurt You..

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athornedrose
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2 years ago

upvote more

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#3

Good Things Are There... I Can't Feel Any Of Them

Good Things Are There... I Can't Feel Any Of Them

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Kikka io
Community Member
2 years ago

sai che in fondo sei una donna fortunata, che hai amici, una relazione, una casa, un lavoro, tanti hobby, animali che ti amano, insomma tutto quello che volevi, ma è come se fosse tutto dall'altra parte di un vetro, irraggiungibile, ed inutile. You know that after all you are a lucky woman, you have friends, a relationship, a home, a job, lots of hobbies, animals that love you, in short, everything you wanted, but it's like everything else on the other side of a glass, unattainable, and useless.

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So Empty

So Empty

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Anna M. Raimondi
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2 years ago

amazing how well she pictures these feelings...and so sad...people who do not identify don't want to see these....

#5

So Far From Everyone

So Far From Everyone

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Madison Sadler
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5 months ago

Thats often how i feel...

#6

I Have The Key To The Quick Exit... Do I Use It?

I Have The Key To The Quick Exit... Do I Use It?

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Anna M. Raimondi
Community Member
2 years ago

painful so painful

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#7

Burning In Fire... But Don't Come Near

Burning In Fire... But Don't Come Near

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#8

Force A Smile

Force A Smile

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Mark Howell
Community Member
2 years ago

I too was a clown to the world. But alone at home I cried inside and out. :(

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#9

Tug 'O' War... Pulls From Either Side Hurt Just As Much

Tug 'O' War... Pulls From Either Side Hurt Just As Much

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Magpie
Community Member
2 years ago

That tiny fraying paining thread of hope. Mostly hope I didn't believe in , but my most trusted dr and counselor did.

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Tipping Balance

Tipping Balance

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#11

Reaching Out... So Painful

Reaching Out... So Painful

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Johanna Shin
Community Member
2 years ago

I think that this drawing explains it perfectly

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#12

Falling

Falling

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#13

True Reflections

True Reflections

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#14

I Spread Gloom

I Spread Gloom

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#15

Shadow Has Taken Over My Heart

Shadow Has Taken Over My Heart

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Jeff Blackmar
Community Member
2 years ago

this is my ex. and part of the reason she left...

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Creeping Up

Creeping Up

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Anna M. Raimondi
Community Member
2 years ago

the style of this drawing is depression it self...is this person OK? there is help available I am 71 and have dealt with this all my life there is hope...never give up on yourself...

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#17

Struggling On The Tightrope

Struggling On The Tightrope

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Ash E
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2 years ago

Yes! So much yes. I am BiPolar and EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY is this exactly.

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#18

The Weapon Can Kill Us Both

The Weapon Can Kill Us Both

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Laugh Fan
Community Member
2 years ago

Venlafaxine. Oh yes.

Ash E
Community Member
2 years ago

SO so eloquently depicted here. The thing that's supposed to prevent these feeling can just as easily kill us if we decide to go that route.

Kaden Walker
Community Member
2 years ago

what is bad about venlafaxine?

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#19

Trapped By My Own Shadow

Trapped By My Own Shadow

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Christina Manderfeld
Community Member
2 years ago

Yes. Thank you.

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Shower Of Darkness

Shower Of Darkness

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#21

Can't Catch All The Fragments

Can't Catch All The Fragments

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#22

I Have To Go Where The Shadow Pulls Me

I Have To Go Where The Shadow Pulls Me

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#23

Stranglehold

Stranglehold

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#24

Weight Of The Shadow

Weight Of The Shadow

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Magpie
Community Member
2 years ago

This. Carrying so much heavy weight. So hard to do anything.

#25

Hanging On

Hanging On

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#26

I Want Rid Of This Tangled Mess

I Want Rid Of This Tangled Mess

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Anna M. Raimondi
Community Member
2 years ago

I don't think it is the heart I think it is the mind...

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#27

Which Way To Go?

Which Way To Go?

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#28

Feeble Fighting

Feeble Fighting

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Mother Mary Helen
Community Member
2 years ago

These are outstanding. I can totally relate as a fellow high functioning major depressive. Thank you, CHuZ.

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#29

Melting Into The Shadow, Spreading Darkness

Melting Into The Shadow, Spreading Darkness

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#30

Heart Has Burst Away

Heart Has Burst Away

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Ngoc Song
Community Member
2 years ago

I could relate to most of it but I’m always told that it’s delusional and the psychiatrist had it all wrong

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