vent it all out pals. i won’t be able to comment on your submissions because my account needs approval apparently. (what are they even checking?) but i’ll make one giant submission to reply to y’all. that is, if this post even gets out of draft form. (curse you bp)
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so basically ive been really depressed because everyone is ignoring me in my bio class. i was like really good friends with this one guy but after his gf broke up with him he stopped talking to me. im just confused because the week after they did, he told me not to worry about anything because we were still friends then like two days later he stopped talking to me. i ask him things and he ignores me and it bothers me. and he got my table partner ignoring me too. she doesnt even sit with me anymore. she grabbed my chair and sits with the him and his partner. i wish i could talk to him but he :(
Well my unspecified mood disorder (still trying to get an appointment with a psychiatrist) has plunged me into a low again so I'm just low energy and I hate myself. It's still sunny out so it's nowhere near as bad as it would be otherwise, I feel pretty okay other than constant anxiety chest pain and suicidal thoughts/passive self hatred. I'm not dissociative and when I have a chance I can distract myself, so that's nice. I got a self care app which is both sad but also really useful, and it told me I have depression but I don't think I have depression?? I definitely have SAD or seasonal depression and possibly have bipolar but I don't think I have real depression. Idk I'm just sort of confused
Well as an update I had a suicidal mental breakdown yesterday (:
-fair weather rose! i missed you! you should totally vent though, it helps.
- I missed you too Madally!! i think you should get Liam’s number or something, or convince him to join bp 😉
-crowspectre, hi! i think you’re really awesome, and i hope you get the help you need!!
-tardigrade, i’m sorry i hurt you i guess. i though this was just a bp ship. hope you find someone better than me.
lately i’ll be in class and i’ll start dissociating and it feels horrible. and i have anxious thoughts and stuff. i don’t even know what to do anymore.
hey
hey!!! im so happy ur back i missed u! the pizza trio is back together!!!!
life less sucky cuz school be ending in less than a month in my area. and i also am going on a lot of trips too :D
HAHAHA HAHaha ha ha ha... I'm choosing to ignore all of my mental health issues. Not the healthiest strategy, but it's not like I can do anything about them right now. So, for the purposes of this list addition, I'm doing fabulously! No mental health issues here!
My best friend and bf went offline so some unknown reason :(
Ghostly Snail:
well sexuality can be fluid! i think you’re a lesbian, but that might change! you don’t have to label yourself either if you feel uncomfortable!
:) yeah I have no labels right now. I feel like it will take a while
- Icelandic Fart, i missed you too! you’re one of my fav people on bp, and i love you!
- Shanila, i missed you so much!!! i read your comments while i was away, and it was nice!
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- blue mouse, i’m sorry about that :( i miss dp too, but he always comes back. maybe he’s in a situation rn.
also blue mouse, don’t leave!!! your comments bring joy to my cold, dark, shriveled up heart!! jokes aside, it would be really sad to see you go. pls stay :(
This is kind of unrelated so sorry about that, but I saw Crowspectre’s bio and am so confused about my sexuality so maybe you can help. So I always thought I was straight. I had only ever had one crush prior to middle school. It was a boy. But then I got to middle school, realized I had a crush on a girl in my class and while considering my sexuality realized that I could only picture myself/want to be dating a girl. I’m not allowed/ready to date anyway, but I could not picture myself wanting to be with a guy/never notice guys in the way I do girls. But I did have a crush on that boy a couple years ago, although those feelings died out. So now I am thoroughly confused. Agdjdusbxhdbdj seems like an appropriate way to end this absolute mess of a list submission so agdjdusbxhdbdj!
That sounds homoflexible or bi with a preference for girls, or lesbian but with aesthetic attraction to girls. You could also just be lesbian and the crush was your hormones/sexuality figuring itself out (I had a crush like that and I'm so glad I never acted on it). It's up to you what words you use, you're valid no matter what ans you honestly don't need labels unless you want them. Hope I could help!
Life is so boring, tiring and dull that I’m waiting for it to either end or for a major change to happen. I’m not going to off myself because the cells in my body will feel sad if I do and that’s bad. I have 4 projects for school and I don’t know how I can manage all of them without self sabotaging like I’ve been doing for all my homework assignments. I feel like I could potentially be neurodivergent because despite being able to grasp concepts easily, I can’t pay attention long enough without getting distracted by something. I’ve gotten distracted because of basic stationary in class and it’s ridiculous. I’m just tired of everything and wish I lived in an alternate timeline where my parents and school are kind and understanding. I have a feeling that everyone hates me because I’m just too annoying. The feeling isn’t baseless either, almost everyone I’ve ever been friends with told me in some way or the other that I am annoying and they can’t all be lying. I don’t even know what part of me is annoying and I’m trying to get to the bottom of that. I’ve been staring into space way more than usual and I started zoning out more than usual. I zone out when eating, playing, when studying etc. I once zoned out for too long in my computer class so my teacher threw chalk at my head to get me to snap out of it. All of my teachers have noticed that I either shake my leg when sitting or rock back and forth in my chair or I just fidget with random stuff in my hand. They’re all telling me to stop doing that but I don’t know how because I’ve been doing that my entire life and it helps me to stay grounded and focus so I can’t unlearn that easily
Hey Stardust! It sounds a lot like you have ADHD (I do). I've always struggled to finish things and juggle different tasks. I am always distracted and have a really hard time with deadlines, which can give me a lot of anxiety. I'm just starting to work through it myself, so I don't have too many suggestions right now, but I would recommend talking to a doctor who can provide a diagnosis and treatment options. Also, since it's summer now, maybe look into alternative options for school next year. I don't know exactly what your circumstances are, but especially since Covid people have realized the need for specialized education that's less overwhelming and there are a lot more options available than there used to be. But most of all, know that you're not alone :)
