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Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy
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Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Taylor is from Colorado, USA. Taylor’s young. She’s 22. She has always felt constant dysphoria with her own body, and she always strived to feel ok about herself. So she decided to change things. Radically. And, according to her, she’s succeeding, though she’s not completely there yet. Even though she has been going through hormone replacement therapy for over a year, she’s still in transition. Despite that, everyone can appreciate the stunning results already. Taylor can see and experience these changes firsthand; therefore, it’s best that she shares the story in her own words. Here it is:

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“I guess I just feel like a real person now. Like, everything was gray before. I was alive, but I wasn’t living, if that makes sense. I was acting like a real person and doing things that real people did but everything felt pretend.

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Even just after starting hormones, the difference was astounding. I only had estrogen in my body for a couple of days and everything had noticeably changed. It was like an alarm had been ringing in the back of my head my entire life and I was so used to it that I thought it was normal, but all of a sudden it was gone and for the first time in my life I could actually LIVE and hear everything so clearly without the alarm drowning everything out. It was like I could see colors for the first time, like I’d never really smiled and I was just learning what it felt like, like I’d never noticed all the beautiful trees and flowers and weeds and rocks around me.Then, as my body started changing, I’d wake up every day excited to notice something new. My muscles I hated so much (I lifted weights a lot in my denial phase) were suddenly shrinking, my boobs were growing, my skin was softer and more sensitive to the touch. I’d bump my chest against the door frame ’cause I wasn’t used to having anything there to bump. A few months later, the same thing started happening with my hips.

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I started seeing a real person in the mirror. Like the mask I’d worn my whole life was slowly fading away and each day my reflection made more and more sense.

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I started experiencing emotions like I always wished I could. I experienced emotions I didn’t even know existed. I would cry at a cute meme on Instagram or a touching story from another trans girl and it felt like pure ecstasy. When I felt angry or sad, I didn’t have to bottle things up and let them out in bursts of anger. I could cry and feel and experience the sadness and feel it slowly melt away from me.

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Image credits: tayloraves

So I guess in summary, I feel ‘real’ now. I feel happy and right and content and grateful that I’m finally able to live as a real person.”

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Image credits: tayloraves

Image credits: tayloraves

Image credits: tayloraves

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Image credits: tayloraves

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Flisey
Community Member
2 years ago

Gives hope to those just starting their journey <3 My daughter started out as a sad little boy and is now a happy young lady, seeing stories like this gave her hope

Elsahthescienceguy
Community Member
2 years ago (edited)

Zergo. As a non-binary person, I can say truthfully that gender is all in your head. People like you make me sick. I don’t think you realize that a lot of transgender people such as myself (yes non-binary does classify as transgender) go through their whole life being tormented by there own minds. It’s not up to you about what I feel, or identify As. Same thing applys to the whole transgender community. I’m twelve years old, smarter than you, and damn proud to be part of the LGBTQ+ community.

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Isabella
Community Member
2 years ago

Just by her eyes you can see she went from feeling miserable and unsure to happy, quirky, bubbly girl <3 What a change! You go girl <3

Taylor
Community Member
2 years ago

thank you!!! I always wonder how people can look at our eyes in transition timeline pics and continue to bash us and call us freaks. HRT saves lives, it certainly saved mine :)

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Isle_of_stressed_pilots
Community Member
2 years ago

I love her transformation! Also i'm sorry but i'm laughing so hard at Zergo's responses. Imagine being that ignorant and pissed and have so much free time that you actively click on a BP link and then COMMENT TO EVERY SINGLE POSITIVE COMMENT IN ORDER TO TEAR THEM DOWN. Imagine being so ignorant that you don't know the difference between sex and gender, and try to "educate" people without being an actual medical practitioner. What a quim he is lol

Taylor
Community Member
2 years ago

being open about my transition and active on social media has unfortunately brought a lot of hate messages/death threats. some people just can't stand someone different from them being happy in their own skin. I'm used to it though, and I honestly feel pity for people like this guy. I can't imagine feeling so much hatred that you'd go out of your way to tear someone down. it's unfortunate, although sadly all too common

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Flisey
Community Member
2 years ago

Gives hope to those just starting their journey <3 My daughter started out as a sad little boy and is now a happy young lady, seeing stories like this gave her hope

Elsahthescienceguy
Community Member
2 years ago (edited)

Zergo. As a non-binary person, I can say truthfully that gender is all in your head. People like you make me sick. I don’t think you realize that a lot of transgender people such as myself (yes non-binary does classify as transgender) go through their whole life being tormented by there own minds. It’s not up to you about what I feel, or identify As. Same thing applys to the whole transgender community. I’m twelve years old, smarter than you, and damn proud to be part of the LGBTQ+ community.

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Isabella
Community Member
2 years ago

Just by her eyes you can see she went from feeling miserable and unsure to happy, quirky, bubbly girl <3 What a change! You go girl <3

Taylor
Community Member
2 years ago

thank you!!! I always wonder how people can look at our eyes in transition timeline pics and continue to bash us and call us freaks. HRT saves lives, it certainly saved mine :)

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Isle_of_stressed_pilots
Community Member
2 years ago

I love her transformation! Also i'm sorry but i'm laughing so hard at Zergo's responses. Imagine being that ignorant and pissed and have so much free time that you actively click on a BP link and then COMMENT TO EVERY SINGLE POSITIVE COMMENT IN ORDER TO TEAR THEM DOWN. Imagine being so ignorant that you don't know the difference between sex and gender, and try to "educate" people without being an actual medical practitioner. What a quim he is lol

Taylor
Community Member
2 years ago

being open about my transition and active on social media has unfortunately brought a lot of hate messages/death threats. some people just can't stand someone different from them being happy in their own skin. I'm used to it though, and I honestly feel pity for people like this guy. I can't imagine feeling so much hatred that you'd go out of your way to tear someone down. it's unfortunate, although sadly all too common

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