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This year had been the longeeeest year of my life considering the major changes that happened. There were lots of twists and turns, up and downs and I had learn so much throughout the ride! I have learned how to live separately from my mom (whom I’ve always been dependent ever since I have laid my eyes on this world) and learned how to work and support myself financially (and emotionally!). Days were a lot difficult than it was. The transition was hard and I’m still struggling and learning on how I can survive every day until now. I’m still trying to keep up with anxiety and depression but I am blessed to have people who haven’t given up on me yet. My relationship with my sister grew. I have made friends and also lost some. I learned to burn bridges with people who suck out the positivity in me. And damn, it feels good. I acquired new hobbies, did things to get lost in time and distract myself from reality. I also had the opportunity to know more about my future husband by living with him and it was a crazy adventure. We’ve gone to many places and tried new things together. I’m thankful to come home to a hug that makes me feel better. I had my biggest what if and I still think of it every single day. For my celebration, I actually listed many options for my 21st birthday but we opted for a budget wise celebration. We celebrated my birthday at Enchanted Kingdom and Vikings Luxury Buffet availing the free admission (because adulting is hard). I made ben try the rides ad there were laugh at loud moments after. It was a fun filled day. Ben gave me the most adorable cat as a present and surprised me with a cake. This was the first time that I spent my birthday away from my family but it wasn’t so bad after all. I’m still grateful to have ben who did extra efforts to make my day special. Lastly, I thank God for staying with me and guiding me even though I have turned my back several times on him. I hope that my faith grows and kindness reigns every day.