I have a high functioning type of severe depression, meaning that I still keep up with the tasks expected from me to appear outwardly normal. It's an endless effort to put on the facade, but I've become very good at it.


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I still believe telling others puts a burden on them, though all my friends and psychiatrists have said the contrary. When people ask me "how do you feel?" and actually want a genuine answer, I struggle to find the words. And thus, the drawings became a communication tool to show the turmoil below the surface.

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#1 Shadows Of My Mind Closing In

Shadows Of My Mind Closing In

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Kikka io 3 months ago

per me è sempre stata un grande buco nero che mi stava dietro. a volte più vicino, a volte più lontano, per un periodo credevo anche di averlo seminato, ma non si può cancellare una parte della propria vita e negli ultimi anni è di nuovo qui, più vicino che mai. for me it was always a big black hole that was behind me. sometimes closer, sometimes farther away, for a time I also thought I had sown it, but you can not erase a part of your life and in the last few years it's here again, closer than ever.

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#2 Stay Away In Case I Hurt You..

Stay Away In Case I Hurt You..

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athornedrose 3 months ago

upvote more

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#3 Good Things Are There... I Can't Feel Any Of Them

Good Things Are There... I Can't Feel Any Of Them

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Kikka io 3 months ago

sai che in fondo sei una donna fortunata, che hai amici, una relazione, una casa, un lavoro, tanti hobby, animali che ti amano, insomma tutto quello che volevi, ma è come se fosse tutto dall'altra parte di un vetro, irraggiungibile, ed inutile. You know that after all you are a lucky woman, you have friends, a relationship, a home, a job, lots of hobbies, animals that love you, in short, everything you wanted, but it's like everything else on the other side of a glass, unattainable, and useless.

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#4 So Empty

So Empty

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Anna M. Raimondi 3 months ago

amazing how well she pictures these feelings...and so sad...people who do not identify don't want to see these....

#5 So Far From Everyone

So Far From Everyone

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casey 3 months ago

I'm reminded of a Cure song that goes "the further I get from the things that I care about, the less I care about how much further away I get..." It sums up my depression.

#6 I Have The Key To The Quick Exit... Do I Use It?

I Have The Key To The Quick Exit... Do I Use It?

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Anna M. Raimondi 3 months ago

painful so painful

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#7 Burning In Fire... But Don't Come Near

Burning In Fire... But Don't Come Near

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#8 Force A Smile

Force A Smile

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Mark Howell 3 months ago

I too was a clown to the world. But alone at home I cried inside and out. :(

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#9 Tug 'O' War... Pulls From Either Side Hurt Just As Much

Tug 'O' War... Pulls From Either Side Hurt Just As Much

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Magpie 3 months ago

That tiny fraying paining thread of hope. Mostly hope I didn't believe in , but my most trusted dr and counselor did.

#10 Tipping Balance

Tipping Balance

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Hope Floats 2 months ago

This is how my life feels most if the time.. One day you feel you won't give in to the voices that tell you how useless you are and when tomorrow rolls around, you're sitting down writing 'those' letters once again.... Some people want riches... I just want to feel 'normal'...

#11 Reaching Out... So Painful

Reaching Out... So Painful

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David Wise 2 months ago

Oh my God can I relate to this.

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#12 Falling

Falling

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#13 True Reflections

True Reflections

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#14 I Spread Gloom

I Spread Gloom

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Hope Floats 2 months ago

This sums up why I don't have friends.. Never been a good actor either...

#15 Shadow Has Taken Over My Heart

Shadow Has Taken Over My Heart

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Jeff Blackmar 3 months ago

this is my ex. and part of the reason she left...

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#16 Creeping Up

Creeping Up

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Anna M. Raimondi 3 months ago

the style of this drawing is depression it self...is this person OK? there is help available I am 71 and have dealt with this all my life there is hope...never give up on yourself...

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#17 Struggling On The Tightrope

Struggling On The Tightrope

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Amber Cook 3 months ago

i have bpd so i feel u :( its so sad that we're strangers and are connecting on THIS topic

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#18 The Weapon Can Kill Us Both

The Weapon Can Kill Us Both

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Laugh Fan 3 months ago

Venlafaxine. Oh yes.

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#19 Trapped By My Own Shadow

Trapped By My Own Shadow

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Christina Manderfeld 2 months ago

Yes. Thank you.

#20 Shower Of Darkness

Shower Of Darkness

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#21 Can't Catch All The Fragments

Can't Catch All The Fragments

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Roald Andresen 3 months ago

If I break apart, will I then stop feeling?

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#22 I Have To Go Where The Shadow Pulls Me

I Have To Go Where The Shadow Pulls Me

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Roald Andresen 3 months ago

To others it seems to be a choice, but it isn't.

#23 Stranglehold

Stranglehold

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#24 Weight Of The Shadow

Weight Of The Shadow

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Magpie 3 months ago

This. Carrying so much heavy weight. So hard to do anything.

#25 Hanging On

Hanging On

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#26 I Want Rid Of This Tangled Mess

I Want Rid Of This Tangled Mess

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Anna M. Raimondi 3 months ago

I don't think it is the heart I think it is the mind...

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#27 Which Way To Go?

Which Way To Go?

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#28 Feeble Fighting

Feeble Fighting

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Mother Mary Helen 3 months ago

These are outstanding. I can totally relate as a fellow high functioning major depressive. Thank you, CHuZ.

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#29 Melting Into The Shadow, Spreading Darkness

Melting Into The Shadow, Spreading Darkness

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#30 Heart Has Burst Away

Heart Has Burst Away

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Ngoc Song 3 months ago

I could relate to most of it but I’m always told that it’s delusional and the psychiatrist had it all wrong