Hey Pandas, What’s Your Brightest Secret?

Hello I'm Rose. She/they, pansexual, and probably mentally ill. Sorry I haven't been on as much, I've been pretty busy. Hopefully I'll have more time to be on now that school has started. My finch code is 7Z42NR9GVV. If you add me I promise to send you constant good vibes and lots of hugs :) I'm not really doing great right now. I'm in excruciating physical pain 24/7, so that's fun. The doctor still has no idea what's wrong with me. He's giving me some steroids, and if that doesnt work he says hes going to cut off my arm. I think he was joking, but it would definitely hurt less. Also my brain still hates me. I saw a psychiatrist who told me whatever's wrong with me is probably a result of covid, which probably isn't true because I think I've had symptoms my whole life and was just really good at masking them and using coping mechanisms. I started an adhd medication, but that just made everything way worse so my therapist told me to stop taking it. I think I'm going to try a different psychiatrist. Oh, and I'm still definitely not a vampire. Don't listen to anyone who tries to tell you otherwise. Definitely no, uh, blood-drinking immortal beings here! That would be totally crazy because, uh, vampires definitely aren't, like, real or anything! Hahaha hah ha ha... To quote DustTea, "pretty and handsome are two different things and I like being called both :D" Realistic_Lemons is an incredibly amazing person who has helped me a lot. Thank you so much, I owe you a lot <3 Kate (irishgoatgirl/strange_dandelion) is amazing, and I miss her so much <3 Amy and Susan Abbot are my online little sisters, regardless of whether or not they're online. I love them, and if you do anything to hurt them I will hurt you :D I live in a treehouse with A Wild Bean, do-nut touch da donut, and Betta Fish. It is extremely chaotic and I love it! :) You (the person reading this) are awesome! You're beautiful both inside and out, and whatever you're going through, you'll get through it. I can't promise that everything will be ok, but I can tell you with 99.9% accuracy that it will get better eventually. If you ever need someone to talk to, or if you want to ramble on about something completely pointless, feel free to reply to one of my old comments or shoot me an email :) Now, have some song lyrics! They'll change pretty often (by which I mean anywhere from several times a day to once a month), so check back here for cool music recommendations! "Tell me that you're okay and I'm fine, if you figure our your shit than I'll forget mine. Tell me that you're okay and I'm fine (got a tendency for codependency)" TELL ME THAT YOU'RE OKAY by NOAHFINNCE