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Vulnerable: I Created These Photo Series After Years Of Severe Depression
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Vulnerable: I Created These Photo Series After Years Of Severe Depression

After years of severe depression and losing track of days not to mention who I used to be, I found that somewhere along the way I stopped caring. Missed outings with friends, existing in a pervasive fog of emptiness and even the thirty pounds I put on didn’t matter to me. I was slowly descending into a walled off shell of my former self. How did I get here? That is a scary question that I wasn’t sure I wanted to answer.

I used to have confidence, I used to be outgoing and full of life. I didn’t recognize myself anymore. If I had to be honest, and I did, my life wasn’t matching up to my expectations. That’s the hard thing about expectations. This period in my life also corresponded with the demise of the two most significant relationships of my adult life, the last one ending in spectacular fashion. When you do everything in your power to hold onto the one you love and it isn’t enough you begin to feel that you are not enough.

Though I no longer suffer from depression, the walls I have up are ever present. While creating these photographs I began to understand what I physically and mentally went through and to realize how it changed me. This is the truth of one of the chapters of my life and how in many ways I am still trying to come to terms with me that I used to know and love who I am becoming.

More info: jennybarrphotography.com

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Glenn Killey
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4 years ago

Jenny, it's powerful.....and heartbreaking. #1 captures the pain in a way that you don't often see. Even though your back is to the camera, I can feel the loneliness and suffering. I have not clicked over to your website yet but I hope your work is being show in a gallery. I hope more people appreciate the art. -GK

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4 years ago

GK, Thank you so much. I was nervous to share it originally, but comments like this make it all worth it. The series is not currently in a gallery, but I am hoping that will change soon. Jenny

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Emily Jean
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4 years ago

You've captured it beautifully. Not just sadness, but monotony, frustration... wonderful

Analyn Lahr
Community Member
4 years ago

This is so relatable to me.

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Glenn Killey
Community Member
4 years ago

Jenny, it's powerful.....and heartbreaking. #1 captures the pain in a way that you don't often see. Even though your back is to the camera, I can feel the loneliness and suffering. I have not clicked over to your website yet but I hope your work is being show in a gallery. I hope more people appreciate the art. -GK

Community Member
4 years ago

GK, Thank you so much. I was nervous to share it originally, but comments like this make it all worth it. The series is not currently in a gallery, but I am hoping that will change soon. Jenny

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Emily Jean
Community Member
4 years ago

You've captured it beautifully. Not just sadness, but monotony, frustration... wonderful

Analyn Lahr
Community Member
4 years ago

This is so relatable to me.

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