I lost my son last year this month. I think its important to share loss. Especially for those of us that are introverted qnd the internet is easier that people. I lost my son October 25th 2021. To SIDS. He was 15 days old. Share your loss, feel loved, feel your grief, its okay. With covid and all, I can't imagine what we have all been through. Let's support one another, lets not be lost. Holidays can be rough.
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I'll go 1st. My son is supposed to turn one tomorrow. He isn't going to though. Higher powers had other plans and he lost his breath at 15 days old in is sleep. I couldn't bring him back, my father couldn't bring him back, it isn't fair to me or my husband who also helped. So, tonight I'm sitting in my room and thinking about how precious he is. How soft and little and cuddly he could be and missing him. I wish I could hold him again, give him his 1st birthday cake, watch him take his 1st steps. But I can't. Tomorrow I'm bringing him a Ballon and a small dinosaur (cause I know he would of loved them) to his grave for his 1st birthday.
A trifecta of horror. A) after my parents asked me in 2009 to move back home to help my parents and be my mom’s ft caregiver (end stages of MS), and taking care of her for seven years 24/7/365, when she passed away, it broke me; B) four months later, I was hit head on by an SUV, and broke my neck, femur, knee joint, etc.; and the worst one-C) my dad, who had been my hero and parachute my whole life, died in 11/17. I didn’t get to say goodbye, and found out later that he’d written in his notes that he wanted me to move back home and never told me. I’m still lost
I lost my mil to complications from MS. My wife was her caregiver for years. It takes a special person to be a full time care giver.
My grandma died in 17 I was really sad.
I met the love of my life when we were in 9th grade. Our lives took us in very different directions, but we reconnected in our late 20's. It was a long, hard road for us to eventually get married. I was fighting for custody of my son (from a previous relationship) and there were many times that I told him if it was all too much for him that I would understand. He told me he loved me more than anything in the world and that nothing was going to make him leave me. Ever. We finally got married and were blissfully happy for about 12 seconds. Then he cheated on me and we separated 2 days after our second wedding anniversary. Our divorce broke me. It was the most painful, humilating thing I have been through in my entire life.
I'm so very sorry. That is very harsh to go through. I have a hint of a feeling you will make it though and find someone worthy of your time and love.
