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No spamming, no trolling and absolutely do not mock people for their struggles! You are allowed to talk about your problems, it does not make you weak or whiny, you are not alone, we can help.
I created this same post earlier but it never got posted so I hope this one does.
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#1
why is there so much f*****g drama on here now.
Final score:
7points
UnimportantDog/Imp (she/her) 2 years ago
Ikr, everyone is arguing and posts are getting spammed
Red PANda (she/they) 2 years ago
I think it’s because they changed the system so downvoted don’t ban you anymore (not sure tho everybody’s too scared to try it lol) so the trolls are on here more
cartoon ghosts 2 years ago
Yeah this site is just on a downward spiral, I'm leaving once I'm sure may is okay
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#2
It’s getting harder and harder to keep living. Whenever I’m suicidal I vent here, but then I get better, but then I get worse. I feel guilty about seeking attention over and over. My dad yelled at me because I got a b on a test but that was because the teacher didn’t teach us anything. I suck.
Final score:
6points
Percabeth Forever (she/they) 2 years ago
Keep venting, its not attention seeking, I promise. Reach out to someone irl. And remember, your nickname is short for Important, because that's what you are. An important, caring, sweet, funny, and talented human being who deserves the world.
2 years ago (edited)
I don’t know why you were downvoted cuz this post seems totally innocent. Anyway, I don’t know you, but that sounds absolutely terrible. You deserve all the good things the world has to give you. You are smart, you are brave and kind, and you do not deserve to feel guilty. And you are *not* unimportant. Sending support.
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
Based on your first few sentences I think we might be in a similar situation, aka the endless cycle of "feels suicidal, vents, but then feels guilty about venting and then gets worse again". I am not really sure I can give the best advice since I haven't really found a way to cope with this myself, but I will let you know that you're amazing, you certainly do NOT suck. You deserve to live and if there's anything else you need help with feel free to reach out to me or other pandas <3
UnimportantDog/Imp (she/her) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Thanks. Same goes for you. You seem like a really cool and awesome panda, and if you ever need anything, feel free to reach out to me and others <3
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Huddo's sister 2 years ago
Hang in there! If possible, find someone else to talk to about your depression/suicide thoughts, like a psychologist or a family member because that might help you move forward more consistently than just venting on here, though you are certainly welcome to do that too! You don't suck, that's just your depression talking. It sounds like your mental health may be affecting your grades, or just may be bad because of your dad's reaction. If you get that improved, things might change, or at least you might be able to deal with your dad's disapproval better, as you will be stronger.
UnimportantDog/Imp (she/her) (Submission author) 2 years ago
The main problem is, I don’t want help. I want to starve myself of happy thoughts because I hate myself so much. I also have trust issues, and nobody knows anything about the real me.
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I don't like my mom but like my mom at the same time. She yells mean things at me everyday, compares me to my sister, occasionally hits me, and looks at her phone ALL the time. But she teaches me, helps me when I am struggling and inspires me sometimes. Whenever I get good grades, she gives me presents and she doesn't shame me for drawing. Usually, Asian parents don't want their children to be artists. She's busy and usually takes care of me and my sister by herself most of the time. Sure she's stressed, but she shouldn't take her anger out on me, her failure. I love and hate her at the same time. It is so frustrating.
Final score:
6points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
My dad is kind of the same way. He yells at me, forces me to be the stereotypical idea of “female”, shames me, sometimes hits me, but other times he’ll just be kind of nice, and do stuff like buy me boba tea or help me with stuff. Basically the way I think about him is “he’s human, humans make some mistakes in life.” Idk if thinking of your mum in that way might help you feel less frustrated? Sorry I’m not the best at giving advice 😅
Pancake_Pansexual_Panda (Submission author) 2 years ago
Thanks, you are great at giving advice! Humans do make mistakes, not everybody is perfect.
Load More Replies... #4
everything is stupid. i got a 97 on my test and my mom started yelling at me because apparently grades are not enough, and i need to do better. it’s never enough. and i’m really sick of everything. and everyone.
Final score:
5points
Bisexual Axolotls 2 years ago
I'm really sorry she did that, parents who get mad for anything less than perfect are the worst. I get the "sick of everything and everyone" feeling, but in my experience, it helps to try and write a list of things you enjoy or like, and then try to see/do more of those things. It sounds cheesy, but it works for me.
Huddo's sister 2 years ago
Very good advice! Also try to remember that there will be a time after school and grades don't matter that much in the long run, despite what your parents say.
Load More Replies... Red PANda (she/they) 2 years ago
Amy, I just wanted to tell you it’s not your fault, and that your prescience here on BP is really appreciated and we all love you <3
2 years ago
I don’t know u but it sucks that your mom is like that, + if you regularly get 97s etc you’re smarter than many people out there
#5
Okay here we gooooo! I hate myself so f*****g much this year I started middle school so I thought I could have a new chance to be more social and be more popular and general but for some reason I can't escape my old self and I'm still the anxious mess I was in 6th grade I don't get why I can't just be normal. And my parents definitely aren't helping anything right now. Last night my mom told my sister (who is so much more social than me) that she needs to come out of her shell at school and I'm just there listening to this thinking "damn if she knew me for the person I am at school she'd probably hate me" ALSO SPEAKING OF SCHOOL! I got cast as an understudy which sucks because I was one of TWO PEOPLE auditioning for a role in my thespian troupe's one act (which is basically a shorter version of a play) it's not that I'm mad at the other person who auditioned because she did good it's because I knew that wasn't the best I could do and I was being held back by my own anxiety and I feel like that's what's holding me back in EVERY F*****G ASPECT OF MY LIFE and I'm forced to sit here and suffer those consequences as I watch those around me get better at stuff that I can do because of... DRUMROLL PLEASE! ✨️Anxiety✨️ Idk maybe I'm just overthinking this like I do with everything :P I think I'm fed up with life
Final score:
5points
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
Anxiety sucks! I had to quit my English exam because of it.
Red PANda (she/they) 2 years ago
Ooof I got cast as an understudy once and it sucked. However it does mean you get to hang out with all the theater kids and not go through the whole stage-fright-inducing experience of being in the performances. And who knows, maybe you will get to perform! Or, you could always stage an “accident…” (disclaimer don’t do that that was a joke)
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
I'm not gonna lie, middle school sucks. I can't really give much advice because, even though I've been in middle school for some years now, but I can give advice on what NOT to do I guess? - don't try overly hard to be popular, especially if being very social isn't your thing. All it's most likely going to do is stress you out - f**k the popular kids. From *MY* personal experience, many of them gain popularity by bullying others. You do NOT want to be friends with them trust me, I know from experience. If you REALLY want to be friends with the "popular" kids, just find the ones that got their popularity for being actually good people, not from being fake - I have pretty severe anxiety. I can't offer many tips on this topic because I haven't really figured much out myself, but what I WILL say is that spending time trying to be popular, cool, etc, will just make you super paranoid. Sorry I can't give much advice about this 😅
River wolf 2 years ago
I started middle school last year. Expect the worst, hope for the best for next year.
#6
God, why are the so-called "popular kids" in my school so rude? I mean they don't bully me, (I think, but who knows? Maybe they gossip behind my back, I dunno) but they bully kids who just act differently and talk a lot. They bully kids obsessed with anime, they bully kids who have ADHD, and they bully that nice smart girl who always raises her hand when a teacher asks the class a question. They bully the boy who asks many questions during class. I'm a seventh grader and one time of the bus I saw some of my classmates rip up a sixth grader's schedule. Basically, the popular kids at my school make fun of the so-called "weird people". They think they are at the top, they think they are royals and make fun of kids who they think are peasants. They gossip so much and do inappropriate things. I have a friend (we still are kind of friends). She is now in the "popular mean kids" group. She changed a lot. She and her friends now bully a gay sixth grader during P.E. During English she and her friends proudly said they bullied that gay sixth grader. The popular mean kids are hypocritical, they always say "Ewwww, that's gay!" (but most of the mean kids aren't straight, which confuses me) and they enjoy saying racial slurs. Popular mean kids are weird.
Final score:
5points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
Those don't sound like popular kids. They sound like complete a******s.
Pancake_Pansexual_Panda (Submission author) 2 years ago
Yeah that is true
Load More Replies... cartoon ghosts 2 years ago
I'd also bully someone who's obsessed with anime, those people are always weird as f**k and super uncomfortable to be around. Also the thing with queer people calling stuff gay as an insult is fine, I do it all the time and I also make fun of my friends for being trans (I am trans and gay). It's just funny. It's normal to bully weird people, you're kinda asking for it and it makes normal people uncomfortable
twilight (he/they) 2 years ago
crow, you don’t seem like yourself right now, are you ok?
Load More Replies... #7
F**k everything. I was buying clothes today with my dad and I pointed to this brown sweatshirt I kinda wanted, and he was like “no this one looks better” and pointed to a bright pink one. I made the mistake of saying “you only want me to wear that because it’s pink. Why do you want me to wear pink so badly anyways?” And he got mad (I can see why, I was kinda rude-) but then he was like “wear pink. you’re a girl” AND I WANTED TO FCKING KMS CUZ LIKE, NO I AM NOT A GIRL STOP FORCING ME TO BE ONE. Most people view me as a girl I can’t take this
Final score:
5points
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
Does anyone else feel the urge to reach through the screen and slap him?
Red PANda (she/they) 2 years ago
You sound EXACTLY like my friend’s dad! Once they were eating and their dad was like “oh you eat so nicely and LADYlike,” and my friend literally dropped the fork and started eating with their fingers lmao. But seriously you good? My friend had/is still having a really hard time with their dad…
Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
My dad is still being an a*****e, now instead of using my name he's saying "girl". Like, he will be like "COME DOWNSTAIRS GIRL, YOU NEED TO FINISH YOUR HOMEWORK" or some s**t like that
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Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Yeah, I haven't been online much because of school stuff but I'm ok :D
Load More Replies... #8
Stupid mean brother, stupid mean people at school, stupid accidentally mean parents, stupid mean brain, stupid mean kitties that keep walking away when I wanna pet them, I just manna go walk across Kansas and find my best friend, and leave all the mean stupid awful stuff here. I want people in real life to leave me alone, except for my friends, of which I have none. I feel like I’m gonna explode.
Final score:
4points
River wolf (Submission author) 2 years ago
Argh autocorrect sucks and is wrong most of the time, what does manna even mean?
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
*wraps tail around paws and gives you the cat stare*
Load More Replies... #9
hi. it’s twilight here. i hate myself. i hate living. i hate that i can’t focus and that i’m anxious every hour of the day. the line between fantasy and reality is starting to blur for me, i don’t know what’s real and what’s not, i don’t know who i am anymore. i’m making a plan to kill myself
Final score:
3points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago (edited)
We should all form a cult where we convince each other not to die and do happy things (idk what happy things are but- I guess it means like, fun conversations or not negative stuff)
twilight (he/they) (Submission author) 2 years ago
no i can’t do this anymore
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Fly_Agaric_Frog (They/Them) 2 years ago
Please don't die. It's not worth it. Find someone safe to talk to that can help you. I don't want you to die. I might just be a random person you've maybe seen once on BP, but all of us here would be so sad if we knew you (unalived) yourself. Please don't. Here, have a hug though the screen: ლ(・﹏・ლ)
Fly_Agaric_Frog (They/Them) 2 years ago
and also, if you die, you'll never be able to see the fnaf movie ;)
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Do-nut touch da donut 2 years ago
Twilight no, you cant... we defeated toast and were gonna help all you pandas, we luv you twilight ok so your gonna be ok... <3
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
Hey peoples. If you’re comfortable would you mind sharing why u want to die? Im not a therapist or anything but maybe I can offer some advice. Or not, idk.
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
I am going to see my therapist tomorrow and I will probably mention BP, so many people want to commit suicide and I will hopefully be able to help all of you after seeing my therapist.
Load More Replies... Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
Twilight, I hope you live but I don't know how to convince you to, I just want to say how happy I was to find someone else who enjoys playing The Legend of Zelda, you are such a great person and I really hope you live.
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
Twilight, are you still okay, I just wanted to check in on you.
#10
I moved about a year ago and I've seen my friends only about four times in that year, it used to be about twice every month that I would see my friends, when I lived in my old neighborhood. I miss them and I feel like I should be interacting with people more. I feel like my friendship with them is falling apart. I feel jealous knowing they get to see each other often. I love My new house and all but sometimes I wish we had never moved
Final score:
3points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
Are you able to talk to them online somehow? I hope you get to see them more often soon though <3
RandomCrow(she/her)🇺🇦 (Submission author) 2 years ago (edited)
I asked my dad if I could get a texting app, he said no, but that was about 2 years ago and I still lived in the neighborhood, so I'm thinking about asking him again. I was also thinking about asking one of my friends if she could join BP, so hopefully that works out
Load More Replies... #11
Why am I so powerless to help anyone, everyone seems to be struggling with something, I just wish I could do something to help.
Final score:
2points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
EXCUSE ME MERMEOW BUT YOU ARE HELPING PEOPLE. YOU'VE SAID SO MANY NICE THINGS TO ME AND THATS REALLY HELPED ME, JUST KNOWING THERES SOMEONE OUT THERE I CAN TALK TO. WE ALL LOVE YOU (not in a weird way ofc)
UnimportantDog/Imp (she/her) 2 years ago
Perc do you know how much you’ve helped me? You literally convinced me to talk to someone irl about my mental health. Do you know how hard that was? You are definitely helping people
Load More Replies... #12
Finally it’s almost fall! I can wear baggy sweaters to hide my skinny body because I have an eating disorder!
Final score:
2points
#13
My anxiety is returning due to school, I am feeling fine at the moment but I will need to vent a lot more later in the semester.
Final score:
2points
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Don't worry about me right now, I am currently fine but the stress of school will be a lot later into the school semester.
Load More Replies... #14
I need y’all to tell me fast and easy ways to die because I’m too much of a coward to do anything that takes longer than like 10 seconds. I was SO FREAKING CLOSE to getting run over by the car but I panicked at the last second smh. I just need some ideas, smthn that will let me get this over with before I can start rethinking my decision
Final score:
2points
Fly_Agaric_Frog (They/Them) 2 years ago
NOOOO LEX PLEASE DONT!!! please please please don't. It's not worth it. It will probably be a very painful last ten seconds, when a full life would be so much better. There is lots of awesome things you would miss out on if you die. Who knows? Maybe they'll build a colony on the moon? Just please don't die. We will all be so sad.
twilight (he/they) 2 years ago
i’m staying alive for you lex please don’t kill urself. it’ll get better i promise
Load More Replies... Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
I wish I knew how to help you, you have been such a great friend and I will really miss you, you are such a nice person, you probably commented on everyone's submissions to this post, I am currently crying right now.
Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Awww mermeow im sorry :( and you have helped me a lot
Load More Replies... UnimportantDog/Imp (she/her) 2 years ago
Nononono, please don’t die please talk to me, you’re amazing and don’t deserve to die, please please please please
Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago (edited)
My parents hate me, they want to send me away. And they’re misgendering me, which reallllly wants to make me come out but they’re transphobic
Load More Replies... Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Stuff is just getting worse, instead of using my name my parents have been referring to me as “girl”. My dysphoria’s been getting worse all week, and it doesn’t help when they call me “girl” obviously. They’re also planning on sending me to an all-girls mental institution boarding school thing. No way I’m going, especially because I’m not a GIRL (plus it’s like 7 hrs away)
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
Calling someone "girl" or "boy" seems very unusual, is it possible they have suspicions about your gender and are going into denial in a very stupid way?
Load More Replies... Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
All I’m going to do is make you upset, trust me you do NOT want to talk to me
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#15
Agsjahaghagaah I hate math class! And really, all of my classes are so stressful. And, even worse, I don't know how to subtly hint to my friends I'm nonbinary or Neptunic. Y'all can just talk to me if you want. I just need to talk some. (Typing that felt so weird, it seemed too short)
Final score:
2points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
Do your friends support LGBTQIA+ people? When I came out to my close friends, I already knew they were accepting (and part of the community themselves) so instead of dropping subtle hints I just got straight to the point. If you don't feel comfortable enough to do that, maybe for some "subtle hints" you could just make certain comments that kind of allude to the fact that you're nonbinary and Neptunic? Maybe saying things like "you know what, I don't really feel that (feminine/masculine)"? I'm not sure for the Neptunic part.
Fly_Agaric_Frog (They/Them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Half of them aren't, and half of them are. My friend (let's just say beth?) Is definitely not gonna be supportive of the non binary part, but my friend Rose probably would. She is reaaallllyy nice! I have dropped subtle hints to some people for the Neptunic part to uhh let's say..."Bob". They kinda sorta said something along the lines of "high five me if you're lgbtq" or something I can't remember, and my friend Natalie high fived them, so i felt better doing it, but thats probably the only one. (Wow the confidential names were not consistent lol)
Load More Replies... Fly_Agaric_Frog (They/Them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Honors. It's been pretty stressful, but I just found out my assignment isn't due today! It's due tomorrow so that's good. But I do have trouble focusing on it though.
Load More Replies... #16
People keep misgendering me (purposely). My dysphoria is getting worse. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this because even though my irl friends try super hard to help me, they're cis so some things are just too hard to explain to them. I haven't (and probably never will) come out to my parents. My therapist knows I'm nonbinary, but like my friends, she's cis so some things I just really don't know how to explain to her. But I think my gender dysphoria is the worst it's been in several months. It feels like I'm suffocating. I really just don't know how to cope with everything, even though it's been over two years since I realized I was nonbinary. I just kind of need advice, yk?
Final score:
1point
Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago (edited)
I just can't with how female I look and sound. I'm actually considering getting... uhm, surgery if yk what I mean, but apparently it's ✨illegal✨ in the state I live in until I'm 18. And not to mention my voice, it makes me suuuper dysphoric, no matter how hard I try to make it sound a bit deeper, it still sounds like a FREAKING UWU VOICE. I've considered/tried unaliving myself as well because I can't stand being treated and viewed as a girl. F**k this, life sucks
cartoon ghosts 2 years ago
If you want to make your voice lower, don't try hard. Relax your throat. Tensing it makes it go higher. Also, baggy clothes can help with body dysphoria, along with working out more often
Load More Replies... #17
my dog is in the hospital because she ate a poisonous mushroom! How fun! /s
Final score:
1point
Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Yeah, she's ok now, but she was rlly sick before
Load More Replies... #18
God I hate algebra. I dont understand half the things, I dont know why they put me in it
Final score:
0points
River wolf 2 years ago
Yeah, I feel you. Algebra sucks, and also HOW THE HELL DOES ABSOLUTE VALUE EVEN WORK? They say it doesn’t work if the opposite side is negative, but when we split it it turns negative! It’s stupid! Stupid parents telling the school I should be in a high level math class.
#19
f**k everything I've decided when I'm killing myself.
Final score:
0points
Lex <3 (they/them) 2 years ago
NOOOO, you told me I shouldn't kms, so why should YOU? You're so much better than me, if I don't deserve to die YOU certainly don't.
May(she/her) (Submission author) 2 years ago
Not much to talk about. Anyways hru?
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MayTheblahaj(she/her) 2 years ago
I'm going to beat dps record some day, I got banned again
Load More Replies... Fly_Agaric_Frog (They/Them) 2 years ago
No. Please don't. It is not worth it. There is so many cool things you will miss out on. Just please, don't go. :(
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
If you do this I will miss you a lot, I am crying right now, you are a kind and a-may-zing person and nothing will make me think otherwise.
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 2 years ago
I don't know how to convince you not to kill yourself, before you do, please try giving the evidence you collected to cps, you won't have anything to lose at that point.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 2 years ago
May holy s**t please don't. Don't do it, please talk to someone- it doesn't have to be me, I know you don't know me very well, but please talk to Crow or Bee or Amy or just anyone you trust. Please.
twilight (he/they) 2 years ago
holy f**k may no. absolutely not. please, you’re so close to getting away
May(she/her) (Submission author) 2 years ago
No I'm not. Besides, won't be a problem by next week
Load More Replies... #20
i really try to act nice and happy but sometimes people just..get on my nerves and i really cant anymore
Final score:
0points
#21
Sometimes I just want to die. I don’t know why, but I just feel blank. Other times I feel perfectly fine and content. I’m always scared after I’m done with those “episodes” on why I was thinking that and what would’ve happened if death wasn’t painful…since that’s the only thing stopping me. I’m also yelling at people and getting annoyed more easily than before. It’s tearing me up with how bad I feel afterwords but I just can’t stop it anymore. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. This all started after a certain moment in my life (which I will not post about), and I think this is some sort of coping mechanism?? Though, I have thought about what would happen if I died in previous years… I don’t know if that has a relation to anything. I know I need help, that much is certain.
Final score:
0points
#22
I can’t vent, I’m not the imposter, I was on cams and I saw Nathaniel vent.
Final score:
-3points
