No Regrets (Just You)

I can take responsibility for my choices

You are supposed to forgive and forget

To move on, to let go, to accept

But I can’t seem to forgive myself, only regret

Wearing my heart on my sleeves

Has stretched them down to my feet,

If I’m not careful I’ll get tangled and trip and bleed

I need to get these words out of my head

I need the satisfaction of something complete, I need release

It hurts to now be on the other side

I apologize to all the boys in the wake behind

You took a naive girl and transformed her, she is a woman

If you told me from the beginning

That it would be over before we really began

Told me that we’d never meet and I would be responsible,

That this is all because of me, I wouldn’t believe..

I feel like a cheater

That no matter what I do or say

I cannot explain or redeem myself

I acted like a child and it cost me dearly

It cost me so many possibilities..

You gave me so many gifts, in the shape of a key

Opening doors I didn’t even know were locked

You inspired me, to create anew.. to write

But I can’t right the wrong I did to you

I’ve notoriously broken hearts but this time I broke my own

Now I wear it like an iron crown, so heavy on my mind

I opened my heart, not just to you, but to myself as well

I am beautiful.. I am brave.. I am ready

Or so I thought, I was impatient and I walked away

What did I gain this time? Pride.. Dignity.. Liberation?

What’s the difference, I missed out on so much more

Maybe I can move on with another, but my hearts just not in it

I know I want more now and I’ll be ready next time

I’m sorry you got caught up in my journey

I wish I could take it back, that you were left unscathed

But I’m a different person now, for the better

I only hope you find someone who’s beautiful with soul

Who knows what she has and never lets you go