Some months ago, I started drawing my thoughts as an person struggling with generalized anxiety, panic attacks and depression.
I started these drawings because I'm really bad at explaining what's inside my head, and explaining by drawing has always been a lot easier for me.
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Oh good grief! I hate it when people say "it's all in your head". First of all you don't know s**t about what I'm feeling or what truly goes on with me so you have no right to say that. Second, no s**t it's in my head! That's where the brain is! So that's where mental illness resides.
I fall apart outside too, but it's only in my head, so nobody ever sees it. :-\
Guilt is the hardest to get out of your head. Then you spiral further into depression b/c you're thinking you've messed things up even more.
"I can't believe you have bipolar depression, you are so funny, outgoing, and happy" -_-
And when someone is on a all time low , no matter how many times you tell them that they are not a burden and they are loved very much . They still don't think they are
When you are in depression, no matter what people say to you, their words never help. Actually after listen to them, sometimes you feel worse.
There are a few that are easier. Eating. Reading. Never going outside...
It is hard. I know I don't have a right to complain when I'm not the one struggling with these things, but it hurts to see friends sinking into darkness. And not being able to do anything about it. I'm sorry.
no. when people pretend to know how it feels ... ugh. just admit you don't
they're not necessarily pretending. They just think that the temporary depression they dealt with after a bad break up or something is what clinical depression is like. It's still irritating, for sure, but I think it's meant to come from a place of wanting to help.
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I have a problem with people saying "I know how you feel." because the truth is they don't. Even if they have experienced something similar the exact same thing that happened to you hasn't happened to them and they are not you. They have no idea how you truly feel.
Reality wise ... everything falls in two different results no matter how shallow or deep where the problems coming from... Happiness and Sadness Negative anx positive one of antidote is ACCEPTANCE
Load More Replies... I feel like I've been guilty of acting like this. I tell people I understand, but I'm not sure I do.
People think that to understand someone's pain means that you had to have experienced their situation in order to understand. I've experienced my pain, my hopelessness, my fear, my paralysis so I can understand that others feel their pain, their hopelessness, their fear, without the specific details being the same for you both. So yes, I know how a person feels when they have no hope or desire to live and only feel pain. That should be enough for anyone. What do you gain by pushing sympathetic and empathetic people away just to be the one and only unique person that knows your specific brand of pain, fear and hopelessness. When someone with real experience with these things says that they understand, it means they understand "pain". Get off your unique high horse... until they start telling you "this is what you should do."
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I understand this is a big problem because I also have anxiety but read the sign in the cafe. All of it.
Losing your girlfriend or boyfriend just makes depression worse. If its depressing for normal people think about those who already have depression and anxiety. No one left to give yourself some fake happiness
Ugh! I hate this type of "understanding". I even get annoyed when people say "oh yeah I had depression for a year, but then it just got better".
Getting dressed is still a step. And usually it helps, at least a little bit
I need someone like that in my life. But I don't have anyone. I'm so alone.
I always hated those questions. I know they don't mean to do harm, but it just pushes me right into the dark mode again if a million people come up to me and ask me how I am - and I am not supposed to tell because no one is interested anyhow and it would take too long, so I just say fine, although I am not fine. Furthermore questions like these make me wondering about IF I AM fine or not and you can bet, THEN I am not anymore because suddenly I remember ALL the things why I should definitely not be fine. Also, they make you feel weird. Just acknowledge that I am there, be happy for god's sake don't be surprised (or at least don't show) if I show up. It just makes me want to turn around and go.
tell me about it i also always pick up extreme anxiety right before i feel like a burden
Hey, I rarely (have never, really) comment anything on the internet but I have decided to sign up on this page just to tell you to keep up the good work. :) I think you offered me a precious insight into your daily struggles you are dealing with. I cannot relate to you in this sense, but as I can see from the previous comments, many people can. In my modest opinion are people that can feel these emotions actually very sensitive and delicate, (like dandelions :) ) and somehow in tune with...something. It seems you maybe have deeper understanding of things. Ah, I don't know how to explain and I am not good with words. Just wanted to say that I am glad that you are an artist. Best wishes, Martina :)
Thank you Martina, I can't believe you decided to sign up for this. I feel honored.
Load More Replies... Thank you so much for putting into pictures what my words so often fail to say.
<-Depression and anxiety for 10+ years. These comics are 100% on the nose accurate.
First time I've seen an illustrated post about depression and anxiety that I really connect with. It's hard to some up all those feelings in words but you've managed to capture everything. Thank you for taking the time to make and share your work, I imagine it wasnt easy to do. I wish you all the best on your journey and to any one else looking at this post. It's nice to be reminded that I'm not alone. Thank you. Namaste
Woaw, the first you see that you really connect with, I'm really honored. Thanks a lot for this comment, that really means a lot. I wish you the best !
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The fact that everyone feels depression and anxiety different than somebody else is highly important. Even thou I can relate to a few of those pictures, I couldn't relate to others. Every one is different and some days you feel better then other days. I send my love to you all and hope that you will overcome your difficulties and challenges.
Thanks, I hope you'll keep hope and get better too
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Thank you so much. Seeing this... It's like you can see into my brain and my heart. I've been dealing with depression since I was 16. I'm 25 now and luckely doing much better. Looking around my room, i can tell I'm not there yet but I'm not as lost as I was back then. I had friends, family and a teacher that really helped me. But most of all that I got so fed up with being sad and waking up (if I had fallen asleep) in the middle of the night freaking out and hyper ventilating cause I didn't want to die.... I realised after years of insomnia and nightmares that I had to help myself by getting help from "an outsider". I found a psychologist that understood that it was real. And I wasn't just a teen looking for attention but I wanted real help. Took some time but I'm getting there. I have good day and bad days. Last week I had an amazing day. I was like I never had been depressed at all! I felt amazing!! So for those who are still struggeling; You're not alone with this.
Exactly. This is so on point. Everyone just thinks I'm being dramatic.
I love this post! It reminds me about last half of year when I struggled with depression. And I just want to say you can get through it. My family helped me a lot. I know it's very hard and almost impossible. And every night just feels terrible. But you can do it!
Thank you Táňa, glad to read you beat it, it gives hope. ♥
Load More Replies... Hello! I literally just signed up just so I could comment here. I've literally never f*****g seen anything on the internet about the depression/anxiety combi that I've related to so f*****g much! It's like you took snapshots of my own life and drew them. Even up to the inner conversation you have about friends that care :O I'm weirdly excited about how f*****g spot on this is. It's amazing. It's hard explaining it to friends and their responses are usually worse so this makes me feel slightly not so insane. Every time I have these thought/conversations in my head I just feel like complete mess/dramatic blob so, Gracias! It even gets me inspired to continue my own art!
Thanks for signup for the message Momo ! ♥
Load More Replies... Even though I sometimes feel depressed, I generally don't have depression and anxiety issues. But I really have to say this: Your work is so perfect that it does not touch only the people who feel the same way like you, It can touch anyone else, too. I appreciate that you did this work and shared with us although it is not easy for you. I really like them all for not only being good drawing, but also they are informative for the people just like me who do not know about depression and anxiety... Keep on the good work, man :)
♥ thanks a lot, yeah it's not easy to share, I was so scared to see how people would react. But people are amazing. ♥
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*sigh* Im not alone ! Upvote all these comics and also like that u answered every one's comment so upvote all your answers too :D
Yeah, thanks for taking the time to upvote ! *hug*
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Thanks , I have Aspergers so I sometimes get depressed so thanks for this,it made me smile to know that I am not alone.
Glad I made you smile, hope you'll keep it ! :)
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been fighting in these trenches for 23 years...it started when I was 10. Im a veteran now. I win most battles...though some times the best I can do is just keep on breathing. The thing I hate the most is not being able to make others understand what im going through...thanks for this comic! it helped the ppl I keep close get an idea of what its like.
I'm so glad I could still help a bit after 23 years. ♥
Load More Replies... Everyone who can relate to this page.. please stay active and healthy. One of a family member I know had schizophrenia and ended up passing away due to leukemia.. maybe because of depression and stress and staying at home with being hard to get out of bed... Stay strong and speak up for your feelings. From the author's post, there's a lot of reference to a ghost following.. hope you can all fight this ghost and carry on.
Let's keep hope and stay strong. We are not alone and should not be scared to talk. Thanks for the comment.
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This is exactly what my life is like. I'm so sorry you have to live it too. There are a lot of us, really. Reading your comics helped me to feel less alone on a panicky morning trapped in my house with no transportation and no one to talk to until my 5 year old gets off the bus in the afternoon and turns the world upside down. Thank you for sharing, for explaining to the lucky ones what it is like, and for making me feel less alone. :)
Hey ! Glad to read I was with you in a lonely moment through my comics! I'll stay there for the next time!
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hey there! I want to thank you and congratulate you for the amazing job you did. I am struggling with both and have had so many arguments with people. I want to give up trting to explain (it's exhausting!) but these are spot on I just hope the world could understand better that goes much more beyond from saying "it's all in your head". Keep the good talent and thanks, it makes me feel a bit better knowing there are others out there feeling the same way and I'm not crazy. Cheers!!
Thanks a lot, I'm so glad I could make you feel a bit better. ♥
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Your art is really well made, and the messages behind them help others (including myself) feel validated and recognized. Thank you for sharing your stories; they're testimonies that what we go through is real and reminds us that we aren't alone in this. I'm glad you're hanging in there and hope that you continue to fight on :)
Thanks ! I will definitely keep on and keep drawing ! Best wishes
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I have never thought that those can be expressed through pictures. It's still difficult for me to put in words what I had felt those days. I have recovered from them after years with the help of my family and a dear friend. I hope that anyone who are still struggling can overcome them which include you creator. I really appreciate your works; more than the others I've seen. Thank you so much for sharing these <3
Thank you Amylia ! Glad you liked my comics. ♥
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Wow...so many of those describe my life. I feel like you were actually inside my brain. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this pain...it truly is horrific to live with (if you can actually call it "living"). Thank you for creating these. I truly appreciate them...they make me realize I'm not just a broken person, the only one in the world that feels like this on a daily basis.
People so often don't understand that it's not as simple as "just be happy". Yes, there is a lot to be happy about, but that's what makes it so much worse - when you can't be. These comics you have brought to life, depict so much of my (and so many other's) inner-most turmoils. The 19th comic - "About Suicide" - was my thought process in 5th grade. Most of my immediate family isn't afflicted with these haunting thoughts and feelings. My mom gives me the same advice every time, "Just be happy." I have gotten to the point where I will bottle everything up without realizing it until I have a breakdown. Last time I had one was at work a few weeks ago. To those who don't suffer from depression, don't tell someone you know to "Just be happy" - it makes us feel like our emotions are a burden and we won't express ourselves which usually ends in our breakdowns. Thank you, Sow, for bringing this to light - it helps knowing that you aren't the only one who feels like this.
Glad I could make you feel a bit less alone. Best wishes to you, we can do this ! ♥
Load More Replies... These are really well done: this site actually helped me get through some of my heaviest times. I hope it can help someone else. https://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Hello! I literally just signed up to tell you how f*****g spot on all these comics were and how amazing it feels to be understood or even to find someone whose drawn out the exact motions I go though. I've never related to the combi of anxiety and depression on this internet this much, I'm weirdly excited about it. Even the part about friends who want to help omg I just, it feels like you took snapshots of my own life and drew them its amazing! It's so hard trying to explain it to people (their reactions are even worse) and I've just been feeling like a complete mess/dramatic blob every time I'm thinking/conversing all of these things in my head. So I just wanted to say Gracias, you inspire me to keep drawing as well!
You can always tell those who have been affected by the mark. Like a black dog who's always with you. It brought back a lot of memories looking at these remind me of the journey i went through, and how you learn to live with it, rather than try and shake it off. It also has a sort of strength to it, for being so low you become hardened and a sense of strength for others (even if you don't feel it yourself). My real name is Alex, which literally means defender of man(kind) which is a poignant point for me. Stay strong, you are not alone, and your talent for illustration has the power to bring people together who often feel so isolated. much love.
Yeah, I agree when you say you become hardened. I can feel it in some way even if it's not easy every day. Thanks Alex, best wishes.
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Damn, each time I see someone using the word "best" to talk about my work, I wish my mother could understand english ! :D
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Thank you so much for sharing your artwork - I`ve seen comics about anxiety and depression before, but this is the first time I actually can say, that it made me feel connected to the artist. I`m going through these everyday struggles myself (for 10th year now), and apart from my boyfriend, my family never really thought I could feel the way you described in these comics, so I kind of started to think that I was alone. Thank you for showing me that I am not (and you are not either). Hopefully this will give a better understanding for the people close to me, to see how I am inside. Wishing you the best, Lysi.
I also feel a lot connected to everyone since I shared my secret and they can relate to it. I'm so blown away and thankful for every one enjoying this. There are no words. So here's a little heart ♥
Load More Replies... Hi, I had been a boredpanda lurker for a longer time. But I could connect to this post so much that I signed up. I always wished that I had at least one friend who would understand what it means to live my life (although I never wanted any of them to be depressed). Every drawing that I saw in this post made me feel as if someone had looked into my mind and drawn. I am feeling better, that even though not my friend, there is someone out there who knows what exactly it means to live with anxiety and depression. Thanks for posting this. I've bookmarked it as these drawings gave me some solace. May you find all the happiness you deserve! :-)
Thanks for signing up and bookmarking it ! My characters and drawings won't move, they'll be there when you need support. And more will come, that's a sure thing. ♥
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This was...so intensely freeing. Sometimes, struggling with these issues makes you feel so incredibly alone. It makes it easy to forget that others feel the same, and you CAN be understood. Would I have your permission to share?
Of course you can share ! Glad I can make you feel understood!
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I am feeling you. Every picture is so true. good job! I really like it. And, someday, everything is going to be fine for us. <3
First of all I need to apologize for my barely existing English skills. It's been quiet a while, since I last had to use them. Today, for me, was not one of the good days. I have my „workarounds“ to at least get up moste of the time, but... Well, obviously you know. Anyway, I found your post and registered, so that I can thank you. I don't finde myself in all of the pictures, yet I find me in enough of them to feel a little bit less lost an alien. It sure means a lot to me, so „Thank you so much for sharing and finding a way to show what I can't put into words.“
Thanks a lot for taking some time to register for this message, glad I can give some comfort through those. Your english is great ! (English is not my first language either)
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This is really solid. I'm a BPD patient and I find a lot of these depictions totally relatable.
I'm strong, I'll probably never be depressed like you. But I very often feel "not good enough" - with family's expectations, at work, generally among people. A very bad relationship made me bang my head against the wall one night. A friend helped me by always listening (even for 5 hours non stop), accepting everything, never judging, being on my side. If you can, find such friend and trust him when he says: "I don't mind listening, you are special, it must be hard for you". Then try to help others, even a little, it works. If it's awful, go through medical examination, take pills. One of my friends had to, recently, she just couldn't stop crying and thinking about death. I think it's awesome you draw and communicate with others through internet. You are talented. This world is awful and it seems there's no place for sensitive people in it. Remember, the world is awful, not you :) All the best, J.
Yes, I think these comics can also speak to people stressed, on a bad day, ... Many folks in general. Thanks for the support !
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You may know it already, but want to tell you that these demons are real... And it's not funny when they come and made you depress... There is obly one way to get rid of them.... It's with the name of Jesus....a.k.a God....trust me ... Been there.... Felt the pain... He saved me and He make it again everytime I need... He will do it for everione in need when they call for help!
hello, wanted to tell you to keep up the good work, i can relate with most of them and wanted to send a HUG..sometimes it helps. lots of luck, cheers!
Great work! Hope more people can understand what some people go through on a daily basis or even just occasionally. Sending hugs to the artist and anyone who can recognise themselves or a friend in these drawings x
Hey Sow, thank you so much for sharing your artwork! Your art have helled express the emotions that have caused me so much anguish over the past year. (I had a much needed cry after the post and I haven't been able to cry for the past 4 months!). I will be sharing your works with people who wants to know how I'm feeling. I look forward to seeing more of your artwork! Stay strong!
Sorry for making your cry and glad I helped. I have planned to make many more, it's great to read you'll be there to see more of those. ♥
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Yes! Thank you for the inspiration ♡ you don't need to apologize for your work. It is helping many :3 keep it ip
I related to your comics completely, so much so that I had to take a few breaks in between looking at your work to calm down a bit, because of the sorrow I feel for you and for myself. I dont know what else to say. I hope that my shadows can inspire me to create good works too.
I'm sorry it was difficult to watch! But you are not alone. Let's hope it'll get better !
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Dude, dunno what to say to be honest. I just wanted to say something meaningful, but I cant. I'm in a better condition than I was, but all these remind me of what I went through, kinda got over most. You really are good with your drawing though. Keep it up :)
I know how hard it is to not have the words! Thanks!
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Hugs to you, and anyone posting here. Every single one of these resonates. I have my inner voices telling me I'm not good enough, and outer voices telling me (in so many words) to snap out of it. I wish I could make my husband understand that it doesn't work like that, it's a daily struggle to just move some days. Knowing that others truly do comprehend helps a ton.
Yeah, mostly of them describes me... But I've started digital art and now I draw mythical creatures. Drawing is relief for me
And, first, when I "met" depression, it was hard to handle, I was afraid of everything, sad, weak.. But now I do sports too (and drawing of course :)) and now I'm strongest in class, so yeah, the idea is, that to get away from deppression or anxiety, get a hobby :D P.S. Your drawings are really well-done! You have a talent, you should post them on, like, DeviantArt (P.P.S. It has really friendly community ) or something :)
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hm. I didnt think there was a way to describe it all, but somehow youve done it perfectly. thank you.
Yep, that's just about what it's like. Some of these made me wince, they were a bit too close to the bone
I just wanted to say - thank you. Really. Right now I must say I'm having one of the brighter periods (I guess) but I'll make sure to remember your name and your art, because it helps me so much - browse through this when it all comes back & crushes me again and know I'm not alone in this world :) Thank you!
Thanks! And it'll still be there for the support when you need it!
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This is the first time anyone has illustrated what I went through so perfectly. Thank you Sow. I'm on medication now and feel so much better, even on relapse days. There is an end out there guys, just don't be afraid to ask for help. And keep asking x
Thanks ! Glad you like it. I'm on medication too.
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Thanks for these cartoon. A friend of mine struggles with these problems and I really don't get her sometimes. These kinda give me some insight in what she must feel. Thank you
It's great to have feedback from friends of the ones struggling. Thanks for the comment. ♥
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I feel bad now because I think these things sometimes and other times I'm the one that is the annoying one and I makes me feel worse jeez Thank you for doing these comics I now have a better understanding of everything my friends go through.
Thanks! That's hard to not feel like the annoying one. Glad that helped!
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This made me feel like I'm not alone, I have been drowning for so long and seeing this post gives me the knowledge that I'm not alone, we all can beat this and see the light before the darkness destroy us.
ill sound nuts now, but thats expected in today society but jesus helped me over my depression 100% truth.
Yeah, let's try to laugh a bit about it instead of crying for once ! Cheers
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These comics are really telling much truth in many ways. I love how you added some humor in it, here and there. Nevertheless, you've done an excellent job on visualizing how depression works. Thank you. For everyone who isn't quite familliar with depression: Depression knows many forms and can strike at the most vulnerable moments. And the worst part is: It pretty much knows all of the weaknesses of its host. Pretty much everyone who suffers from depression knows it's the brain playing tricks, but that does not mean it's like a snap in your finger and suddenly everything is better. It's like seeing a horror movie you got scared at and someone says: "You know it's just a film, right?" Of course you know, but that doesn't always automatically makes it less scary. Nevertheless, even though we are struggling, we know that we have to keep going. Simply because there is this thought of pure truth: There is hope. We are able to become happy (again), but we have to work in order to create it.
As small as they might seem to you, these comics help me out more than I can ever explain with words.
Amazing pics! It accurately explains the gloominess that haunts a depressed soul all the time. And somehow medicines/ avoidance/ substance abuse give temporary relief.
Thank you thank you THANK YOU! I'm immensely grateful for your talent and strength. I suffer from anxiety and depression (and therefore buren outs) as well. Your drawings have made me feel less alone and understood. Thank you SO much! Kind regards from Holland
@me... all of these. I Feel as if there is no way to describe how I feel most of the time.. but these sure help a lot🙂 Thanks for sharing
I love the way you use the drawings. I am a visual thinker. They express so much more than words alone. When I was 15, I found a book called "The Art of Selfishness, by David Seabury. I wish that everyone who ever felt any of the things expressed in your drawings (especially #20) would read it. It is a life saver. I love you.
How would you react to me physically dragging you out of bed, dressing you, and pushing you to the park to go for a walk with me, without at any point saying anything except "we're going to park and you're bringing your camera."
Thank you for this series. One of the best visual representations of depression and anxiety I've seen. I really appreciate it. Thanks and hugs!
Thank you for this series. One of the best visual representations of depression and anxiety I've come across. Completely accurate. Want to say more, but don't know how :) Hugs to you
The illustrations are right on the money Know and live every day With the issues
i also deal with anxiety and depression and also fatigue.i think its from an overactive sympathetic nervous system.i recently found this thing call TRE(truama release exercise)i went to a class and tried and i actually felt more relaxed after the session.heres a vid i found https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27VgK0LrR3Q looks a little weird but it works(^)(^) also theres a korean drama ive been watching called my introverted boss/my shy boss its korean but you might enjoy it,its pretty funny heres a link to 1st ep. http://iheartdrama.tv/introverted-boss-episode-1-english-sub
Thank you for comics. I know every one from outsite and a few from inside. To long living around people with clinical depression and anxiety (in my private life, not professional). What I hate most is the sentence "I am fine, realy everything is ok." What shall I do now?! It is not possible deal like everything is ok because depression is in the space. And you give me no chance to accept the situation and deal with it. I don't have to try behave, like I dont know about your depression. If declaimed I know that a lot of thinks aren't personal, it is just depression. That I cannot expect, that things will be done asap, because it is not possible. Please, I need to know that you know about your depression and I dont have to do nothing with it, just accept. (And one note more - lot of people doesnt know that depression and anxiety are illness, so tell them that you spoke with doctor about it - even it is not true. For them it means they don't have to help you.)
Hey, in my own experience the most important is to stay close to the person and let them know they are love and can talk. Because the hardest is often the loneliness. It can take time. I hope my comment helped a bit. Keep it up.
Load More Replies... Hey, I rarely (have never, really) comment anything on the internet but I have decided to sign up on this page just to tell you to keep up the good work. :) I think you offered me a precious insight into your daily struggles you are dealing with. I cannot relate to you in this sense, but as I can see from the previous comments, many people can. In my modest opinion are people that can feel these emotions actually very sensitive and delicate, (like dandelions :) ) and somehow in tune with...something. It seems you maybe have deeper understanding of things. Ah, I don't know how to explain and I am not good with words. Just wanted to say that I am glad that you are an artist. Best wishes, Martina :)
Thank you Martina, I can't believe you decided to sign up for this. I feel honored.
Load More Replies... Thank you so much for putting into pictures what my words so often fail to say.
<-Depression and anxiety for 10+ years. These comics are 100% on the nose accurate.
First time I've seen an illustrated post about depression and anxiety that I really connect with. It's hard to some up all those feelings in words but you've managed to capture everything. Thank you for taking the time to make and share your work, I imagine it wasnt easy to do. I wish you all the best on your journey and to any one else looking at this post. It's nice to be reminded that I'm not alone. Thank you. Namaste
Woaw, the first you see that you really connect with, I'm really honored. Thanks a lot for this comment, that really means a lot. I wish you the best !
Load More Replies... The fact that everyone feels depression and anxiety different than somebody else is highly important. Even thou I can relate to a few of those pictures, I couldn't relate to others. Every one is different and some days you feel better then other days. I send my love to you all and hope that you will overcome your difficulties and challenges.
Thanks, I hope you'll keep hope and get better too
Load More Replies... Thank you so much. Seeing this... It's like you can see into my brain and my heart. I've been dealing with depression since I was 16. I'm 25 now and luckely doing much better. Looking around my room, i can tell I'm not there yet but I'm not as lost as I was back then. I had friends, family and a teacher that really helped me. But most of all that I got so fed up with being sad and waking up (if I had fallen asleep) in the middle of the night freaking out and hyper ventilating cause I didn't want to die.... I realised after years of insomnia and nightmares that I had to help myself by getting help from "an outsider". I found a psychologist that understood that it was real. And I wasn't just a teen looking for attention but I wanted real help. Took some time but I'm getting there. I have good day and bad days. Last week I had an amazing day. I was like I never had been depressed at all! I felt amazing!! So for those who are still struggeling; You're not alone with this.
Exactly. This is so on point. Everyone just thinks I'm being dramatic.
I love this post! It reminds me about last half of year when I struggled with depression. And I just want to say you can get through it. My family helped me a lot. I know it's very hard and almost impossible. And every night just feels terrible. But you can do it!
Thank you Táňa, glad to read you beat it, it gives hope. ♥
Load More Replies... Hello! I literally just signed up just so I could comment here. I've literally never f*****g seen anything on the internet about the depression/anxiety combi that I've related to so f*****g much! It's like you took snapshots of my own life and drew them. Even up to the inner conversation you have about friends that care :O I'm weirdly excited about how f*****g spot on this is. It's amazing. It's hard explaining it to friends and their responses are usually worse so this makes me feel slightly not so insane. Every time I have these thought/conversations in my head I just feel like complete mess/dramatic blob so, Gracias! It even gets me inspired to continue my own art!
Thanks for signup for the message Momo ! ♥
Load More Replies... Even though I sometimes feel depressed, I generally don't have depression and anxiety issues. But I really have to say this: Your work is so perfect that it does not touch only the people who feel the same way like you, It can touch anyone else, too. I appreciate that you did this work and shared with us although it is not easy for you. I really like them all for not only being good drawing, but also they are informative for the people just like me who do not know about depression and anxiety... Keep on the good work, man :)
♥ thanks a lot, yeah it's not easy to share, I was so scared to see how people would react. But people are amazing. ♥
Load More Replies... *sigh* Im not alone ! Upvote all these comics and also like that u answered every one's comment so upvote all your answers too :D
Yeah, thanks for taking the time to upvote ! *hug*
Load More Replies... Thanks , I have Aspergers so I sometimes get depressed so thanks for this,it made me smile to know that I am not alone.
Glad I made you smile, hope you'll keep it ! :)
Load More Replies... been fighting in these trenches for 23 years...it started when I was 10. Im a veteran now. I win most battles...though some times the best I can do is just keep on breathing. The thing I hate the most is not being able to make others understand what im going through...thanks for this comic! it helped the ppl I keep close get an idea of what its like.
I'm so glad I could still help a bit after 23 years. ♥
Load More Replies... Everyone who can relate to this page.. please stay active and healthy. One of a family member I know had schizophrenia and ended up passing away due to leukemia.. maybe because of depression and stress and staying at home with being hard to get out of bed... Stay strong and speak up for your feelings. From the author's post, there's a lot of reference to a ghost following.. hope you can all fight this ghost and carry on.
Let's keep hope and stay strong. We are not alone and should not be scared to talk. Thanks for the comment.
Load More Replies... This is exactly what my life is like. I'm so sorry you have to live it too. There are a lot of us, really. Reading your comics helped me to feel less alone on a panicky morning trapped in my house with no transportation and no one to talk to until my 5 year old gets off the bus in the afternoon and turns the world upside down. Thank you for sharing, for explaining to the lucky ones what it is like, and for making me feel less alone. :)
Hey ! Glad to read I was with you in a lonely moment through my comics! I'll stay there for the next time!
Load More Replies... hey there! I want to thank you and congratulate you for the amazing job you did. I am struggling with both and have had so many arguments with people. I want to give up trting to explain (it's exhausting!) but these are spot on I just hope the world could understand better that goes much more beyond from saying "it's all in your head". Keep the good talent and thanks, it makes me feel a bit better knowing there are others out there feeling the same way and I'm not crazy. Cheers!!
Thanks a lot, I'm so glad I could make you feel a bit better. ♥
Load More Replies... Your art is really well made, and the messages behind them help others (including myself) feel validated and recognized. Thank you for sharing your stories; they're testimonies that what we go through is real and reminds us that we aren't alone in this. I'm glad you're hanging in there and hope that you continue to fight on :)
Thanks ! I will definitely keep on and keep drawing ! Best wishes
Load More Replies... I have never thought that those can be expressed through pictures. It's still difficult for me to put in words what I had felt those days. I have recovered from them after years with the help of my family and a dear friend. I hope that anyone who are still struggling can overcome them which include you creator. I really appreciate your works; more than the others I've seen. Thank you so much for sharing these <3
Thank you Amylia ! Glad you liked my comics. ♥
Load More Replies... Wow...so many of those describe my life. I feel like you were actually inside my brain. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this pain...it truly is horrific to live with (if you can actually call it "living"). Thank you for creating these. I truly appreciate them...they make me realize I'm not just a broken person, the only one in the world that feels like this on a daily basis.
People so often don't understand that it's not as simple as "just be happy". Yes, there is a lot to be happy about, but that's what makes it so much worse - when you can't be. These comics you have brought to life, depict so much of my (and so many other's) inner-most turmoils. The 19th comic - "About Suicide" - was my thought process in 5th grade. Most of my immediate family isn't afflicted with these haunting thoughts and feelings. My mom gives me the same advice every time, "Just be happy." I have gotten to the point where I will bottle everything up without realizing it until I have a breakdown. Last time I had one was at work a few weeks ago. To those who don't suffer from depression, don't tell someone you know to "Just be happy" - it makes us feel like our emotions are a burden and we won't express ourselves which usually ends in our breakdowns. Thank you, Sow, for bringing this to light - it helps knowing that you aren't the only one who feels like this.
Glad I could make you feel a bit less alone. Best wishes to you, we can do this ! ♥
Load More Replies... These are really well done: this site actually helped me get through some of my heaviest times. I hope it can help someone else. https://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Hello! I literally just signed up to tell you how f*****g spot on all these comics were and how amazing it feels to be understood or even to find someone whose drawn out the exact motions I go though. I've never related to the combi of anxiety and depression on this internet this much, I'm weirdly excited about it. Even the part about friends who want to help omg I just, it feels like you took snapshots of my own life and drew them its amazing! It's so hard trying to explain it to people (their reactions are even worse) and I've just been feeling like a complete mess/dramatic blob every time I'm thinking/conversing all of these things in my head. So I just wanted to say Gracias, you inspire me to keep drawing as well!
You can always tell those who have been affected by the mark. Like a black dog who's always with you. It brought back a lot of memories looking at these remind me of the journey i went through, and how you learn to live with it, rather than try and shake it off. It also has a sort of strength to it, for being so low you become hardened and a sense of strength for others (even if you don't feel it yourself). My real name is Alex, which literally means defender of man(kind) which is a poignant point for me. Stay strong, you are not alone, and your talent for illustration has the power to bring people together who often feel so isolated. much love.
Yeah, I agree when you say you become hardened. I can feel it in some way even if it's not easy every day. Thanks Alex, best wishes.
Load More Replies... Damn, each time I see someone using the word "best" to talk about my work, I wish my mother could understand english ! :D
Load More Replies... Thank you so much for sharing your artwork - I`ve seen comics about anxiety and depression before, but this is the first time I actually can say, that it made me feel connected to the artist. I`m going through these everyday struggles myself (for 10th year now), and apart from my boyfriend, my family never really thought I could feel the way you described in these comics, so I kind of started to think that I was alone. Thank you for showing me that I am not (and you are not either). Hopefully this will give a better understanding for the people close to me, to see how I am inside. Wishing you the best, Lysi.
I also feel a lot connected to everyone since I shared my secret and they can relate to it. I'm so blown away and thankful for every one enjoying this. There are no words. So here's a little heart ♥
Load More Replies... Hi, I had been a boredpanda lurker for a longer time. But I could connect to this post so much that I signed up. I always wished that I had at least one friend who would understand what it means to live my life (although I never wanted any of them to be depressed). Every drawing that I saw in this post made me feel as if someone had looked into my mind and drawn. I am feeling better, that even though not my friend, there is someone out there who knows what exactly it means to live with anxiety and depression. Thanks for posting this. I've bookmarked it as these drawings gave me some solace. May you find all the happiness you deserve! :-)
Thanks for signing up and bookmarking it ! My characters and drawings won't move, they'll be there when you need support. And more will come, that's a sure thing. ♥
Load More Replies... This was...so intensely freeing. Sometimes, struggling with these issues makes you feel so incredibly alone. It makes it easy to forget that others feel the same, and you CAN be understood. Would I have your permission to share?
Of course you can share ! Glad I can make you feel understood!
Load More Replies... I am feeling you. Every picture is so true. good job! I really like it. And, someday, everything is going to be fine for us. <3
First of all I need to apologize for my barely existing English skills. It's been quiet a while, since I last had to use them. Today, for me, was not one of the good days. I have my „workarounds“ to at least get up moste of the time, but... Well, obviously you know. Anyway, I found your post and registered, so that I can thank you. I don't finde myself in all of the pictures, yet I find me in enough of them to feel a little bit less lost an alien. It sure means a lot to me, so „Thank you so much for sharing and finding a way to show what I can't put into words.“
Thanks a lot for taking some time to register for this message, glad I can give some comfort through those. Your english is great ! (English is not my first language either)
Load More Replies... This is really solid. I'm a BPD patient and I find a lot of these depictions totally relatable.
I'm strong, I'll probably never be depressed like you. But I very often feel "not good enough" - with family's expectations, at work, generally among people. A very bad relationship made me bang my head against the wall one night. A friend helped me by always listening (even for 5 hours non stop), accepting everything, never judging, being on my side. If you can, find such friend and trust him when he says: "I don't mind listening, you are special, it must be hard for you". Then try to help others, even a little, it works. If it's awful, go through medical examination, take pills. One of my friends had to, recently, she just couldn't stop crying and thinking about death. I think it's awesome you draw and communicate with others through internet. You are talented. This world is awful and it seems there's no place for sensitive people in it. Remember, the world is awful, not you :) All the best, J.
Yes, I think these comics can also speak to people stressed, on a bad day, ... Many folks in general. Thanks for the support !
Load More Replies... You may know it already, but want to tell you that these demons are real... And it's not funny when they come and made you depress... There is obly one way to get rid of them.... It's with the name of Jesus....a.k.a God....trust me ... Been there.... Felt the pain... He saved me and He make it again everytime I need... He will do it for everione in need when they call for help!
hello, wanted to tell you to keep up the good work, i can relate with most of them and wanted to send a HUG..sometimes it helps. lots of luck, cheers!
Great work! Hope more people can understand what some people go through on a daily basis or even just occasionally. Sending hugs to the artist and anyone who can recognise themselves or a friend in these drawings x
Hey Sow, thank you so much for sharing your artwork! Your art have helled express the emotions that have caused me so much anguish over the past year. (I had a much needed cry after the post and I haven't been able to cry for the past 4 months!). I will be sharing your works with people who wants to know how I'm feeling. I look forward to seeing more of your artwork! Stay strong!
Sorry for making your cry and glad I helped. I have planned to make many more, it's great to read you'll be there to see more of those. ♥
Load More Replies... Yes! Thank you for the inspiration ♡ you don't need to apologize for your work. It is helping many :3 keep it ip
I related to your comics completely, so much so that I had to take a few breaks in between looking at your work to calm down a bit, because of the sorrow I feel for you and for myself. I dont know what else to say. I hope that my shadows can inspire me to create good works too.
I'm sorry it was difficult to watch! But you are not alone. Let's hope it'll get better !
Load More Replies... Dude, dunno what to say to be honest. I just wanted to say something meaningful, but I cant. I'm in a better condition than I was, but all these remind me of what I went through, kinda got over most. You really are good with your drawing though. Keep it up :)
I know how hard it is to not have the words! Thanks!
Load More Replies... Hugs to you, and anyone posting here. Every single one of these resonates. I have my inner voices telling me I'm not good enough, and outer voices telling me (in so many words) to snap out of it. I wish I could make my husband understand that it doesn't work like that, it's a daily struggle to just move some days. Knowing that others truly do comprehend helps a ton.
Yeah, mostly of them describes me... But I've started digital art and now I draw mythical creatures. Drawing is relief for me
And, first, when I "met" depression, it was hard to handle, I was afraid of everything, sad, weak.. But now I do sports too (and drawing of course :)) and now I'm strongest in class, so yeah, the idea is, that to get away from deppression or anxiety, get a hobby :D P.S. Your drawings are really well-done! You have a talent, you should post them on, like, DeviantArt (P.P.S. It has really friendly community ) or something :)
Load More Replies... hm. I didnt think there was a way to describe it all, but somehow youve done it perfectly. thank you.
Yep, that's just about what it's like. Some of these made me wince, they were a bit too close to the bone
I just wanted to say - thank you. Really. Right now I must say I'm having one of the brighter periods (I guess) but I'll make sure to remember your name and your art, because it helps me so much - browse through this when it all comes back & crushes me again and know I'm not alone in this world :) Thank you!
Thanks! And it'll still be there for the support when you need it!
Load More Replies... This is the first time anyone has illustrated what I went through so perfectly. Thank you Sow. I'm on medication now and feel so much better, even on relapse days. There is an end out there guys, just don't be afraid to ask for help. And keep asking x
Thanks ! Glad you like it. I'm on medication too.
Load More Replies... Thanks for these cartoon. A friend of mine struggles with these problems and I really don't get her sometimes. These kinda give me some insight in what she must feel. Thank you
It's great to have feedback from friends of the ones struggling. Thanks for the comment. ♥
Load More Replies... I feel bad now because I think these things sometimes and other times I'm the one that is the annoying one and I makes me feel worse jeez Thank you for doing these comics I now have a better understanding of everything my friends go through.
Thanks! That's hard to not feel like the annoying one. Glad that helped!
Load More Replies... This made me feel like I'm not alone, I have been drowning for so long and seeing this post gives me the knowledge that I'm not alone, we all can beat this and see the light before the darkness destroy us.
ill sound nuts now, but thats expected in today society but jesus helped me over my depression 100% truth.
Yeah, let's try to laugh a bit about it instead of crying for once ! Cheers
Load More Replies... These comics are really telling much truth in many ways. I love how you added some humor in it, here and there. Nevertheless, you've done an excellent job on visualizing how depression works. Thank you. For everyone who isn't quite familliar with depression: Depression knows many forms and can strike at the most vulnerable moments. And the worst part is: It pretty much knows all of the weaknesses of its host. Pretty much everyone who suffers from depression knows it's the brain playing tricks, but that does not mean it's like a snap in your finger and suddenly everything is better. It's like seeing a horror movie you got scared at and someone says: "You know it's just a film, right?" Of course you know, but that doesn't always automatically makes it less scary. Nevertheless, even though we are struggling, we know that we have to keep going. Simply because there is this thought of pure truth: There is hope. We are able to become happy (again), but we have to work in order to create it.
As small as they might seem to you, these comics help me out more than I can ever explain with words.
Amazing pics! It accurately explains the gloominess that haunts a depressed soul all the time. And somehow medicines/ avoidance/ substance abuse give temporary relief.
Thank you thank you THANK YOU! I'm immensely grateful for your talent and strength. I suffer from anxiety and depression (and therefore buren outs) as well. Your drawings have made me feel less alone and understood. Thank you SO much! Kind regards from Holland
@me... all of these. I Feel as if there is no way to describe how I feel most of the time.. but these sure help a lot🙂 Thanks for sharing
I love the way you use the drawings. I am a visual thinker. They express so much more than words alone. When I was 15, I found a book called "The Art of Selfishness, by David Seabury. I wish that everyone who ever felt any of the things expressed in your drawings (especially #20) would read it. It is a life saver. I love you.
How would you react to me physically dragging you out of bed, dressing you, and pushing you to the park to go for a walk with me, without at any point saying anything except "we're going to park and you're bringing your camera."
Thank you for this series. One of the best visual representations of depression and anxiety I've seen. I really appreciate it. Thanks and hugs!
Thank you for this series. One of the best visual representations of depression and anxiety I've come across. Completely accurate. Want to say more, but don't know how :) Hugs to you
The illustrations are right on the money Know and live every day With the issues
i also deal with anxiety and depression and also fatigue.i think its from an overactive sympathetic nervous system.i recently found this thing call TRE(truama release exercise)i went to a class and tried and i actually felt more relaxed after the session.heres a vid i found https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27VgK0LrR3Q looks a little weird but it works(^)(^) also theres a korean drama ive been watching called my introverted boss/my shy boss its korean but you might enjoy it,its pretty funny heres a link to 1st ep. http://iheartdrama.tv/introverted-boss-episode-1-english-sub
Thank you for comics. I know every one from outsite and a few from inside. To long living around people with clinical depression and anxiety (in my private life, not professional). What I hate most is the sentence "I am fine, realy everything is ok." What shall I do now?! It is not possible deal like everything is ok because depression is in the space. And you give me no chance to accept the situation and deal with it. I don't have to try behave, like I dont know about your depression. If declaimed I know that a lot of thinks aren't personal, it is just depression. That I cannot expect, that things will be done asap, because it is not possible. Please, I need to know that you know about your depression and I dont have to do nothing with it, just accept. (And one note more - lot of people doesnt know that depression and anxiety are illness, so tell them that you spoke with doctor about it - even it is not true. For them it means they don't have to help you.)
Hey, in my own experience the most important is to stay close to the person and let them know they are love and can talk. Because the hardest is often the loneliness. It can take time. I hope my comment helped a bit. Keep it up.
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