Do most of you probably know that I have been suicidal in the past(or you know now). Well anyway, when I was suicidal and depressed, I listened to a ton of billie eilish. It made everything g worse but I didn't realize it at the time.
I always associate her music with all the bad feelings I had, and I start to panic and freak out. My parents don't know that I have been suicidal, and I keep putting off telling them. That's not the problem though.
When my parebts play billie eilish music I freak out inside, but if I tell them urgently to turn if off now, then they will be suspicious.
Just the other day, my dad decided to wake me up with her music. I curled into a ball and covered my ears until he left, and then I started crying. This is not the only time that something like that has happened. One time my dad put on billie eilish radio on in a car ride. I started shaking, but I tried to hide it. It was really all I could do to not scream at my dad or start sobbing.
How can I get over it or get them to never play it around me if I don't tell them? I seriously need help with this so please comment, even if you only have a tiny bit of advice. Thank you!
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U could tell your parents that it’s over played at these point and it’s getting annoying. If that doesn’t work and u keep hearing the music and it keeps bringing up those feelings from the past just remember it’s in the past and things will be ok
same with juan, but teell them that one of your friends was suicidal and it brings those feelings back(if your not comfortable telling them about you being suicidal)
So tell them that I don't like it because a friend ds was suicidal or when I am with a friend? Also, why did you change ur profile pic?
