I’m Schizophrenic: I Learned How To Cope With It

I’m Schizophrenic I was dosed with it when I turned 16 years old, I’m 22 years old now. Being schizophrenic bothers me, the voices in my head, won’t stop! I’ve been to counseling, tried pills, tried therapy, nothing helped. I tried many things to help me. I have hallucinations, voices in my head, I get experiences that seem out of touch with reality — So what do I do?

I cope with it.

I learned how to cope with being schizophrenic. Doesn’t seem easy right? It’s not. At all. I have learned to tell myself “I’m okay, nothing is there. The voices in my head, are imaginary.” It’s hard to sleep when I have nightmares of monsters chasing me.

I get weird dreams because the cause of being schizophrenic. I will move around in my sleep (my girlfriend says) moan and groan and talking in my sleep. Sometimes I sleep walk. I get nightmares. There are times when I’m dreaming, I wake up. I mean… I am awake — But in my bedroom still in the dream. I have to force myself to wake up or my girlfriend wakes me up.

Or there are times where I am still sleeping but awake in my dream and I get attacked by a monster. I got pulled before from… Nothing my girlfriend describes. I got pulled out of the bedroom and I was screaming, my girlfriend woke up trying to help me. I crawled back in the bedroom and my girlfriend had to me, to wake me up.

When I wake up she keeps apologizing to me over and over again. My face hurts and I was panicking. I was okay a few minutes after. Holding her close to me while she’s crying and scared, felt amazing.

That was my first experience having something bad like that happening to me. I don’t talk to anybody about what happened to me, I don’t want to sound crazy. So… I’m silent about it.

I cope with it, being schizophrenic. I still do until this day!