Chester Bennington’s Widow Posts Video Of Him 36 Hours Before His Death – “This Is What Depression Looked Like To Us”
Almost 2 months after the tragic loss of Linkin Park frontman Chester Bennington, the world is still reeling. Bennington’s widow, Talinda Bentley, took to Twitter on September 16th to share a private family video, and she wants it to send an important message to everyone watching.
“My next tweet is the most personal tweet I have ever done. I’m showing this so that you know that depression doesn’t have a face or a mood,” Bentley wrote before posting the 40-second clip, which shows Bennington laughing and smiling while tasting jelly beans with his children. “This is what depression looked like to us just 36 hrs b4 his death. He loved us SO much & we loved him,” she further shared, referring to the musician’s death by suicide on the morning of July 20th.
The sombre video proves, indeed, that depression and other mental health struggles are often near impossible to identify through a person’s behaviour, and that great pain often hides behind the most seemingly happy exteriors.
If you or someone you know needs help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK(8255) or visit their website.
Talinda Bentley, widow of Linkin Park singer Chester Bennington, just paid the most touching tribute to her late husband on Twitter
It was a crucial message in light of his tragic passing due to suicide on July 20th
In addition to the touching video, she also shared a family vacation photo to prove the same point
An outpouring of love, grief, and support from fans followed immediately
If you or someone you know needs help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK(8255) or visit their website.
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Share on FacebookI've battled depression for twenty years and how true this is. No. One. Knows. Some of us are deserving of oscar awards for our acting skills.
True. I am a long term sufferer of depression (over 30 years). I wish you peace today, love today and hope for tomorrow.
Load More Replies...This is odd (in a good way) seeing it on here. The band has been with me since I was 14. Honestly, his death of suicide hit me harder than I could have ever anticipated. Depression (and all other mental illnesses, for that matter) truly suck. I wouldn't even want to wish this upon my worst enemy. I hope you found peace, Chester. You're truly missed and will be missed forever! <3
I didn't even follow his current life and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I still have the hardest time when onw of their songs come on.
Load More Replies...Yes it is hard living with depression. I have had it for 35 years. Some days you feel normal other days you feel paralyzed in hell. The negative/suicide thoughts can start out subtle then it overwhelms you, consumes your soul. There have been times I have prayed the Lord's Prayer over and over what seemed like hours to fight the urges to harm myself. It's scary. The sad part is calling a number or holiness or getting help is the furthest thing from your mind.
**hotline. That's the misconception, we are average everyday people. We aren't walking around slumped over , all sad, crying, looking disheveled. We go to work, raise kids, have a life.
Load More Replies...A lot of us here (per posts) are depression sufferers. I will admit that I am one. We have all struggled, we had all fought. While I love Linkin Park's music and admire Chester for his artistic influence I might here please ask that you don't follow his example. Instead look at the comment feed of how many of us have struggled against but not given in. It seems like a way out, but all it does is transfer the hurt to those you care about.
As someone suffering from depression, it scares me. As others have pointed out, in those terrible moments, the darkness is your truth, the only truth. You do not think "it will pass", you do not remember being happy before, you do not see any possible escape. It scares me because it's all too real. Because when I am not in my dark place, I know can appreciate all the things that I would miss on if I did decide to end my life. But in the dark place, ending my life always seems like the light at the end of the tunnel, it seems like the best possible solution. It seems completely rational. I think that's what many people don't understand. Depressed people are rational, they just have a vastly different truth and are unable to remember any other truth.
My suicide attempt was to get rid of the emotional pain. I just wanted the emotional pain and agony to go away. I am a survivor. It is sometimes the greatest battle I face, just existing, not living. Other times, life is good and life is easy. I try to hold onto the feelings of good and easy when the dark sucks me in and down. I wish you love and peace today and hope for tomorrow..
Load More Replies...What a powerful message, one that people really need to understand. We have "R U OK Day" in Australia (I'm not sure if it's worldwide), and it's aim is to ask your friends and family if they're ok as depression and feelings of self harm can be a difficult subject to raise. As someone who has had depression on and off for 25 years now, I appreciate the sentiment, but this does not work. I remember a few years back a friend asking "r u ok?" on this particular day, and every cell in me was screaming, "NO! I'M NOT OK, I WANT TO DIE BUT I DON'T WANT TO HURT MY KIDS AND I FEEL TRAPPED, I FEEL LIKE I CAN BARELY BREATH!!", but I just smiled and said, "Yeah I'm good thanks, you?". Mental health issues can be so sinister, and it's cruel not only to the person experiencing it, but to those who want to help but can't because the person needing help can't let them in.
This great man at the age of 14 I was listening to his words. He help me through the very thing that killed him in the end. I do not wish depression on anyone. He helped me to get better and there is no way that I could thank him other than keeping his memory alive. We all love you Chester. You were strong till the very end and had kept me strong. I am forever thankful.
That's so sad, having such memorable experiences in life and being unable to enjoy them. I suffered from some kind of depression back in first and second grade . Luckily, mine wasn't strong and it was short-lived. In third grade I learnt the rules of how to enjoy life and everything felt cool again. Unfortunately, most people's depression has much deeper roots and is far worse than my start-of-school crisis. However, I do hope that anyone here, whose life took such a nasty turn would not go as far as Chester Bennington. Try to move on no matter how hard it is at some moments and hopefully one day you'd start to appreciate your life for what it is once more: sometimes it's great, sometimes it's hard, but it's your life-a unique journey full of surprises. I know I'm young and I might sound ridiculous to some of you, but the first step towards recovery is understanding from other people. I admire all those poor souls who few victims of depression: it takes a great deal to fight with it.
You don't sound ridiculous at all! I'm glad it didn't take ahold of you completely and that you've been feeling better ever since. However, the "try to move on" part is one of the more difficult things for anyone who suffers mental illness. The brain is chemically imbalanced, and it's not a way of thinking that makes those illnesses what they are and as dangerous as they are. The only way for people to eventually feel better is to get the help they need, but since there's a stigma about mental health, a lot of people continue to suffer quietly. As for Chester, he was open about his struggles, but it appears no one had an idea how bad it really was.
Load More Replies...I have battled Major depression for over 23 years. I missed so much of my children growing up. Depression robs you of living life. For me, choosing to live requires a conscientious effort to get through each day.
Depression knows no boundaries or reasonable actions. It's a lot like having a split personality, sometimes your aware & able to consider how your actions will effect those you love, but most the time your minds to lost to focus.... it's a death sentence & a truly awful existence!
Research the secret space program. Underground bases, celebrity cloning, monarch mind-control, project mockingbird, genetic engineering, consciousness transfer, trauma-based mind control, deep underground military bases, child trafficking, ritual abuse, project MKULTRA and more.
I love/miss him so much and I love linkin park so much I love her so much I'm so happy they have been spreading awareness and keeping his memory alive
Never thought a person that laughed and smiled like Chaz was having depression...how could we ever since know? I love u, Chaz. Your songs will always be in my heart.
its hard to notice someone who is so good at hiding his/her emotion has been suffering from depression.. just to make their loved ones happy they keep their depression to themselves.. Yes this life cruel but depression is the worst..it eats you from the inside little by little... we all gonna miss you Chester <3 because of lyrics and your voice and because of linkin park my life sucks less.. you were a precious talent the world of music could ever have..
Depression is disgusting. I had it once and the thoughts were horrific. i felt like if something or someone was telling me to take my own life. I would go to sleep crying and wake up crying and go to sleep praying and wake up praying. Didn't want to sleep in my room. I was terrified. I slept in the living room sofa. I would watch the christian channel all day and one day, i threw my self on my knees And screamed at GOD that i knew, that the depression didn't come from him because he is not a GOD that wants people to kill them selves. I begged him to take it away and to help others. I told him, " Lord you gave me this life, please don't let anything else take it away, only you can. Two weeks later it went away.
Okay, then you didn't have depression. You were sad. Come back when you've felt that way every day for 10 or more years.
Load More Replies...mona lisa in the background wow. But how could he force himself to die with depression and live more hopeful and a more loving life?
You don't understand what depression is, do you? He didn't force himself to die. He saw no other way out. Depression is severe. No one forces it on themselves.
Load More Replies...Just like you said, you don't understand. You can't ever understand what someone else is feeling (or not feeling for that matter) when they make the decision to take their own life. I am a mother and I have attempted suicide. Luckily I failed and I got help. I am still suicidal but I continue to push on every day.
Load More Replies...I am not an expert, but might there be a correlation? Maybe you see that something "is not right" because (!) you are not good at reading emotions, because you look at the parts differently or something. And of course, "something is not right" does not always translate into "that person wants to end their life", does it?
Load More Replies...I've battled depression for twenty years and how true this is. No. One. Knows. Some of us are deserving of oscar awards for our acting skills.
True. I am a long term sufferer of depression (over 30 years). I wish you peace today, love today and hope for tomorrow.
Load More Replies...This is odd (in a good way) seeing it on here. The band has been with me since I was 14. Honestly, his death of suicide hit me harder than I could have ever anticipated. Depression (and all other mental illnesses, for that matter) truly suck. I wouldn't even want to wish this upon my worst enemy. I hope you found peace, Chester. You're truly missed and will be missed forever! <3
I didn't even follow his current life and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I still have the hardest time when onw of their songs come on.
Load More Replies...Yes it is hard living with depression. I have had it for 35 years. Some days you feel normal other days you feel paralyzed in hell. The negative/suicide thoughts can start out subtle then it overwhelms you, consumes your soul. There have been times I have prayed the Lord's Prayer over and over what seemed like hours to fight the urges to harm myself. It's scary. The sad part is calling a number or holiness or getting help is the furthest thing from your mind.
**hotline. That's the misconception, we are average everyday people. We aren't walking around slumped over , all sad, crying, looking disheveled. We go to work, raise kids, have a life.
Load More Replies...A lot of us here (per posts) are depression sufferers. I will admit that I am one. We have all struggled, we had all fought. While I love Linkin Park's music and admire Chester for his artistic influence I might here please ask that you don't follow his example. Instead look at the comment feed of how many of us have struggled against but not given in. It seems like a way out, but all it does is transfer the hurt to those you care about.
As someone suffering from depression, it scares me. As others have pointed out, in those terrible moments, the darkness is your truth, the only truth. You do not think "it will pass", you do not remember being happy before, you do not see any possible escape. It scares me because it's all too real. Because when I am not in my dark place, I know can appreciate all the things that I would miss on if I did decide to end my life. But in the dark place, ending my life always seems like the light at the end of the tunnel, it seems like the best possible solution. It seems completely rational. I think that's what many people don't understand. Depressed people are rational, they just have a vastly different truth and are unable to remember any other truth.
My suicide attempt was to get rid of the emotional pain. I just wanted the emotional pain and agony to go away. I am a survivor. It is sometimes the greatest battle I face, just existing, not living. Other times, life is good and life is easy. I try to hold onto the feelings of good and easy when the dark sucks me in and down. I wish you love and peace today and hope for tomorrow..
Load More Replies...What a powerful message, one that people really need to understand. We have "R U OK Day" in Australia (I'm not sure if it's worldwide), and it's aim is to ask your friends and family if they're ok as depression and feelings of self harm can be a difficult subject to raise. As someone who has had depression on and off for 25 years now, I appreciate the sentiment, but this does not work. I remember a few years back a friend asking "r u ok?" on this particular day, and every cell in me was screaming, "NO! I'M NOT OK, I WANT TO DIE BUT I DON'T WANT TO HURT MY KIDS AND I FEEL TRAPPED, I FEEL LIKE I CAN BARELY BREATH!!", but I just smiled and said, "Yeah I'm good thanks, you?". Mental health issues can be so sinister, and it's cruel not only to the person experiencing it, but to those who want to help but can't because the person needing help can't let them in.
This great man at the age of 14 I was listening to his words. He help me through the very thing that killed him in the end. I do not wish depression on anyone. He helped me to get better and there is no way that I could thank him other than keeping his memory alive. We all love you Chester. You were strong till the very end and had kept me strong. I am forever thankful.
That's so sad, having such memorable experiences in life and being unable to enjoy them. I suffered from some kind of depression back in first and second grade . Luckily, mine wasn't strong and it was short-lived. In third grade I learnt the rules of how to enjoy life and everything felt cool again. Unfortunately, most people's depression has much deeper roots and is far worse than my start-of-school crisis. However, I do hope that anyone here, whose life took such a nasty turn would not go as far as Chester Bennington. Try to move on no matter how hard it is at some moments and hopefully one day you'd start to appreciate your life for what it is once more: sometimes it's great, sometimes it's hard, but it's your life-a unique journey full of surprises. I know I'm young and I might sound ridiculous to some of you, but the first step towards recovery is understanding from other people. I admire all those poor souls who few victims of depression: it takes a great deal to fight with it.
You don't sound ridiculous at all! I'm glad it didn't take ahold of you completely and that you've been feeling better ever since. However, the "try to move on" part is one of the more difficult things for anyone who suffers mental illness. The brain is chemically imbalanced, and it's not a way of thinking that makes those illnesses what they are and as dangerous as they are. The only way for people to eventually feel better is to get the help they need, but since there's a stigma about mental health, a lot of people continue to suffer quietly. As for Chester, he was open about his struggles, but it appears no one had an idea how bad it really was.
Load More Replies...I have battled Major depression for over 23 years. I missed so much of my children growing up. Depression robs you of living life. For me, choosing to live requires a conscientious effort to get through each day.
Depression knows no boundaries or reasonable actions. It's a lot like having a split personality, sometimes your aware & able to consider how your actions will effect those you love, but most the time your minds to lost to focus.... it's a death sentence & a truly awful existence!
Research the secret space program. Underground bases, celebrity cloning, monarch mind-control, project mockingbird, genetic engineering, consciousness transfer, trauma-based mind control, deep underground military bases, child trafficking, ritual abuse, project MKULTRA and more.
I love/miss him so much and I love linkin park so much I love her so much I'm so happy they have been spreading awareness and keeping his memory alive
Never thought a person that laughed and smiled like Chaz was having depression...how could we ever since know? I love u, Chaz. Your songs will always be in my heart.
its hard to notice someone who is so good at hiding his/her emotion has been suffering from depression.. just to make their loved ones happy they keep their depression to themselves.. Yes this life cruel but depression is the worst..it eats you from the inside little by little... we all gonna miss you Chester <3 because of lyrics and your voice and because of linkin park my life sucks less.. you were a precious talent the world of music could ever have..
Depression is disgusting. I had it once and the thoughts were horrific. i felt like if something or someone was telling me to take my own life. I would go to sleep crying and wake up crying and go to sleep praying and wake up praying. Didn't want to sleep in my room. I was terrified. I slept in the living room sofa. I would watch the christian channel all day and one day, i threw my self on my knees And screamed at GOD that i knew, that the depression didn't come from him because he is not a GOD that wants people to kill them selves. I begged him to take it away and to help others. I told him, " Lord you gave me this life, please don't let anything else take it away, only you can. Two weeks later it went away.
Okay, then you didn't have depression. You were sad. Come back when you've felt that way every day for 10 or more years.
Load More Replies...mona lisa in the background wow. But how could he force himself to die with depression and live more hopeful and a more loving life?
You don't understand what depression is, do you? He didn't force himself to die. He saw no other way out. Depression is severe. No one forces it on themselves.
Load More Replies...Just like you said, you don't understand. You can't ever understand what someone else is feeling (or not feeling for that matter) when they make the decision to take their own life. I am a mother and I have attempted suicide. Luckily I failed and I got help. I am still suicidal but I continue to push on every day.
Load More Replies...I am not an expert, but might there be a correlation? Maybe you see that something "is not right" because (!) you are not good at reading emotions, because you look at the parts differently or something. And of course, "something is not right" does not always translate into "that person wants to end their life", does it?
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