September is National Suicide Prevention Month, and throughout the last few weeks, Instagram has become flooded by empowering survival stories, raising social awareness on the illness. A new hashtag, #faceofdepression, is adding an essential layer of depth to the public conversation about hidden depression symptoms, and it's one we just can't ignore.

What do depressed people look like? What does someone with suicidal thoughts appear? What does depression feels like? Many of us would probably picture a crumpled up, crying shell of a person on a bathroom floor. The reality that #faceofdepression is trying to explain, however, is that people who are struggling with feeling depressed often hide it in their everyday lives - meaning that they look like just about any other person you'd pass on the street.

One of the most touching contributions to the campaign was a video shared by Talinda Bentley, widow of Linkin Park singer Chester Bennington, showing him laughing and smiling just 36 hours before his tragic suicide. Don't take everything at 'face' value. If you think or know someone is showing the signs of depression, ask the hard questions before it's too late.

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24/7 if you or someone you know needs urgent treatment of depression. Call 1-800-273-8255 or go to their official website to live chat with a counselor.

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Hope Floats 1 year ago

The first picture is how people expect you to look when you're suicidal. . The second is reality. . Laughter doesn't always equate to happiness.

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Caitlyn McCracken 1 year ago

I'm so sad for his family

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You can't tell can you? You can't tell by the look in my eyes or the sound of my voice even. You're thinking "You're smiling though!" Yes. Yes, I am smiling. I smiled for you. I smiled so I don't make you feel bad. I don't want you to feel like I do. I also don't want you to feel like there is something you can do to make me "feel better". There isn't anything anyone can do. I have to work through it on my own. The worst part is that this bout snuck up on me. I recognize the familiarity of it all though. Empty Lonely Heavy Tired So tired Everything is loud Everything is annoying I have no patience I want to be left alone I want to stay in bed I don't want to work out I want to eat everything without cooking anything The best part is that I haven't felt like this in a very long time AND that I recognize it for what is. I'm the one who bakes and does crafts. You see that on the outside but you don't see the darkness inside. For those that are also suffering....PLEASE SEEK HELP. Treatment is different for each person. Do what is best for you. I'm doing what works for me while I get back to Monique. So for now - I smile, and let people know I'm struggling.

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sh 1 year ago

THIS! She describes it so well... "The worst part is that this bout snuck up on me. I recognize the familiarity of it all though. Empty Lonely Heavy Tired So tired Everything is loud Everything is annoying I have no patience I want to be left alone I want to stay in bed I don't want to work out I want to eat everything without cooking anything "

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My daughter as well. The night before she ended up in the hospital they went to the daddy daughter dance and had an amazing time. Thankfully she's still alive today and learning to beat her illness. She was 8 at the time

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Aurelia Grey 1 year ago

Mercy. Hurts to look at her, hurts to learn how young she was, I hope things are better.

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Neb 1 year ago

And this is why everyone needs to learn to listen. Appearance is not everything.

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#6

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This is my son , right before going to his computer to look up how to properly hang himself. Two days later he followed through.

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JillVille Child Care 1 year ago

I am so sorry :( I could not imagine the loss of a child this way. I have 4 teenagers. My heart is breaking for your family.

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Lyn Limpert 1 year ago

Nailed it. I was wondering why my behavior is so strange. Now I know.

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This is depression in our home. I tried to hang myself in my attic when the board broke and I broke thru the ceiling alerting my family. I fight every day. My husband tries his best but can't break through. I don't understand it. I don't know why I can't get rid of it. I have a wonderful family. I feel selfish, lost, sick and angry at myself. My brain has always been a little scrambled and I've fought just to make it thru school, I can't keep a job. I can't stay in task long enough or I take too long. I leave before I get fired. It's hard to feel worthless and I hate feeling like a burden to my family. I have so much pain inside. I'm in therapy I have meds. All I know is even though I feel like suicide would make life easier for my family, I also feel like if I could just get my head fixed and could be someone worthy, I really would like to stay around. I have been trying for so long I don't know if it's gonna happen for me. Today I am here. We will see how tomorrow goes tomorrow. I take it day for day and some times hour by hour. Sometimes i think If I can get through one more hour I'll go to bed and I'll sleep til tomorrow and see how it goes. Today has been ok. I'm trying to find something good today to give hope for tomorrow. Today I try.

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Caroline Huot 1 year ago

Not just hour by hour honey... minute by minute, second by second!! I've been there... Take care xx

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#9

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My #faceofdepression and yes it is possible to be depressed with a child. Hearing, "You don't have a reason to be depressed with her around" doesn't do shit but make me feel worse about myself Being told, "All you need is exercise and a good diet" just makes me want to throat punch you even though you're coming from a good place Depression keeps you from doing things you want to do because it's literally a chemical imbalance in your brain.

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Elaine Van Zon 1 year ago

yes ,been there, well meaning people saying utterly stupid things. I hate " We've all been there" They are trying to make us feel they understand but succeed only in showing how little they understand. No you havn't been there - you have NO idea. Your daughter is adorable ,you are doing a great and brave job as her Mum. I pray you find something that will ease your pain and make your smile real on the inside too

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#10

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This is my boyfriend two weeks before hanging himself. Will never understand it...

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KK 1 year ago

Posts like these can hit very close to home. Please reach out for help if you struggle with thoughts of suicide. It can be prevented. There is help available in your country, take a look: http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

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#11

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This is what depression looked like not long before we lost our beloved Luke. Depression is a SERIOUS illness. Don't dismiss people who are hurting.

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Nini 1 year ago

Depression is like a worm, crawling under your skin and eating your flesh without anybody noticing. Because no one cares about what's inside of you. And everybody overreacts when something's seeable. But when "something" is noticeable is when you need people not to see, then you smile, every time for no reason, so they won't ask what you don't want to talk about. Because no matter what, when and whoever pretends to be here for you, everything looks fake, sounds wrong, and it hurts to realize how much you suck at life. And someday, it becomes too painful, you want to run away but everything's the same wherever you go. This is at that point that "suicide", "silence" and "darkness" start to look sweet, inspiring, necessary. Depression is a worm that deforms reality and makes "freedom" and "peace" rhyme with "death". I feel sorry for y'all, I wish your beloveds could have found a better way to relieve themselves from this pain.

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Tasha Harris 1 year ago

Thanks for sharing , it helps.

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Kim Lorton 1 year ago

Glad you are alive!

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#14

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Bipolar disorder here,(with a heavy emphasis on the depression side)...I get up, put on a full face of makeup, wear a fun dress, all while struggling with depression, anxiety and sometimes suicidal thoughts..

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MonsterMash 1 year ago

You're beautiful! Thank you for being strong .

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Currently at the doctor seeking help, most have no idea what I'm going through and that I cry in the shower or in the car on my way home from work or can't sleep at night because of panic attacks

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Dani Donovan 1 year ago

So glad you are seeking help. You're not alone!

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Neb 1 year ago

These are some crazy criteria - if you cannot get up from bed or do not brush hair, it is way too late. Also, there is functional depression, where everything looks OK from the surface. Only looks.

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Jade Lynn 1 year ago

As someone who is going through depression, ptsd, and suidice attempts etc, i feel like i can see it in the eyes of others when they are hurting. Makeup or no make up. I wish the best for all of us. Thank you and everyone else for sharing

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Neb 1 year ago

So true...

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#19

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Major Depression & PPD here. 3 weeks pp with #2 & going to the doctor is helping. Most times I feel like I'm drowning but last couple of days it's been easier. Sometimes just talking about it can be cathartic. PLEASE seek help if you need it. It's not failure. Sometimes you just need a little more time to get your shit together and that's ok, because being a functional parent is hard fucking work.

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Jenna Bois 1 year ago

You need to take care of you to be the best parent you can. I'm glad you're finding talk therapy helping. You got this :)

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Duc Anh 1 year ago

I dont know what happened to you, but whatever, you look beautiful

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Nicole Yates 1 year ago

Yep I understand. Why is hair washing the hardest part?!

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Meagan Collette 1 year ago

I get you; I struggle with feeling like a failure every time I need to go back on medication.

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#23

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The face of depression. Sometimes it looks optimistic. Sometimes it doesn't. And having a smart, beautiful child doesn't mean those feelings don't exist or that they're not valid. She loves me on my good days and my bad days.

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Jenna Bois 1 year ago

I identify with this so much. Even on the bad days I find a reason to go on in my daughter. Because she just sees her mom, not the depression.

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#24

I Suffer From Fybromyalgia, Arthritis And Anxiety. The Years Have Been A Struggle.

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JillVille Child Care 1 year ago

You are so beautiful! Love your eyes, definitely a caring emotional person in there :)

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Sarah Laurent 1 year ago

People need you, and love you, I promise. Even while crying, in bed, red wine or whatever ;)

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Alžběta Laurincová 1 year ago

I know it won't help you, but you are a very beuatiful woman! I love your eyes.

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Emmajones 1 year ago

Thank you for speaking out.

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Jan Benante 1 year ago

You are stronger than you know. Just keep on keeping on.

#29

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When people think about depression, they tend to have a very specific idea of how it manifests itself. I'm in the middle of a very real depressive episode and here I am at work with my plants and headphones

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Lily Winterhart 1 year ago

EnLyte might work for you like it did for me.

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I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for years and years. I started experiencing symptoms around 12 and wasn't diagnosed or treated until I was 25. (Early on docs told me I didn't seem depressed.) Once my kiddo was born, my postpartum depression fused with my everyday depression and I almost lost it. It was my dream to be a happy SAHP, and even though I stayed home for over a year, I felt worse and worse every day. It took all of my energy to make sure my baby was taken care of. I developed severe sleep apnea, gained a lot of weight, and couldn't function outside of my parental duties.

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Nadine 1 year ago

Being a mom with or without depression takes so much inner strength. Bless you for fighting and starting so strong. Been there, know that feeling

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Depressed Since High'school, Drop'out, One Suicide Attempt, Severely Agoraphobic. In My Country Having A Mental Illness Means That "Your Parents Didn't Beat You Enough", Or, "Your Husband Should Throw You Out Of The House, Maybe Then You'll Get A Job". So I Learned To Smile Even In My Worst Days.

Depressed since high'school, drop'out, one suicide attempt, severely agoraphobic. In my country having a mental illness means that "Your parents didn't beat you enough", or, "Your husband should throw you out of the house, maybe then you'll get a job". So I learned to smile even in my worst days.

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Réka Viczián 1 year ago

It's not just your country, middle-and-east europe still has room for improvement in the field of mental illnesses. I hope you have more good days than bad and wish you strength to get to the good ones!

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#32

Me, Two Days After A Failed Suicide Attempt. People Don't "Look" Depressed Because Depression Isn't A Facial Expression.

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1 year ago

Me, Two Days After A Failed Suicide Attempt. People Don’t “Look” Depressed, Because Depression Isn’t A Facial Expression.

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1 year ago

Stuck in a panic attack, yes, that's sweat running down my Face. Battling for 15 years now, the fearless good times in between two bad phases are the reason I'm still fighting. Nevertheless I'm tired to explain what a panic attack feels like or what the reasons are I'm suffering from this disease. It's not my fault and I don't want to feel guilty anymore.

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GAD and depression for probably two decades. My childhood nickname was "smiley". My positive attitude gets remarked on often. My brain still fires weird regardless.

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Tam-Tam 1 year ago

I def relate. Sometimes the bigger my smile is in public, the more severe my depression is...and that is confusing understandably to a lot of people around me. Pls remember you are beautiful and worthy of happiness!

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I have suffered from depression for more than 2 thirds of my life. Think about that. Most of my life has been in pain and misery. Most of my life has been spent fighting my demons of suicidal ideation and convincing myself to stay, to keep fighting. There are days, even now, that I can draft my goodbye note in my head. There are days I can almost convince myself that my son and my family could be better off without me. Yet, this is no way makes me an unfit mother. One thing I never fail at for my son is loving him. Showing him he is loved. I know some of you say "you shouldn't have children if you are mentally ill" and to you I say: Eat a bag of dicks. My son saved my life. My son saves my life every day. I will not keep from him that I am sick when he is old enough to understand. I'd rather he see me battle my mind, than think even a fraction of my pain was caused by him.

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BoredBirgit 1 year ago

2 Cuties.

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#36

I've Been Diagnosed With Borderline A Few Weeks Ago. My Head Needs Rest, My Puppy Needs A Hug

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1 year ago

Got diagnosed with borderline a few months ago. Hard to hear but all fell into place. The depressions are hard, very hard. Thankfully i've been diagnosed, got a great counselor and am attending group-therapy. Keep strong everyone and thank you all for sharing your stories.

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Two Months After Attempting Suicide And While I Was Considering Trying Again Every Day. Every Person Who Meets Me And I Tell I Have Depression Say; 'You Just Don't Seem The Type!' There Is No Type.

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Two months after attempting suicide - while I was considering trying again daily. Everyone who meets me and who I tell I have depression say: 'You don't seem the type!' There is no type.

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The Last Images We Have Of My Eldest Son's Father. Mother's Day 2012. We Felt He Was Making Improvements, But Jesse Completed Suicide June 12, 2012.

The last images we have of my eldest son's father. Mother's day 2012. We felt he was making improvements, but Jesse completed suicide June 12, 2012.

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Agnes Jekyll 1 year ago

I'm so sorry.

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#39

About Three Hours Before A Massive Panic Attack That Ultimately Ended In Self Harm.

About three hours before a massive panic attack that ultimately ended in self harm.

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makki 1 year ago

You're very pretty I love your smile!

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When You Put On Your War Face But Inside Is Where The Battle Happens.

When you put on your war face but inside is where the battle happens.

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Karin Ahrenhold 1 year ago

great picture, great words - how well I know that..

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I Never Feel Normal, Accepted Or Accepted. I Struggle Always. I'm Thankful For My Support.

I never feel normal, accepted or accepted. I struggle always. I'm thankful for my support.

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Ivelina Gancheva 1 year ago

Dude, you cool, you remind me of the singer Banks visually. Be strong!

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The Guy In Red Was My Dad, Less Than 2 Months Before He Took His Life. He Was 60 Years Old. He Told Us As Kids That He Had To Talk Himself Out Of Suicide Every Day. He Succeeded, But Not Without Letting Every One Of His Loved Ones Know How Much He Loved Us. I Miss Him Terribly, He Will Never Get To Meet My Kids Or Walk Me Down The Isle.

The guy in red was my dad, less than 2 months before he took his life. He was 60 years old. He told us as kids that he had to talk himself out of suicide every day. He succeeded, but not without letting every one of his loved ones know how much he loved us. I miss him terribly, he will never get to meet my kids or walk me down the isle.

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Jade Lynn 1 year ago

I'm so sorry for your loss. I am so sorry for his struggle.

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Kevin Goldman 1 year ago

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Taken Few Days Ago... Face Of Depression, Anxiety, Ednos, Bpd And Suicidal Thoughts. I'm Ashmed

Taken few days ago... Face of depression, anxiety, ednos, bpd and suicidal thoughts. I'm ashmed

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Neb 1 year ago

You should not be ashamed. Would you be ashamed if you had cancer?

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Depressed For Years, Nobody Noticed Till Last Year, It’s Amazing How Depression Can Hide

Depressed for years, nobody noticed till last year, it’s amazing how depression can hide.

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Anita Ghigi 1 year ago

Such cool hair.

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#46

Decided To Get Out Of Bed For The First Time In Months To Look Nice For A Picture

Decided to get out of bed for the first time in months to look nice for a picture.

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Chantelle Dixie 1 year ago

Scarlet Johannson is that you? (Don't know if I spelt her name correctly) you do remind me of her but I hope you can fight through this tough time I'm struggling atm

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#47

This Is What Depression And Anxiety Looks Like. I Was In A Bad Place. I Am Fine Now, But Sometimes It Comes Back, And I Hate It. Luckily I Have Got A Support System Around Me That Helps Me Through When Out Gets Bad. But Most People Would Never Have Guess When I Struggle!

This is what depression and anxiety looks like. I was in a bad place. I am fine now, but sometimes it comes back, and I hate it. Luckily I have got a support system around me that helps me through when out gets bad. But most people would never have guess when I struggle!

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#48

"You're Young And Smart" They Say. "Depression Don't Exist" They Say.

"Depression? But you're young and smart" they say. And here I am with 11 suicide attempts.

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awesome_sauce.71 1 year ago

you are very pretty! I want to grow up and be as pretty as you and maybe my moms.It will all be okay

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Anxiety And Depression For Many Years, I Put A Mask On I Guess At Times And Try To Make Out I'm The Fun, Smiling Happy One, But What Goes On Inside Is Darker At Times. Worry So Much About Things, Its Like The End Of The World When Changes Happen. I Get Paniced By Things, Angry And Distant Or I Breakdown And Cry. Its Not Only Mental But Physical Too, Ibs And Stress Symptoms That Make Me Feel Weak And Tired. My Artistic Part Of My Brain Does Help Break Things Up Time To Time, A Way Of Expressing Something That I Cant Feel. I Wish At Times I Could Eventually Feel More In Control, But Then I'd Be Scared Of That Feeling.

Anxiety and depression for many years, I put a mask on I guess at times and try to make out I'm the fun, smiling happy one, but what goes on inside is darker at times. Worry so much about things, its like the end of the world when changes happen. I get paniced by things, angry and distant or I breakdown and cry. Its not only mental but physical too, ibs and stress symptoms that make me feel weak and tired. My artistic part of my brain does help break things up time to time, a way of expressing something that I cant feel. I wish at times I could eventually feel more in control, but then I'd be scared of that feeling.

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Kevin Goldman 1 year ago

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Depressed For 4 Years

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cryingcat 6 months ago

You are so beautiful! I am blessed that I don’t have depression but many times I have really, really, wanted to die. I know you didn’t mention sucicide but I feel sometimes I’m just an embarrassment and failure, that my friends don’t actually like me. Keep pushing through!

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#facesofdepression You Would Not Know When I Go Out Into The World What I'm Fearing Inside. It's My Anxiety That Causes Depression And Sometimes That's Taken For Laziness Or An Unabitious Work Habit. It's Anything But That. It's Pure Fear That Leads To Depression That I Haven't Accomplished My Goals Or Raised My Son Right Etc Etc. I Can And Will Overcome This.

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Lily Winterhart 1 year ago

Stay strong lil sister.

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#52

A Day On The Beach With My Beautiful Family. All The Time Hiding Deep Suicidal Thoughts. Men Are Not Allowed To Be Depressed. Two Overdoses, Hours Of Researching Ways To Die, Even Planning A Trip To Dignitas To Take The Pressure Off My Family. #thefaceofdepression #nolife #needhelp

A day on the beach with my beautiful family. All the time hiding deep suicidal thoughts. Men are not allowed to be depressed. Two overdoses, hours of researching ways to die, even planning a trip to Dignitas to take the pressure off my family.

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Edward Reid 1 year ago

I noticed on this that most of the men that are shown here actually committed suicide. It is awful man. Men don't seem to open up like women. They don't display their emotions like them. They just do the terrible deed and that is just that. It is brave of you to admit your struggle. The darkness will pass in time but it is a wait and the struggle can be like making it through a nightmare, but it will end.

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This Is My Son Haiden ♥ This Was His Smile I Remember Everyday Even The Night Before 19 Years Old He Left My World 18.10.1997 - 06.07.2017 Fly High With The Angels My Beautiful Handsome Baby Boy Xxxxxxx 💕 🌟 ✨ ♥

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My beautiful handsome baby boy Haiden ♥ suffered with anxiety and decided to leave my world :-( this was his smiling face always even the night before. Age 19 forever in my heart 💕 fly high with the angels my beautiful handsome son Haiden Meare 18.10.1997 - 06.07.2017 💕 🌟 ♥ ✨ XxxxxX Love Mum XxxxxxxxxxxX

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My Face Of Depression

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Natalie Binebrink-Davis 1 year ago

You're beautiful!

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Suicidal On And Off For The Past 9 Years

Suicidal on and off for the past 9 years.

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makki 1 year ago

This is cute

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#56

Each Time I Say I'm Feeling Suicidal I'm Told "What About Those Who Love You? Did You Think About Them?" And I Keep Saying That The Day I Finally Succumb To Suicidal Depression Everyone Will Be Calling Me A Coward, Asking Why I Didn't Reach Out To Them, Saying That They Never Expected It From Me...such A Strong Woman. I Reach Out All The Time. Everyone Is Always Busy. They Have Their Own Problems. I'm Too Pretty To Be Thinking Of Suicide...as If I Woke Up One Day And Decided To Go And Buy Bipolar Disorder That Weighs Heavily On The Depression Side With A Handsome Serving Of Anxiety And Suicidal Thoughts. I Didn't Want This. I Never Asked For It. If There Was A Way I Would Gladly Throw It Away. It's Like A Leech With Its Mouth Hooks Embedded So Deep Into My Back That If I Try To Pull It Off, My Whole Back Is Pulled Along With It. Nobody Knows How Many Times Per Week I Think About Suicide, Or Cry At Night, Or Just Anytime Really. I've Been Diagnosed With Bipolar Before But I Can't Afford Meds Now So That's Fun. I'm Drained Every Single Day By Dragging My Own Self Around. I'm Running Out Of Energy To Continue. And People Want Me To Be Thinking About Others, When I Can Barely Deal With My Own Self. Depression Has No Face Unfortunately. Bipolar Disorder Is So Misunderstood 😭😭"But You Were Happy Just A Few Minutes Ago " Yeah Well, That's Gone. Can't Find The Happiness Anymore. Don't Know What Happened.

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1 year ago

"You're too pretty to be thinking about suicide. What about everyone who loves you? Don't let the devil blah blah blah" Bipolar, weighing heavily on the depression side, along with anxiety. Cocktail 🍸

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I Always Say I Am Happily Depressed

I always say I am happily depressed.

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Fighting 20+ Years. Depression, Gad, Number Of Issues From Childhood. I Have A Plan And A Note

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1 year ago

20+ years of depression and GAD. Meds saved me, but I've always had a plan and a note.

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Most Of The Time, I Can Hide My Depression Well. Here Lately, Not So Much....

Most of the time, I can hide my depression well. Here lately, not so much...

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Kevin Goldman 1 year ago

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The Face Of Depression #youdontlookdepressed

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Aline Moraes 1 year ago

You're one of the most beautiful persons that I've ever seen, you look like a fairy. Please, I struggle too, I know how it's like, so stay strong!

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This Is My Beautiful Popular Hilarious Son, Weeks Before He Killed. The Whole Town Was Stunned. Never Give Up Helping Your Child .

This is my beautiful popular hilarious son, weeks before he killed. The whole town was stunned. Never give up helping your child .

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Alain 1 year ago

Very sorry ma'm...

#62

Just Because You Can't See Depression It Doesn't Mean It's Not There!

Just because you can't see depression it doesn't mean it's not there!

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Kevin Goldman 1 year ago

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He Gave Up 7 Years Ago.

He gave up 7 years ago.

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Diane Patrick 9 months ago

Poor man. ☹️

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1 year ago

This is the face of depression - Chinese, CA resident, early 30’s, has a large happy dog, holds a master degree and works as a dept head for a billion dollar tech company. This is the face of depression- smiling ear to ear in Bali on a meditation retreat. I went to Bali to die, simple as that. It’s a beautiful place and i just wanted to quietly slip away. I didn’t want to say goodbye, I didn’t want my friends and family to find my body, I didn’t want to make any noise... I simply just wanted to disappear. The face of depression is never going to be what you think it looks like.

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Depression Has No Face - Behind A Fake Smile, I'm Truly Broken...

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1 year ago

There's no words to express how I feel sometimes. There's no a single thought, sound or breath of air I can muster that could ever explain how I feel when I am low. Of many attempts on my own life, I've not been successful yet. I say "yet", with hopes that it will never happen. Sometimes, it becomes so unbearable. I have to fight myself to keep from fading to black. Talking about my issues never helped, I've talked until my jaw hurt. Neither being around my favorite people, enjoying my favorite food or drinks, nor when I'm in the middle of a hobby I'm enjoying. When those times come, I have total loss of control of my emotions. My mind doesn't stop, memories flow from the darkest parts of my mind, and flood the foreground of my current thoughts. Whatever joy I have in my mind gets completely overrun by the shadows of my mind, and the storm begins. The thoughts race like lightning, and my tears fall like crashing thunder. Some storms aren't so bad, but some completely destroy me...

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#66

#faceofgadwithseverepanicdisorder Hi, Im 37. I Had My First Panic Attact At 4. I Never Told Family. At The Age Of 13 I Would Cry Myself To Sleep And Would Occasionally Cut My Arm. I Demonstrated Destructive Behavior To Myself,others, And Everything Around Me. At 19, The Panic Attacks Came Back. I Started Never Leaving My Apartment. At 21 I Had A Episode Of Non Stop Panic Attacks. If I Wasnt Sleeping I Was Having One. I Then Admitted Myself Into A Phsychiatric Hospital. Since Then Ive Done Pretty Well With A Few Relapses Here And There. But I Always Have The Fear...when Is It Going To Strike Again :/

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1 year ago

This is a face of someone that has battle GAD and severe panic disorder. It started at 4 with panic attacks in certain situations. I would shut down and turn inward almost paralyzed with the feeling I was having. But I never told anyone... Through middle school and early high school I battled depression. I would cry every night before bed and then as I got older I turned the sadness to anger. By 19 I had been in a abusive relationship. The panic attacks that I once remembered as a child came back. I barely left the apartment because I tended to get them more if I left the house... I moved home because I couldn't hold a job because of the panic attacks. At 21 all I could do is sleep and if not,I was having a panic attack.I admitted myself into a Psych. hospital and was diagnosed. It has got better over the years. I'm able to cope better or know when I need a change of medication.I do relapse sometimes and still don't leave the house much. But I try to stay optimistic.

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#67

It’s More “manageable “ Now, But Some Days It Is A Struggle To Get Out Of Bed.

It’s more “manageable “ now, but some days it is a struggle to get out of bed.

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#68

The Nights Are The Worse..the Weekends Too..and At Any Given Time In An Ordinary Day....i Hate My Life And All The Meds.

The nights are the worse..The weekends too..And at any given time in an ordinary day....I hate my life and all the meds.

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Cat Lady 1 year ago

Don't hate yourself, it gets better I promise.

#69

Smile On Outside Broken Inside

Smile on outside broken inside

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Kevin Goldman 1 year ago

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cNjUO8_Vuw

#70

Depression Has No One Look, Who Are You? Is A Tough Question For Me, The Person I Am When I Wake Up And When I Go To Bed Is Much Different Than The Person I Am When I Cake Makeup On My Face. I Am Happy On Camera But Am Dying Inside. Wish People Knew, But It's A Critics World And I Am My Worst Enemy. Depression Runs My Life And No One Ever Has A Clue, My Smile And Charm Hide My True Self. We All Have Our Masks. Depression Comes In Many Forms. Staying Strong One Day At A Time. We Can Beat This Together 💜

Depression has no one look, who are you? Is a tough question for me, the person I am when I wake up and when I go to bed is much different than the person I am when I cake makeup on my face. I am happy on camera but am dying inside. Wish people knew, but it's a critics world and I am my worst enemy. Depression runs my life and no one ever has a clue, my smile and charm hide my true self. We all have our masks. Depression comes in many forms. Staying strong one day at a time. We can beat this together.

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Victoria Chifor 1 year ago

wise lady

#71

Danielle Hogan 16 Yrs Suicide By Hanging

Danielle hogan 16 yrs suicide by hanging

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Alain 1 year ago

Sadning...

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#72

Top Left: I Felt The Best I Have In A Long Time.

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1 year ago

Top Left: I felt better than I have in a long time. I "look" depressed, but just was mostly just playing up the dark outfit I was wearing. Yes, depression was lurking...but that was a good day. Bottom Left: I couldn't make myself smile and was taking a picture to make my recent inexplicable burst of tears wasn't completely visible. Right: One of the harder days. I tend to put more effort into my appearance when I'm doing really well or really terribly...more effort to cover it up and hopefully trick my brain and those around me into believing that I'm happy. I smile more. Tell me again which one is the face of depression.

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#73

My Faces Of Depression And Suicidal Thoughts (As Well As Gad, Bpd, Cptsd, Etc) Vary Quite A Bit. Sometimes I Try To Hide/combat It By Smiling, Making Faces, Using Snapchat, Etc. Sometimes I Am Too Overwhelmed To Hide It And Sometimes I'm Tired Of Feeling Like I Have To. There Needs To Be A Lot More Understanding And Awareness Of Mental Illness.

My faces of depression and suicidal thoughts (as well as gad, bpd, cptsd, etc) vary quite a bit. Sometimes I try to hide/combat it by smiling, making faces, using snapchat, etc. Sometimes I am too overwhelmed to hide it and sometimes I'm tired of feeling like I have to. There needs to be a lot more understanding and awareness of mental illness.

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Lily Winterhart 1 year ago

I had all that as well. My meds would never work. I had a certain problem with them making it to my brain. They found EnLyte and my pills worked. And I even was able to get off some of them! Hang in there!

#74

Me After Driving 200 Miles To See Her. #faceofdepression Even Christian Males

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Alain 1 year ago

:-) so nice of you man !!

#75

This Is Major Depression And Major Anxiety

This is major depression and major anxiety.

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Alain 1 year ago

the road has been long and the thoughts may get weary but your keen sense of seeing us out here is present - we'll be here till the end , <3 4 U

#76

No Face Or Age; The Most Recent Is Where I Am. It Was A Week Ago. I’m Okay These Days With Some Severe Dips In My Anxiety Levels Which Tends To Push Other Things Too. Nothing Bad, It’s Just There.

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1 year ago

5th grade I attempted to kill myself. I won’t go into the details, and it’s obvious I lived. I was in counseling in 4th grade while my legal father (disowned) tried to prove my mom did something that he obviously imagined. As living with him grew worse, so did my mental health. I was pulled from counseling when it was obvious I wasn’t okay. It was brushed off. For years afterward, I had some huge issues with Myself and had a lot of breakdowns. Anxiety came as a symptom, I think, of it. The anxiety is now my main issue, but when it flares, it can bring me down pretty far. I experienced my first panic attack Halloween of Junior year. A memory came back from living with my legal father. I smile, I make terrible puns, I love my puppies - animals in general, and am working towards a career. I’m also human, and so these things happen.

#77

The Other People Look Beautiful, But I'm 71 And Ugly And I Still Remember The Times I Wanted To Die...