Whats The Worst Damage Youve Done To Yaself?

G'Day from a desert in the Land Down under.... Having a gander at you guys here cause I am bored, lost and need some insperation.... and many other sad things to destract myself from lol... Tormented life but working thru! I write. I craft. I sing. I am what I is! A FUCKING OLD MESS LOL! Social Media SUX BALLZ but I wanna chitchat so I thought who wants a brainstorm ... I'm a mad metalhead but love lots of things especially 90s Grunge, Metal & Auz Pub Rock.... 90s was a Golden Era lol I was a Auzzie teen thru the whole thing lol.... Rachmaninoff to Regurgitation to Rammstine lol I say im Pagan but that's in the loose sence if the word- nothing fits for those in the deep south lmao. I believe in Mother Nature & Father Time. I'm a non practicing Witch you could say. Not Wiccian, tell ya why one day mayhaps lol I grew up with Aboriginals and have fully felt the ties to land..... i gotta get On Country soon.... itll help heal the mind n heart but sadly not the body. I am disabled. Mentally ill- mad as a hatter with a high IQ and outta this world EQ that gets me in so much trouble .... I also have 4 bolts in my back and have arthritis of the hips..... the bain of becoming an old rebel.... lol now without a cause lol... Hoping for a change but I can't get out n about to change things till this bloody surgery! I live in a tiny little mining town out in country Western Australia. Kalgoorlie is one of the biggest mining .... cities? our hottest days can get up to it 125⁰ farienhit (52⁰) and we've has as low as -12⁰..... the dogs water freezes lol...... My main thing I do is crochet.... bit of a self taught wiz lol but that's me never doing things the 'proppa' way lol ... wing it if it works and causes less pain lol... I've made massive blankets to stuffed teddies (amigurumi) to a baby tophat lol Actually, I havnt met a craft I couldn't do lol.... humble brag lol Umm..... My hair is blue or green or both lol sometimes with some purple or orange or both lol I am a Pisces Raven Dragon lol (1976) Was defo a goth back in the day. Tho I believe it was a bit more technical before technology lol... Some days I hate tech Some days I need it..... Some of us are in prisons of our own, ya know? I live with me dad, hes an old cunt lol.... Oh I will swear, I fucking love it lol spoze it's a bit of an Auzzie thing too lol.... so how'd u go? Did you make it thru?