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After my mom died in 1983, I got a check in the mail for $5000. It was what was left of the $ my parents had saved for me for college. I took my car and my favorite belongings (including ~100 albums and my stereo) and drove to CA to live with my best childhood friend. I picked up a hitchhiker who took me to a Rainbow Peace and Spiritualist Healing Gathering (at Cochise Stronghold in AZ) where I met some folks who told me to visit Joan and Bill at the Renaissance Faire in Novato. They offered me a catering job at the Faire and a traveling craft show and adopted me into their family. I worked for them for years until I got married and had three kids who knew them as Grammy Joan and Grampa Bill and were better grandparents than the real ones. They were amazing people.
One day an add on Facebook for something caught my attention so I went to the site and bought their collectible product. As a result I was invited to their Facebook community. I wound up making some online friends that even after I lost interest in the collectible we still talked in a message group. One of them in particular helped me through a difficult time after leaving my abusive bf and got me into gaming. One day we were playing minecraft together and he asked if his friend could join.
This friend started joining us more often and we started playing online together even if our mutual friend wasn't on. After a year of talking and playing online together I realized I had a crush on him. I eventually confessed my growing feelings and we decided to try a long distance relationship.
Well it turned out to be the best decision ever because we eventually discussed one of us moving and both of us were willing to. I had better opportunities and found a great job not far from him.
I went from leaving an abuser and a toxic dead end job while living with family to being with someone who is supportive and kind, getting my own place, and having an amazing career with an organization that is at the top of their industry. Plus I took the job and moved only a few months before covid and my new position kept me from being laid off or having my hours/pay cut. I was promoted within a year and love what I do and the team I work with. My bf did get laid off but found a job close to mine and we now live together. He recently found an even better job and is very happy.
My life couldn't be more different all because I clicked on a Facebook add.
Forgot to add that my new employer is paying for me to get my masters.
I said yes to a predator when I was 3. I don’t want to go into the details but it left me with extreme anxiety and it developed into selective mutism. This caused me to have few friends. When I was 8 I had to poop but I was scared of being judged and pooped my pants. That fear of judgment made me try to clean out my pants but it then made me look like I peed, and I looked like I did it on purpose. Then my friend told a girl in her art class who was the older sister of a girl in MY art class. I transferred schools because of academic reasons but because the girl knew, I had no friends because I wanted them to forget. My mental health went down the drain, I attempted suicide when I was 10 because I was tired of the consequences of what I said 7 years before. Then the second I had a support system we moved and I still had a fear they knew something about me I didn’t. I don’t have any good friends in this state. I began to plan my death, but never attempted because my best friend saved me. It’s been years since one word changed my life, but I’m still suffering. I’m 1 year clean from suicidal ideation.
