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I Suffer From DPDR Disorder 24/7 And I Want People To Know How It Feels (New Pics)
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I Suffer From DPDR Disorder 24/7 And I Want People To Know How It Feels (New Pics)

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My name is Lulu and I am a 26-year-old living in Switzerland. I create comics that describe how it’s like to live with DPDR. I’ve previously shared my experience on Bored Panda.

Depersonalization/Derealization is not a rare disorder but it’s not very well known! Sufferers often feel alone because the symptoms they experience are weird and difficult to describe.

DPDR can be a diagnosis on its own as far as I know but very often it‘s also a symptom of another mental disorder such as Anxiety, Depression, Dissociative disorder.

The causes of DPDR are mostly smoking weed, trauma and mental illness.  Sometimes even people with migraine experience DPDR.

For me DPDR is constant. It’s a 24/7 thing and here is how it feels.

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Jordan Rogers
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I enjoy learning new things through this website that I would never hear about. These bring me new perspectives on how to grow and learn about others.

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Jill
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I wonder if we all dont have bouts of this, but since it doesnt affect our lives negatively or not all that much it's not classified as a disorder. (Most mental disorders have to have a crippling negative effect that hinders normal functions for it to be classified as such.) For all I know from my own experience , I can sometimes look in a mirror and get the idea that Im looking at both the image in the mirror and outside of the real person standing there wondering at it as the feeling of existance. Or when someone calls my name, I can think that the sound quantifies someone and dont connect it with myself. It doesnt happen all that often, but I think it's part of the human experience. But what do i know? I love these images and get how it must be to live with this disorder. Keep working throught it!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

thank you for your comment. let me clear something dpdr is very crippling! Specialy the first time you have it. i have sufferd from dpdr for nearly 4 years now but the first year i had this, and i had no idea what was going on it was crippling. Dpdr causes serious panicattacks and a lot of anxiety. And it affects our daily life and hinders a normal function. this comic right here is only to show that lil one side ( i called it „the string“)... if you like to know more go check out my other dpdr post 😊

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Emily Wayne
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Somatic Experiencing Therapy can be very effective for this speaking from personal exp. <3

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Something
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I think a lot of people have this and get diagnosed with generalized anxiety instead because they don't know how to describe any of this to their doctor.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

that is possible! thats why i made the frist comic (you can find it in the text when clicking on the word bored panda) where i describe a lot of the symtoms i hope it helps someone to get a propper diagnosis. describing something with drawings is i hope a lil easier

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Daria B
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Your string metaphor is pretty much like a Korean idiom that might literally translate as "the rope/string of sanity" (정신줄). And the way this idiom is used within conversation could be very well summed up by the last frame of your comic. I find this interesting. (Additional info: there is a cartoon series based off the web comic which was inspired by this way of saying, the title is 놓지마 정신줄 )

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QueenOlive
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This sounds like such a battle! I hope you can get thru it. I remember one day (this is the only time it's ever happened, it was super random) I spent the entire day feeling like I was stuck in a dream where time just stopped. Then I started to feel like I was watching myself do everything. It was the weirdest and most uncomfortable thing, and I can't imagine going they something similar every day. Thanks for sharing ur experience.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

thank you for understanding it is hard but i am able to deal with it better already

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Charlotte
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Very familiar. I suffer from a whole lot of everything, which mostly manifests itself as agoraphobia, OCD, and anxiety type symptoms. Depersonalization only happens when I'm not doing too well, almost as if my mind is trying to escape itself. I am suddenly very aware that I'm (for example) in a supermarket, in my city, in my country, on the planet, going through space, which makes me feel very small and insignificant. It can happen at any time, when my brain has just decided it's had enough for the day. Fortunately, my medication helps a lot! Thank you for sharing, you're not alone!

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ThatOnePanda
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you for these. I tend to dissociate a lot and it's much like this. I never really hallucinate or lose all touch to reality which is kinda worse since it can feel I could stop it but am not trying enough

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Saulo Frota
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I experienced this feeling once when I was kid and had a really high fever, but never knew some people felt like this constantly. Thanks for sharing this with us. Hang in there! ;)

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Liza Sandberg
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I also have Dpdr and I would say it's like that sometimes for me, sometimes I suffer from "pure" hallucinations like visual or sound. Sometimes other senses are affected, like the sense of gravity, smell, taste or I can even loose my sight completely a short while. Sometimes it's everything at once. But most awful is when I become catatonic and can't move or communicate at all.

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Lena Jander
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Do you mind me asking - these catatonic episodes, what are they like? It sounds like something I recognize from my sister, but she wasn't diagnosed with DPDR (just a bunch of other stuff) and we couldn't really place those symptoms. She gets very rigid and I can tell that she's frightened but she is unable to communicate at all. But unlike with a dissociative episode she hears, sees and feels everything around her and gets panicked because she is "locked" inside her head. It usually lasts around fifteen minutes until she relaxes enough. Is that what you are referring to as well? That would be really helpful!

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Amberly Middlemiss
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I've been experiencing exactly this for the last few years, and have never known how to put the feeling into words but this does such a good job! It really can be crippling and I feel like getting help is so hard because its such a hard disorder to even describe.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

i am glad my drawings helped you! you may aslo find help in the first comic i did! you are not alone

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Irene Liebman Baerwalde
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have never heard someone describe how I see myself and how I am in the world. I have always said, "I feel like I am watching myself interact with people from the outside". Almost like watching a movie.

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C Hypercube
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I've had the same feeling when I was younger. It was like life around me was like a movie, and then I would have a sudden hard to describe feeling of being aware of myself, of my existence. Like "hey! I'm in this movie too!" After that came the anxiety and depression. I guess it's a bad movie after all.

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yerawitchSam13
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

After seeing this and looking at other websites about DPDR, I think I may have it. I kind of kept how I felt to myself because I didn't want to seem extra weird to my family and doctors. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and PTSD as well.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

DPDR can be a symtom of many other mental disorder. So there is a possibility that you may experience DPDR specially because you have PTSD. I am not a doctor but maybe it helps you to talk about this with your therapist or someome if you have one. You are not alone!

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J K
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have periods of this (maybe something else) that get exponentially worse. For me it happens if I’m bored or something that has been a routine changes (like changing where I study everyday). And it starts a chain reaction and gets worse and worse, until something stops it (like a 2-3 days of being busy which is rare in these covid days).luckily for me I know it will end. I relate exactly to your depictions of it. I know I’m me but something just feels off, like I’m living in a dream but also not. It has taught me a lot about how people with mental health issues feel and also how I can understand that the mind is super powerful and all I need to do is not let it take over me.

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Brandon Rennie
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I’ve personally never been fully told I have dp or dr but I’ve had this feeling for almost 2 years . for the past 1 and a half I’ve been fine and it’s been alright , however ever since yesterday the feeling has got really bad and I’ve been having panic attacks . I’m 15 and is the scariest thing that’s happened in my life. I personally feel like I’ve been through a lot in my life but I have never been diagnosed with anything . It’s the hardest thing to describe , but any advice would help .

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J K
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I had this too but luckily for only one week. I was normal but then I started to go crazy in my room at night. For me it is something that just starts and gets worse exponentially. What broke mine was actually an ear infection. Why? Because I think my body and mostly my mind focused on that and broke the cycle of worrying = getting worse = more worrying

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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

as also someone who deals with DPDR I can confirm that it is incredibly crippling and hard to live with. as an artist, I can also say that your art looks super cute and I love it so much. you've captured DPDR so well.

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Kayli Byrne
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I’m not sure you will read this now, but I feel like I have something similar to this. I just found out dpdr was a thing. I’ll try to explain it. When I am having a panic attack, once in a great while I see this thing where it’s like a time loop. And like I can see and feel things over and over again. It feels like I barely have a grip on reality. I can talk and see but it’s hard to come back to reality unless I touch my surroundings and focus on them.

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shahenda allami
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Hi I didn’t know how I could message you , but I’ve been suffering from this for almost 2 years now . I didn’t know what it was , thought I was going crazy , it took me a bit to find out what it was that I was experiencing. Nothing is helping it stop :(

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Chancey
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you for sharing your DP/DR experience and helping raise awareness. My daughter has struggled with this condition since she smoked marijuana in high school. She has always explained it as a disconnect from reality and from one's self. There are large periods of times when she is fine but at other times barely able to function normally.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

if she needs someone to talk write me a dm on instagram! i am very proud of you for understanding what she has and be interested in learn more! thank you we need more parents like you!

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Whitney Hill
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have a medical marijuana card for my major depressive disorder, anxiety and PTSD. Yes everyone is different but I would be careful about making bold statement about the effects of marijuana since you could be accidentally misleading someone with depression/anxiety who might actually benefit from alternative medicine. Also, for a mental health concern like DPDR, depression etc. any drug, not just marijuana, could have serious consequences for the individuals mental well being. Highlighting one potential trigger and ignoring others to a crowd that might not be aware of the condition can be dangerous.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

i am not talking about CBD weed that people benefit from i talk about weed with THC in it

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Angie Jolie
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thanks for explaining it in such beautiful and adorable way!

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Country Nana
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you so much for both of these explanations about DP/DR. I suffered from this from early childhood well into my teens. It was only over the past couple of years that I remembered having these symptoms. I tried explaining it to my psychiatrist, but either he didn't understand my description or forgot about the disorder.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

you are very welcome. Thats why i make this comic. so people have something to show other people how they feel in a picture. I hope it helps feel free to use my comics as an explenation in therapy if you really can relate. wish you all the best

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

it is similar yes! dpdr can also be a symtome of dissociative disorder a lor of people who dissociate also suffer from dpdr. i also have stronger dpdr episodes where i dissociate. i guess a big difference here is that i am still able to hear and respond while having an episode

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Fatma
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you for this outstanding comic, it’s really amazing that you explained it in a simple way. I’ve been suffering from DPDR for 13 years (since I was 9 years old), and I got diagnosed three weeks ago. I didn’t have the confidence to seek for help, I thought that I was crazy. The thoughts were stressing me out to the point that I always wish I was dead or didn’t even exist. I’ll try my best to attend therapy sessions regularly hopping that I’ll eventually be normal, because it’s seriously effecting my life. I’ll share your posts with my family, maybe they’ll have an idea about what I’m going through and I really hope that I can get their support.

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Nicholas Patrick
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have severe dpdr and it's so scary. I become super aware of how real things are and I have a hard time understanding the nature of existence. The fact that I am alive and a human and that I am experiencing life and that others are also experiencing me... its all so weird and it's terrifying

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Nicholas Patrick
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I suffer with dpdr and its so scary sometimes. My own existence freaks me out. Realizing how real everything is and how it all exists is so weird.

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Abood Ayman
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have been suffering from dpdr for 10 years now and this is the closest thing to express how it feels

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Vera
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Ive been feeling this way for a long time but when I try to remember when it started, It feels like I’ve been like this my whole life. I started to wonder what was wrong with me only two years ago, I knew something was off but I couldn’t place a finger on it and I also couldn’t say I’m psychotic so my anxiety level kept growing. I just currently found out about DDD and it explains exactly how I feel. I thought finding out will make me feel better but now I’m losing it. What do I do?

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poop pee
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have it 24/7 too but it does seem to be unnoticed during things like a really good video game

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Laura M D
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have no words to describe how accurate this is. Thank you. I'll use it to explain it to my colleagues. I'm a psychiatrist but also have had this experiences, and was trying to explain the feeling to the psychologist I work with in order to treat a patient. This will be useful. Thank you very much!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

glad it helps you ! check out my other post here on bored panda maybe it will help you even more because everything is described there

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Julia Daxenbichler
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

my sister and i had this a lot when we were in high school. we called it "film", because it feels like you're watching your life as a movie. also, your emotions don't feel "real", and your mind is clear but you're still perceiving everything through an invisible veil. it felt quite uncomfortable, though thankfully not to the point where it resulted in a panic attack. i think it can definitely be triggered by stress. thankfully, i don't really get it anymore now that i'm in college. oh, and often it could be triggered just by someone mentioning it. "hey julia, you know what? film."

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Jack Nimble
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is interesting. Could it be a blessing? Being a third-party witness to your life and not getting caught up in the drama of this plane (this material "reality") could be something to strive for in this ego-centric society. A large chunk of my spiritual practice is attempting to do just that.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

well, i have to say meanwhile i use my strong episodes that causes me do disociate for meditation. but its a struggle to accept a chronic dpdr as a benefit. but i say everything is possible

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I'm not an introvert, but I do like cuddles and recognise everything. Can I join?

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Myrthe Klompmaker
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Everything deels exactly the same for me. Although sometimes (once or twice a year) I see the world as it should be and see myself touching stuff (normally I know how things/people feel when you touch, but I don't really féél it) and that's almost a start experience, because I'm not used to it.

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Ahmad Pujianto
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Everyone have their own inside-struggle including myself.. Low self-esteem, thought of suicide, though of using drug, thought of become atheist, etc.. My cure is to found a person that I care and she care me then marry.. This is at least work for myself..

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bacdeusa
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you... I have felt very much the same for the last 28 years of my life. I had no idea this was an actual diagnosis, nor that others shared this feeling of offset from their person and their life. I spent a lot of my day feeling simultaneously elated with my knowledge that this is a real thing and sad about the way it was dredging up old hurts I was using DPRD to cope with. I feel a new lease on my life. I appreciate your sharing of your own journey. Thank you!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

i know that sumulation feeling very well you are not alone. i would descripe my vision like „ i see everything like through a camera“ you are not alone

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Shaun Asakura
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Sounds like normal life, some folks just learn to deal with it.

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Arno Nüüm
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I agree. Nowadays every kind of mild discomfort has a name and is an official illness. And everybody is like "OMG I HAVE THIS TOO!"

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Niall Mac Iomera
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This sounds like the most made up 'excuse' condition ive ever heard of

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

for some people who are suffering it is yes... glad for you that you are not in that position...

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So confused I don't think I have a better understanding of this at all. Seems to me this person needs weed or something, chill out. I think we as a society (especially Europe) are way too reliant on diagnoses to have some sort of condition when in fact you're just depressed, anxious or need some order in your life. But it's so much easier to say I have x condition and not have to be held accountable for anything.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

uhm dpdr is often caused by weed so i guess it would be a bad idea for me to smoke some. how about you care more about topics you are interessted in to learn and understand rather than just leave comments with assumptions all over ? dpdr can be a symtom of depression and anxiety. guess you are just one of those people who don‘t get it till they get it... that‘s ok... hope you will never suffer from it

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Jordan Rogers
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I enjoy learning new things through this website that I would never hear about. These bring me new perspectives on how to grow and learn about others.

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Jill
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I wonder if we all dont have bouts of this, but since it doesnt affect our lives negatively or not all that much it's not classified as a disorder. (Most mental disorders have to have a crippling negative effect that hinders normal functions for it to be classified as such.) For all I know from my own experience , I can sometimes look in a mirror and get the idea that Im looking at both the image in the mirror and outside of the real person standing there wondering at it as the feeling of existance. Or when someone calls my name, I can think that the sound quantifies someone and dont connect it with myself. It doesnt happen all that often, but I think it's part of the human experience. But what do i know? I love these images and get how it must be to live with this disorder. Keep working throught it!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

thank you for your comment. let me clear something dpdr is very crippling! Specialy the first time you have it. i have sufferd from dpdr for nearly 4 years now but the first year i had this, and i had no idea what was going on it was crippling. Dpdr causes serious panicattacks and a lot of anxiety. And it affects our daily life and hinders a normal function. this comic right here is only to show that lil one side ( i called it „the string“)... if you like to know more go check out my other dpdr post 😊

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Emily Wayne
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Somatic Experiencing Therapy can be very effective for this speaking from personal exp. <3

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Something
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I think a lot of people have this and get diagnosed with generalized anxiety instead because they don't know how to describe any of this to their doctor.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

that is possible! thats why i made the frist comic (you can find it in the text when clicking on the word bored panda) where i describe a lot of the symtoms i hope it helps someone to get a propper diagnosis. describing something with drawings is i hope a lil easier

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Daria B
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Your string metaphor is pretty much like a Korean idiom that might literally translate as "the rope/string of sanity" (정신줄). And the way this idiom is used within conversation could be very well summed up by the last frame of your comic. I find this interesting. (Additional info: there is a cartoon series based off the web comic which was inspired by this way of saying, the title is 놓지마 정신줄 )

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QueenOlive
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This sounds like such a battle! I hope you can get thru it. I remember one day (this is the only time it's ever happened, it was super random) I spent the entire day feeling like I was stuck in a dream where time just stopped. Then I started to feel like I was watching myself do everything. It was the weirdest and most uncomfortable thing, and I can't imagine going they something similar every day. Thanks for sharing ur experience.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

thank you for understanding it is hard but i am able to deal with it better already

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Charlotte
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Very familiar. I suffer from a whole lot of everything, which mostly manifests itself as agoraphobia, OCD, and anxiety type symptoms. Depersonalization only happens when I'm not doing too well, almost as if my mind is trying to escape itself. I am suddenly very aware that I'm (for example) in a supermarket, in my city, in my country, on the planet, going through space, which makes me feel very small and insignificant. It can happen at any time, when my brain has just decided it's had enough for the day. Fortunately, my medication helps a lot! Thank you for sharing, you're not alone!

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ThatOnePanda
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you for these. I tend to dissociate a lot and it's much like this. I never really hallucinate or lose all touch to reality which is kinda worse since it can feel I could stop it but am not trying enough

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Saulo Frota
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I experienced this feeling once when I was kid and had a really high fever, but never knew some people felt like this constantly. Thanks for sharing this with us. Hang in there! ;)

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Liza Sandberg
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I also have Dpdr and I would say it's like that sometimes for me, sometimes I suffer from "pure" hallucinations like visual or sound. Sometimes other senses are affected, like the sense of gravity, smell, taste or I can even loose my sight completely a short while. Sometimes it's everything at once. But most awful is when I become catatonic and can't move or communicate at all.

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Lena Jander
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Do you mind me asking - these catatonic episodes, what are they like? It sounds like something I recognize from my sister, but she wasn't diagnosed with DPDR (just a bunch of other stuff) and we couldn't really place those symptoms. She gets very rigid and I can tell that she's frightened but she is unable to communicate at all. But unlike with a dissociative episode she hears, sees and feels everything around her and gets panicked because she is "locked" inside her head. It usually lasts around fifteen minutes until she relaxes enough. Is that what you are referring to as well? That would be really helpful!

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Amberly Middlemiss
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I've been experiencing exactly this for the last few years, and have never known how to put the feeling into words but this does such a good job! It really can be crippling and I feel like getting help is so hard because its such a hard disorder to even describe.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

i am glad my drawings helped you! you may aslo find help in the first comic i did! you are not alone

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Irene Liebman Baerwalde
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have never heard someone describe how I see myself and how I am in the world. I have always said, "I feel like I am watching myself interact with people from the outside". Almost like watching a movie.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I've had the same feeling when I was younger. It was like life around me was like a movie, and then I would have a sudden hard to describe feeling of being aware of myself, of my existence. Like "hey! I'm in this movie too!" After that came the anxiety and depression. I guess it's a bad movie after all.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

After seeing this and looking at other websites about DPDR, I think I may have it. I kind of kept how I felt to myself because I didn't want to seem extra weird to my family and doctors. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and PTSD as well.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

DPDR can be a symtom of many other mental disorder. So there is a possibility that you may experience DPDR specially because you have PTSD. I am not a doctor but maybe it helps you to talk about this with your therapist or someome if you have one. You are not alone!

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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have periods of this (maybe something else) that get exponentially worse. For me it happens if I’m bored or something that has been a routine changes (like changing where I study everyday). And it starts a chain reaction and gets worse and worse, until something stops it (like a 2-3 days of being busy which is rare in these covid days).luckily for me I know it will end. I relate exactly to your depictions of it. I know I’m me but something just feels off, like I’m living in a dream but also not. It has taught me a lot about how people with mental health issues feel and also how I can understand that the mind is super powerful and all I need to do is not let it take over me.

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Brandon Rennie
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I’ve personally never been fully told I have dp or dr but I’ve had this feeling for almost 2 years . for the past 1 and a half I’ve been fine and it’s been alright , however ever since yesterday the feeling has got really bad and I’ve been having panic attacks . I’m 15 and is the scariest thing that’s happened in my life. I personally feel like I’ve been through a lot in my life but I have never been diagnosed with anything . It’s the hardest thing to describe , but any advice would help .

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J K
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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I had this too but luckily for only one week. I was normal but then I started to go crazy in my room at night. For me it is something that just starts and gets worse exponentially. What broke mine was actually an ear infection. Why? Because I think my body and mostly my mind focused on that and broke the cycle of worrying = getting worse = more worrying

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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

as also someone who deals with DPDR I can confirm that it is incredibly crippling and hard to live with. as an artist, I can also say that your art looks super cute and I love it so much. you've captured DPDR so well.

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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I’m not sure you will read this now, but I feel like I have something similar to this. I just found out dpdr was a thing. I’ll try to explain it. When I am having a panic attack, once in a great while I see this thing where it’s like a time loop. And like I can see and feel things over and over again. It feels like I barely have a grip on reality. I can talk and see but it’s hard to come back to reality unless I touch my surroundings and focus on them.

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shahenda allami
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Hi I didn’t know how I could message you , but I’ve been suffering from this for almost 2 years now . I didn’t know what it was , thought I was going crazy , it took me a bit to find out what it was that I was experiencing. Nothing is helping it stop :(

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you for sharing your DP/DR experience and helping raise awareness. My daughter has struggled with this condition since she smoked marijuana in high school. She has always explained it as a disconnect from reality and from one's self. There are large periods of times when she is fine but at other times barely able to function normally.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

if she needs someone to talk write me a dm on instagram! i am very proud of you for understanding what she has and be interested in learn more! thank you we need more parents like you!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have a medical marijuana card for my major depressive disorder, anxiety and PTSD. Yes everyone is different but I would be careful about making bold statement about the effects of marijuana since you could be accidentally misleading someone with depression/anxiety who might actually benefit from alternative medicine. Also, for a mental health concern like DPDR, depression etc. any drug, not just marijuana, could have serious consequences for the individuals mental well being. Highlighting one potential trigger and ignoring others to a crowd that might not be aware of the condition can be dangerous.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

i am not talking about CBD weed that people benefit from i talk about weed with THC in it

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thanks for explaining it in such beautiful and adorable way!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you so much for both of these explanations about DP/DR. I suffered from this from early childhood well into my teens. It was only over the past couple of years that I remembered having these symptoms. I tried explaining it to my psychiatrist, but either he didn't understand my description or forgot about the disorder.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

you are very welcome. Thats why i make this comic. so people have something to show other people how they feel in a picture. I hope it helps feel free to use my comics as an explenation in therapy if you really can relate. wish you all the best

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

it is similar yes! dpdr can also be a symtome of dissociative disorder a lor of people who dissociate also suffer from dpdr. i also have stronger dpdr episodes where i dissociate. i guess a big difference here is that i am still able to hear and respond while having an episode

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you for this outstanding comic, it’s really amazing that you explained it in a simple way. I’ve been suffering from DPDR for 13 years (since I was 9 years old), and I got diagnosed three weeks ago. I didn’t have the confidence to seek for help, I thought that I was crazy. The thoughts were stressing me out to the point that I always wish I was dead or didn’t even exist. I’ll try my best to attend therapy sessions regularly hopping that I’ll eventually be normal, because it’s seriously effecting my life. I’ll share your posts with my family, maybe they’ll have an idea about what I’m going through and I really hope that I can get their support.

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Nicholas Patrick
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have severe dpdr and it's so scary. I become super aware of how real things are and I have a hard time understanding the nature of existence. The fact that I am alive and a human and that I am experiencing life and that others are also experiencing me... its all so weird and it's terrifying

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Nicholas Patrick
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I suffer with dpdr and its so scary sometimes. My own existence freaks me out. Realizing how real everything is and how it all exists is so weird.

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Abood Ayman
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have been suffering from dpdr for 10 years now and this is the closest thing to express how it feels

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3 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Ive been feeling this way for a long time but when I try to remember when it started, It feels like I’ve been like this my whole life. I started to wonder what was wrong with me only two years ago, I knew something was off but I couldn’t place a finger on it and I also couldn’t say I’m psychotic so my anxiety level kept growing. I just currently found out about DDD and it explains exactly how I feel. I thought finding out will make me feel better but now I’m losing it. What do I do?

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have it 24/7 too but it does seem to be unnoticed during things like a really good video game

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I have no words to describe how accurate this is. Thank you. I'll use it to explain it to my colleagues. I'm a psychiatrist but also have had this experiences, and was trying to explain the feeling to the psychologist I work with in order to treat a patient. This will be useful. Thank you very much!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

glad it helps you ! check out my other post here on bored panda maybe it will help you even more because everything is described there

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

my sister and i had this a lot when we were in high school. we called it "film", because it feels like you're watching your life as a movie. also, your emotions don't feel "real", and your mind is clear but you're still perceiving everything through an invisible veil. it felt quite uncomfortable, though thankfully not to the point where it resulted in a panic attack. i think it can definitely be triggered by stress. thankfully, i don't really get it anymore now that i'm in college. oh, and often it could be triggered just by someone mentioning it. "hey julia, you know what? film."

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is interesting. Could it be a blessing? Being a third-party witness to your life and not getting caught up in the drama of this plane (this material "reality") could be something to strive for in this ego-centric society. A large chunk of my spiritual practice is attempting to do just that.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

well, i have to say meanwhile i use my strong episodes that causes me do disociate for meditation. but its a struggle to accept a chronic dpdr as a benefit. but i say everything is possible

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I'm not an introvert, but I do like cuddles and recognise everything. Can I join?

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Myrthe Klompmaker
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Everything deels exactly the same for me. Although sometimes (once or twice a year) I see the world as it should be and see myself touching stuff (normally I know how things/people feel when you touch, but I don't really féél it) and that's almost a start experience, because I'm not used to it.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Everyone have their own inside-struggle including myself.. Low self-esteem, thought of suicide, though of using drug, thought of become atheist, etc.. My cure is to found a person that I care and she care me then marry.. This is at least work for myself..

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you... I have felt very much the same for the last 28 years of my life. I had no idea this was an actual diagnosis, nor that others shared this feeling of offset from their person and their life. I spent a lot of my day feeling simultaneously elated with my knowledge that this is a real thing and sad about the way it was dredging up old hurts I was using DPRD to cope with. I feel a new lease on my life. I appreciate your sharing of your own journey. Thank you!

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

i know that sumulation feeling very well you are not alone. i would descripe my vision like „ i see everything like through a camera“ you are not alone

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Shaun Asakura
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Sounds like normal life, some folks just learn to deal with it.

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Arno Nüüm
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I agree. Nowadays every kind of mild discomfort has a name and is an official illness. And everybody is like "OMG I HAVE THIS TOO!"

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Niall Mac Iomera
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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This sounds like the most made up 'excuse' condition ive ever heard of

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

for some people who are suffering it is yes... glad for you that you are not in that position...

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So confused I don't think I have a better understanding of this at all. Seems to me this person needs weed or something, chill out. I think we as a society (especially Europe) are way too reliant on diagnoses to have some sort of condition when in fact you're just depressed, anxious or need some order in your life. But it's so much easier to say I have x condition and not have to be held accountable for anything.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

uhm dpdr is often caused by weed so i guess it would be a bad idea for me to smoke some. how about you care more about topics you are interessted in to learn and understand rather than just leave comments with assumptions all over ? dpdr can be a symtom of depression and anxiety. guess you are just one of those people who don‘t get it till they get it... that‘s ok... hope you will never suffer from it

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