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The moment when I decided I wanted to die, because of the daily abuse and beatings I got from my parents. I thought things could only get worse in my toxic, dysfunctional family. Additionally, there was domestic violence, and we were struggling financially.
I was 9 years old. The following year I had the first attempt - prevented by someone who unknowingly threw away my poison (without realizing what it was).
When my mom turned into a alcholic.She used to drink those 99 drinks,if you dont know what those are look them up(im in the us btw)anyways it would be like she forgot who her kids were and screm and shout at things,luckily she never hit us,but it still stays with me the type of person she became,from a loving caring mother,who pushed me to be amazing.It just scared me so much and put me into a deep,deep depression and what was worse was that her girlfriend at the time said constantly,the only reason she stayed and put up with my mom was because she me and my brother were here and she didnt wanna leave us here.My mother is better now though,and is working through it.
