More works in progress on my Instagram… doing art take more than 2 ~ 3 days.
When I was younger , I had been wasting times, money , attentions on , using or combining oil
pastels, watercolor , gouache and a lot materials .
The people around me wondered why this little childish girl , keep repeatedly drawing ,
art ideas such as manga , kid book , or fashion illustration . And the most important point is,”she
remains silent and draw alone , and never care degrees ,lessons , jobs , health and cooperation “.
Then, everyone know that she easily get annoyed , by commenting on artworks , also she can’t
bear pranks, rumors,scolds and even her own “guilty” (unwilling to get close with mates, screaming , pushing , throwing or self harming ) .So something ‘s wrong with me?
because you can’t hold an exhibition , you can’t ignore others’ feelings , you can’t study ART,
you can’t get mad with people , you can’t do scary (selfish) things , you can’t sleep without
pills … Oh…. it sounds like a story about no one believe or agree , that I am not a FAILURE ,
right? (A Failure who is cold blood , stubborn and fragile, so I deserve bullying , Betraying
, and forever sucked with unstable patients ?)
After a few years , I know how to smile , I know how to not telling anyone truth easily .And the second important thing , is NOT “Be confident , Be nice , You will get better results on communication blar blar blar… ” Sorry… nothing works on their poor attitudes .The problem still here…
Finally I am 25 yrs old … I wish I would know these unhappy memories shouldn’t be
called “unlucky” .Also please don’t pity me…I feel like myself is just a auctioned slaves
inside a dirty , smelly , dull freak show hall, with many strangers , who wear plague mask, and
enjoyed torturing me till I die.
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