You never really know what another person is going through. (Solipsists go as far as to say that you are the only conscious being in existence.)
Some might be able to articulate their experiences, but it can still be difficult to comprehend the depth of their words, even if you know their meaning.
So when one Reddit user asked everyone on the platform to share a feeling they believe is indescribable to someone who hasn't had it, people immediately started submitting their answers, highlighting the complexity of human interaction.
Continue scrolling to check out the entries, and don't miss the conversation we had with Barbara Jaffe, Ed.D. — you will find it in between the stories.
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The loss of a pet.
Hard to explain that I've grieved harder for a dog somehow than I ever have for a human.
When my gorgeous girl cat of 18 years died, I grieved more than for my father.
Indeed. I lost my mom and a few months later one of my cats. I cried much more when I lost him. For me, the hurt is more because I keep thinking did he knew he was loved ? Did he knew how much he meant to me ? Did he knew that he was more like a child to me than a cat ? Did I love him enough ? With a human being, you can say what you needed to say and they would understand. With an animal, you can't be sure.
A big part of feeling such deep grief at losing a pet is that they are often a bigger part of your life than a human. You are their world and that bond is usually stronger than any other you will ever experience. Even your kids grow up and move out on their own. Your pet never will. I am not ashamed to say I felt more pain at the loss of my dog than at the loss of my parents. Although in fairness I still miss my mother after 30 years. My father not 30 minutes after he passed.
I lost peep my duck and daughter in February and I’m still crying over it. I miss my ducky
I think it is because pets are so innocent and pure. If they don't like you, they let you know. If you treat them bad, they do the same with you. If you see them as a beloved family member, they will trust and love you in return. Simple as that.
What about the redoubling of that pain when some insensitive @ss says, "Why so sad? It was just an animal."
Family lost our beloved pet dog that we'd had since he was a puppy. Family will still describe it as "You'd think we lost Sister's Name."
Depression, a feeling of true fear and emptiness at the same time. You don’t want to die, you don’t want to live. It’s weird
And still most people who have never experienced it think that it's just "being sad". Nope. I wish I would have felt anything like being sad when I was clinically depressed... at least it would have been something else than this emptiness... I was more brokkoli than human.
Apathy is the worst part for me, you can't even find joy in the things you enjoy anymore and that just makes you feel like a failure, sending you further down a hole. Not to mention just being "sad" doesn't make you fantasize about offing yourself. Its pretty clear when you open up to people that not everyone has experienced the existential dread and complete lack of hope for a future that depression so graciously grants you.
Load More Replies...I like to describe it as mental paralysis. You want to do things, but you just can't.
When you’re depressed you WANT to be sad, because it’s better than the all-consuming nothingness you’re feeling. Happiness would be better, but you’d take anything, and depression makes happiness feel unattainable.
Hm. I had depression and I wanted to die very much. But yeah, I get it.
I came here to say the same thing. I never want to be in that pal
Load More Replies...I have recurrent depression so, am medicated for life. Someone professionally (in pharmacy) but indirectly encouraged people to come off of them. While I agree that they're over prescribed, this person had no insight in to the utter sheer nothingness of being depressed. He had never experienced it and another colleague who also takes meds came close to having a toe-to-toe fight with him about it. I would liken it to solitary confinement in prison. I will pop pills happily with joy in my heart to never go there again and even with them some days can still be vile. Especially in winter.
Me too, if I take meds (Venlafaxine at high dosage with a side order of Mirtazapine) for the rest of my life and I never have to visit that sphere of nothingness then I’ll be completely ok with it. I’d like to be meds free but it’s not a big deal if I don’t manage it, why would I wreck something that’s clearly working right now? Keep on keeping on ❤️
Load More Replies...It is kind of like feeling empty sometimes. No happiness, no sadness, just nothing. Big black hole in your heart and guts. At least for me. Family member died? Felt nothing. Bought something for me or got a gift? Nothing. Life is just empty.
I mentioned to my brother that I think I have depression and he informed me that I'm 'not sad enough' to have depression and you can only have depression if you spend all day in your bed crying. Like, one, that's entirely wrong, but also two, what do you think I do in my room alone all day??
It's such an empty feeling. Getting the right meds has changed my life! (Chlorpromazine & venlafaxine BTW, highly recommend!)
To get a better understanding of how people can relate to each other better, we contacted Barbara Jaffe, who is an emeritus English professor and a current fellow in UCLA's Department of Education.
"Empathy is one of the most important qualities a person can possess," Jaffe, author of 'When will I be good enough?', told Bored Panda. "Empathy allows us to understand others on a deeper level. It is also not necessary to have had the same experience as another person in order to feel empathy."
"For example, seeing an unhoused (homeless) person can immediately make us feel sad about that person's situation. If we feel sorry for that person, it sets up an uneven relationship whereby we are looking at the other person, grateful for not being in their position and in a sense, feeling better than that person on some level. However, feeling empathy allows us to understand at a basic emotional level that this other person is feeling pain and perhaps suffering, and we can understand both of those emotions no matter our circumstances, for all of us have had pain and suffering. Therefore, empathy enables us to understand each other and connect in a way that allows us to share our feelings with others."
Period cramps. Half the population will never fully understand how most women carry on like nothing is wrong even though they are in serious physical pain.
When I first met my wife I was seriously alarmed at the pain she went through every month. Never realised it could be so crippling. I almost called an ambulance on one occasion.
My ex had endometriosis and watching her suffer was terrible. What made it worse was her mother and sister would blatantly make fun of her and say how she was being dramatic/faking it. I almost carted her to the ER on more then one occasion.
Load More Replies...Women don't all understand each other's cramps either. Cramps vary from a little pinch all the way to being worse than a lot of childbirths, heart attacks, kidney stones, etc. Sometimes people tend to think someone else is exaggerating because their own experience wasn't as bad, but these things vary.
After birthing our first baby I laughed at the idea that I'd EVER have the luxury of forgetting the pain of labor. My cramps have always been childbirth+ level but with none of the "breaks" between contractions. I can sit curled in the tub and watch my entire body shift forward and back with each menstrual contraction, or if I lay on my back, I can watch my abdomen pump like there's a second heart down there... If I've not already completely disassociated while I wait for the pain killers to never kick in... A helpful tip I learned WAY too late in life? If neither ibuprofen or acetaminophen work, one of each (same level strength) can sometimes actually cut through the pain.
Load More Replies...If every man on earth simultaneously experienced having a period, with all that comes with it, everything would come to a screeching halt. They’d consider it a global emergency.
I had to miss school 2-3 days every month because the pain was so bad I literally could do nothing but lie on the floor in a fetal position.
Being sat on the floor in the toilets at work crying and having my boss pestering me to get back to my desk because I'm not jo an authorised break. Being told I'm getting written up for being away from my desk because it's not fare I'm taking a break whilst my coworkers aren't. Then actually being given an official warning for skiving off, when in reality my endometriosis and twisted ovaries are making me feel like I'm being sliced up from the inside out.
I had a former Boss, he came into the back,where I was curled up in a chair, laying my head on the break table.(not supposed to be on break) he asked, what was wrong. And when I told him. He told me I could take the rest of the day off. AND let my coworker take off early to drive me home. He said his ex wife and one of his daughters got them like that; So he understood. I hope this for your future.
Load More Replies...I've known several women who have occasionally passed out from the pain.
I have a specific bank account that i put a bit of money in through the year and when it's that time of the month for my gf i use that money to buy whatever she needs and i take as much care as i can of her. It sucks and i see you ladies, I'm so sorry.
Mine have also gotten worse with age and added in a new fun feature where my hips and thighs hurt like i just ran a marathon for three days before it starts. FUN!
Load More Replies...Non-uterus having person here, but my partner's experience with having a Morena IUD for most of the past decade+ makes me think that it's the sort of thing that anyone who experiences even moderately painful menstrual cramping or moderate levels of bleeding should at least look into or discuss with their doctor. The main "side effect" is greatly reduced menstruation, and the other side effects from oral birth control are greatly reduced or non-existent. Everybody is different, I'm not trying to "fix" anyone and I certainly don't want to invalidate the very real experiences of people, but if you really do suffer every month for several days, it's worth having a frank discussion with a doctor (if you think your pcp will be dismissive, or don't feel like you can afford it, this is a thing Planned Parenthood can help with) about whether you could be feeling a lot better on a fairly safe and, except initially, usually quite easy medicine that should last about a decade at a time.
Can confirm, mirena IUD has helped me significantly with debilitating periods. It took forever for a doctor to reveal to me that i didnt need to suffer so.
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Adhd - executive dysfunction
When you really want to do something but pathetically, literally, cannot.
Then suffer guilt from this.
This is sometimes referred to as "ADHD paralysis" which may not be a perfect term but is easier for neurotypicals to understand.
I have found myself standing in the middle of the room, mid-stride, and unable to make a decision about my very literal next step. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Load More Replies...It can be the simplest thing, like briefly clicking on a separate tab to respond to a confirmation email. I'll have literally not a single reason not to do it- I'm not busy, I have nothing to do, I already know what I need to respond to it with, it will take less than thirty seconds, and all I need to do is move my finger around slightly... Instead I just sit there, space-out at the screen for about a minute, and then close my laptop and likely either take a random nap or go search the kitchen even though I know I won't eat anything. :')
Yes. It’s not willful procrastination. It’s like inertia you can’t overcome, and it prevents you from doing even fun things or taking care of physical needs. It’s hard to explain to others how hard it is. ADHD is a disability.
You may look like you're doing nothing, but inside you're going over all of the things you need and want to do, screaming at yourself to just MOVE. By the end of the day you've thought so intensely about all you haven't done that it feels like you've done a full day's work. It's exhausting.
I absolutely wish I had known I had ADHD when I was younger as it would have saved me getting told off and yelled at for being 'lazy' when I literally was frozen and unable to move.
Yes, I was diagnosed as an older adult. It would have saved me so much trouble and guilt if I had known earlier. Now I try to simplify my life as much as possible to work around it, and that helps.
Load More Replies...Anyone else experience this when it comes to general life stuff like making appointments or filling out forms? I’ve been in situations my whole adult life where I can’t phone the doctor or dentist until it’s an emergency and then I have to suffer and worry until my appointment. If anyone is wondering how crippling ADHD can actually be, just remember that both of my sisters have had breast cancer and I haven’t had a mammogram in several years because I can’t force myself to make appointments. I know I need to, and I want to, I just… can’t.
I’m right there with you. Once in a blue moon I’ll get a brief moment of getting stuff done, like finally making an appointment, but then I won’t go to appointment.
Load More Replies...i hate this i know i need to do something but cant bring myself to do it
I have a friend with ADHD and we work together on stuff, I’ve learnt a lot, I’ve watched it have such an all encompassing effect on how they function and how simple stuff can throw a massive spanner into their thought processes. I’ve helped a bit and have got a few ways of bringing calm but every day is different and every situation is a new challenge. They are now on a microdosing course and that’s helping a bit but it’s also bringing up new problems as they are now having to learn a whole new way of living with it.
You're a good friend. Tell me more about micro dosing. Post diagnosis, Concerta changed my life. Until big pharma and crappy insurance forced me to generic c**p. I don't have $1K a month to self pay for the real stuff. The half as good stuff is better than nothing but even that can have supply chain issues, so I spend the last half of every month worrying whether my next Rx will get filled on time. I'd love to find an alternative to the roller coaster I currently live on.
Load More Replies...It honestly might benefit you to get assessed for ADHD. I've struggled with anxiety all my life, and when I finally got diagnosed with ADHD and we found a prescription that worked, my anxiety levels shot WAY down because my head got so much quieter. Not everyone with anxiety has ADHD, but a LOT of people have anxiety as a part of their ADHD.
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The absolute indifference towards everything in depression.
Yeah, one of the worst part of depression is that you don't even feel love for your most loved ones anymore. You know you love them, but you don't feel anything but emptiness.
does it almost feel like you are faking all your emotions as well? cause what you’ve described is how I’ve felt for a while now but I didn’t realize those are symptoms of depression…
Load More Replies...People complain because you won't do anything to help yourself. But the depression makes you not want to do anything!
And when you like, go outside for a walk maybe (on a very good day), you know that the Spring sun is warm, you know the flowers are beautiful, you know it's lovely how the birds sing, but it just... does nothing to you. Yeah, it's nice, I know (!!!), but I don't feel a difference
I was diagnosed with this last year. I just didn't understand why I couldn't do the simplest task. I mean, my meds were right there and I couldn't get myself to take them. Taxes. Cleaning my space. It's was enraging
A Dr gave me a prescription for a mild anti-depressant to aid in cigarette smoking cessation. He asked if it help - "Yep! I don't feel guilty at all about not stopping my smoking!"
If it was Wellbutrin and you still have the urge to quit, ask the doc to up the dose. I took 300mg of Wellbutrin for about 10 years for depression, then about 2 years ago we increased the dose to 450mg. Since then, I haven't felt the urge to smoke at all. Quitting smoking wasn't really my primary goal, but it sure was a fantastic side effect!
Load More Replies...Indifference is one way of putting it. Not caring at all is another....and so is lack of empathy. Been dealing with it for a very long time. Some have accepted it about me, others can't. Parents have a very hard time coming to terms with it about me. I'm 46 and they're 20 years older than me. Let's just say we've had a lot of uncomfortable discussions about my "emotions"
It needs to be said that there are numerous successful treatments for the spectrum of depression: medications, psychotherapy (both individual and group), ECT, psychodelics, etc, etc
Worst thing to tell someone with depressing is that there's so much to live for. That's not the point. We know.
However, this isn't always effortless for us. "A lack of effective communication can certainly limit our empathizing," Jaffe said. "When we aren't listening carefully to another (or tuning someone out), it is easy for us to also 'unplug' our emotions and not care very much about them. Listening allows us to hear what the person is experiencing and enables us to appreciate at least what that person is going through."
As she pointed out, the more self-absorbed we become and believe that what's happening to us is all that matters, the more we limit our ability to empathize with others. "When we realize that others are going through hard times and they might need someone to talk to, we can accept that we aren’t the only ones who have issues. This mutual understanding of each other’s hardships allows for empathy."
Sneezing out a huge clot on your period.
Oh eww, I know that feeling. Or you stand up and it happens, it’s so ick 😣
Standing up and feeling the blood gush out. Those "experts" who say we only pass a couple of tablespoons of blood each month are full of s**t.
Load More Replies...Men usually have no idea about clots and are horrified when they find out. To be fair I find them horrifying as well. :) A year or so ago I ended up anemic because I was constantly passing massive ones due to my endometriosis and fibroids. It's quite disconcerting when that happens. Like "WTF just came out of me??".
Even when I’m wearing a tampon, I can tell the difference between a normal cramp & “yup, that’s a clot ejector”
ughh as a girl who just finished for this month im sure reading that sentence is gonna make it last another day 😖
Whoever said women are the "weaker sex" obviously was not a woman, because I gotta be honest... I thank God every day that I was born a boy
And then you get old and it becomes coughing or sneezing and peeing, and the bigger the cough or sneeze, the bigger the gush. And there's nothing you can do to stop it.
Misophonia
SO much more than just "not liking loud noises." There are some noises that are legitimately rage-inducing and make me want to commit violence to make it stop. Other noises make me feel like I'm suddenly going to vomit.
But the really **loud** noises are the worst, because they are *physically painful*. It's really hard to explain to someone what it's like to have a sound hurt your brain, but it's brutal.
And it can be loud to you while no one else hears it. I don't want to be triggered by lip-smacking and it is certainly far beyond a little annoyance. Not something I can 'just ignore.'
I can't eat dinner with most people because of chewing noises or people talking with food in the back of their throat. There is no polite way to tell people to chew like a civilized human being and to not talk with your mouth full. That is stuff that should have been engrained in you when you were a child, no full grown adult should need that reminder.
Load More Replies...I have this. most people don't even try to understand. 'You can't be that sensitive just ignore it ' not how it works buddy
I wish I could! It would be so nice to just ignore it. Even worse, I'll end up imitating the sound involuntarily. I'll be dealing with someone at work smacking gum and I'll start making gum smacking sounds while they are talking. I don't realize it until they look at me weird. No one ever said anything (except my wife but she's a CHAMP about it all) but I get EXTREMELY embarrassed when that happens.
Load More Replies...I have hypersensitivity to light, sound and touch. I doesn't make me angry, but it can make me irritable, even cause panic attacks.
Same, light actually hurts most out of these, already gave up on explaining it to anyone.
Load More Replies...I'm so glad someone posted this. For me it's not the loudness of a sound, but certain sounds themselves. Triggers for me include the sound of someone chewing their food (mouth open or closed) which would be considered barely audible to most people, but they send me 'round the bend.
This! Leaving the room because you can't stand your SO's chewing or swallowing noises and feeling disgusted by the person you love... it's hard.
The weirdest part of Misophonia is the exact same chewing or swallowing noises made by my pets eating doesn't bother me at all.
Load More Replies...My main issues with misphonia are mouth noises and fingernails clicking on keyboards. I prefer to eat alone. Once in a large meeting I reached across a large conference table and grabbed a man’s cup of ice and took it away from him. If I’d listened to him chomp ice any longer, I think flames and lava would’ve spewed from my head.
I had to restrain myself with every fiber of my being when my SIL bf would chew. His jaw would click. There was nothing he could do about it and he had no clue it made me want to throat punch him every time I heard it.
Yeh a woman I know used to breath air in thru a gap in her teeth every few seconds... I just couldn't take it
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General anesthesia. You’re not asleep-it’s nothing like that, you’re not dreaming, you’re nothing… and there is no nothing and you aren’t aware that there’s no nothing.
I had surgery last year and the anaesthetist said something like "now you just have to lie back and dream" and I said "You've never had anaesthesia, have you?". She said she hadn't. I could tell because with anaesthesia you simply don't dream. It's not that sort of sleep at all.
I don't think this goes for everyone. I've been under anaesthesia several times and I tend to dream while I lie on the table. These dreams are usually very vivid (and mostly positive).
Load More Replies...What a wonderful way to describe death. Going to the place you where before you were born. Non existent from the Big Bang to your day of birth and from the time of your death until the last atomic bonds are rendered apart. We only live in the blink of an eye.
that's exactly how i feel about dying, and i think that's why i don't fear it or particularly dread the thought of it. to be perfectly honest, i'm kinda looking forward to it. my only fear of death/dying is that it would be agonizing or long and protracted. other than that, i'm perfectly fine with the concept of no longer being here.
Load More Replies...Best and most refreshing sleep I ever had. I even remember when I was coming out of it, that I started to resist waking up because I was getting such good sleep—-no one mentioned that there was trouble waking me up, so I guess the resistance was all in my mind, but I do have a clear memory of saying to myself, obviously only in my own head, that no, I did not want to wake up; I really want to stay in this lovely comfortable deep sleep a little longer.
This, exactly - the whole of body relaxation is amazing. Last time I asked the recovery nurse to give me a while longer to enjoy that sensation which was granted.
Load More Replies...It has to be the closest thing to dying that we ever come back from. It's just lights out. When you wake up there's no memory, and you don't have any idea how long you've been out.
agreed...it actually made me conclude there is no afterlife, no heaven,no hell...no god...you could have your limbs cut off and never know....we are not special, just another form of animal on this planet....sorry if this is a bummer to some but religion is just a form of control....enjoy life while you can...Peace.☮
Load More Replies...When I went for my last surgery, I was put under general for the first time. They put the mask VERY loosely over my face, but I could feel air coming in around the mask, and I wasn't falling immediately asleep, so I started to panic, wondering when I should say something, and just as I was about to tell the doctor that I thought it wasn't worker, it was like my vision got kicked sideways for half a second, not blurry, it just shifted, and I felt a little mentally wobbly and I thought "Ah! Here it comes!" Out like a light. Woke up 8 hours later.
If I understand correctly, there are two components -- one to deaden senses, one to block memory from forming. The memory block is what really gives the sense of nothingness, of no time having passed.
General anesthesia can be many things as it merely describes the level of sedation, not how you get there. Typically there's an induction period with one set of medications, then a maintenance period. Generally speaking, the goal of whatever medication or medications given is to control pain, block memory, and keep you from moving unexpectedly.
Load More Replies...I've been under general anesthetic twice and it never felt particularly weird to me. The first time was getting my wisdom teeth removed and I remember falling unconscious and waking up (although waking up is patchier). The second time was surgery after an accident - urgent surgery, not emergency surgery, so it had been about 36 hours including being stabilized and then transported to another hospital then waiting for a non-emergency but urgent slot to open up. I don't remember that at all save for some vague memories of being in recovery, because I was on morphine anyway. It doesn't really feel surreal to me - which is not to say that it's not to others!
I've been under twice and this perfectly describes what it's like. When I came round the second time I informed everyone in the recovery room that the anaesthetist looked like a cute kangaroo. General merriment ensued.
Ah yes xD i love videos of ppl coming off the stuff. They sound like only their brain is drunk xD thankfully that didnt happen to me outside me being VERY adement i showed my grandpa my "swollen face"
Load More Replies...I have surgery (open heart) tomorrow (I’m reading bp while waiting for X-rays at the hospital right now) and I’m gonna be put under for the first time so I guess I’ll know this feeling tomorrow lol
Research suggests that women could be better at empathizing with others than men. For example, when The Pew Research Center asked Americans about their thoughts and feelings regarding human suffering in light of the pandemic and other recent tragedies, two-thirds of women (66%) said that in the past year, they have personally thought "a lot" or "some" about big questions such as the meaning of life, whether there is any purpose to suffering and why terrible things happen to people, compared with 55% of men who reported the same.
"There are those who are naturally born with empathy, an innate understanding and feeling for what others are experiencing," Jaffe added. "Some people are empathic souls, yet all of us can learn how to appreciate the emotions of others even if we have never had the same experiences. It is a process that begins internally when we can learn to accept ourselves, one day at a time."
Extreme back pain where you can't move and even struggle to breathe.
Oh hello other me! I think the weirdest part of this type of pain is how insidious it can be. When the back pain and breathing problems are chronic like mine, you start to acclimate to the pain. But there really is no acclimating to not breathing enough. It just steals your brain from you.
Even weirder is when you forget the reason you feel so bad is that you are not breathing enough. My spouse often tells me to “check my breathing” if I’m panicking for no reason… Very often my pain medication has dealt the neuropathic pain, but my breathing is still physically impaired and I won’t always feel how shallow and poorly I am breathing. And that causes my brain to start to worry. Basically, I end up forgetting that I need oxygen to function. I feel like this is similar to the confusion that happens to cave divers and mountain climbers when they don’t have enough oxygen, but having not done these things myself, that’s just speculation…
Load More Replies...I got a disk hernia when I was 23 from making the bed (bend at the KNEE people), I heard a loud crunch and it felt bad but not awful. By the end of the day I literally could not turn over in bed. It was scary and horrifically painful. Took months to be able to walk properly again and I continued to have episodes for the next decade. It is truly shocking when you lose mobility so suddenly like that and I will never take it for granted.
Be aware that sudden and very severe pain in the area shown in the pic should be seen in an ER.
Yup, my lower L2, 3,4, 5.. Are all screwed up. Eventually I ended up "partially paralyzed", on my right leg. So I practically dragged it, until I had surgery on my L3. Which was a 5 mm rupture pressing against my nerves. 2mm more, and I would've been fully paralyzed from the waist down. Gosh it was soo painful. It's hard to describe because my leg was "numb", but I could still feel pain. I have permanent nerve damage in my ankle and foot, neuropathy. But still have a bad back, he worked on the one disc, and said I could just do more surgery with the others. Yeah right lol it made calcification, around my already ruptured discs, degenerative disc disease, and other back stuff. Anytime someone mentions they have back issues, its like auto sympathy from me, I know exactly how tough it can be.I ended up losing my functions, and flown to another hospital that day. Just bumping into that area is scary to me, touching my lower back.. Nuh uh
Load More Replies...I've had spinal operations and now have cauda equina. The back and nerve pain is just unexplainable. I've never felt anything like it and i just sometimes want to end it.
And people won't believe you. If you have a plaster on your leg then they get it but anything to do with back pain, especially chronic pain, and they don't believe you. This includes GPs and Consultants too - if I can't see it, it's not real..
It took me months to to convince a GP to send me for an MRI because I was 'too young for it to be something serious'. They in turns implied that it was a sore back and I should consider loading weight (I was playing rugby 3x a week mind!) or that I just wanted a sick note. The vindication when that scan showed an absolute mess!
Load More Replies...I have a herniated disk, bulging disk, L1-5 are compressed And a pinched nerve all in that L1-5 area. My doctor told me when I was 34 it looked like I had the back of a 60 year old, and that was 5 years ago. I consider it a good day when my pain level is a 6, cause when it's really bad, I'm essentially paralyzed by the pain. They said I couldn't even have surgery til I was older, not that I want it anyway. But sucks that I didn't even have the option.
I had four herniated discs twenty years ago, and now have Degenerative Joint Disease of the spine. The pain is so bad it makes me throw up. I cannot stand unaided for longer than a few minutes, and cannot walk outside the home without 2 walking sticks or crutches. The pain makes me cry, it regularly is too bad for meds to make any difference 😞
Hearing your baby giggle uncontrollably for the first time. Truly unreal. You do everything you can to get them to laugh like that again.
If you don’t want to have children that’s fine and I support your choice!
I don't have or want children, but the pure joy in a young child's laughter is something else.
Couldn't agree more! Don't have kids, don't want them, but absolutely adore the sound of laughing babies!
Load More Replies...I have video. :-) We discovered, one day that Wife trying to juggle 3 oranges made our 9 month old giggle like mad. Grabbed the video cam and caught it. It worked over and over. Keep your video cam very handy. :-)
We have video of our then toddler laughing uncontrollably at the word "wall". 😝 Can't watch it without smiling!
Load More Replies...Hearing my baby fart like a grown man was absolutely hilarious never laughed so hard
The first time I made him laugh for real is one of my favorite moments. I have a video of it and can never watch it too much. In fact I'm going to go do it again right now. :)
I love not being a parent. I love to hear the neighbor kids laughing and playing in their back yard.
That's how my neice got her nickname, she did something silly, and the laughter...we kept being silly, and we laughed...she's my silly girl
That actual physical pain because of a heartbreak.
Horrible, traumatic losses are like this. There are times I wish there was some sort of physical sign you would get so that others could understand how bad things are, but I guess that is evolution keeping our enemies from knowing how vulnerable we are at the moment.
I was just wishing we could go back to the only time you wear black is when you're in mourning (of whatever kind). Then there would be a visible outward signal to tell people to be gentle with you; to cut you some slack when you just can't DO whatever it is someone wants you to do. <3
Load More Replies...I agree with this one, I was in a good relationship for two years with a man who told me he was very happy with me and loved me, then one morning he left my Flat and sent me this horrible email ending things in a rather nasty way. I was stunned and went into shock, I could barely talk. I became really very unwell and got a terrible attack of Shingles on my face (the pain is indescribable) then the Virus attacked an eye and I have had several rounds of treatment (not completely better yet, been 6 months) To just walk away like this and to Ghost someone with whom you very involved with and spent a great deal of time with is horrendous. To this day I am deeply hurt and shocked that he would do this, without any warning and spending a weekend and evening with me.
I am sorry you went through that pain and are still going through it.
Load More Replies...The actual pain of heartbreak can become an actual heart attack! Happened to me when my marriage ended after 20+ years.
I’d heard about people making ‘that noise’ when they find out a loved one died but had never made it myself or heard someone else. Then a good friend died suddenly, and it took me a second to realise ‘that noise’ was me.
There’s research that proves this too https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3076808/
Or seeing it happen to your child. We were out for our daughters birthday dinner when her fiance left her via text. Seeing her go from picking out wedding rings to curled up in a ball sobbing her heart out....I've never wished such horrible things on another human as I did on that boy at that moment.
I never thought this was a thing, until it happened for the first and only time about 7 years ago. Come to find out. I never fully healed from it. I never realized how serious it was or that it was a big deal, until it affected other parts of me.
This is what I felt when I came home one day after work and someone told me my rescue horse (that I loved more than anyone and that been my most trusted friend for years) died while I was away. I literally fell over and it was like I could feel my heart shatter in my chest. I have never experienced anything like it.
People can die of a broken heart. That's why often an older couple that have been married for YEARS will die within a year of each other - one can't live without the other.
For those who want to get better at empathizing with others, Barbara Jaffe recommends three things:
Be kind to yourself. "We must learn to be gentle and patient with ourselves. We must first learn to be empathic with ourselves, to give ourselves a break, to be understanding about our own lives before we can begin to have empathy for others," she said.
Learn to listen — really listen — to others when they are sharing their thoughts and feelings. According to Jaffe, it isn't easy to listen, and our ‘me-centric’ culture isn't helping us develop the habit. But, if we actively try to make eye contact and hear what the other person is sharing, we will get closer to their true emotions.
Share our thoughts with those we trust. "Even if we are a little hesitant to do so, we will experience empathy not only for others but for ourselves. Take a ‘safe risk’ with someone who will listen to us and understand."
The moment your stomach drops after finding out you’ve been cheated on.
I asked my doctor once what is actually causing the pain in the belly when something horrible like that happens and she said it is something that can't yet be explained, but they are finding that the stomach might be the center of feel-good chemicals, so perhaps it has something to do with that. It's such an awful feeling but I want to know what is the actual physical response that is causing that belly ache.
Happened to me 2 times before i found my girl. Cowards and selfish idiots every one of them. This could have been prevented if my ex just told me she wasn't interested any more. Yes it would suck but after you cheat you're worthless and deserve no one till you sort your s**t out.
The emotional pain is awful enough to the point where you physically start vomiting.
After feeling like a brick wall fell on me, I realized that I’d bought her the airplane tickets and driven her to the airport to visit her affair partner the weekend it all started.
It truly does, I still remember that feeling and this was 13 years ago. Wow, I'm getting old
It will stay with you your whole life. 50 years and it still hurts.
Load More Replies...O M G! THIS!! It goes way beyond feeling hurt, betrayed and and enraged...it literally killed my trust. It's been 8 years going on 9 years yet I just don't trust anyone. Not romantically. Well, I do trust one person, my Dog.
I'm gonna get hella esoteric here, but when I retired from programming to be a full-time singer and musician in 2018, I decided if I really wanted to be good at my job, I should start training to sing opera.
It turns out that building a professional operatic sound is bizarre and involves a lot of very fine motor control and the relaxing/engaging of muscles I didn't even know I had. When everything lines up, though, it's insane.
I've just recently started to make some good, professional quality sounds, and the sensation is like nothing in this world. A rumbling in the chest on low notes, a tingling in the "mask" on high notes, and when things are working *really* well, the bizarre sensation like the voice isn't even coming from you. Your body is a perfectly coordinated bellows and the sound just enters the world and carries, like a portal to another dimension of pure sound opened up a couple of inches in front of your face. This is the sound that allows normal people to project unamplified to a house of 2000 people and still be heard over an orchestra.
So yeah, I'm going to say "good operatic singing."
I sing very robustly to my dog and it's turned a scared emotionally broken pup into a tail waging silly boy. The power of song is amazing!
Load More Replies...I understand people in a choir says it is one of the best group human events of cooperation one can do.
Omg yes!! I would take singing in a tight group of people, especially a capella, over singing alone any day! I made it into my state's all- state chamber choir in high school and it was about 25-30 of the best singers in my state and it was literally a spiritual experience singing together! When that many people sing in harmony together and have near- perfect pitch... it's otherworldly and just... indescribable...
Load More Replies...While I can't sing opera I do understand the sensations. I am very proud of my singing voice but those who can sing opera I take my hat off to them because that is some crazy breathing gymnastics.
I could win American Idol if they'd let me bring my shower onstage.
I spent years in classical vocal training and I understand this. While I never sang professionally, the feeling of everything coming together and hitting just the right notes is incredible. Wish I'd stuck with it.
Losing a child. I'm not a parent but I can see for myself how painful it is to lose a child. When my childhood friend died when she was 17, that was the only time I've ever seen a man cry so hard.
Oh heavens at 17? That must have been extremely devastating! I‘ve lost my first child shortly before her due date and I think I will forever be gratefull, that she died like that and has not lived to be any age within her childhood or teen years. That would have broken me.
Im am so sorry you experienced that. I miscarried very early in my first pregnancy, and even though it was still very early, i was heartbroken at the loss of that little life. I can not fathom the depth of devastation of losing a child after it’s born, let alone seeing its life cut short later on.
Load More Replies...Lost my son shortly before his fifth birthday. That was in 1996 and I still cry when I think about him. It feels like there is a giant hole it the middle of you that never closes. Nothing ever feels the same again.
I am SO sorry! How did he die? (You don‘t have to answer if it is too painfull, but if you want to talk about him, I am here)
Load More Replies...And loss isn’t really comparable. An early miscarriage isn’t the same kind of pain as a stillbirth. The loss of a newborn infant isn’t the same as losing an older child. The loss due to an illness isn’t the same as a traumatic fatal injury. None of its the same. So don’t say to someone who lost their teen in a car crash that you understand because you’ve had a miscarriage. Not to say one pain is more or less than another, just saying it’s not the same.
This should be number one. It's indescribable. AND the stupid things people say. "I know how you feel. My dog died." "At least you have 2 more." "God needed him."
Yep, my mum was told things like that when my sister died. Hurt her more. Just to stick to "I'm sorry".
Load More Replies...I lost my son 13 years ago. He was just 23. I still grieve, the pain is unbelievable.
A little girl my daughter's age from her playgroup was diagnosed with leukaemia 2 days before her first birthday. She passed away 2 months before her 3rd birthday. It was absolutely devistating.
I worked with a guy who lost his 18 year old son when he drowned in a creek, he went swimming after a large storm came through. He had to identify the body 3 days after he went missing, I can only imagine how horrible it was to see you kid in that state. All of this happened 3 days before he shipped out to basic training for the Marine Corps. My coworker was a mountain of a man and as hard as steel, but I've never seen a man so broken in my life.
The loss of a parent. It's like you're part of a really s****y club that you have to be in to fully understand.
And the other way round with loss of a child. No parent should outlive their child
How about just letting them have this one instead of adding or changing it for them -
Load More Replies...I think there are different clubs for this. Losing parents who were genuinely good parents and are deeply missed is the first club. Losing parents who were not this, is a different club with different and more complicated feelings. I feel lucky to be in the first club. Sending good vibes to people in the second.
I wish I belonged to the first club. Unfortunately that's not my case.
Load More Replies...Been part of this club for 5 years now... wished this membership had waited a while longer before it got activated :'(
It comes to us all, we know and expect it to happen. Still doesn't prepare you for it though. Then, when you lose the second parent it's like losing the first one as well all over again - you lose your connection, via the second parent, to the first. We all go through this but none of us have found a way to deal with it well..
Sadly it's a rite of passage...most of us will experience it. I lost both my parents last year, and it's so hard, still trying to process it, and having to deal with probate and all the other legal stuff attached to death is crippling...the legal side needs less red tape, we need yo be able to mourn and have permission to not function for a while...but the red tape has a timeline we can't ignore
I remember screaming through the telephone at a credit card company drone who said that the only one who can cancel an account is the account holder. Proved he didn't listen because I started out with, "My father has just died and I want to close the account." What I screamed at him was, HE'S DEAD, You J.A.C.K.A.S.S! He can't do it. Then I hung up and cried for a while.
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Panic attack
Sleep paralysis
I had sleep paralysis and it truly terrified me. Not long after I watched a programme about it, now I just think oh it's that again.
Same thing with panic attacks. My first resulted in an ER visit, but 30 years later, I just think “here we go again” and ride it out.
Load More Replies...Sleep paralysis is one of my worst childhood memories, it took me literally decades to find out what was happening to me and to cope with it
I'll be on meds for life to manage my panic disorder and I get infuriated when people throw around the words "panic attack". My coworker stopped driving to work (hoping to get the all clear to work from home) claiming panic attacks. She came in late one day laughing and said "Well I just had the mother of all panic attacks-haha!" Nobody and I mean NOBODY laughs after having a panic attack.
I've been so bad I was having multiple panic attacks every day. People confuse them for anxiety. A true panic attack will fool you into thinking you're dying every time. Regardless of regularity, it never feels like a panic attack it feels like fast approaching death, due to heart attack or an issue with brain=nervous system. They are so savage, I'd wish them on no one
Load More Replies...I used to get mild sleep paralysis. It happened every time just after I suddenly lost vision in my dream. Dream ends. I'm awake, but I can't open my eyes or move anything. A weird feeling.
A panic attack can be like that scene in a movie when a bomb has gone off and ears are still ringing and everything sounds muffled. Dazzed, confused, disorientated, and under assault from your own senses. Then comes the gravity well. You know, people might understand others better if we could see a tricorder reading of each other's vitals. One of the worst aspects of a panic attack is how easy it can be for people to hide it, and hide it they do because it's embarrassing. So then they just come off as odd and people aren't sure why.
I once had a panick attack because I tried to overcome my fear of heights. That was a very stupid idea. I stayed paralyzed, nearly deaf and totally blind, and went in terror whenever my boyfriend tried to touch me/move me. It took more than 10 minutes to be able to communicate and 10 more to be able to move. When he said 'You're in a very busy spot shall we move ?' I said 'no way. I just can't. I don't care, I'm not even myself at this time.' I feel for people who live this on a regular basis. It's like your brain and your body betray you.
I get sleep paralysis frequently when I've got a migraine. It's a horrible experience. The closest I can describe it is that it's like the camera shots showing the surface of the sea from underneath the water. I feel as though I can see the "surface" (the ability to speak and move) but I can't do anything to get there.
Waking up, but not actually waking up and thinking you’re awake. Scared the s**t out of me.
funny story, before one of my exams, also a big one, i literally had a minor panic attack, my chest was tight, my throat dry, my hand extremely clammy and shaky. when i got to the examination hall, i couldn't find my seat because i was panicky, i was on the verge of tears, i couldn't hold my pen without it falling out of my hands, when i got my paper, i couldn't write for the first 10 minutes, people were already thinking i had cheat notes, i didn't i was just very scared of the exam. when i finally calmed down enough for my hands to reduce its shaking, i realized how simple the exam was. panic attacks are s**t
The first time I remember having sleep paralysis was so terrifying. My eyes were still closed and I remember being so scared. And I tried to call for my mom, but I couldn't open my mouth. It is very wierd
I remember one i had. I was "awake" but couldnt move or scream. If i tried itd be like i had a dry mouth 😭 but i also knew i was asleep so i was trying to wake up.
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Fear for your child.
It actually gets worse in a way because your words of wisdom are just advice now. You cannot protect them from every pain, fix every hurt. They have to make mistakes and you *have* to let them. Hardest part, so far, IMO (mom of 18 f & 21 m)
Load More Replies...Mine has been sick for nearly 2 years. The fear is unbearable. I have to force myself not to think about it for periods of time or I'll go insane.
Constantly! Even if you know they are safe, even if rational thaught tells you they are safe. But I‘m a 40 year old who is afraid of the dark in her own house, so, what do I have to say. lol
Having a child is learning to live with your heart outside of your body. If you have more than one child, your heart is split into as many kids as you have
My son attempted suicide on the other side of the country and I could not go to him.
Latching on that monster booger that's been haunting your nasal cavity for the past 24 hours and slowly getting it out, then being able to breathe through that nostril.
eughhh *shudders* that feeling when it's coming out though it feels like getting that one spaghetti in the back of your throat when you ate too much 🤢
Clearing your sinuses. When they suddenly empty and the excrutiatingly evil headache just suddenly goes! I think, just sometimes, it better than the most satisfying orgasm! (Sorry for that!)
And it has branches because if was latched to all sides of your sinuses so when it comes out you feel it. Such a weird feeling.
When my sinuses clear and I have that monster, semi-firm wad of mucus slip into my throat. It's so disgusting but so satisfying, especially when I can feel air flow into my sinuses again. Glad I haven't experienced it in a minute, but I'll appreciate it when it happens again.
I just threw up in my mouth a little bit, so thanks for that 😜 Seriously though, i know the feeling, and it is a huge relief, but when it happens i have to get it out ASAP because I have the worst gag reflex 😅
Load More Replies...Unfortunately, that happens to me most days. I'm a little tired of it (the official term is non-allergic rhinitis- meaning my nose runs or gets stuffed up with no rhyme or reason. Trust me, I went through a lot of tests for the 3 doctors to decide that).
YES YES YES, when that big stream of mucus finally drains and you can breathe!
amazing feeling, when you can feel it peel away. SUCH a wonderful, tickly relief
Trying to revive a dying person while their wife stands next to you screaming for them. And you’re covered in his vomit and he’s turning blue and you’re 16 and panicking and there’s a dozen people watching you desperately attempt CPR and you don’t even know what happened to him you just know nobody else can help.
People need to be aware of how utterly futile CPR is in most cases. I think TV makes it look like people just bounce back. It's got a 20% survival rate. Of course, gotta try. Also, survival may mean living with massive brain trauma. Not just getting back to the life as it was.
20% if done by paramedics. Much like 5% if done by ordinary people. Anyway, still saving lives, but not all. You must tell yourself you did everything you could do.
Load More Replies...I have been lucky, very lucky, one who I did CPR on survived, one who didn’t. The odds of survival when this happens are not 1 in 2. I was lucky that one survived until the paramedics arrived and took over and defibrillated their heart, the other one they said was dead before we even started to put breaths into him, massive heart attack. On both occasions I was part of a three person team who took turns, CPR is physically exhausting it needs teamwork to work best, learn how to do it and be there if required. The emotional exhaustion comes along later when the gravity of it all hits you like a train.
A guy I dated in 9th grade (15 y/o) dropped everything to administer real (as opposed to trying out something we saw on an episode of E.R.) CPR to our school custodian, Jim, who dropped to the ground from a heart attack. Kid saved his LIFE! He got an award from the city's fire department & a lifetime supply of baked goods from Jim's wife. It was wild.
And CPR classes don't warn, or well enough, tell you about breaking bones to do this procedure.
Yes, it was a horrible feeling to be doing compressions and feel the Patient's ribs breaking.
Load More Replies...When you're not an EMT, and your the first on scene at an accident and take head stabilizer responsibility of a head covered in blood. Hadn't considered being am EMT before, and knew it wouldn't be for me after how long it took me to get over that one insance.
Tom as a former EMT was really difficult indeed and took up a lot of time. I saved a friend's life and it was so gratifying, my late Ex Husband said it was the best money he ever spent in his life paying for the Courses. I am extremely glad I did it.
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Brain zaps for some when coming off of certain anti-depressants. It can be completely disorienting and borderline torturous.
I experienced these for the first time a few days ago, after my pharmacy screwed up my Rx and I ran out prematurely. Good thing I knew what they knew what they are. Mine lasted maybe five seconds each, but that five seconds is weird and disconcerting.
I get it not just in my head but all over my body, like my nerve endings are shooting electricity. Really uncomfortable! I had it when I went on holiday to Italy and forgot my meds, ruined the last few days but all my own fault.
Load More Replies...The zaps and then the woosh that feels like your brain is literally swilling around in your head. It's horrible.
For me, it's exactly like this. It's like your brain is moving on its own. Sometimes it's like your skull moves and then your brain catches up a split second later.
Load More Replies...Which is why I'll likely never go off of them. My brain won't let me anyway. ;)
Immediately knew what this was. It's the only way to describe it! Just small little electric-like zaps inside your head. I had them when switching medical offices and couldn't get my meds fast enough. I remember getting them and taking them immediately in the car to make the zaps stop.
I call them "brain shivers". I still get them months after going off Zoloft.
Same here with Lexapro, but I call them "brain zots" :)
Load More Replies...When I came off Citolopram, every so often the world seemed to jump slightly to the left. It was extremely bizarre. When I told my doctor, he was a little annoyed with me! I had taken myself off a fairly high dose to nothing, apparently, I wasn't supposed to do that!
It's so strange to hear someone else describe what I've felt. Mine always feels like a light switch being turned off and on quickly. My wife can tell if I've missed mine. That split second of blankness is disorienting.
Load More Replies...I went cold turkey off 375mg venlafaxine (Effexor). They were so bad I was stumbling walking. I also get myoclonic seizures which have a very similar feeling in both my brain and affected limb (they're random movements) - ugh
That's the exact same dose I take of it and I've been warned to never stop it suddenly. For the reason you just mentioned!
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Hate. Like, *real* hate.
I've just recently felt real hate for the first time. Not spur-of-the-moment anger or rage, but persistent hate. I want terrible things to happen to this person. I hope they lose their job. I hope they end up broke and can't move out of their POS dad's house. I hope their friends shun them. I hope they fail at everything they want to succeed in. I hope they get mugged. I hope their new car gets totalled. I hope they suffer. I hope they feel nothing but despair. They were one of my best friends for over a decade, and now, if they died tomorrow, I wouldn't go to their funeral.
This is the most nasty, disgusting thing I've ever felt. It's like a fire in my chest that turns everything it touches black. I'm ashamed to feel the way I do. I *hate* hate. I hate that I feel this way about another person. But I do
I didn't know hate could be cold until a once friend called the baby I miscarried at 6 weeks a parasite, telling me she wasn't even a real baby yet. Books always describe hate as hot but I promise you it can be freezing cold.
Oh my word. That is unimaginable. I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby. I am not sorry for the loss of your friend. That's a weight you do not deserve to carry.
Load More Replies...I felt true "I hope they burn in hell for all eternity" hate for the first time last year. Genuine "I could watch you die a horrible death and be ok with it" hate. My mother gave me a set period of time that I was allowed to feel it. It sounds strange, but it was fantastic advice. I allowed myself to feel it fully, to talk about it, to wallow in it for that set period of time and then I put it away. It still rears it's head but not like that initial time.
I have to tell you that I have been through this. It wears on you and does a lot of harm mentally and physically. Go to a counselor and learn how to channel that anger because it will tear you apart.
Same, but I don't dwell on it or let myself feel the hate/rage, but I acknowledge its there
Load More Replies...Hate is powerful but don't let it control you. It's alright to have hate as long as it's not consuming you. Or causing you to obsess. I get the feeling my step father causes similar feelings, but I try to be a better person in spite of him.
Good thing you realised what it is and what you feel. Maybe a therapist could help?
There is a woman I hate. Last Saturday I found out that her life has been burned to the ground and there is no coming back from the karmic retribution that has been visited upon her. I could not stop laughing. The person who told me forgot that she had done me really dirty and that we are enemies now. He just said, "You know what? Good for you. I feel like I am watching you get closure." It felt so petty. Don't care. I'm chuckling as I write this thinking about what a little snake she is and how she got exactly what she deserves. I feel bad that I don't feel bad....but I still don't feel bad.
That adreneline from walking onto a stage. Then that moment where you overcome whatever hardship that was presented on that stage and the croud roars and cheers you on. That is a high that I chase non stop. And it never gets old.
It might be because I've just read the pie post, but that curtain doesn't half look like rhubarb
Standing on stage before the show starts and hearing the audience on the other side of the curtain in one of my favorite things in the world. That and the first sing through with the orchestra after you've been rehearsing to just a piano for months.
There is no better feeling than crushing a 90 minute set and having the crowd cheer for more. Even if its only a couple dozen people, you feel like Mick Jagger for the night. Its complete and total euphoria that you get the share with your bandmates, truly magical.
I miss it more than anything from college in hindsight. The band thing is a d**g like no other.
Load More Replies...As someone who's done solos and NYSSMA since 6th grade (im in 8th) and just did their first theater production (newsies) a few months ago I definitely understand this. It really never gets old..
I didn't like the adreneline kick from acting on stage even as a child. Wasn't worth the applause and relief afterwards. Never.
This. This a thousand times! I have so much more confidence onstage than I do in real life, it’s a special kind of magic.
I've been dancing since I was 2 and I am numb to the feeling at this point. The stage has always felt like a secondhome to me
Pure and unconditional love. That way it sitting on your heart, the warm feeling it spreads across your chest. The infinite happiness when you are with them. The unspoken words between each other that both fully understand. And knowing that, that person is the first and last face you see.
On the other hand, the sudden loss of one of the most important people in your life. That empty void that was once positive emotions, now dark negative emotions or no emotions at all. The coldness you feel towards life and towards the world. Like a piece of your own soul was also lost that day, a piece that will never come back.
I lost my best friend to suicide 4 years ago. I'm thankful for the time we had together and all the fond memories we made together but I can't think about my childhood without that blight hanging over it. When he took his life he took a piece of me with him and IDK if that part of me will ever heal. If you feel like you're on the precipice of doing something to hurt yourself, please reach out to your loved ones. I guarantee they would rather listen to you incoherently babble about your struggles than have to visit you in the funeral home.
R.I.P. Marquis. You were a total prick but you were MY total prick. Now that you are gone I still can't even think about "replacing" you. Can't be done and it wouldn't be fair.
When my mom called, and didn’t say, “Hi, it’s me, Bubbe’s fine,” and there was just silence on the line, my knees literally buckled out from under me while walking down the streets of Manhattan. That was in 2002, and we named our daughter after her. 💕 I still miss her, she was an amazing grandma.
I understand this. I don’t think the other person ever *fully* liked me back, but I felt this. And when they moved away… even when they respond to my letters, that feeling comes rushing back.
As long as people learn at a young age that "love ever after" is a fairy tale. All relationships fizzle out. Once the sex appeal has faded, then you have to actually learn to live together as you see them, warts, bad habits, and all.
It’s only a fairy tale if you’re with the wrong person. My first two boyfriends, yes, after the passion and sex appeal died down, and I saw their true colors, I thought the fairy tale isn’t real. This is how it is. This is reality of modern couples. Romance is dead. I sometimes feel like I wasted 10 years on those jerks. I never gave up on the relationships and they did. But now I feel like I’ve been rewarded with my husband. He has shown me romance is not dead. We do things together that we have never done with our exes. I’m 33 and he’s 39, so I feel the stage we are in life may have something to do with it. We just want to do fun low key things together. We hike, play mini-golf, grocery shop together, cook together, do house chores together. He cooks and cleans for me when I’m exhausted. He does all the laundry when I haven’t gotten to it, no questions or complaints. He makes me tea every morning and night. I’ve never had a man care for me like he does for me. Romance is not dead!
Load More Replies...After 42 years together, my partner suddenly died two months ago. I am fine: it's almost like he is still with me.
Loneliness. I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.
You can be alone but not lonely and you can be with people and feel lonely..
I never feel more lonely than when in the presence of my husband... so this is accurate
Load More Replies...The truth is - that almost every human on the planet experiences deep loneliness at some point. When you are in the pit, though- it's hard to believe. But remember- basically every great philosopher will tell you- We are alone- all our lives. When we can share our loneliness with someone- that's when we can forget it for a while.
And the advice you get from friends... join a bookclub!!! I don't want a BLANKING bookclub, i want someone to understand how I feel.
I am always alone but never lonely. I love my own company. I'm a funny m**********r.
Had a taste during a panic attack. Glad it didn't last. Glad to have friends & social interaction even though I need to be alone after that.
Sometimes being lonely is better than being surrounded by fake happiness
It's a physical ache... not feeling connected to anyone or even a beloved pet.. We are not meant to be alone like that.
Completely blocking out events in your life and suddenly remembering them.
My new house has a lemon and a tangerine tree in the backyard. I ws walking past them on afternoon and the scent of their blooms brought me alllll the way back to being about 5 years old at my grannies farm. I had all but forgotten that I had been to her farm. I remembered the rooms, Papas straw ghat on the wall.. it was surreal. I had to call my mom an confirm this was a real memory.
Load More Replies...I went through that about 40 years ago. It was like intellectually I was aware on some level of what had happened to me, but was just in complete denial. I imagined it as a giant box like a treasure chest in my mind with big stickers all over it saying "do not touch", and one day, it was just THERE ... OPEN! And my memories were in there and it messed me up for a long time. I don't think I'll ever really get over it. The worst part is, I've only ever told one person once, in a moment of desperation, and even then, I wish I could unsay it, take it back, just never tell anyone what happened.
I had a traumatic experience. Never told anyone. Had to deal with it young. Decided to just forget it because I thought I did the right thing not telling anyone and had put myself in a safe position. To be honest, police would have done nothing. Then, a few years after, I remembered. The black ink vanished and I saw everything, each little detail, each voice, every touch, every thought. It was so vivid I was in shock. The months after, I told a very good friend, and then I proceeded to look at every single bit of it and try and accept all of it. I was safe. I made a decision that was right AT this time. Maybe I could have prevented him from doing more harm but it would have destroyed me and my family, probably not him. He couldn't do anything more. He had died a couple years before. I suffered from looking at every detail, but after a while it became easier. Now I'm no longer affected by this event. Took years. I hope some day you'll be able to be in peace with what happened to you.
Load More Replies...yep- or realizing something you thought was normal as a kid was ab*se...
Just waiting to remember my recurring dream that I know happened, remember thinking that it was interesting, can’t remember a single detail.
Or they come back as nightmares and when you're telling your mother about the nightmare you had and she stops and says, "that actually happened".
I had a flashback of childhood abuse, it scared me so badly. What was scarier still was the person I experienced it with went on to SA me a few months later.
Incredibly jarring. Especially at work where there is nowhere to hide.
Being pregnant.
It's crazy. It's amazing. It's scary. It's wonderful. It's painful. It's exhausting. It's life changing. (Currently pregnant for the third time. 8th month. I still try to process all the feelings every day)
It's been 17 years since I was and I can still feel phantom flutters sometimes. It is truly indescribable.
Load More Replies...I really hope you will succeed. I struggled for years and was close to acceptance, then it happened. Stay strong!
Load More Replies...This was pure hell for me. Can't realy describe it, but for me it was like I had a parasite in me leaching my body. I was in full terror and hated it. Only when I felt the fetus coming out on the toilet after tak8ng abortion pills, I felt I could breathe again and my body started to act normal again. I know for some this sounds harsh or crazy, but that was my experience. Never again, I was in full terror.
I am not good when it comes to children or emotions, and I don’t think a child deserves a mother who can never be a mom. But my best wishes to all the moms, or who wishes to be a mom, reading this :)
I don't even know how to describe it, but when baby moves it's amazing!
I feel so badly for those who didn't have a good experience. I got lucky and it was lovely.
Even though it could be extremely uncomfortable at times, I genuinely enjoyed being pregnant. It was such a unique sensation.
Borderline Personality Disorder. It feels... awful. You cannot trust your brain (I also have bipolarity), you overshare, overthink, over attach to ANYONE. Fighting those feelings is draining. You are a prisoner of your own brain.
The excruciating volume of bad feelings. Goes up in 2 seconds and takes hours to go away. It's almost impossible not to do anything to get go away. ANYTHING. But acting on it only causes further damage to you and other people too.
Weirdest random fact: playing slither.io helped me tremendously with letting a flare of anger go, because if you get mad at another snake and then try to hurt/kill it, you will die about 90% of the time. So you get mad but learn to drop it and move on, and that ability grows like a muscle. I’m calling it app-assisted biofeedback.
Load More Replies...I was diagnosed about a year ago and I am still trying to work out what’s a real emotion and what’s triggered by the disorder. I am so over it
They are all real emotions, some are just stronger than what is normally called for in any given situation. You need to understand healthy emotional responses before you understand your own.
Load More Replies...Interestingly, the notion that it is caused by severe abuse is now being challenged, with more attention going to genetic and brain-wiring factors. 30-60% of those with BPD (depending on the study) do not report severe or even moderate to severe abuse/neglect. So some do - but far from all. And about 40% is found to be genetically related.
I've never met anyone irl with BPD before. Thank you for putting these agonizing feelings into words.❤️
I can confirm this. It sucks. It’s an absolute miserable thing to deal with. Wasn’t diagnosed until a few years ago, but it explained so much for me. I absolutely hate it when I’m triggered. For me a rage cycle is always immediately followed by depression because I feel bad for how horrible I was. All I can do is apologize and try to be mindful of when I can feel myself getting to that point. There are lots of times when there’s no getting there, it’s just instant. Self awareness and therapy have helped a lot, but it’s a continuous daily struggle.
My daughter was abused physically, verbally, emotionally and financially by a lesbian lover with borderline personality disorder. If you meet someone with borderline personality disorder, run. Just run.
Not always true. Depends on whether they are self-aware and managing it or not. If someone (as is increasingly the case nowadays) is diagnosed at a young age and learns awareness and skills, they can be challenging but not at all impossible to be around. Having said that, I am so sorry about your daughter's experience. Being around an unself-aware BPD sufferer can be disastrous.
Load More Replies...My mom had this untreated all through my childhood. It came out about 4 years ago with a suggestion from my therapist to have get my mom diagnosed and sure enough it was bpd. Her illness effected my sister, my dad, and myself. My dad told me recently that when i was 8 that the doctor who diagnosed my adhd also diagnosed my mom with bpd but they did nothing with that info but not because my dad didn't but because it just really wasn't understood back then.
Standing on stage and singing lyrics you wrote into a microphone while a crowd sings them back at you.
Incredible. It’s a high I’ve never replicated in the years since I stopped making music as a serious endeavor.
That's got to be incredible, and so affirming. Hard to duplicate that with self-affirmation.
When I read something like this from someone who clearly had at least some level of celebrity, it always makes me wonder who they are. But, I will respect their anonymity and privacy.
When you're on-stage and everything comes together: all the performers, you and your instrument, the crowd in the moment with you. You've got to feel that.
If you can write and sing lyrics and get people to sing them back at you, you have a rare and wonderful talent. Would you not consider taking it up again?
Hypoglycemia. I am type one diabetic and although i have very tight control thanks to low carb, occasionally low glucose events can still happen. Very scary feeling, shaky with a sense of horrific doom. Hard to explain to my husband and its weird to me that he will never know what i mean when i tell him about it. Only happens a few times a year thankfully!
Firstly, well done!! To keep working through this is so incredibly draining, you're doing amazingly! I feel this! It's a very hard one to explain, I've suffered with hypoglycemia for years to the point of blacking out, the only way I can describe it is like a dream state world where you're detached from everything but still there with the feeling of being very drunk movement, speech and brain functionality wise but not. Feeling trapped by it all. Unfortunately this is a daily/weekly occurrence my end and the feeling never changes. My heart goes out there to all you other type 1's! ❤️
Oof.. I am non symptomatic.. By the time I feel it I'm in real danger like in my 30's. I have a dog who greatly helps out now and I have gotten very good with my control, but Man, that is a super scary feeling. I was having a hypoglycemic spell and couldnt think enough to manage my sugar/ meds and asked a friend who was also a pharmacist who lived 2 blocks away if he could please help me. He said no. It was his days with his sons and he would not be coming over. I called another friend in desperation knowing they knew nothing about my condition but hoping that if i messed up they could at least call the ambulance for me. He said he was at his sisters house about 50 miles away. I lay there resigned to my fate trying to get things under control when my friend from out of town said he was at the door and to let him in. He brough orange juice, snacks and a movie. It's no wonder that 13 years later we are married and he's my best friend.
I get real cranky and real mean when this happens. It's almost like I am aware I'm being a d**k, but have no control over it.
Dizzy, shaking, weak, sweating, everything suddenly seems to bright, light headedness, panic. Horrible.
Happens quite a lot with my partner, in fact she's shown me how to use the glucagon pen when things get serious...
Other pandas, I have been 'prediabetic' since my 20's. Never diagnosed straight up diabetic. I get dizzy once in awhile, does that sound like a blood sugar thing?
I have problems processing potassium properly, and when it gets low I get dizzy n shaky. I usually pass out tho. I have tachycardia, so they're checking me for POTS. Unfortunately a lot of different BP issues, or heart issues can cause this as well. Keep a journal of when this happens, what you ate, and what you were doing. I have some "diabetic" symptoms, like hypoglycemia, neuropathy and cpl others. Unfortunately some disorders can overlap, or share symptoms. Not saying that's what it is, but its best just to get a physical and blood work done, if you can. I started with dizzy spells, then full on passing out. 2 weeks ago I "fainted". Smashed my forehead into my kits water dish, dislocated my wrist, and tore a ligament in my ankle, because I fell wrong.
Load More Replies...I know the smptoms well. Sweaty hands first, then getting light headed and the next step is sweating all over and trembeling. Hard to control on your blood sugar level then.
My husband is also type 1, but he doesn't get the impending dread with low blood sugars, and I think that's because he's a Christian. I've seen him shaky and sweaty and trying to eat and not pass out with some crazy low numbers.
Dissociation
Literally my default state. It's like an out of body experience, you feel disconnected from everything and function like you're on autopilot, your vision goes hazy, there's emotional numbness and memory lapses. That mixed with depression. It's not a great feeling.
I'm sorry you endure this & I'm glad you're here with us 💜
Load More Replies...For me I have two types. The first is where I just shut down I can't talk or respond or take info in at all (audio, visual, or oral) and I will just be like a shell until I come back into my head. The second kind is like I'm on autopilot so I'll do things and answer you but there's no proper thought process and I can't really answer beyond "yes, no, I don't know" and when I come to again I won't have any memories. Sometimes it feels nice to dissociate bc you're in such a panicked or anxious state that you just shut off and the fear and panic and everything just leaves you empty and it's kind of like you're floating in water by yourself with your eyes closed or being alone floating in space or like a computer rebooting in the middle of a taxing task. But most of the time it's inconvenient and frustrating and just all you need when you've got other stuff, esp mh stuff, going on. And always makes me feel awful that I never remember anything. And even worse when other people have to tell me basically my memories from even just 10 minutes ago...
Oh my god all the time. I remember the first time I experienced this. I was in kindergarten and just staring at a gecko on the wall. And I just kept staring at it until I felt like I was it. I wasn't me. What if I was anyone else in the world. My little head was clouded up with crazy feelings and thoughts and everything went foggy. Feels so dizzy and that's pretty scary for a 5 year old.
I experienced this for the first time about two years ago. I was in a full blown panic attack. I couldn't breath, my ADHD brain went into overdrive. A thousand thoughts a second filled with truely debilitating fear. Then nothing. The world felt like it broke. Everything seemed like it was slanted, the sense of touch was delayed but super sensitive. I couldn't hear my now ex gf anymore, her mouth was moving but nothing. I recognized her but it was vague like a dream I was trying to remember, she seemed like a whole different person. Nothing felt like it was. It never fully came back. I can't tell which one was real, the before or after.
oh my god this. randomly passing in front of mirror, you see yourself and then think 'is that me?', you touch your face and find that you're real, you think again looking at your hands when you seemingly can't feel it, 'am I real, is this real?',, you say something, 'is that my voice?' you stand there for a while, 'am i trapped in a body that's not mine?', the thoughts go around your day, you get your feeling of association back but its still bugging you, the concept of existing, then the other that gets to me, is the concept of death...i am not even close to being 17
Watching everything from behind a window add bipolar and schizoaffective disorder wow what a mess.
Hello darkness my old friend, I've come to talk with you again... Dissociation is my bestie often.
The therapy needed to remerge those states of mind is just as (if not more) awful. You have to relive all the trauma and feelings without disassociating AND process everything as well.
Coma. I had the privilege of falling into a coma. Can't describe it to anyone, and everyone who's heard of it asked how it felt
True story- I was in a coma nearly twenty years ago ( got badly beaten up outside a nightclub) and from what I remember was that I thought i was on a ship- like a roman ship where you have to row, and that the ship was rocking.... I later found out when i recovered, that the reason I thought I was on a ship, was in fact, the intensive care bed where I was laying, had air cushions that rocked you, to prevent bed sores....
The ugly green puffy vests (that I hated, but pretnded to like) my sister made; one for me & one for my newborn that for some reason my sister decided to put on my legs. Turned out to be the air filled things the nurses put on your legs to keep the blood circulating. 😅
Load More Replies...I went into cardiac arrest and was in ICU for about 10 days, coma for about 4-5. I wasn't awake...I knew that. I couldn't move or open my eyes...but I still could hear the nurses talking to me regularly. I could feel them move me...but it was as if it was though I was feeling it in someone else's body? Very strange sensation..
I've been there myself. Some cool hallucinations, even more beyond terrifying hallucinations,and some things from the outside that actually got through.
My mom coded twice in the hospital and I ask her what it was like to technically die and she just gets mad and said nothing stop asking lol
I was put into a medically induced coma for about a week and I actually woke up at one point and what did I do? I checked to make sure I was restrained properly, then I had an itch SO bad on my thigh and as I was trying to reach it, back under I went! Graham Chapman, I was on one of those mattresses as well, LOVED IT.
........first time I've ever seen anyone refer to being in a coma as a "privilege"
When a hair gets caught behind your prosthetic eye and you pull it out and feel it sliiiiiiiiiiide through your remaining eye bits.
ok i hope I will never ever ever ever have to experience this
Reading that gave me a horrible feeling in my stomach and ears
Load More Replies...Closest I get to this is pulling one of my LONG hairs from my bumcrack only to find that it was trapped further ... south
I was just thinking about this and seen your comment 😀
Load More Replies...On a much lower level, I felt something similar when a very long hair, about 50/60 cm., went in my mouth and descended in the esophagus going almost to the stomach, but still remained stuck between two teeth, and I had to pull it out... I still can feel it after many years.
I once had to extract a hair from a mostly healed surgical scar. It was an exceptionally gross feeling, but still doesn't seem as bad as this!
I have both of my eyes and I can only imagine the pain this person must experience. Getting hair in one’s eyes or having an eyelash fall into one eye is bothersome enough!
Sometimes it's more annoying than painful. It can hurt a lot, it just depends.
Load More Replies...That sounds fascinating. I can feel it happening thanks to the description. Yes, I‘m wired.
Some of us still have small, undeveloped eyes behind the prosthesis. The artifical eye is more like a cup that hugs the remaining eye tissue, rather than a round ball.
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Going through a psychosis
The same goes for the people who have to watch you do it. My ex-husband lost his mind right in front of me and the person that emerged from that took over from my actual husband and killed him. I can't even describe how traumatic that was.
Hearing about this, I can fully understand how people once came to the notion that it was demon possession. I’m not religious at all, but I’m not entirely convinced that it’s *not* demon possession.
Load More Replies...Worst thing that ever happened to me. Ever. Still scared of thinking about it, talking about it, everything. Medical malpractice. Halved my antidepressant dose. Fkd for over a year. Never took it to court, couldn't face it. Brings me to strangled tears typing this.
The constant fear because l never knew if or when or where it would happen again. I could not trust my own mind. Biggest reason l never tried illicit d***s- can't fathom why anyone would want to feel like that on purpose.
My hubby says the same- "I've actually been 'out of my head', why on earth would I want to simulate that?" Not something he wants to mess around with.
Load More Replies...I went to a d**g/sleep deprivation induced phycosis as a teen. I have never been so scared in my life. Lucky it only lasted for a few days. The after effects lasted for weeks. The paranoia was the worst.
Skydiving. 1 minute of freefall from 15000ft... total system overload!!
System overload is the right wording for this. For the first second or two, your brain cannot deal with what is happening to your body. It braces for an impact that is thousands of metres below. Everything is scrambled. Thankfully, rational brain takes over and you can start to enjoy the view and the sensations.
I can honestly say I didn't enjoy a single second of it lol! I screamed and shut my eyes the whole way down!
Load More Replies...I would SO LOVE to experiance that! But I am afraid of hights…. And irrational about the parachute not opening….
go to an Ifly location they put you in a wind tunnel and you float in a column of air there is the instructor with you to help you stay stable telling you how to position your body.
Load More Replies...I'll just stay down here on the ground with the nice gravity but hey, y'all have fun!
I want to skydive so bad, but when I look up places to do it by me, they all offer discounts. Nah, I want the company that's like, "we've never killed anyone, so no 25% off your first jump. Actually we charge double."
discounts don't necessarily mean the quality is less. they might just want to keep busy during off peak periods, or use a discount to get you in the door in the hopes that you will like it and want to do it again. although, i find the idea of a skydiving company having an accident and then trying to get people to come back with discounts is morbidly humorous for some reason...
Load More Replies..."Try Your Luck Skydiving Company! Because why jump out of a perfectly good plane? Our planes are old and rickety and might be ready to fall out of the sky so when it's time to jump you'll count yourself lucky that you weren't in that flaming wreck on the ground!"
Load More Replies...I can imagine the great feeling, but,nope; I will take your word for it, good luck with it though.
Did a tandem once. It was a thrill, but it was also one of the most calming spiritual experiences of my life. It's fair to say it was precisely what I should have been doing at that exact moment.
I did one of those 500 feet free fall glider on a bungee things 20 years ago and I often tell people that free falling is the most terrifying sensation I've ever felt.
I was most scared going up in the plane with this opening in front of me, only covered by some kind of plastic and I wasn't yet attached to my tandem guy, the one with the ACTUAL parachute on HIS back. Once we were clicked together and went out the plane, the rush of air during freefall was totally exhilerating! Then he opened the chute and the silence as we drifted toward Earth was one of the most amazing, calming experiences of my life. I absolutely loved it and I'm so glad I did it!
Getting tased. Words don't really capture what happens. It isn't exactly pain, but it's not good either.
I repaired pro-audio electronics for over 40 years. I periodically accidentally would get electrocuted from the 110VAC power circuit or the DC discharge from a power supply filter capacitor. All were horrible experiences.
Same... also did TVs back in the day and when you get the dummies tied on and forget to discharge the system before pulling off the anode of the picture tube and you come to about 9 feet from where you were sitting... LOL!
Load More Replies...Was at a farm and touched an electric fence. I felt warm all over and could feel it traveling through my body. When it came around and connected, I felt wobbly and sick to my stomach. Not fun.
I have to assume it's like touching an electric fence, just amped up to 10.
Police officer candidates have to experience this in the Academy, and pepper spray so that they know how it feels. And have a professional fight with them for 15 minutes.
I own a "taser" for protection. I won't deny that my teenage sons took turns tasing each other. I own pepper spray too. Both of my daughters have pepper spray keychains. Tf you gonna use common sense now? Our continue to live in your extremely small bubble of ignorant judgement. Yk they also practice tasing in the police force AND military... To each other. Way to make assumptions. Too bad there was no thought behind it.
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Phantom pain of your body trying to pull up a testicle that have been removed and how it feels like it was sucking on air and then it freaking out and making it ache where it’s no longer there.
I get phantom tooth pains. Got em all pulled 13 years ago. As for the ball thing, I was born without em. Natural born eunuch here.
Having a migraine is one that wasn't mentioned above. The kind of pain that when you're walking feels like you're being hit on the head with a hammer every time your foot hits the ground, or feels like the inside of your skull has spikes on it that are poking into your brain, or make a grown man go to the emergency room crying like a baby.
Having chronic and deabilitating migraines is really bad. Longest migraine I've had lasted 5 months straight. Lost over 30 pounds. Vertigo, extreme nausea, hallucinating, passing out. You never get used to these things with a migraine. I've been dealing with migraines like this the last 34 years.
Load More Replies...I mentioned this on another post a moment ago, but the feeling of when someone who you genuinely thought cared about you (platonically), just wanted to sleep with you. It's this feeling of betrayal, worthlessness, pointlessness, just feeling like you've wasted whatever you put into that relationship.
And it just feels gross - like physically gross. I'm not saying the other person is physically gross, of course! I've had this happen to me and I found my reaction was both emotional and physical, like I was repulsed.
Load More Replies...The isolation, powerless and hopelessness that is abuse. When someone who is supposed to care about you spends every day tearing you down, manipulating you, isolating you and destroying any means of escape. Losing all hope or faith as you watch your abuser being praised and congratulated for how wonderful they are for putting up with you. Nobody believing that you are being abused. Knowing your only way out is one of you dying. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
True suicidal feeling. There are people that are depressed and think about suicide but that's more of a way to just stop the problem(s), if those problems were to be taken care of/disappear, then no suicide. But ... there's a specific feeling in the back of your head that just ... happens. It's not like a switch, but it's not a slow burn either ... that feeling is best described as an opposite awakening ... a deadening. It's a very specific feeling when self-preservation is no longer part of the brain function. It's rather hard to describe but those that have had it know.
Ik ben de wereld, in mij is onstuitbaar de doodsbloem ontloken (Jotie T'Hooft) (I am the world, in me has unstoppable the deathflower emerged)
Load More Replies...Oh and come to think of it, the feeling of your milk coming in. So weird.
Load More Replies...Metastatic cancer. The effects of multiple treatments, medications and doctor visits. We all pass, but when your oncologist tells you that your time is limited - that hits the hardest.
My sister is in the early stages of this grief now. I hope you are doing ok, Phillster, and managing your disease well.
Load More Replies...I was pepper sprayed and HOLY S**T it's one of the worst pains ive ever experienced.
Try being tear-gassed. We had to experience this when I was in the police academy so we would know what it felt like if we had to use it. At least they tell you to not touch your eyes. You just run to the nearest shower and burn your clothes later, because tear gas is a solid, not a gas.
Load More Replies...Extreme tooth pain. There's nothing to do but curl up in the fetal position and cry.
Having a seizure. Most of the time, I have no that I'm going to have one (I have epilepsy & have had many seizures), but it's really terrifying when I do know. Even more so, waking up after a seizure is very disorienting and scary, especially if you're alone.
I have a different type of seizure. Takes place in the communication center of my brain. Can't speak (think stroke victim), can't read, etc. I can continue doing anything else ie doing dishes. Mini seizures feel like the world shifts for a second. Never really been able to explain it.
Load More Replies...Having a migraine is one that wasn't mentioned above. The kind of pain that when you're walking feels like you're being hit on the head with a hammer every time your foot hits the ground, or feels like the inside of your skull has spikes on it that are poking into your brain, or make a grown man go to the emergency room crying like a baby.
Having chronic and deabilitating migraines is really bad. Longest migraine I've had lasted 5 months straight. Lost over 30 pounds. Vertigo, extreme nausea, hallucinating, passing out. You never get used to these things with a migraine. I've been dealing with migraines like this the last 34 years.
Load More Replies...I mentioned this on another post a moment ago, but the feeling of when someone who you genuinely thought cared about you (platonically), just wanted to sleep with you. It's this feeling of betrayal, worthlessness, pointlessness, just feeling like you've wasted whatever you put into that relationship.
And it just feels gross - like physically gross. I'm not saying the other person is physically gross, of course! I've had this happen to me and I found my reaction was both emotional and physical, like I was repulsed.
Load More Replies...The isolation, powerless and hopelessness that is abuse. When someone who is supposed to care about you spends every day tearing you down, manipulating you, isolating you and destroying any means of escape. Losing all hope or faith as you watch your abuser being praised and congratulated for how wonderful they are for putting up with you. Nobody believing that you are being abused. Knowing your only way out is one of you dying. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
True suicidal feeling. There are people that are depressed and think about suicide but that's more of a way to just stop the problem(s), if those problems were to be taken care of/disappear, then no suicide. But ... there's a specific feeling in the back of your head that just ... happens. It's not like a switch, but it's not a slow burn either ... that feeling is best described as an opposite awakening ... a deadening. It's a very specific feeling when self-preservation is no longer part of the brain function. It's rather hard to describe but those that have had it know.
Ik ben de wereld, in mij is onstuitbaar de doodsbloem ontloken (Jotie T'Hooft) (I am the world, in me has unstoppable the deathflower emerged)
Load More Replies...Oh and come to think of it, the feeling of your milk coming in. So weird.
Load More Replies...Metastatic cancer. The effects of multiple treatments, medications and doctor visits. We all pass, but when your oncologist tells you that your time is limited - that hits the hardest.
My sister is in the early stages of this grief now. I hope you are doing ok, Phillster, and managing your disease well.
Load More Replies...I was pepper sprayed and HOLY S**T it's one of the worst pains ive ever experienced.
Try being tear-gassed. We had to experience this when I was in the police academy so we would know what it felt like if we had to use it. At least they tell you to not touch your eyes. You just run to the nearest shower and burn your clothes later, because tear gas is a solid, not a gas.
Load More Replies...Extreme tooth pain. There's nothing to do but curl up in the fetal position and cry.
Having a seizure. Most of the time, I have no that I'm going to have one (I have epilepsy & have had many seizures), but it's really terrifying when I do know. Even more so, waking up after a seizure is very disorienting and scary, especially if you're alone.
I have a different type of seizure. Takes place in the communication center of my brain. Can't speak (think stroke victim), can't read, etc. I can continue doing anything else ie doing dishes. Mini seizures feel like the world shifts for a second. Never really been able to explain it.
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