I have a high functioning type of severe depression, meaning that I still keep up with the tasks expected from me to appear outwardly normal. It's an endless effort to put on the facade, but I've become very good at it.
I still believe telling others puts a burden on them, though all my friends and psychiatrists have said the contrary. When people ask me "how do you feel?" and actually want a genuine answer, I struggle to find the words. And thus, the drawings became a communication tool to show the turmoil below the surface.
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Shadows Of My Mind Closing In
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Stay Away In Case I Hurt You..
Good Things Are There... I Can't Feel Any Of Them
sai che in fondo sei una donna fortunata, che hai amici, una relazione, una casa, un lavoro, tanti hobby, animali che ti amano, insomma tutto quello che volevi, ma è come se fosse tutto dall'altra parte di un vetro, irraggiungibile, ed inutile. You know that after all you are a lucky woman, you have friends, a relationship, a home, a job, lots of hobbies, animals that love you, in short, everything you wanted, but it's like everything else on the other side of a glass, unattainable, and useless.
So Empty
amazing how well she pictures these feelings...and so sad...people who do not identify don't want to see these....
So Far From Everyone
I Have The Key To The Quick Exit... Do I Use It?
Burning In Fire... But Don't Come Near
Force A Smile
I too was a clown to the world. But alone at home I cried inside and out. :(
Tug 'O' War... Pulls From Either Side Hurt Just As Much
Tipping Balance
Reaching Out... So Painful
Falling
True Reflections
I Spread Gloom
Shadow Has Taken Over My Heart
Creeping Up
the style of this drawing is depression it self...is this person OK? there is help available I am 71 and have dealt with this all my life there is hope...never give up on yourself...
Struggling On The Tightrope
i have bpd so i feel u :( its so sad that we're strangers and are connecting on THIS topic
The Weapon Can Kill Us Both
Trapped By My Own Shadow
Shower Of Darkness
Can't Catch All The Fragments
I Have To Go Where The Shadow Pulls Me
Stranglehold
Weight Of The Shadow
Hanging On
I Want Rid Of This Tangled Mess
Which Way To Go?
Feeble Fighting
Melting Into The Shadow, Spreading Darkness
Heart Has Burst Away
Every single one is exactly how i felt, I'm much better but the darkness is still around me, threatening to come back. Thank you this will help make others understand what it's like.
My depression is not being able to help depressed people. I have such empathy for the very few people I know suffering from depression but yet I cannot fathom how to help.
I wish people who never experienced deppresion would at least try understand it. I' ve never in my real life met anyone compassionate or helpful about it, I guess because noone knows what to do or say...? Yet callousness (not only in the depression matter) shocks me and makes me lose faith in humanity. Things I've heard about this horrible conditions, my condition... No wonder there are so many suicides. People who I met online helped me fight my darkness, because they went through the same stuff and managed to tame it... Yet the ones, tho are theoretically "the close ones" are not even aware I fought this battle... Yes, a battle, because it's a war that never ends.
So sad and real. You call it a shadow - I call it my prison. No matter what I do - I always wind up in the same cell of undermining powerlesness. Your drawings makes me sad, because I can relate... They are good
Help me understand. if a person was very very depressed, and something exciting happened. like winning the lottery, or getting whisked away to some place far and exciting. or a sudden Fire in your apartment. does the mood change? like can a sudden rush a of adrenaline cure it?
Ok, sorry if this is disturbing, but it's the only metaphor that works. Having depression, at least for me, is like juggling knives. Every time you mess up, a knife falls and goes into your hand, making it harder to juggle. You wish you could stop hurting yourself with just that knife, but that first one still in your hand makes it harder to juggle the others. So another slips. And another. Until there's nothing left of you to keep juggling anymore.
How do I delete a comment? it's showing my real name and I don't want that.
The black dog is a destructive force, so many people have exited the building due to depression&its so very sad
Depression can happen I believe when bad things happen and very right so. But living with depression, I have my own thoughts of. One of the things, is that depressed people always THINK KF THEMSELVES AND HOW BAD THEIR LIFE IS. Try to think of others and their lives and their problems. Just remember, it can always be worse. Be thankful for living, life, food, friends, family, etc..... When u think about Ur blessings, there's no room for depression.
I went through a real bad depression i was hospitalized for 8 mths it was that bad! Besides being quiet people would ask why i was there because on the outside i seemed perfectly normal but on the inside i was dying! All i wanted to do was stay in my room i was off work on sick leave for a year. I just had no interest in anything. People would say hah!" it's all in your head! I took up drawing also and building model cars that was very intricate ! It helped a lot. That was 7 years ago today i'm depression free. Now though i'm diagnosed with major anxiety disorder which is agonizing , you feel like your having an heart attack literally, you can't swallow, ears get plugged, shaking , burning sensation in your chest , the list goes on. I've had it for 5-6 years and can't beat it without medication! I hate pills but i take it three times a day before it comes on so i can live a somewhat normal life but if i run out the symptoms are way worse from withdrawal too! Any suggestion's!
These are so simple but so powerful. Beautiful in their own way. I hope that you're okay, and dealing with your shadow xxx
Just in case you or someone you know may need these. https://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ this site was the MOST helpful thing i ever found. It has a different view of depression that may interest you. even if you do not have it now. Australian Lifeline phone: 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/ It is ok to ring them and just ask questions; you do NOT have to give your name. You can just ask for information. PLEASE hold on, and keep asking people for help...it might take a different person , OR you might need a different dose of medication. It is common to need two years to get medicine stabilised.
Every single one is exactly how i felt, I'm much better but the darkness is still around me, threatening to come back. Thank you this will help make others understand what it's like.
My depression is not being able to help depressed people. I have such empathy for the very few people I know suffering from depression but yet I cannot fathom how to help.
I wish people who never experienced deppresion would at least try understand it. I' ve never in my real life met anyone compassionate or helpful about it, I guess because noone knows what to do or say...? Yet callousness (not only in the depression matter) shocks me and makes me lose faith in humanity. Things I've heard about this horrible conditions, my condition... No wonder there are so many suicides. People who I met online helped me fight my darkness, because they went through the same stuff and managed to tame it... Yet the ones, tho are theoretically "the close ones" are not even aware I fought this battle... Yes, a battle, because it's a war that never ends.
So sad and real. You call it a shadow - I call it my prison. No matter what I do - I always wind up in the same cell of undermining powerlesness. Your drawings makes me sad, because I can relate... They are good
Help me understand. if a person was very very depressed, and something exciting happened. like winning the lottery, or getting whisked away to some place far and exciting. or a sudden Fire in your apartment. does the mood change? like can a sudden rush a of adrenaline cure it?
Ok, sorry if this is disturbing, but it's the only metaphor that works. Having depression, at least for me, is like juggling knives. Every time you mess up, a knife falls and goes into your hand, making it harder to juggle. You wish you could stop hurting yourself with just that knife, but that first one still in your hand makes it harder to juggle the others. So another slips. And another. Until there's nothing left of you to keep juggling anymore.
How do I delete a comment? it's showing my real name and I don't want that.
The black dog is a destructive force, so many people have exited the building due to depression&its so very sad
Depression can happen I believe when bad things happen and very right so. But living with depression, I have my own thoughts of. One of the things, is that depressed people always THINK KF THEMSELVES AND HOW BAD THEIR LIFE IS. Try to think of others and their lives and their problems. Just remember, it can always be worse. Be thankful for living, life, food, friends, family, etc..... When u think about Ur blessings, there's no room for depression.
I went through a real bad depression i was hospitalized for 8 mths it was that bad! Besides being quiet people would ask why i was there because on the outside i seemed perfectly normal but on the inside i was dying! All i wanted to do was stay in my room i was off work on sick leave for a year. I just had no interest in anything. People would say hah!" it's all in your head! I took up drawing also and building model cars that was very intricate ! It helped a lot. That was 7 years ago today i'm depression free. Now though i'm diagnosed with major anxiety disorder which is agonizing , you feel like your having an heart attack literally, you can't swallow, ears get plugged, shaking , burning sensation in your chest , the list goes on. I've had it for 5-6 years and can't beat it without medication! I hate pills but i take it three times a day before it comes on so i can live a somewhat normal life but if i run out the symptoms are way worse from withdrawal too! Any suggestion's!
These are so simple but so powerful. Beautiful in their own way. I hope that you're okay, and dealing with your shadow xxx
Just in case you or someone you know may need these. https://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ this site was the MOST helpful thing i ever found. It has a different view of depression that may interest you. even if you do not have it now. Australian Lifeline phone: 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/ It is ok to ring them and just ask questions; you do NOT have to give your name. You can just ask for information. PLEASE hold on, and keep asking people for help...it might take a different person , OR you might need a different dose of medication. It is common to need two years to get medicine stabilised.