Hey Pandas, What Is Something That Has Been Eating You Up? (Closed)
As most of you probably know, it’s not good to bottle things up. If you need a place to rant, then this post is probably the right place for you to let loose and share your troubles with the community (please keep it PG)! I can’t say I can help you, but I will listen.
Share your worries with us below and don't forget to upvote your favorite answers. We are here to rant away and listen to each other!
Also, please be respectful and nice to each other, you never know what a person could be going through! So let's keep our replies positive and supportive as much as possible.
I don’t know how to tell my husband how bad things really are with my depression. On average I have been showering once a week, brushing my hair only when I have to go out but if it doesn’t look messy then I wont worry about brushing it at all. I brush my teeth probably twice a week and gargle mouthwash twice a week, I spend most of my days in bed and am tired ALL THE TIME, I am (trying to) nap more, I just want days to be over so I can just sleep but then I struggle to sleep coz of my RLS and insomnia and I can’t stop thinking out how much I want to change and get pissed at myself for wasting another day but then I do the same thing the next day. I am finding it harder to find joy in the things I usually love and one of them is music. I am not dancing to music as much as I used to, I seem to tune it out more. I am in chronic pain every damn day, partly because of a deformity and partly because of my weight. My weight causes more pain on my hips, my knees and my feet. I have plantar fasciitis and heel spurs, I have just recently recovered from a cuboid displacement. All these issues effect my mobility coz of the absolute pain. I want to lose weight but I have been diagnosed with Obsessive compulsive eating disorder. All I think about is food even though I feel nauseous from the idea of eating or from overeating. I will be eating my lunch and all I can think of is my next meal. I feel absolutely DISGUSTED in myself and beat myself up pretty much every night. But for some stupid reason my brain doesn’t think about ANY iota of that the next day and I just carry on like every other day. I have done therapy for fucking years, I have done cognitive behavioural therapy, a few different antidepressants, meditation, hypnotherapy, many diets, shakes, positive affirmations, looked into religion (hey I am desperate), and I am pretty sure there are other things but I just can’t think of them right now. My next step is a vision board and last week my mum, my brothers and myself have started a weight loss challenge. I’m not doing that well, I have replaced a lot of bad foods with good foods but I am still snacking a lot. Next week my brother and I are signing up for the gym coz we don’t want to go by ourselves. Anyway sorry to just stop here, I don’t know what else to say. Good night.
I have said this on: https://www.boredpanda.com/hey-pandas-what-is-the-most-paranormal-thing-that-has-ever-happened-to-you/ and I will say it again. Why do people keep giving others downvotes for no reason at all? I find it stupid as how someone could make others feel bad- for just sharing their story??? I know that people agree with me on this, and I feel like people should have empathy for others as getting downvotes can hurt peoples feelings.
I'm 17 years old. I am about to be 18. I have no job, no license, and no real world experience because my parents won't let me. I am genuinely worried about how I will fare in the adult world due to my lack of experience.
Well, I got a COVID test yesterday. I'm going to have the results tomorrow, and I can't sleep, because I'm just thinking about it day and night. I keep thinking, "I've taken all the precautions, but could I have it?" I will update when I get results. Stay safe during these times, pandas!
I lost my brother to heart disease in May. 2 of my sisters have been diagnosed with cancer this year. Our other sister has had serious, life threatening health issues for years. So far, I'm the only one who has stayed healthy. All this worries me because I know it is hard on our 83 year old mother. 😢
My friends and I tease each other a lot but lately some of the things we say actually ends up hurting me. I don't want to tell them because that's how we have fun. Who am I to take away from that?
I’m 17 and a senior in high school and for the last 5 years I have been struggling with my sexuality. It’s a very confusing thing to think about. I am a girl who likes girls and I’ve just recently came to terms about it. But I can’t be who I am, or who I want the be because my parents are so small minded. I am a Christian who loves god but I also love girls and I don’t think god would condemn me for it. I feel like I’m alone in this journey and I need help.
I'm struggling to label my sexuality. For years I've been sure I'm bi and I've had experiences with guys and girls that seemed to back this up. However, recently, I've come to realise that I just don't like getting physical. With anyone. I feel absolutely nothing even when I'm with people I have very strong feelings for.
Maybe I'm too inexperienced or maybe I haven't found the right person. But its always a little worry in the back of my mind.
My partner and I have been together almost 4 years. We have a condo (rental), a cat, furniture, a life together. I love him. But this relationship has become so miserable, and so toxic... There's nothing I can do to make him happy except to leave him alone. I'm basically not "allowed" to get emotional about the state of our relationship or he explodes and storms off. We have had the breakup conversation so many times it seems cliché. And now it seems like things are finally at the end. He's got a wealthy family, and if we part ways and move out, he has no worries about what will happen to his life. In fact, he's convinced it will get better. I on the other hand send money to my mom, have ruined my credit trying to keep this household afloat (with zero recognition for it), and couldn't get a lease again if my life depended on it. IE if the relationship fails, I am next to homeless. I even dropped out of grad school 3 years ago and started working in restaurants to support us when he was unemployed. He's talked so much shit to our mutual friends about me I feel like I don't even have any anymore. It feels like my whole life is just falling apart, one step at a time.
I don't know how to tell my mom what I want. I just feel like if I do I will burst out Crying and she'll think something is wrong with me. And I'm scared of what she will think. I know she already disapproves of me trying to become an actor and well asking for her help I don't know how she will react. I just want to be a good daughter while having my dream job.
Having to cancel anything most of the time (friend meetings, family gatherings, fun, trips, projects at work, life basically) due to flare ups of chronic illness. It pains me to say "I can't" tens of times in a row to friends and family. I'm afraid of what awaits for me in the future in terms of my illness.
That when a person very close to me died, I could not attend the funeral due to the Covid-19 lockdown. The guilt of not being able to go does not help with my severe clinical depression
I am 11, and I'm not sure why, but ever since a few years ago, I've been extremely dirty minded. I imagine all sorts of really nasty things, and sometimes I look inappropriate things up. I have been trying so hard to stop and clear my mind of this filth, but I'm struggling. It's been devouring me for years now.
This is hard for me to say. Anyway, my parents are very devotional Hindus. I grew up believing it. I mean, it's the only religion-like concept that I've been introduced to. But recently, I've been having doubts. They're always at the back of my mind. I read the Mahabharata, (it's like a bible, but in Hinduism) I read the whole entire thing, and the first thing I thought was that I believed none of it. The sad thing is that I learn devotional dance too, and I always feel so guilty doing it, knowing that I don't believe in the stories that I'm representing with my dancing. I don't want to tell my parents. Truthfully, my mom and I don't have the best relationship and religion is something that we connected to. Without it, what would happen? I'm scared, and it feels horrible to have to pretend to believe something you don't. I just don't know what to do.
somebody told me I'm the reason they want to die. why? because I'm "too sad" LIKE DUDE I LITERALLY HAVE (ALMOST CRIPPLING) DEPRESSION. It does not feel great... I'm starting to think that if I don't exist she will be happier.....
The fact that it isn't likely that I will be remembered for anything I have or haven't done. So many people are forgotten every year and very few are remembered for anything, be it good or bad.
I'm feeling really really sad. Not a lot enthuses me at the moment and I have a lovely boyfriend, nice house and a new kitten. I feel guilty for feeling sad and find it difficult to explain to people why, let alone understand it myself
My mother and brother accusing me of being a drug addict. 4 years ago, and I'm still bitter. I didn't go to the ER seeking drugs. I went because I was in pain from the 10 centimeter tumor inside my uterus. I guess they realized their mistake after the surgeons spent 8 hours cutting it out of me, but I never got an apology. Never even admitted they were wrong. Sometimes I hate my family.
I think I might have anxiety? Like clinical anxiety. I’ve alway been a worried person, but it’s gotten out of hand. Twice now, I’ve had moments when I’m super anxious and scared to the point that I had to work hard to make myself leave my room. I also have this thing where I feel overwhelmed by really small things, sometimes just noises. But, I’m not sure if I’m overreacting or not. I know I’m stressed, but is it a real problem? And how do I let my parents know that I’m at least super worn out, or at most need to see a therapist?
I have severe depression and PTSD but nobody knows how unhappy I am because I have abusive parents and no close friends. And seeing how much better everyone else's life around me are, it just is eating me up.
mosquitos UwU...and the fact that everyone in the family thinks my grandparents are homophobic and im lesbian and havent come out to them
I'm so freaking worthless! i have no expeirince with the outside world and I've been able to wriggle my way out of any chance to get some because I'm horribly afraid of saying/doing something stupid. I hate myself and i can't say anything not only because my parents have isolated me from the handful of people who cared about me, but also because i know from expeirince that they will leave me in the dust when I'm not happy or cheery enough. I have no coping mechanisms left except hurting myself, mentally and physically. I'm terrified of the idea that no one is coming to save me, no one is going to start loving me unless i make it happen and i just don't have the heart to keep hoping it'll get better in 2 years when i move out. I don't want to tell anybody because i feel pathetic and i don't want to see that look on peoples faces when they realize that I've been hiding all the bad parts from them. sorry but i had to dump it...
The delicious Mexican food I had last night...
Sooo good, but so bad.
this is not nearly as bad as some others but I really need to get this off my mind. I met my boyfriend online, and everything is perfect. However, I can't get my doubts out of my head. I'm so scared I'll do something and lose him, or that he'll find someone better than me. I love him, and I don't want to lose him...I'll keep the doubts until we meet in two and a half years...
Questioning my gender. My sex is female but I've always felt that I kinda hovered between male and female. I don't think I'm genderfluid. I might be non binary, I'm just stressed out by it and it doesn't help that my mom says that anything besides male and female are fake and made up.
I try to fall asleep, but I can't sleep. Sleep deprivation is now just my routine. Even when I do manage to fall asleep for a few glorious moments, I awake throughout the night. Well, that and the fact that I'm very judgmental of myself and I just need my head to shut up for five minutes, so I can hear myself think, really THINK. And when I talk, it feels like no one ever listens. I want to change but I can't, really can't. I feel like I'm just running from everything, all my problems, and I run because I know I cannot hide.
It's keeping me up, everyone telling me that I should give up.
Long story short, I'm a mess.
An employee of 14 years, who I helped many times including buying him a car as a bonus, giving him raises from 30k a year to 120k, buying clothes for his kids, and giving him 6k cash from my pocket as a wedding gift...he bought some lottery tickets and offered to split with me if i paid for half and i said sure. Guess what happened? Yup! 5 million dollar winner that night and he recanted the offer to split. Nothing in writing so I lose. All I ever did was bless him and now I cant sleep or eat.
A friend and I have been making this graphic novel for about half a year now. To be honest, I cannot say why we've been doing it, but it's important to her and she really seems to be enjoying it. Lately, due to Covid, we haven't been able to see each other at all but she's still working on the project. I feel like a horrible friend for saying this, but I really want to pull out. I haven't had an active role in this project in a while, and I have told her a few times that I'll stop procrastinating and start helping her again, but I just can't find the energy to. I have a lot of chaos in my own life right now, but I do have a lot of time to help, but I just can't find the want to do it. I feel really guilty and like I am letting her down, but I just don't want to do this anymore. I've always been a people-pleaser, so that might be why I feel so guilty but I just don't know what to do. Am I overreacting? Am I just being cowardly for not speaking my mind? Or am I really a terrible friend? I'm probably being overdramatic, but this has been very heavy on my chest for a long time, and I haven't told a soul.
Friends. I have a friend that I was pretty close with last year until she started getting wrapped up in boys and drama and her high school sister's problems. She just goes on and on about soccer. I know she loves soccer but sometimes it's a little annoying because I can't get a word in edgewise. And trust me, I'm not a quiet person. Also, the worst part is she's always hating on my other friends an sucking up to all the people I know that are "popular", whatever that means in middle school. Recently I just feel like she just uses me to talk to and she doesn't really care about me. I just moved here last year and she was kind of my first friend but I'm not so sure anymore. Can ya'll help me?
Alkohol: My dad is an Alcoholic, and am afraid am turning to one,. i drink alone, and anytime i feel like. am disgusted afterwards, but dont seem to stop. My memory and sleep and my selfworth are really affected.. but i cant bring myself to ask for help.
Well... I’ve got a lot of stuff:
1. I have two chinchillas, and they’re really great, but I honestly like one more, he’s more friendly and cute. I love them both, but the other is always cranky. Help?
2. I have zero work ethic. Literally none.
I feel like my life is on pause now and forevermore, like I used to find joy in things such as seeing friends and drawing but now I feel like I don't want to do anything, don't feel motivated to do anything, don't like doing anything. I dunno. I'm a different person now. All I do is think about my life and climate change and death and everything wrong in this world. I just can't.
My ADHD...It's been driving me mad lately. Basically, instead of one "train of thought", I have LOTS of trains that aren't ever stopping at a station and they keep looping and twisting and interrupting each other, so now my train of thought is a giant knot of NONSENSE! And it's been a lot worse recently...I can't do school very well. My relationship with my family is rocky. Idk what to do.
My friend is incredibly violent and will stop at nothing to know your sexuality (which is weird) and I don't know if I should drop her.
i have a screen addiction. Yes, this is ironic. I have spent probably about 2000 hours on youtube. (rough guess) and I have no idea how to stop. i feel like a waste and a faliure. I wish that I could just stop.
ive been getting bullid lately, and i know people have way worse problems than this but i just want some ways to deal with them, but they've been pushing me around and im scared if i dont sand up to them soon it will get physical...
My parent's divorce. The house is different, a lot of things I held sentimental are gone, my mom's rules have gotten stricter since he's left. I look at spaces where his things were and it makes me sad. I get sad at random, sometimes for no apparent reason. And I have 2 projects to do. And to make it worse, my own friends sometimes doubt my sexuality and ask very probing questions and it makes me uncomfortable because if i don't answer they say im not who i am, they say its a phase, etc.
I don't know how people can lie to your face even when presented with proof and then be rude to you. How do they sleep at night? On the other hand, I can't sleep, I can't work, I can't eat, I can't do anything if I feel I have been unjust to someone or if I have hurt someone. I can't break anyone's trust, just the very possibility of me being in a position to cause someone to face a loss even if it's $3.00 makes me panic. Recently someone was very rude to me and tried to put the blame on me, I can't be rude back and sometimes I feel like I'm just an easy target.
I was bullied all my life, not only be fellow students but also the teachers... simply for being silent and shy - It started when my dad died when i was 5 and kids threw away my stuff, tried to drown me, beat me, locked me into places... yet i was the anti-social one for not playing around with them infront of the teachers...
when my dad died his side of the family literally vanished and abandoned my mum, me and my sister...
I worked all my life rly hard at school, was alway at top of my class, despite the bullying, got scholarships for good private highschools and was about to attend university to become a lawyer and work hard to repay my mum all her efforts and to stick it to all those a-holes that bullied me and made out lives even harder... but instead of attendind college as planned I got very sick... and the doctors fucked up... that was 12 yrs ago... despite having medical prove as MRIs and such, handicapped support denies me any help, and bcs i can't even get the freacking paper that confirms that i am handicapped I am still only working towards my bachelor's degree... 12 yrs later.... I might finally be able to get it... and bcs of my andicap I can't work, I can't travel, I'm in chronic pain constantly, and due to all that my poor mum still has to support me, she's 65, heatsick and worked all her life like a maniac to support me and my sister... and even now I am just a clutz on her leg...... I feel so sooo angry and frustrated and sad... 12 yrs and I ahve still accomplished nothing... and even if i manage to finally get my degree... who will hire a 32 yrs old criple wo can't work even 6 hrs shifts, has only a BA and no notworthy workexperience (only was able to do a little part time job here and there, like Mc, library, H&M...). Worst thing is, nobody believes me when I say that I am handicapped and in pain bcs on the outside I look normal, with clothes on..., nobody knows that bcs of my handicap i gained 20 kilo i can't shed and have to take a bunch of meds and can't do anything that i used to do or would love to do... i literally lost all my friends bcs of this 8wo apparently weren't rly friends to begin with) and eventhough i have a wonderful boyfriend who is willing to support me (eventhough he sometimes forgets i am sick too) I just feel guilty... for shifting the burden from my mum onto him... he deserves better...
Every day I just keep going bcs I can't possible let my mum down even more... once she's gone... idk... we will see i guess...
Honestly, all the thoughts and prayers people have sent Trump when he and Melania came down with covid-19.
How should I put this? wishing him well means wishing harm on all the people who will be harmed by his continued ignorance. They're now saying an estimated 400k+ will die because of this, and he's doing everything he can to spread it faster. his wellness is coming at the cost of hundreds of thousands of others, and that's on just one thing. (okay, just for the record, that study is including loosely-explained deaths and attributing it as 'related to Covid'., more or less.)
Hey fellow pandas,
The fact that I think I'm ugly is eating me up. Sadly, we live in a world where people are judged by the way they look. I recently DM'd a guy wondering if he wanted to meet for coffee and I was (nicely) rejected. The guy seems great but I feel like he said no because he thinks I'm not pretty enough. I feel lonely and feel like I need an SO in my life, What do I do? I have this need to feel pretty but I just feel like I'm ugly and I don't know what to do.
One thing that frustrates me is navigating Bored Panda. I seldom get back to post where I commented or someone responded. I'd like to be able to respond to people who commented on something I wrote. Clicking notifications or comments under my profile just takes me back to the first post in the list. Sometimes, when I'm in the mood, I will scroll through the 60+ posts, but that gets old.
My teacher mom is very stressed due to online learning and i feel so guilty about it. :( The fact that people think teachers are slacking off doesn't help either. She up till 2:00 and i feel really bad. What should i do
I'm depressed as I dont know what im going to do during my autumn break...
Zoom. It is so annoying. The lagging is unstoppable.
Today my sister started to get annoyed at me just because I was goofing around with my best friend? SHE cannot boss me about so I got some bruises :(
I fell guilty for crushing on my friend. He and I (both guys, I'm trans. if anybody is wondering). He shares feelings for me and we have made out, cuddled and all that. But I feel guilty asf for liking him and all.
the fact that the person I like has a girlfriend and didn't tell his best friend.((me)) Also, he still flirts with me from time to time, I feel like im just a back- up gf... anyone knows how I feel????
There is this guy Sam (not his real name) who I really like. A lot. And I want to tell my friends, but they would all either make fun of me or be mad because they don't like him. And my only friend who I could tell just told me he likes me so now I can't tell him either, and I really just want to tell Sam I like him, but I don't know how, and I don't know who he likes, or even whether or not he is single, but it's so hard to keep this to myself when every time I see him all I can think of is me holding his hand, laying on his chest, snuggling next to him at marching band when I get cold. I just wanted to let this out. Thank you for taking the time to read this and listen to my stupid 14 year old problems
I feel like a an idiot. When my grandfather died my mother also lost her job so we had to move in with her friend who I love but I know she won't be alive by 2021. My cat went to live with my friend who has cancer and got sick from the cat hair so the cat went to the mothers said friend's son but he died a few weeks after and I lost it. 4 months later my dad died of similar cancer my grandfather did but i didn't cry at all because was an asshole to us, he left when I was younger after hurting us, stealing from us, and drinking too much. After his funeral I saw my family after 7 1/2 years on his side. I feel like a dick for crying over a cat not a day. Also when my poor lil Dusty (Cat) died, I was at a summer 3 day 2 night trip. idk why but I had panic attacks every night and wanted to go home but my mom was at home without gas money and it was a 4 hour drive. Not too long after that my Girlfriend swallowed a handful of pills and I have nobody. My motto is A meme a day keeps the depression away and you can't cry if your laughing so I try to be funny all the time. If you like memes add me on insta if you want (Jackis2c00l4u_), I really don't know why I wrote my life story but I really needed to tell someone, this is a lot for a 14 year old to handle (I turned 14 on October 6th) So adios, and if you see this and add me please tell me because I really want someone to talk to. And please forgive if I spelled wrong, I wrote this kinda late at night.
that I am pansexual and I have bad anxiety so it's hard for me to tell anyone. :/
I'm on the verge to suffer from depression because of my annoying parents. 2020 is supposed to be the year to be independent, but the whole coronavirus situation with the misinformation and the political corruption taking place with my demanding studies, destroy any expectations and hopes i have.
I recently came out as bisexual but only to my best friend. Two of my siblings are bisexual as well. I dont know how to tell my parents. My mom and dad are divorced and have been for 7+ years. My dad is a racist sexist homophobic trump supporter. I don't even know how to tell him :(
I'm a sensitive person, my sister and her friends tease each other in "friends"wise to make each other feel better, she does this to me but it just makes me feel worse. What do I do?
regrets. there are so many ridiculously good people in my life and I'm so, so lucky to have them, but every day I think that I'm too mean to them. or i'm not good enough for them. so I beat myself up and then try to get better but it always just ends up with more regrets. idk what to do but I love them all and I hope that I can stop worrying lol.
How do you tell someone they are beautiful without it being weird and awkward? especially if you really like this guy, but nobody knows that. But he has seemed kind of sad lately and you just want him to know how amazing and smart, and kind and beautiful he is, and how he is almost perfect. But also, I don't want him to know I like him. Soo... help please
So, back a long time ago in 4th grade I was sitting my desk. Since the people at my table loved stealing each others pencils, pens, etc. I thought it would be funny if I took someones folder and hid it in my desk. So I did. And I got back to work doing what I was doing, like nothing happened. But I didn't realize that the girl I stole the folder from (of course I would give it back) was crying in the hallway. I felt so bad and it still eats me up to this day.
I just recently confessed to my crush that I liked him. Because of Corona, I had to do it via Gmail. Well, we aren't from the same state the only way I know him is because our parents are friends, so we sort of grew up together. I remember the day when I looked at him and instead of seeing one of my best friends I saw a boy. A cute, sweet shy boy. I had a crush on my friend! I felt so gross and weird. I felt this way before any of my friends even started to. The boy I liked, who had been shy originally, began to withdraw himself from me and my sister whenever we got together. I told my friends about him and they were confused, how could I see anything in him. But I do, am I wrong. I don't know. I'm just a kid in middle school this all feels so wrong. And worst of all, he never responded to that Email, I would know I check every day... But still no reply. :-(
I asked my crush to be my first kiss. I know he likes me and I’m fairly certain I like him but he said no. How do I get over the embarrassment???
In Utah if you are not registered as a republican you cannot vote in the primary elections... a lot of people do not know this. It's unconstitutional and never addressed.
I have some sort of problem. i don’t know what it is. my best guess is bipolar depression, but i honestly don’t know. my family thinks i have depression, so they sent me to therapy. it doesn’t help. they really don’t understand. i don’t need, nor want help. there’s nothing they can do, what i really need is Ren. heh... i really hope my family doesn’t read this, y don’t know about ren. ren is my amazing crush who also likes me but we haven’t actually formed a relationship. wow. i meant for this to be a few sentences, but it’s turning into a novel. sorry. anyway, i don’t think they can help me. no matter how much love and attention they try to give me, ive never been comfortable with that much physical contact from adults. i don’t know why. i just prefer hugging my friends, or talking to them, also, i jumpstarts had an idea. maybe, it’s better to open up to your friends, because they’re probably around the same age as you, and haven’t fixed all their problems yet. then, you have someone to figure it out with you, instead of someone to tell you about your past problems and suggest the solutions that helped them, because... i lost my train of thought. hopefully you get the point. WOW i typed a lot. sorry! bye!
After having my first baby, I realized that I have wasted the last decade with someone who didn’t want the same things as me.
I wanted children young so I could spend more years with them, I wanted to live on the coast, I wanted to pursue acting, I wanted to travel, I wanted to be able to say goodbye to my Grandma before she passed away. None of these things happened because I gave up my dreams to be with him.
I have ruined my life and I do not know how to move forward.
I want to have children. I feel the urge to have them. At the same time, I see the state of the world and feel envious of my parents because they'll likely die before me and won't see that much destruction because of the climate change. And I feel like it's selfish and cruel to bring more people (that I'll care about most in the world) into it. But also everyone around is having children like it's no big deal.