As you probably know, scientists distinguish five main stages of any person's perception of the inevitable: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and, finally, the last stage - acceptance. When a person has already completely resigned themselves to the inevitability of something that was so hard to fit in one's mind, with the existence of a sad truth, a new reality is thus formed. And no matter how difficult it is to admit that one's friend or relative is terminally ill, that we will never see the people closest to us again, that some of us are doomed to loneliness until the very end of our lives, sooner or later comes the realization of any sad fact. As painful as this realization may be.
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My dad passed away 6 weeks ago and I will NEVER see, hear, chat or get to hug him ever again & that forever is a long time.
The worst part was the occasional out-of-the-blue feeling of "I should go see my dad. I haven't seen him in a while." and then realizing that I simply can't. It's no longer an option.
I know the feeling, and I'm sorry. For years I tried to call my mom. Only to realize half way to the phone that she's gone, and can't answer. Or look to see if I've got an email from her. It will take time..It will never go away, but it will soften. I'm sorry, M. I'd take away your pain, but it reminds you how much you love him.
Load More Replies...My mom died 8 years ago, and I still have urges to call her up. Like me, she was a big reader, and we loved to talk about what we were reading. I'll read something wonderful and think, "I can't wait to tell Jane!" Which is immediately followed by the realization that I'll never talk to her again.
This was also a very hard realization for me. For years I would come across something or see or hear something and think, "dad will love this" or "dad will not believe this," only to remember that he had died.
It's been 18 months and I still look across to 'his' chair he always sat in to tell him something. With me it's some weird little fact or a daft joke I know he would have loved to hear about and I think "I have to tell dad that one" and then I remember I can't.
Load More Replies...I’ve come to realize that I’ll never stop missing my grandparents. I no longer cry because they’re gone, but I know I’ll never stop loving them and missing them. They live in my heart.
My dad passed away unexpectedly 10 months ago. Went through some very cathartic moments in dealing with grief. I've accepted that he's gone. But the regrets of unfulfilled promises and not being able to say a final goodbye before he died still weigh heavily. And now I have an anxiety about my mom living far away from her kids and I don't want to go through these regrets a second time.
My brother has been gone for just over 4 years. We spent 2-3 days a week together, running a sports club and teaching another (seasonal) sport. Even now when something happens that concerns either sport, he's the first person I want to share things with. It hurts to realize I'll never be able to share with him again.
Sometimes I want to call my mom and tell her hey Look what your granddaughter did. Then I remember she's gone.
I'm so sorry for your loss, Scott. My Mum has been gone for 9 years, and her first great-grandchild is now 9 months old, and we all think how much Mum would have adored her (we wouldn't have had much a of a look-in, if she was around, though!).
Load More Replies...A few weeks ago I dreamt that I was wanting to call my dad, but I couldn’t remember his phone number and in the dream I realized I hadn’t talked to him in a while ! I started trying to figure out how to get in touch with him. Like who I should call to get his number. I was getting stressed in the dream but I woke up and the realization hit me that he died in 2008:( I cried for hours maybe the most I’ve cried since he died . We were very close !
I'm so sorry for your loss. Both of my parents are gone now (1977 and 2013), so I feel your pain. Dreams are weird, aren't they? Your sub-conscious knew that you wouldn't be able to contact him, and so that's why you "lost his number".
Load More Replies...My mum died last October. This weekend I had to go to hospital with chest pain and breathing problems. Ended up having to have an Angio procedure done. Kept wanting to phone her. Couldn’t. She’s not there anymore
I'm so sorry for your loss, Ellie. I've lost both my parents. I hope that your health improves soon.
Load More Replies...I lost my mum in 2009... she was 62. I am now 54... I still miss her...
I will never get back the time I have lost to depression.
Edit: I am amazed by the huge response, and appreciate your comments and the awards. Thankfully, life is mostly better for me. We can and do recover. I wish those of you in the middle of it you peace and love. Reach out for help, you are worth it.
I am 40, I cannot remember the last time I was genuinely happy. I have spent so much time in bed, hiding from the world.
Nathaniel, I spent two years in a deep depression and finally decided to kill myself. Fortunately, my roommates found me unconscious in the bathtub and I was taken by an ambulance to have my stomach pumped (now accomplished by drinking charcoal), and then spent two weeks in a locked psychiatric ward. It was both one of the worst and one of the best things in my life: worst because locked psychiatric ward, best because I got a diagnosis and was put on medication that changed my life. You may be suffering depression without even realizing it; depression doesn’t always mean intense suffering. In fact, low-grade depression can rob you of joy without you ever realizing that it’s there. Please consider discussing your issues with your physician and seeking medical help—many issues are because your brain is unable to create the neurotransmitters necessary to keep you feeling you’re leading a fulfilling life. Mental health is just as important as physical health but is often overlooked.
Load More Replies...Not to mention the time lost to poor decisions made because of depression. I really wish I could get that time back.
Same. But I've come to terms with it. It destroyed most of my adolescence and twenties, when the world should be a fun, exciting adventure. But I've concluded that being a grown up is vastly overrated, so just because I didn't get to do stuff when I was younger, doesn't mean I can't now. And it means my life is a damn sight more interesting than most my age.
Hi Mark, Doing things you didn't when you were younger is great. Be yourself, you're lovely just the way you are.
Load More Replies...Spent 10 years in the pit. Roughly 15-25. Those are formative years and I missed out on a lot of coming of age experiences that I'll never get back. It's a hard pill to swallow for sure. No good to dwell any more tho. Onward and upward.
been battling depression as well (for decades). can't get that time back but i'm better now than i was.
I'm saying this as someone who cares about all of you who are suffering from depression and anxiety. My 31-year-old son suffers from extreme social anxiety and, as a result, depression. He's been on an SSRI for quite a while with little change. I've been reading about how ketamine is being used for intractable depression and anxiety, and I'm about to suggest it to him. I wonder if it could help people commenting here, or if anyone has tried it. And love to all of you.
I say seriously look into it. I think they are also playing around with low doses of LSD, as well. Your son has too many years left in his life to be suffering through it all. Also, maybe make sure to get some help for yourself - watching him suffering is probably not doing your mental health any good. And love to you both, as well.
Load More Replies...I've been depressed most of my life. I recently discovered that one potential side-effect is memory loss. I was married for 13 years and remember maybe a few days here and there. I don't remember most of my first 40 years of life. Random events, yes, few are sharp.
Bingo! Thank you Randolph. Lately I've been thinking a lot about the growing up years, and actually remember very little detail. Mostly I still recall the traumatic bits, and even into young adulthood. I didn't realize it could be because of the depression. I was started on Meds about 40 years ago, and not much has changed in day to day life. I share your experience. You are not alone.
Load More Replies...I've lost more than I care to remember due to depression, some of my friends, years of college education. It took me way too much time to even recognize that I had severe depression and than some more time to go and seek help. I did bounce back eventually, finished college, got a job, partner and a great kid. But I'm always left wondering what if... What if I reacted sooner, what if I didn't react at all. I'm in a good place now, but that feeling still haunts me to this day.
A friendship you thought would last forever can end in an instant
I found out my so called best friend was stealing money from me and like had hundreds of pictures of underage girls on his computer. I noped out were done in a heartbeat.
Thats so horrible! An ex-friend of mine also had child p/rn/graphy on his computer, as well as supporting n/zi-like ideals
Load More Replies...I remember when my childhood best friend broke my heart when we were 18. We grew up in the 90s when it still kind of wasn’t really okay to be gay, where we live. He came out as gay to his mom and stepdad and wanted me to be there to give him support, so I did. I went on every family trip with them. I went to Pride marches and events with him. I went on his first date (secretly, at his request) and sat at another table nearby and pretended I was a stranger, because he was afraid to go alone. I would have taken a bullet for him. Then, when I was 18, I started dating someone who was Chinese. Suddenly, my best friend of 10+ years turns out to be incredibly racist and says, “I can’t BELIEVE you’re dating a (insert racial slur here)!” He stopped talking to me after that. I tried to get back in touch with him, but the last time I talked to him on the phone a year or so later, he said “Crystal WHO???” like he didn’t know who I was. I’m 40 now and it STILL HURTS. Andy, if you’re out there… why?
I'm so sorry you went thru that Lakota. I married a Chinese woman and had a baby. The looks and snears I used to get from Chinese people in San Fran Chinatown were hurtful and spiteful. I was beneath them, I wasn't good enough for them, and my ex-wife 2 kids who I sponsored to come over here, treated me the same. I was there to serve them. Sorry Lakota kinda got off the wrong track. But I do feel your pain.
Load More Replies...My "best friend" started his own company and became quite successful, made kits of money. It changed him into a nightmare of a human being and constantly brags about his success. But mostly by showing off the expensive things he now possesses, like cars, his home, and luxury toys. He used to be a very humble person that we all loved. Now he's just a rich, selfish jerk.
The man who was my best friend for several decades stopped having anything to do with me and I have no idea why. We no longer live in the same city but used to stay in touch, and then at some point he must have decided I just wasn’t worth the effort. We’d been friends since the 1980s.
Hurts to learn you really meant very little , even though you loved them
Load More Replies...Yep. Been there, done that. Best friend called me ugly, a b***h and that I should kill myself in front of the whole class after saying that the comments made by the boys in our class are not only racist, but sexist and ableist.
I lost one good friend to this Q-Anon nonsense. We'd been friends for decades, saw each other through thick and thin, were there for each other when we each had kids, even watched a World Series-winning game together and celebrated long into the night, it was magical. She was gorgeous inside and out, smart, funny, and an awesome mother and wife. Had it all. Now, she's changed her social media profile pic to the Q logo and firmly believes Bill Gates is tracking us and Tom Hanks drinks babies blood, just fell for all of it. I tried talking to her, but she laughed at me. It broke my heart the day I realized she was lost to me.
Me too, Tiny. Not so much Q-Anon, but general conspiracy theories about new world order, George Soros, 5G, and particularly covid vaccination with all the nanoparticle and implantable microchip c**p. The change was so dramatic I was actually worrying about whether he was having a psychotic breakdown, as all this seemed to come out of nowhere. He got so angry and verbally aggressive if I tried to talk to him about it, or tried to get him to explain why he believed it, or tell me what was his proof. It was awful realising he was too far drawn in to speak rationally about it, and the final straw was him accusing me of being part of the whole covid conspiracy-I work in healthcare, this has been a horrible time for everyone, and being accused of killing patients for money, and putting them through treatment for a disease that doesn't exist was too much.
Load More Replies...I told my friend of 30 yrs I had alcohol problems. She immediately ghosted , blocked me. That sting was deep
I know that struggling with alcohol can be hard, but the sad truth is that it does not only hit the alcoholic, but can pull entire families down and have an influence of the lives many generations down the line. Unfortunately the main battle must be fought by the alcoholic alone as any bystanders only have very little influence on what is going to happen. In some cases the familiy and friends may actually end up making the problem worse, by supporting the alcoholic to such an extend that things will not hit rock bottom, so the problem can continue. Furthermore an alcoholic will often be in denial, and the alcohol will scew their perception of what is going on (the tape recorder is simply turned off a times) whereas a sober person around them sees it all, and feel the full consequences. It may sound a bit harsh, but the advice that most proffesionals gives to relatives, is to avoid being dragged down with the alcoholic. Abusers can be really manipulative and hard to be hard to be around
Load More Replies...I lost mine because rather I moved school, or she did. It just isn’t the same.
The people that cause the most harm to the world will go unpunished, live happy and fulfilled lives, and die getting to do pretty much anything they ever wanted simply because they were either born into wealth or managed to acquire tons of if through nefarious means.
Or non-nefarious such as becoming an actor, model, musician and having the astonishingly good fortune of becoming rich and famous.Or rich and famous for nothing. Looking at you KUWTK. Although, they were already wealthy.
No one knew who Kim was before the sex tape and no one cared who their father was before he defended OJ Simpson. What else do you need to know about these lowlifes?
Load More Replies...Whenever I read about bad things and how the responsables "get away" "very well" I remember maybe human justice or karma did not caught them but I believe in God and that all our wrongdoing that are not excusable get paid later or sooner. It would take time but I would wait as much as it takes.
To state that someone is happy and fulfilled because they are rich is just not true. There is plenty miserable people with lots and lots of money. Those things don't come hand in hand.
I've seen both sides of the wallet. Rich beyond any normal human's needs and lining up at the food bank worrying about how to pay next month's rent (with years between). I had some perfectly wonderful days when we were poor, but, I gotta say, being loaded was pretty darn sweet while it lasted (about five years). So much less to worry about (bills, rent, groceries, a phone for my autistic son, etc.) which just makes everything so much easier to handle.
Load More Replies...Money don’t buy happiness folks . Many of the rich are f*****g miserable . Spouses cheating. Business partners doing a low key take over. Can’t trust no one. Yeah . That life they can have it. Don’t flaunt your s**t when your own s**t is not in order. Cause we don’t f*****g care.
Oh don’t think they will not suffer. Cause they will . Sadly we will be made to suffer until then . But their karma is coming. Don’t lose sight of that .
But and I know several people don’t believe in God, but he will even everything out when you die. The ones who are evil in this life already have their rewards and will have all of eternity to experience their punishments. I know from the human standpoint that it’s not entirely fair as people in general would love to see them get punishment now, but we can’t always have what we want right now.
Just because you think someone is "the one", doesn't mean they think you are.
I have always believed that truth doesn't hurt, but lies do.
Load More Replies...Yep. Went through that with my ex. But in the process, I realized some people come into your life not to stay but to serve as a lesson. I learned what I want in a partner and what my boundaries are. I was a stronger, more mature person when I met the man who would eventually become my husband. As Ariana Grande says, thank you, next.
And you end up feeling that you were so stupid and wasted so much time by making them the centre of everything. Wasting 2 years in a relationship that wasn't even worth 3 months and spending 2 more years forgetting that person while making bad decisions. And by the time you grow up, you have lost so much valuable time that you could have spent on yourself or someone who deserved it. And you are cold and distant and it needs the light of thousand suns to warm you up and a hundred hits from Thor's hammer to breakdown your walls.
Unrequited love is not just heartbreaking, but heart-rending. To feel those things about someone and realize that they don't feel them about you...that essentially, you aren't good enough and never will be...
Few years ago I could never envisage life without him. We were in our own little bubble for years, had kids. Now we're split and I feel like I don't know him.
I find it more comforting than depressing but some people will see it as the opposite. I'm entirely fine with being in no relationship. It's been almost a decade since the last one and I just don't see it as the priority that others do. I'm entirely fine with just having friends and colleagues. Hell I'm happy. I just wanna toss it out there because some people might find my reasoning to be helpful in deciding their life priorities.
100%!!! I don't have to share the remote, or the blankets. I can eat mixed nuts for dinner. It would take one HELL of a man to get me to give this up now!
Load More Replies...Me too. I was in relationships for most of my life..been single for 5 years and I am comfortable and happy. I don't see a need.
I want to learn to enjoy my own company before I get into another romantic relationship.
That sounds like an excellent idea and laudable plan!
Load More Replies...Roger that. 'Aromantic' is a new term to me, but it describes the last decade. Turns out, I don't actually fall in love - it's always just been obsession and hormones and expectations. Once I realized I don't develop emotional intimacy it was like a huge weight was off my shoulders. Turns out I'm on the Autism spectrum just enough to have a higher IQ than most people but a lower EQ. All that time and money wasted on dating and marriage. Sigh.
Wait.... Can you point me to some information that led you to understand that this was you? Because this sounds like me, and I've only somewhat recently come to realize that I don't think I've ever been "in love", just in limerance. I'm still struggling to understand the difference between what "being in love" feels like vs what you describe (obsession+hormones+expectations) because I genuinely don't think I've ever experienced the former. I never thought about it being aromantic!
Load More Replies...This ideology that we need to be in relationships and procreate is ridiculous. It's pushed by the media and a lot of people eat it up. Be you and be the you that you are. Don't let anyone dictate your life.
No Relationship is good. Just me and my daughter well most of the time. she 14 and starting high school so there's that.
There is nothing wrong with that. You have the freeedom to do whatever you please whenever you please. If you're happy, you're happy.
I realized in therapy yesterday I'm only keeping myself alive out of a sense of obligation to others. That wasn't a fun realization.
I once talked myself out of a bad time by realising I do not want to die before my parents, unfortunately, the dark thoughts come along and, in the worst instances, fantasised about my parents dying just so I could die.
I hope you're doing better. I totally understand where you and the OP are coming from. eight years ago, the thought of leaving my sweet cat alone and confused was the only thing that stopped me. I'm so much happier now. It's not perfect at all. And I've survived the loss of that dear cat. But she 100% saved my life. And I'll always be grateful. Sending peace to you both.
Load More Replies...However that can sometimes be better than the alternative. There is an amazing Ted-talk about how a dog saved a man's life when he saved the dog by adobting it. It gave him just a little to live for, and whenever he thought about "opting out", he thought about how that would leave his beloved dog with noone to care for it. So he kept on with the struggle of getting better, and slowly improved his life, despite it being hard. Sometimes loving an animal is just so much easier than interacting with people who tend to be more complicated, and do not listen nearly as well, and many people end up caring more about their pets than they care about themselves. That can e.g. be seen with homeless people that would rather starve themselves, than let their dogs go hungry.
This post and comments, it hurts my heart. I don't know if anything I write will help and I you don't know me, but... you matter. I would like to see you live for you, not out of any obligation to anyone. I know it is not that simple that a stranger saying these things will magically change everything, but hopefully it will give you a little spark of hope.
Depression is like those colorblindness tests with the dots that from a number. If you're color blind, you simply cannot see the number. It might as well be just some random dots. It's the same with depression: you can't see a normal future. It's all just nothingness. But the fact that there actually is something, a future, is what gave me hope. A trust in that it will get better. Although I couldn't possibly see it.
Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor.
Load More Replies...I'm only here because of my kids. If I didn't know firsthand how painful it is to lose someone to suicide, I'd be gone. Unfortunately, I do know & I just can't put them through that.
No. It's not obligation. It's the realization that you couldn't hurt the people you love that way. And if you could, then you don't really love them, do you?
Sorry but “you really don’t love them” is such a crappy thing to say. A friend of mine committed suicide. I don’t doubt that he loved his family and friends. I wish he had known exactly how loved HE was. Sometimes the pain is overwhelming and its hard to see that you are more than a burden to other people.
Load More Replies...There have been lots of times I felt my life was going no where and there was no point to going on. But my parents would be devastated if they lost me; my dad especially
I get it. I don't actually want to be alive but my children need a mum, and it would destroy my mum to loose me so I'm surviving purely for them
Keep talking to someone about it. I was helped by a therapist I saw for more than 20 years! Just talking to her enabled me to make it through a lot of stuff. What I discovered about myself wasn't all wonderful. But, knowing it helps me to make better decisions in life. It has kept me alive.
No one is coming to help
This is a huge fear. People just don't want to get involved.
especially if you don't ASK for help. People are not magic, all knowing mind readers. Please, please.... if you are struggling, feeling down or just don't know how to do something... ASK. Ask a friend, a neighbor or your local librarian. You might be surprised how much help is available if you ask for it.
I always thought this too .. until my supposed bff told me I was an obligation she felt guilty about … I did NOT ask her for a lot of help .. when she had Covid I walked her dog daily , I have watched her kids so she can go away with her husband , I have helped in many many ways and I assumed that’s how life worked … I asked for assistance a few times over the years with things I struggle with and found out I was an obligation and she prefers to not … she was my last friend … I’ll never ask anyone for help again .. not that I have anyone left
Load More Replies...Any teens on this site don't need to feel this way. I have a support group that any of you can use. It's called the Dark Humor Gang. We may not be able to physically help, but we can provide you with a safe space to talk about all that bothers you. Email icanhazpanda@gmail.com.
I feel bad for asking, but this is actually a real thing, right? Not a scam or something? (Sorry if I’m offending you. I’m thinking about trying to contact that email, but I want to make sure first.)
Load More Replies...I'm living alone for the 1st time in over 30 years, & this has been HUGE for me. But I'm stronger than I ever realized & a lot more resourceful as well.
hi Adrienne. Im living alone too and I'm struggling. pls help. anyone 😔
Load More Replies...Same experience when my husband died. My mom was widowed at age 26, and I thought she might be of some help to me. My husband was 33 when he died, my dad was 29. She basically dropped me off at my lonely apartment after the funeral, and told me to get the eff over it.
Load More Replies...Tell me about it. A friend's car broke down at a junction on a hill. Myself and the car behind were the only people to get out to help. We were literally and very obviously pushing the car to the side of the road, and not one of the 20 or so cars behind us got out to help. It would have gone a lot quicker if they had, as it was a heavy car and steep hill. Absolute cunch of bunts!
My mother and my aunt went through something similar. The car broke down and most people who drove by preferred to shout at them to get out of the way instead of trying to help. Only one guy helped them. My aunt is pretty snobby and out of touch with reality so she was rather shaken up after that. People can be so damn awful sometimes.
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The majority of the human race are narrow, deluded, arbitrary believers in fantasies, willfully ignorant about everything not immediately useful to them, violent, destructive, warlike, tribal as hell, and willing - under the right motivation or excuse - to commit any imaginable atrocity or horror on others... even their own neighbors. Humans are brutal apes with a thin veneer of civilization barely holding them back from constant genocide and cruelty.
I didn't want to believe this, and I have fought this conclusion for all of my 62 years. But I am rational, it cannot be denied. It must be accepted.
Whatever glory humans achieve, they can never truly be trusted. I cannot dismiss this any longer.
The worse part: you have to live within the algorithms set by their crazy.
While I agree with this one, I'm heartened by the fact that it's not ALL of humanity...that there are those of us who are endlessly curious, wildly creative, amazingly empathetic, given to kindness and generosity, and such. It helps a LOT.
Yes we as humans are not as rational as many of us like to think we are. The reason for this is that for long periods of our life, being rational was not as important as being alive and propergating, and hence primitive insticts often hack our minds and make us do stupid things. E.g. the girl that gets pregnant with the bad boy, who has no record of being faithful, because her mind was hacked by hormones and instincs that meant that she totally ignored all the red flags. We are very good at selfdecivance, so we can feel good about it when we do things for our own benefit that harms others. That is e.g. how billionaires can live with the fact that the money they are earning is gathered on other people's expense. An example of such a selfdecivance is when they justify their companies not paying taxes by saying that the create jobs and give people some opurtunities and raise the prosperity of the society through the trickle down effect (conviniently ignoring that it has been debunked)
And my fantasy is the correct one, you’re going to hell for believing in your fantasy
My imaginary friend is better than your imaginary friend and I'll kill you to prove it.
Load More Replies...I understand the sentiment, I really do; but human are also caring, generous, loving and selfless. The only way for a species like ours to survive is by cooperation. Human risk or even give up their lives for strangers. They spend days saving a kitten from a storm drain. They run full speed into burning houses for other peoples children. They give up what they have for those who have nothing. That is also human. I think we’ve created a civilization that’s too big for us and that forces us to live outside of our empathy limits. A human is more often than not compassionate and well meaning, but human in a group… Human in a group works very differently than an individual. In a group we can quickly become not only petty and self centred, but very, very dangerous. A group of human can become a monster. Sometimes in a matter of seconds. But don’t judge every human individual for the selfish beast humanity so often can be, I think that’ll make you more unhappy than you have to.
This sounds like the start of a manifesto. You're right, but the "cannot dismiss this any longer" and your clear superiority complex has me worried. People are ignorant dolts, reacting to foreign stimuli with a few preprogrammed chemical reactions in the brain. That includes me and you buddy. We're all just primates with guns and warheads.
The Stanford experiment confirms the part about "willing to commit any imaginable atrocity"
I'm likely destined for an average life.
This should not be a depressing truth. It may be revelatory, but if it's depressing, you may have had an unreasonable perception of self to start.
Absolutely nothing wrong with being average, the vast majority is. And the rare, exceptional people don't seem very happy
Load More Replies...We also often have the cultural notion that average (normal) is good and correct. Everyone to themselves - if you like average then so be it
Load More Replies...As are most of us—don’t let it get in your way of investing in yourself!
Always remember that one person’s version of average is many other people’s version of amazing. I don’t mean because people strive for average, but because there are so many people who are less fortunate (in many ways, not just financially - for example people who’ve lost their health) who would give anything to have your “average” life.
Until you realize that "average" means living on a few dollars a day and working manual labor in a field or factory for 12 hours a day. If you're in a developed westernized country your concept of average is probably down right opulent to most of the world. It helps to count your blessings.
Your life isn't over, so you can create an outstanding life, if you want to.
I think I am at that part of my life where I have to accept that I simply won't do some of the things I always dreamed of doing as a kid.
That at the end of the day, the only one I can rely on is myself
This is hard and I hope that one day you find someone you can truly trust. In the meantime, congratulate yourself and take some pride in the fact that, even though its not ideal and even though you might feel like you are floundering... you can do it. Build your confidence and keep on keeping on.
Yourself is often the best one TO rely on! Even better--you KNOW you can.
There are a few people you can rely on, In my case I have one sibling in particular who is reliable to the end.
My childhood is gone, and I have no good memory from that phase of my life
You are not alone in this. Make as much of your present life as you can! Do what you love most as frequently as possible, be it walking in nature, reading, chatting with friends, etc. Childhood is generally out of our control, but independent life is up to us.
Indeed - my childhood was miserable. I was bullied and misunderstood. Only my father stuck up for me.
Load More Replies...Survivor here. Someone once told me "It's never too late to have a happy childhood." I took it to heart and acted on it. That really helped.
😔 Children and animals are so innocent, it always shreds me to hear statements like this. If I could have one superpower, it would be to go back and un-f**k people's childhoods. It's literally the foundation for the rest of their lives.
I often felt this way about my childhood too. It was hard. They was very little joy in it. The advantage of becoming an adult is that from this point YOU get to choose what the rest of it looks like. Seek help for the trauma and focus on becoming the kind of person you want to be. It's not always an easy path but I'm in my 40s now and the last 15 years of my life have been amazing. I have sought joy, created wonderful memories and surrounded myself with spectacular people. Dont let the past dictate your future. You got this!
That is sad. I had an extraordinarily violent childhood. If the gangs didn't kill you, it was the cops, or the military. I have scars on my face from being beaten with a pistol for my school bag, at age eight. My father (journalist) was arrested when I was three. I didn't see him again until I was 13. The smell of bullets and blood, and the sound of womens screams are still regular nightmares, thirty years later. But I still have many many wonderful childhood memories. Getting ice cream with my grandmother. Playing with strays and chasing monkeys. Football on the beach (soccer for Americans). Fear, tons. Sadness, definitely. But joy too. Maybe the fact that i was deadly aware of mortality made me appreciate the little things. By six, i understood when my grandmother told me that mornings weren't a promise. I'm so sorry, truly that you have no happy memories. Perhaps, now is the time to make some. Go play on the beach. Treat an old lady to an ice cream cone. Good luck to you
My only good memories from my childhood came from spending time with my grandparents, who just let me be. I was always good enough for them, everyone else had issues with me and caused me so many problems. They were the reasons I never gave into my dark thoughts. I was 29 when my last grandparent died but I felt a piece of myself go with them. The end of my childhood.
Sometimes people you care deeply about will choose to drop out of your life and all you can really do is have the grace to let them
To everyone struggling with being left behind, and to everyone struggling with having to be the one to leave- I hope the pain eases for you soon.
Yep. My best friend of several decades recently dropped me and I have no idea why.
Not knowing why must be so hurtful and frustrating, you'd think a good friend would at least have the decency to give you a reason
Load More Replies...My sister. After my mom died. Broke my heart. Breaks my heart. Every day. But I can't make her love me, or want me in her life.
It doesn't. It never will. I came to the realization MANY years ago that every relationship I've ever had or ever will have is one-sided, family included. Yes it sucks. But, as the movie says, reality bites.
I'm sorry family, but that person is going to be me. It's best to put up boundaries now before they being me down further.
It takes a very strong person to watch someone so important in your life walk out of it...hurts like a mf but you have to accept and move on
I will always fight my demons. There is no healing from it.
Scott and Alexandra, I'm sorry you both experienced something so horrible.
Load More Replies...They don't go away do they? They just... wait in the shadows until they can strike and then they do and they even act like they've been there all this time.
I've been having ton of severe behavioral+emotional issues for as long as I can remember due to my dad being over-ly controlling and me having no power+being blamed for everything bad. (Violent behavior/thoughts, a few thoughts of s/h, poor mood control+anger issues, severe and long episodes of boredom/emptiness? feeling, etc.)
I am experiencing something similar and I don't know the name for it. But I always end up telling myself it's just the way I am. Then I just get distracted for some time and then again I start feeling like this. My father loves me very much but he has been a critical parent all my life, making me feel powerless.
Load More Replies...Unfortunately this is true for many of us. My worst fear is that, no matter how hard I work on myself, to some extent, my kids will probably also have to fight my demons. I hope that at least I have shared with them enough love and resilience to reconcile that while I am not my trauma, it will always be a part of me and sometimes, despite my best efforts it leaks into my relationships.
We all have them. It's just that so many people don't talk about them.
Life isn’t fair
Unfair, unjust and cruel. There is no rhyme or reason. It is brutal and random. No ultimate design for the universe.
It's not but that isn't an excuse for anyone to make it less fair
you mean republicans, I suppose. Although you are evidently Polish so probably you live under an even more right-wing government than the americans do.
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Being alive is expensive.
Dying is expensive too. I don't need a funeral, just throw me in the trash.
Donate your body to medicine so that others may have what you no longer need.
Load More Replies...Certainly being poor is. If it doesn't cost you financially directly, it will rob you of your time, your security, your peace of mind and your dignity. Poverty is way too expensive. But it's not like you get much of a choice, do you?
Being poor and struggling is a whole other type of trauma that I don't think many people realize exists. It is hard. It takes its toll. The daily struggle to survive is traumatic.
Load More Replies...Being poor is expensive. Not just in terms of money. But time.
When I hear people say they want to live to be 100, I think about how I can't afford to live that long.
That I’ll be single for the remainder of my life.
I used to be okay being single. But it would be nice to have someone to be with. In person.
Surprises come from around the corner every day. You never know. And single isn’t so terrible. It opens the doors to possibilities.
Not even sad about it. Maybe I'll have a fling sometime but I'm not giving up my independence/compromising. I do what I want when I want-my kids are grown and I'd rather be free.
I've told my husband that if he dies I'm done with dating and would not do it when he told me he'd want me to move on. I said I would want to be alone for the remainder of my life.
I'm aware enough to know that there is something wrong with me. But I'm not aware enough to know what it is, let alone fix it.
A sick mind cannot heal itself. Sometimes we need help from someone else. I've learned so much from therapy, and I've needed it at different times in my life, for different reasons. It was always helpful, and never a waste.
I healed myself. I was a depressive of the sort that would not leave a foetal position on my bed for days. And then only to get a snack and water, and return. I realised what the cause was after a while and put myself onto a CBT schedule. Fortunately I was studying psychology so I knew the signs, and the various theories of how to deal with it. I ended up doing things like ballroom dance as a hobby.
Load More Replies...That’s why there are people who go to school and learn how to help other people get a grip. If you’d like to get a grip on your life (at least for now—it changes as we move along), then find a therapist, who will take your money and turn it into suggestions for ways to make things work a bit or a lot better for you. At least for now.
I only have a good guess just based on my own daughter's diagnoses and assessments. She's so much like me in her cognitive and problem solving skills.
You can do everything perfectly and still fail completely.
That and
People would rather leave you than own up to what they did and they’ll never even give you a second thought. Humans, turns out, are good at lying to themselves.
I heard the first part from ST:TNG "It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not weakness, that is life.”
Yes and the opposite can also be true. Some people can get away with doing a lot of things wrong, and still come out as winner. However many people tend to ignore the large role luck has played in their succees, and although the might be well meaning, not realising this can result in them giving some really bad advice, like "just work harder" or "I could do it and so can you". An interesting experiment was performed with a group of people playing Monopoly. A coin was fliped and the winner got an extra die and double the amount of money when passing start, which meant that he had more capital, and could reach the good lots before the competitors, so unsurpricingly that meant that he won the game. When interviewed afterwards about how he did it, he mentioned something about a winning strategy, and completely ignored his better starting conditions and the fact that the coin gave him a major advantage.
That second part isn’t always true, I know from experience…. Even though we are good at lying to ourselves, that’s for sure.
There is no such thing as perfect. For each of us perfection is our own definition. So it’s like Edison once said. I didn’t fail 100 times, I found 100 ways to not do something.
No matter how hard you love someone, they can fall out of love with you and there’s nothing you can do to fix it. Took me a lot of self destruction and pain to realize it. Sometimes it just doesn’t work out.
Yeah. And while love can be brought back it takes that both are willing to really work for it. You can't bring life to a dead relationship on your own.
That's why I say true love is a commitment. The emotions are fluid. You keep working at it even when you don't feel like it, and eventually, behind the down, will come another up. Of course, that only works if both partners are of the same mindset, and by all means, if you're the victim of abuse, get out of there.
Jep, many people make the mistake of thinking that things and situations are static, when infact our situation is constantly evolving, and our personalites therefore adapts and changes all through life. So even though you may have been a perfect match once you fell in love, it is far from certain that your personalities will develop in the same direction through life, so you are stille compatible after decades has passed. Furthermore I think people underestimate how much different kind of mental illnesses can wear away of a personality that you may love as it is now. Batteling depressions and alcoholism takes a lot of mental strength, not just for the person struggling with it, but also for the "support team" and they may sneak up on everybody and change their lives completely. So much so that the person they become is so unreconiseable, that you propably did not even consider it could happen when you said yes in that church.
Yes. This I experienced after 21 years of marriage. A lot of emotion. A lot of self destruction . A lot of self healing. You can survive it even though it doesn’t seem that way at first.
It’s akin to a death without someone actually dying . If that makes sense.
Load More Replies...I find that it never works out, love always fades, and that's because it's just oxytocin. In my view then, we should treat lovers the same as friends. People who are kept at a small distance and who we see occasionally.
Mother nature can be a sneaky b***h, who's main purpose is to make us multiply as efficiently as possible. She is willing to manipulate and hack our feelings in order to get it her way, and she does not nessesarily care about the fall out that comes with the process. The most productive thing we can do, is to not put all the eggs in one basket and gamble our chance of propagating on mixing genes with only one mate. However, as infants are pretty helpless, the parents must stay together long enough to raise the children to a state where they can survive on their own. We therefore fall madely in love to get things started, but then follows a periode of decreased libido, so attension is focused on not making more babies than can be fed and kept alive, and then follows a phase where interest in the partner is often lost. That is when we become bored and seek a new adventure (people start being unfaithful). The 7 year crisis is real and actually have a purpose.
Yeah this is probably true for straight people.
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My grandpa just wanted to get to know me and the man I was becoming during his last year of life. Which I was too young and too selfish to realize.
unfortunately young people do not understand this at all, which is why I explicitly tell this to my kids. "Why do we have to go see gran again?" "Because she isn't going to be around much longer and wants to see what you are growing into / becoming. Because she's a person and likes company. Because she needs to feel appreciated."
I knew one and she hated me "because I resemble my father".
Load More Replies...Many of us were. The good thing is our generation can express that wish when we get old. We can’t blame ourselves for being self-absorbed youngsters. All youngsters are.
My depression is very likely chronic. I'll be living with it for the rest of my life.
You can do yourself a favor by seeing a doctor. Antidepressants literally saved my life. I went on and off them when I was younger, but at this point, it’s not worth it to me to go off them.
Antidepressants saved my life too, and I have been thriving since starting the right ones about 5 years ago. I do always have that fear in the back of my.mind that it will come back, and that teffifies me, but hopefully I can figure it out and get help before it takes over
Load More Replies...One of the many sad things about depression is that it affects your ability to think rationally, as one side of the argumentation (the negatives) is extremely loud -totally drawning out the other side (the positive one), and spotting the way out can therefore be tricky. For that reason many depressed people think they are in a hopeless situation, when in fact some minor changes can have an enormous effect. However implementing the crutial new habbits can be a massive task, especially if you undertake the project alone when you are depressed and totally drained of energy, motivation and intiative, and basically just want to go to sleep (and partially hope to not wake up again) to get just a moments rest and away from all of it.
Here’s what I found when I finally got a good doctor and the right combination of medication: I don’t necessarily feel happier, but I can now just do the things I need to do. It used to be that getting out of bed, out of the shower, heading to work, etc., took every ounce of will I had. And sometimes I couldn’t muster the will and paid the consequences. Now, even if I’m feeling pretty sh*tty, I can still do what I need. It doesn’t make me happier, per se, but it makes daily life SO much less burdensome. It’s been an incredible change, and I will never go off these meds.
And take medication every day for the rest of my life. Depression sucks.
Just do what you can to keep living. If it means medication, find the best one. If talking helps, find a good therapist. If activity helps, be active. If you can, adjust things in your life to help you survive the bad times and give yourself a sense of purpose. I've lived with my depression for a long long time in this way and even learned how to be looking forward to my own life for a change.
It’s also hereditary. There is help out there. Please seek it. No shame in it at all .
I have dysthymia. I've been this way for forty five years. It's given me a cynical view and I am very sarcastic. I found people who love sarcasm, and find me hilarious, it actually kind of brightens my mood when I can make people laugh just by making observations. It is survivable. I spent the nineties and the oughts on Prozac, Paxil, elavil, etc. I haven't taken any antidepressants in over 20 years. I just accept myself. I'm a kind of antidote to the little Mary sunshines out there.
You're completely alone inside your own head. No one will ever be able to truly feel what you feel.
That’s not true! I have the little voice in my head to keep me company!!
I would not agree. A lot of people struggle when trying to think rationally because there is a small voice in their head, installed by e.g. their mother and mimicking her tone, that shouts really loudly whenever they try to make a decision to go in a new direction. Furthermore humans are really good at simulating other people's behavior in our heads; it gives us a major advantage when we can predict how they are likely to react to what we do. We have a center in the brain specifically for this purpose, and what is called mirror neurons, that makes us feel the feelings we detect on other people's faces/body language, voices or words. That is why just watching a video of someone screaming in a dentist's chair may be too uncomfortable for someone. We may be decieved, especially if someone tries to misguide us, e.g. by saying they are fine when their inner world is actually falling apart, but in many cases I belive that we can, at least to some extend, have an idea about how others feel
If this was true, psychology and therapy would be a total waste of time because everyone's mental states would be unique. I got a big insight in my divorce. I read testimonies of other couples getting divorced and EVERYTHING they said and complained about was the same for me. It was like I was a mere clone and had no special unique feelings. Even down to details. For example, feeling insecure about whether I was loved, how much time I had left in life, etc etc. It's all template stuff. You are not unique at all.
I don't think anyone can ever truly feel what YOU feel, even if you aren't "alone inside your own head". I can share how I feel, others may identify with me or empathize. But even so, everyone "feels" differently.
Nope! I would love to be alone in my own head. Too many voices in here with different opinions, they need to raise a hand before speaking.
I read someone's vision of the future once (think it was a dream or an NDE) where everyone had a mental-emotional link with the entire human race. Everyone had an individual mind but could also communicate with anyone instantly and feel other's emotions, both individuals and collectively, almost as if we were cells in one great collective organism. That's obviously way out there and "woo-woo", but technology could actually make that happen, if we want to pursue it. We can already control video games with our minds, in a research setting, and the technology is only going to get better at determining our thoughts, feelings, intentions. The instant world-wide communication part is already a reality.
I'm aging nonstop
I don't like when people say 'never get old'. I don't have a choice. You can't stop it. You gotta learn to appreciate it. I've learned to appreciate my age. I'm 36, and while my back hurts in the morning, I am so much more comfortable with myself than when I was younger. I continue to become happier with who I am, and care less about the little things. While sometimes it does upset me, I try to remember that as I get older, the less F**KS I will give!
I think what people ment is to never get the-old-man-mindset. Of course days will pass and eventually your body will be worn so much down, that it no longer functions, and you die of old age (if you get that far and avoid accidents and illnesses). However your mindset will play a major role in how fast you age, and how old you will feel in your final years. Too many people just give up and withers away, when exercising our body and mind can slow down the aging process enormously and give a much more fulfilling old age. Don't focus on what you cannot do, but focus on what is still possible, and continue doing what you still can do on your own in order to stay sharp.
Load More Replies...The song Stop This Train by John Mayer has been hitting me hard, especially seeing my mom and aunts/uncles getting older. Sometimes I still see them as strong and young like I used to when I was a child.
“How beautiful youth is, how nonetheless fleeting! Let anyone seeking happiness enjoy it: tomorrow brings nothing but uncertainty.”
Having just got out of hospital last night, same here
Load More Replies...One starts aging non-stop from the moment of one's first breath.I am closer to 60 than 50, but I feel somewhere between 32-36. And, I have the wisdom of my years that I didn't have when I was that young. I look older, of course. So what?
I will always have the big sad following me, I can push it down for a bit, but it will come back eventually.
I just need to remember to breathe and remember I can get past it.
I feel arrogant for feeling happy or proud of an achievement--like I don't deserve it. My snark covers the sad.
You might want to consider talking with a physician and/or a therapist. I spent a couple of decades trying to cope with blahness, which eventually morphed into depression. It turns out my brain isn’t able to make the neurotransmitters necessary for me to keep myself emotionally and mentally upright, so I take antidepressants to do the job my brain can’t. There’s no shame in this, just as there would be no shame if you were born with cerebral palsy or some other physical attribute that people *can* see.
I'll never be comfortable financially. I have failed every attempt. I really did try. I promise you, I did. But nothings worked for me. I just have to accept it.
Same here. Not being financially successful is a stressful burden. I make enough to get by, but a broken wrist, appendicitis, or a heart attack would financially sink me.
I would really consider moving to a country that provides universal health care and other safety nets. It looks like you literally have nothing to loose (except, of course, friends and family and all those things!). I live in The Netherlands and we have a pretty good health care system and other niceties. I'm a software developer and I could make a whole lot more money (literally five times as much) if I were to move to America, but I won't because I absolutely dislike the whole "one screwup and you're done" reality of living there.
Load More Replies...If you’re american, damn, who can blame you? It seems horrifically difficult to even make a living in the systems over there.
Ditto. Every time my husband and I thought we were getting ahead, something would happen to set us back even further. The car would need a new transmission. The cat suddenly got very sick. His job had cutbacks. One bill you can't pay suddenly balloons into something much bigger than it originally was. It never stops. New job starts next week for me. I'm hoping this time is it, but history is not in our favour.
It is next to impossible to move up socioeconomically in this country. The American Dream is a complete and giant lie.
The cause of wealth is NOT hard work. Musk does not work trillions of times harder than anyone else. The cause of wealth is (a) be able to speak english; (b) understand basics of finance, you can find a short course online to cover the basics (c) have an idea that is slightly different to other ideas around - but CHECK that it is unique first... (d) develop some skill that can be monetised, as long as you can tolerate doing that thing for money, (e) be born to rich parents (f) learn how to network and make buddies with rich people. If you do not have (e), you definitely need (f). If you do not have (e) or (f), you will NOT ever be rich. OTHER people are the key to wealth. In Musk's case, he had (e) and learnt to do (f). (f) is hard for him because he has aspergers, but he learnt to do (f).
PS when I say "speak english" I mean because it's the language of commerce. And if you want WEALTH, yes, you have to.
Load More Replies...As long as you have the basic needs fulfilled, food, shelter and a hobby that doesn't cost, you'll be ok.it also helps to write out what you HAVE got. XX
Don’t buy into this belief. Find a valuable skill and develop it. It may take some time, but you’ll get there.
The issue is that sometimes people can work themselves into a corner, where getting out can be next to impossible. The poverty trap can be a real thing. If you e.g. for some reason, beyond your control, have start struggling, (e.g. having been struck by lightning, and have a massive medical bill to pay) you may have had to take up a loan in order to just stay alive. The interest of said loan will drain your resources, and can kill the surplus you needed to invest in improving your lifeconditions. E.g. you could have to work an extra job in order to get enough money, and that takes away the time needed to aquire a new and valuable skill, as you suggest. The "everybody will succeed if they just put in enough effort" saying is just succesfull people's excuse to continue what they are doing without being struck by guilt. The American dream and the society it has participated in creating is a nightmare. Yes there may be examples of people succeeding against all odd, but it's a minority.
Load More Replies...Do not know why you got downvoted. But it's true. Poor in the first world (excluding the states) means a council house and social healthcare. You just have to find food. Poor in africa means dying on the pavement.
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There will be no cure for my spinal cord injury in my lifetime. It was initially very depressing to realise, but almost 3 years in I'm kind of okay with it.
They should cure other stuff like ALS first, and if it has to be SCI related - cure the nerve pain, or the bowel/bladder stuff. The not walking is very low on my list of priorities personally.
I'm aware of ongoing research, but have no faith in any of it. We'd have to either revolutionise neurology or be very lucky.
Chronic illness and Injuries can happen and they don’t pick convenient moments to dump on you. I just try to make the best of what I have
I agree. I became disabled after a work injury...at the age of 34. But you know what? In spite of the constant pain and disability, all of my time is mine. And because of that, my life is not only longer, but also more fulfilling. Sure, I have days that are bloody awful, and I can do nothing but self-care. But the good days are awesome.
Load More Replies...Same - I have chronic conditions (disabilities) that cannot be treated or cured and aren’t even understood in terms of causes etc. Hoping for breakthroughs but it’s unlikely. Lots of us in this boat I expect. It’s a really tough one when you’ve previously been healthy and expect you can get better or have some kind of recovery.
I find the loneliness is the hardest part of my cervical spinal injury. I went from a busy mom, wife and career woman to being alone daily while the kids were at school and hubby was at work. I'm beyond blessed to have an amazing support system of my family and friends but the daytime is very quiet and so lonely.
Perhaps that’s true. But any lessons you’ve learned, about the world and yourself can be passed on. That’s worth something,
That one day I won’t be alive and neither will anybody I love 🥺
..that one day you may be the only one alive of all your friends and family.
This one is worse. When I die, i won't be around to move about it. I told my wife, that i get to go first. She seemed okay with that.
Load More Replies...And eventually nobody will know you even existed even people that wouldn’t be alive if not for you
The ones "remembered" for longer (well, no-one really "remembers" them, but at lesat their names are still known) are mostly remembered because they did "great" deeds. Roughly 7/10 of these deeds cost other people's lives by the thousands (kings, generals, empereors,...), so if you're forgotten that most likely means you didn't do a significant amount of harm (or weren't found out). Modest consolation, of sorts.
Load More Replies...No one is truly dead until everyone who remembers them are also dead.
It's worse when you realize you won't be alive and no one will care
Death is scary . This fear is not irrational . This is just life. I always joke I’m halfway to dead (I’m 51) it’s scary. But hey it’s the cycle of life .
Or that one day there will be no one left on earth to remember you.
That my whole life has been a waste. That if I disappeared tomorrow nobody would even know or care. I used to consciously feel the existential dread that brings, but now I just kind of ignore it and keep going on with my mechanical existence.
Working at a desk, literally being tethered to a computer and phone, I feel like a zombie, a shell of my body, and all the torment I've endured over the years has left me numb and I can't even muster to do anything about it.
I understand this as a desk jockey. The only hope is to get air and see random people. We are social beings. Social media does NOT count. Go for a walk, talk to random strangers. Do that at least once a week. It will get better.
Load More Replies...I think you'd be surprised at how many people WOULD know and WOULD care.
Your life hasn’t been a waste if you’ve learned anything to share with others. You are a necessary part of the universe. Making it a YOUniverse.
Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor.
I feel this. I landed my dream job straight out of school aged 16. My mental health was instrumental in bringing that career to it's knees, by the time I reached 21. I have worked in an eclectic range of occupations since but every single day I have felt that I am just wasting my time. I have tried to end it all a couple of times but now I feel as though I am resigned to just waiting it out. Counting down the days as I go. I don't even have the motivation to do something about it anymore.
I’m a coward and it’s costing me.
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I read a few of the many comments, and I’ll answer a few. I’m a coward because I’m afraid of change, I’m afraid to fail and to hurt people, I’m afraid my dreams make me selfish and that I’ll step on people who are just like me if I try to pursue them. Yes, I am afraid to ask people out, and I’m afraid that someday I’ll realize that they might have been the one. I’m afraid my efforts however inconsequential are in vain. I’m afraid to stand up, for myself and for others. I was afraid of the truth, and at least I can say I got past it, because now, I am oh so intimately familiar with my flaws. I’m afraid that I have a superiority complex and act like a snob, while I am ironically afraid that I am rather stupid. I’m afraid I talk to much and I annoy everybody I talk to, and that even when they smile, in their mind they are begging me to shut up for a minute. I’m afraid that I’m a fraud, and I’m afraid that I have no right to fear these things so early in life.
I don’t see a therapist because they cost money, and I work at a gas station.
Maybe I haven’t really made peace with it. I hope to god I’m not this way forever. I know, that someday, somehow, I’ll find a way, but for now, It’s all I can do to stay in perspective and slink forward to the next day. And look forward to a future that seems oh so far beyond the reach of one with the means I posses.
Sounds like you may have an anxiety disorder. I struggle with this too.
Agreed. Please reach out. You do not have to continue living as such.
Load More Replies...Being brave is not: being not afraid to do things. It's being afraid and doing those anyway. Anxiety is very shitty and I suffer from it. Used to suffer a lot more from it. But once I realized it's simply an emotion, I started to not give in to it. I just started doing things and let the anxiety be. They can't kill me, they can only make me feel a bit s**t for a while.
Practice. Whenever I'm scared of a decision I ask myself : (a) will I die? (b) will I get jailed? if the answer to both is "no", I just do it.
Load More Replies...I don’t care where you work, my friend, your eloquence is remarkable. Should you ever read this: I can tell you one thing for sure - you don’t have to be afraid that you’re stupid. I work with hurting, afraid and sometimes stupid people in a therapeutic capacity, and this level of insight into your own nature and behaviour pretty much guaran-goddamned-tee that stupidity is entirely off the table. That one I hope you can let go off sometime.
I am so sorry that you are living this way. I wish that you could find someone you trust to talk to about your pain. Many of us here have felt pain similar to yours, and it isn't easy. Meds do help. Call your local health center and ask if they can help. I hope so.
There should be a community mental health center that can see you for little or nothing. Check it out. Therapy works and you deserve better.
I don’t necessarily think you are afraid of everything. Just look at the courage it took to share this. The strength and integrity it took in choosing your words with care. Hey, SURPRISE, *soft smile*, you are courageous! Smart, worthy, and I think it’s safe to say, there are a lot of pandas listening and identifying with you kiddo.
If your parent(s) were abusive, they will be abusive to your spouse and children. Walk away so they cannot spread poison into your life anymore.
F**k that. I refuse to let anyone abuse my children. At the cost to my own life I will go down fighting to keep my children safe .
That's not entirely true. People change. People grow. Not always obviously. But sometimes they do. My mother was horribly abusive. She changed. She grew. We are closer than ever.
Im kinda dumb tbh
Having high IQ and being very smart will not make you happy, in fact you will be very very lonely...trust me on this.
I agree. I won't go into detail because I don't want to sound snobbish (though I do)it's very difficult finding people to connect with. IQ high= EQ low in my experience as the former.
Load More Replies...Keep in mind, it takes some wisdom to realize that what you know compared to what there is to know, is nothing. Or as Socrates put it: I know that I know nothing.
In a way, I know I have much to learn which leaves many things to explore and discover. So, there's that silverlining.
As an official old person (over 40) I am skeptical of the stupid/clever thing and IQ tests. (IQ is high, but I do not want to brag about it because it disgusts me when people do that.). My impression is that you get three types of "smart" people: those who are SKILLED at something, like art or soccer or chess or reading or writing or whatever; those who are FAST at something, like con artists, comedians, multitasking type-A people, etc., who can solve things quickly; and lastly, those who are MATHEMATICALLY smart, ie good with numbers. These are all learnt skills. Choose which "smart" you want to be, and practice a lot. People for example are super-impressed at my reading speed. Reason: I've read literally about 2000 books. So. yeah, you practice, you get "smart". My experience of "dumb" people is they generally either have (a) poor english, or (b), low general knowledge levels, or (c) both. None of this is DNA. Proof: https://www.psypost.org/2022/05/psychologists-found-a-striking-difference-in-intelligence-after-examining-twins-raised-apart-in-south-korea-and-the-united-states-63091
Me too! Despite what people may say about me being a programmer, I am unforgettably average at everything else ( and probably programming too ;) ).
No matter how much we clean our homes it will look like we hadn't done anything within the next few days, and we're just cleaning dust off knickknacks and fretting over objects we project sentiment and such importance on that we won't be able to take with us when we die, and our inheritors may end up losing, selling or breaking in the end. Why do we do this?
Well personally I don’t have any knickknacks, and I’m quite happy about that! I’d rather spend the money on doing stuff. If they make you happy though then that’s ok :-) As for cleaning the house generally, it is kind of necessary but it doesn’t need to take much time.
Maria Kondo the lot. Hold up an item. "Does it spark joy?" If not, put it in the charity shop donations pile.
We are all loved conditionally.
I have been loved and I have loved unconditionally. It's rare, but possible. I hope you experience it someday.
I dont think I agree with this. I will always love my children no matter what. I can't not. They are imprinted on my soul. There are things which would probably result in me severing ties with them (harming others for eg). I would not speak or see them or hold them and my heart would be truly broken....but I would still love them.
I know all it takes is to get a tattoo and my mom will literally hate me forever. She actually said that.
You should get a heart with MOM in the middle.
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Ish. We have different tolerance towards different people. Like for my children I have VERY high tolerance to the point I would say it's pretty much unconditional (I'm sure they don't feel the same though, at least not as they grow up). Towards my husband for example - not so much. He can do a lot to hurt me and I will still love and fight for him but it's absolutely not unconditional in the same way.
I think whose agree with this unfortunately have not been loved as they truly deserved. Many have seen and were taught how it really is. Sometimes, we are lucky enough to have the best parents we can, and, it turns out their children don't value that support and love; they would seek for their parents when they need money or have interest in something, but no when they have health issues, need something/someone or want just to spare time. Unfortunately, we don't value the beloved ones that want to give us the best of them.
I’m an alcoholic
I'm actually okay with being an alcoholic. I have so much more to offer than that one part of me. I have freckles, too, btw.
So you want to go grab a drink sometime? Just kidding btw
Load More Replies...As are so many. My brother stopped drinking/drugging years ago and still goes to AA/NA…not every week at this point, but when he starts wanting to do either one, he falls back into it because it won’t F-up his life to go to meetings now and then.
Well, admitting it is the first (and maybe the hardest) step of many. Sobriety gets easier when you learn that you are not alone (it's a very common disease even if it doesn't feel that way) and also when you are past the worst mourning-stage (it can feel pretty meaningless and sad for a long time, just like a break up with someone you loved very much).
Good job. the first and hardest step is admitting you have a problem with it. I'm proud of you. That took so much courage.
I'm most likely going to die alone.
I believe there will be family and friends waiting on the other side.
Always remember one thing. You came alone into this world crying. You will go alone out of this world crying. In between these two you come across many objects which are not belonged to you. There is no use in crying for these objects. Always try to be happy with yourself. From Bhagavad Gita
If you are lonely the first step is to leave your house. After that, try walk down the road. Then to a park. Then walk through a mall (not to buy, just to be seen). Then try hang out in a bar for a bit. Etc. You have to systematically expose yourself to other humans to not be alone.
The Curiosity rover was programmed to sing happy birthday to itself while alone on Mars :/
My time in Iraq was a complete waste. 3 years of my life gawn. The world doesn’t care if you’re a good person. Matter of fact, they’re preying on *good* people. Edit: Not just my time. Everyone that served in that war. *Especially the ones that died.* on both sides. I know of several soldiers that brought tons of Iraqi Dinar hoping it would pay off. Well, 5 years later, here comes ISIS and wipes all that away… A total waste of time….
I mean this kindly, but please remember next time you make fun of hippies what you said here. Because your service wasn't a waste of time for your oligarch overlords in the oil companies. Only a waste of YOUR time. Don't fall for propaganda please. Think critically.
Ive been there. I quickly realized some desk jockey officers couldn’t care less about us but still expected us to kill ourselves to make them look good. No matter what we did those children will never have a chance.
I think they mean 'bought' not 'brought'. Some people say 'brought' instead of 'bought' for some reason
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This is coming from a firefighter:
If you have to perform CPR on them, it's most likely over for the patient.
I'm not sure if I've made peace with it completely, but I've accepted it at least.
Not unique to firefighters. If *anyone* has to perform CPR the chances of recovery are very low. In fact, I'd hope firefighters are better trained and that training is reinforced more often than the average first aider in the street, so a fire fighter should have a statistically *higher* recovery rate. I've just made this realisation worse for someone, haven't I? Sorry.
I think it's improved a bit due to AED's being more readily available, but yes - you really need very specific training for successful CPR, or a lot of luck. And firefighters are mainly trained to fight fires - that's why there's usually an ambulance & trained EMT's/paramedics assigned to fire stations.
Load More Replies...As a former first responder and paramedic that was a truth we had to live with. Inconvenient and not nice but still had to accept it.
No matter how much you care or fight it, friends will stop talking to you
I can confirm this as the person who has ghosted many o' people at random intervals in my life. It's nothing they did or said, it's me. I have social tolerance issues. The friends who understand me know that possibly in a week, 5 weeks, 4 months, etc. I'll be there again. I just can't...until I can. It's sh**tty, I know, especially when that person has no idea why you ghosted. 😕
In the grand scheme of the universe, nothing we do matters. (That doesn't mean we shouldn't try to do good though).
Yup. Businesses as well. There will always be a replacement and if it goes away and never comes back, that business wasn't as important to society as the business owner thought.
Disagree. Donate a kidney or bone marrow to a person in need, that matters. Any time a firefighter, police, or first responder saves a life, that matters. Any time a child or animal is adopted into a loving family, yep, it matters. Medical and scientific discoveries that have advanced us for the better, you guessed it, it matters. I understand the feeling of the futility of our existence sometimes, but there is good with the bad.🦄🌈❤️🤮
That is all important things on a human scale. But the issue is that human scale is really really really tiny compared with the size of the universe. It is like saying that it matters to you, what a single atom in your body does. It is true that you are the sum of your atoms, but even if that single atom disappeared completely, you wouldn't feel any different at all ...and likewise you is so tiny that your action is invisible from nearly every point in the universe. To put things into perspective, they turned Voyager one around when it was passing Saturn and took a "picture" of the entire Earth (technically only half of it could be seen as the other side faced away, but never mind), and all that the entire Earth did, was to turn a single pixel a bit more blue (owever the image, named the Pale blue dot, is not famous)... and compared to the universe, Saturn is just around the corner, yet all of humanity seem insignificant from there. Not to mention that it will propably just a few hundred years before no one even knows that you have existed.
Load More Replies...If you enjoy it, then it mattered to you, and that's good enough. You don't have to be a galactic star lord that prevents the Big Crunch at the end of the universe. You just have to enjoy your life.
But, in the same way it can bring comfort for our failures and mistakes.
i was raped as a child and i have the feeling i Will never be the person i was suppose to becom
I feel the same way. A part of me was killed as a child and that "mudered" part will always be gone. But the new me, who I've evolved into is stronger, better and more empathetic because of the losses and trials I've survived. Like Kintsugi, the Japanese art of putting pottery that's been broken back together with gold, embracing the breaks to have it become an even more beautiful and stronger piece of art .
That common sense isn’t all that common.
Sadly so true. It’s almost a rare thing lately, as is manners or being polite
Realizing that justice went from being a right, to a theory, to a concept, then merely to a word. And that in reality, it’s become such a disregarded “right” for so long that it’s now normalized, and there are so many who are part of the system in one way or another (including those who claim to advocate for someone’s rights) that they are comfortable brazenly and openly committing on a daily basis, it’s now a given
Justice is, and ALWAYS HAS BEEN, an ideal. You can't reach it, only try to approach it, because people are individuals and societies change. Something that feels good/is right for one person at one time may feel bad/be wrong for another one, and laws have to generalize.
Eloquently put. I hope you're an attorney, or a teacher, or both. I hadn't considered it this way before. Thank you
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You can fall out of love
I survived childhood trauma, depression which I’ve lived with many years, an abusive marriage. To then find a person who got me supported me and made me a better person, I hope I did the same for her. A true soul mate. We had a son and were both content, then after work playing with our 4yr old she had a brain stem infarct. Survived a short time with ‘locked in syndrome’ before passing. Life has can be so cruel sometimes and unfair. You accept this in life but persevere however you can; look for those little moments when it’s not, when it is bliss. The smile on my wife’s face upon seeing our son for the first time, those few seconds can balance some of that pain. One thing that is inevitable is change, whether for good or bad.
I was diagnosed with ADHD as an adult. Growing up In the 90’s in a rural area they never checked for that, in fact I was pretty much labeled a problem child despite being a decent student. On top of this I didn’t mentally mature at the same pace my friends did, they were discovering stuff about themselves that I didn’t even begin to discover until I was in my 20’s. On top of that my parents just didn’t know what to do with me, I got treated pretty bad until I was in high school when my mom kind of figured there was something a little different about me but most days she brushed it off. It took me getting counseling through the army to get diagnosed. Looking back it all really made sense that I had ADHD, especially since my nieces and nephews all seem to have it.
Wondering what, if anything, the military did upon your diagnosis. My son wants to join, but has ADHD and everything I can find says he would have to be off meds for 3 years to enlist. It's his fervent goal, so I'm curious if this is true or not.
My friend was diagnosed at 36, he was a very good military person /soldier, made it to sergeant and served for 10 years. Military service helped him so much. The structure, the line of work, all of it. He was a multiple school kind of kid and perceived a difficult kid. Now he has his own company as a family coach. So military service can help tremendously, he also did it without medication. So he should definitely try to follow his dream.
Load More Replies...It's completely pointless what you do. The world around you is falling apart. Climate change, war... Famine, too less water. And everyone around you just lives on. They ignore it, live in their happy, little bubble because it's not them who suffer. The people who want change and do something are just too less to make a difference.
What can we do ? I would love to do something but the bad is so big it feels pointless to even try
Ignore the big stuff, do things in your neighborhood, family, whatever. Make the difference where you are. It truly is the only place that matters.
Load More Replies...Run for office. https://www.fec.gov/help-candidates-and-committees/registering-political-party/ ...if you think you can't, please scroll up and read the post about the guy suffering from cowardice who does nothing with his life because he's scared.
You can be young and completely healthy and a disease can come out of nowhere and take it away from you. I know firsthand :-(
My "silent but deadly" farts aren't always as silent as I think they are.
I’m going to miss wearing masks once the world is back to normal. I had awful gas on a flight to Hawaii. I didn’t realize how bad until I took off my mask to eat and it was just awful!
Aw hell! Now I'm gonna keep wearing masks just because people are apparently out there fartin' it up!
Load More Replies...I’m 53 and will be single the rest of my life
If you want to be single, that's cool. I am and I enjoy it. However, if you want to meet someone, then you have to leave your house for a start. Scroll up and read the other posts on depression. Physical activities like walking, exploring a mall, going to a bar, etc., will help you. Really, just do it at least once a week.
I'm 57, and I probably will be single by choice for the rest of my life. I've spent an awful lot of my life giving up myself for others, so I'm quite content to be in a committed relationship with myself.
By choice, in my case. Also, 51. The primary reason I would have gotten into a relationship is because life is too expensive on my own. So, I play the roommate game, and wait for my wages to go up a tiny bit or buy an RV
I will never get over being SA and I will never go to the police. I have lost 20 yrs to it, became and alcoholic and nearly lost my child. I have finally accepted all the above but it took far to long and far to much of my life...
SA by who? If by your current partner, then yes, there are people who can help you escape that situation like social workers and police and courts. They can get a restraining order. If however you mean when you were a child, you need to go to a therapist. All you have to do is take that step.
Someone you trust and that you think would never do anything bad to you can turn on you in the next day
one day all my friends will go our separate ways, we will eventually stop talking
That's ok, you can meet new ones, really. Just get out your house.
That ignorance is truly bliss. To not realize how screwed up everything is. To be able to trudge through life and not know how miserable of an existence you lead. Just be dumb and happy.
The more I read the news and become aware of the world, the more depressing it gets.
I get excited about all the potential problems I could work with, get involved in trying to fix, et.c.
Load More Replies...Yep, intellegense is not always a gift, as the ability to analyse situations and ask critical questions will make you spot all the wrongdoing going on around you. I have read a theory somewhere stating that depressed people have more realistic view on life. Sometimes you'd wish that you were a dog, and could live such an uncomplicated lifestyle, not having the mental capacity to worry about difficult issues, but just boil over with exitment everytime someone took contact to you, because everybody seems to love you for just being your honest self
Run for office. https://www.fec.gov/help-candidates-and-committees/registering-political-party/ ..that's what I did. Fight it. You have the power.
You're not aware enough then xp generally thinking about how everthing works makes me surprisingly happy
I was so much happier when I was drunk all the time and not paying attention! I’m more aware now but not as happy :(
That my social anxiety has very little chance of ever going away.
I struggle with this too. I've just learned to accept it and make peace with it. It does help.
It may not go away, but you can learn some strategies for how to handle it, which will have a better effect on your life than just hiding under the blankets.
i also deal with this but places like this make it so much easier to be myself x
Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor. Start by leaving your house. Then walk down the street. Then walk through a mall without buying anything. Then walk to a bar or cafe and get a drink or coffee and sit and read your phone. Do this every week and do not let yourself off the hook with any excuses. it WILL go.
I'm not that attractive and that's okay, if I feel hot I am hot!!
I would rather have self-esteem than being considered attractive by others. Love for one-self comes first. I would like to have learnt that younger.
I've never seen the point in working so hard to be attractive when I am not cute enough in the first place. It saves me time, money, and worry.
It depends on whether it's self-esteem or trying to find a partner. If you are happy as-is, that will come across and you'll find someone. If you are not happy as-is, then yes, you need to work on it, because the "unhappy aura" will be picked up by those around you.
Load More Replies...I’ll never be okay with myself and my existence
Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor. Start by leaving your house. Then walk down the street. Then walk through a mall without buying anything. Then walk to a bar or cafe and get a drink or coffee and sit and read your phone. Do this every week and do not let yourself off the hook with any excuses. it WILL go.
I will be lonely for all life even though I am surrounded by people
You are lonely because you do not talk with people. Try ask someone about themselves. Try it every week. It will help.
When finding someone to trust, i learned that people will prove to you just how untrustworthy they are with their tone when you speak with them for one of the first times since you met.
I would like to learn more about this. I don't know what I sound like to people, involuntarily. The way I was raised I question what I say and how I say it is correct all the time, and my family is so private I have to be so careful what I say about them.
I'll be honest, I don't understand what this person is saying, but whatever it is I think it's a very personal belief to them and shouldn't be taken generally. At the end of the day, you never know what someone is going through or their background, they may have been raised very formally, or you may talk to them on day their parent or friend passed without you knowing, they may be in the grip of depression or anxiety, so many different things, and that is what you're hearing, not that they're untrustworthy. Just trust yourself, as long as you're honest in what you're saying it's the other person's problem if they're offended, not yours (generally speaking of course). But what's important is that most people are not sitting there judging you even if it feels like they are. You just be you.
Load More Replies...seeing as some people are kinda confused, i’m gonna sorta expand on that a bit. Some people have a certain lightness to their voice when being manipulative and peoples voices go higher when they lie. Judging by how this works, and what i’ve gone through, their voice can tell you much more than their words. I hope this cleared it up a bit x Look after yourselves ❤️
That the world my son will grow up in will be not a very good one, at best. I wish I had more hope, but I really don't see anything or anyone (big corps, one percent, extreme religion and politics, anti-vax, etc) doing anything that will set this world on the right path before we lose everything. It is so hard to swallow. All I can do is try and prepare him the best I can
Run for office. https://www.fec.gov/help-candidates-and-committees/registering-political-party/
I’ll never get to meet my mom
That my entire nuclear family all died young and suddenly/unexpectedly. I do now have my husband and my cat, both of whom I love with every fiber of my being even if the thought of losing them sometimes paralyzes me with fear and sadness.
Life is moving too fast. Everyone around is growing up and I'm not ready.
i'm boring as f**k and i'll die alone. i just accepted this fact
I don't think you're boring, kjorn. I've seen many of your comments here, and you have a good sense of humor!
I'm so boring I prefer leaving weeks in between of socializing so I'll have something new to talk about. I can think of things to talk about at any time but people don't seem to want to talk about any other than what's going on directly with our lives.
Read the news and think of funny takes on it. Ask people about their lives rather than talking about yours.
Load More Replies...I've seen your posts on BP before Kjorn and I do not think that's true. Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor. Start by leaving your house. Then walk down the street. Then walk through a mall without buying anything. Then walk to a bar or cafe and get a drink or coffee and sit and read your phone. Do this every week and do not let yourself off the hook with any excuses. it WILL go.
I have spent a lifetime collecting things that are important to me. Now older and realizing that it’s time to start giving these things away to people/organizations who value them, it’s a hard discovery that nobody really wants most of this stuff
How my love feels about me
The only thing certain in life is death.
EXPONENTIAL POPULATION OVERLOAD If we keep on breeding as we are, there will not be enough water, food and housing to sustain the exponential population growth. There will come a point, in the not-too-distant future, when this will have a catastrophic effect on your descendants. But it doesn't affect you, right?
Yes, I agree with this. There are technologies as in vitro systems or hydroponics, yet many suffer from famines. There is the science, then we turn something “useful” in for attempting against others! Honestly, I do have faith for a better world, but we need to wake up. For me many people are inviting us every day to throw us from a bridge, whenever they minimize climate change, famines, natural disasters, water pollution, when politics promise that if they are elected they would give us everything! And they keep postponing this kind of things for their very own interests. That's why I decided I don't want biological kids I won't give innocents that could be used only to fulfil the wishes of the wicked!
If your parent(s) were abusive, they will be abusive to your spouse and children. Walk away so they cannot spread poison into your life anymore.
That common sense isn’t all that common.
That we are all victims of propaganda. The elite and rich control what we have access to. Humans are just advanced animals, no more - no less. The universe works in mysterious ways ONLY because we lack the capacity to understand.
Sometimes it's the people you are the closest too that can hurt you the most. In my case, my adult daughter.
I’m worthless and I see no future for myself. I’m aware I’m self destructive and have problems but I don’t care enough about myself to fix it. My life is good and I have no reason to feel like this, which makes me hate myself even more.
Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor. Start by leaving your house. Then walk down the street. Then walk through a mall without buying anything. Then walk to a bar or cafe and get a drink or coffee and sit and read your phone. Do this every week and do not let yourself off the hook with any excuses. it WILL go.
You will get in to more trouble for fighting back against your abuser/bully than they will for abusing you…. But it’s worth it!!
I will never get to go up to my parents and hug both of them ever again they divorced and I’ve been diagnosed with depression and anxiety I don’t know if my life will ever be the same.
It's completely pointless what you do. The world around you is falling apart. Climate change, war... Famine, too less water. And everyone around you just lives on. They ignore it, live in their happy, little bubble because it's not them who suffer. The people who want change and do something are just too less to make a difference...
Run for office. https://www.fec.gov/help-candidates-and-committees/registering-political-party/
I have never really been loved, not even by my own mother. I will never know how it feels
That is what we call an irrational thought. Depression is caused by looking within yourself too much. Do the following. (1). Practice mindfulness or clearing your mind of thoughts. (2). Join a charity. (3). Overcome social phobia. Deliberately walk slowly through busy places and face your fear of people. (Yes, that is the cause). Source: me, a suicide survivor. Start by leaving your house. Then walk down the street. Then walk through a mall without buying anything. Then walk to a bar or cafe and get a drink or coffee and sit and read your phone. Do this every week and do not let yourself off the hook with any excuses. it WILL go.
You can try your best, make the right decisions, sacrifice today's easy pleasures for tomorrow's fulfilling gains and still lose it all through no fault of your own. This is life. All you can do is try to mitigate the risks and enjoy what you have.
My parents divorced I will never be able to hug both of them at the same time and nasogastric far I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety depression and anger issues I don’t know if my life will ever get back on track
My live is s**t my parents divorced I have anxiety depression and f*****g anger issues will my life ever get back on f*****g track?
Realizing that justice went from being a right, to a theory, to a concept, then merely to a word. And that in reality, it’s become such a disregarded “right” for so long that it’s now normalized, and there are so many who are part of the system in one way or another (including those who claim to advocate for someone’s rights) that they are comfortable brazenly and openly committing on a daily basis, it’s now a given.
Justice is, and ALWAYS HAS BEEN, an ideal. You can't reach it, only try to approach it, because people are individuals and societies change. Something that feels good/is right for one person at one time may feel bad/be wrong for another one, and laws have to generalize.
Realizing that justice went from being a right, to a theory, to a concept, then merely to a word. And that in reality, it’s become such a disregarded “right” for so long that it’s now normalized, and there are so many who are part of the system in one way or another (including those who claim to advocate for someone’s rights) that they are comfortable brazenly and openly committing on a daily basis, it’s now a given.
Realizing that justice went from being a right, to a theory, to a concept, then merely to a word. And that in reality, it’s become such a disregarded “right” for so long that it’s now normalized, and there are so many who are part of the system in one way or another (including those who claim to advocate for someone’s rights) that they are comfortable brazenly and openly committing on a daily basis, it’s now a given.
Realizing that justice went from being a right, to a theory, to a concept, then merely to a word. And that in reality, it’s become such a disregarded “right” for so long that it’s now normalized, and there are so many who are part of the system in one way or another (including those who claim to advocate for someone’s rights) that they are comfortable brazenly and openly committing on a daily basis, it’s now a given.
Most of this list is less coming to terms and more a worrying display of the lack of mental health support available to these individuals. I read a lot of these as cries for help.
Yeah, a lot of them sound clinically depressed and unable to get any help for it.
Load More Replies...For anyone who actually got through this, I don’t want you guys to end sad so I found this. https://www.dreamstime.com/stock-photos-baby-hippo-image21401803 Pictures of hippos
I've come to terms that my baby boy died of sids. And I'm now in therapy, on meds and doing much better. Now i have mental space to help my husband and children deal with their grief too. This post helped alot. Thank you BP.
This is heartbreaking *and* life affirming (and not a contradiction in terms!). I don't mean to be flippant - I'm so dreadfully sorry for your loss, but you have described how well you are now doing as well as being in a position to help the others who have not yet reached your level of acceptance. This is truly coming to terms with something awful and I wish you all the very best internet hugs from a stranger can offer.
Load More Replies...This post is depressing. Can we get more of the uplifting posts, BP? We need them now more than ever at a time like this.
i think it is useful to help people who cannot get help otherwise. Many people here on BP are kind and will offer helpful suggestions to depressed or abused people.
Load More Replies...So many of us stuck in the griefs of this world. God tells us We will have trouble in this world. Fortunately, He has overcome it and there will be a new one without suffering for those who want it. Hang on to Him. I can’t imagine suffering this without Him. I see so many trying and it pains me.
I got one. A romantic partner who is loving and caring at the beginning of the relationship but turns out to be dishonest, manipulative and vindictive can be indistinguishable from a partner who is loving and caring at the beginning of the relationship but turns out to remain that way forever. It leaves you unable to make the determination if minor idiosyncrasies are benign like most people, or if they are the red flags you should have seen in the first relationship. It will drive you crazy wondering if you are crazy, and it will further drive you crazy to think maybe you scrutinized backwards: you were generous and forgiving when you should have been hyper vigilant, and hyper vigilant when you should have been generous and forgiving.
Most of this list is less coming to terms and more a worrying display of the lack of mental health support available to these individuals. I read a lot of these as cries for help.
Yeah, a lot of them sound clinically depressed and unable to get any help for it.
Load More Replies...For anyone who actually got through this, I don’t want you guys to end sad so I found this. https://www.dreamstime.com/stock-photos-baby-hippo-image21401803 Pictures of hippos
I've come to terms that my baby boy died of sids. And I'm now in therapy, on meds and doing much better. Now i have mental space to help my husband and children deal with their grief too. This post helped alot. Thank you BP.
This is heartbreaking *and* life affirming (and not a contradiction in terms!). I don't mean to be flippant - I'm so dreadfully sorry for your loss, but you have described how well you are now doing as well as being in a position to help the others who have not yet reached your level of acceptance. This is truly coming to terms with something awful and I wish you all the very best internet hugs from a stranger can offer.
Load More Replies...This post is depressing. Can we get more of the uplifting posts, BP? We need them now more than ever at a time like this.
i think it is useful to help people who cannot get help otherwise. Many people here on BP are kind and will offer helpful suggestions to depressed or abused people.
Load More Replies...So many of us stuck in the griefs of this world. God tells us We will have trouble in this world. Fortunately, He has overcome it and there will be a new one without suffering for those who want it. Hang on to Him. I can’t imagine suffering this without Him. I see so many trying and it pains me.
I got one. A romantic partner who is loving and caring at the beginning of the relationship but turns out to be dishonest, manipulative and vindictive can be indistinguishable from a partner who is loving and caring at the beginning of the relationship but turns out to remain that way forever. It leaves you unable to make the determination if minor idiosyncrasies are benign like most people, or if they are the red flags you should have seen in the first relationship. It will drive you crazy wondering if you are crazy, and it will further drive you crazy to think maybe you scrutinized backwards: you were generous and forgiving when you should have been hyper vigilant, and hyper vigilant when you should have been generous and forgiving.
