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Just to be pathetic.......
The woman I love......
( I must be the world's oldest lovesick teenager....)
What the world needs now, is love, sweet love! If everyone was just thinking about the person they loved, the world would be a very happy place (but nothing much would get done!) All the best to you :)
My darling children and how I pray that they grow up in peace, and never know cruelty. What on earth I'm going to do to earn enough money to pay the bills now the translation industry has died a death. How to escape past trauma and not act on its effects. How I wish I could spend more time with my brother and sister before I die.
If we are allowed to “put down” our animals, why is it not a human right to be allowed to do the same for ourselves? It’s immoral to watch a pet suffer but we let the elderly or sick spend years miserable/begging to die in old folks homes instead of giving them the decency.
I guess food. But also my latest obsession/projects, which is now sewing and embroidery.
How amazing life is. Not my life, or being alive (although I am a big fan of living) but life as in plants and animals. How amazing it is that every cell in my body exists to keep me alive. How the crayfish I catch at the pond are alive, with little crayfish thoughts and crayfish dreams (like one day pulling me in the pond and taking pictures of ME). How all the plants in my aunt's house are living things that eat and breathe. There are teeny tiny organisms so small you can see them, like copepods, which even then are a giant beast compared to the microscopic Tardigrade. There are Nanobes only 20 nanometers in size that live on the same planet as a fungus the size of 2200 acre fungus. There are Mantis Shrimp that can punch with the force of a rifle and have 16 color receptors, and a jellyfish that lives forever. Its super cool!
How truly cruel and vicious my sibling is
Everyday I wonder how humans could possibly be as evil as they are.
I get curious about this too and what's their thought process for some humans just to be evil.
The Roman Empire. Nah I’m kidding. I think about suicide.
Ugh 12-14 is the hardest age to be. I tried to kill myself 5 or 6 times. I have been through so many bad and hard things that are worse than middle emotionally nothing compares to middle school and that age. It is a terrible time. Just try to get through it any way you can and hopefully you will get older and feel better. Once you get through that age (for me anyway) I felt I could get through anything because nothing ever felt as bad as it did back then. Hang in there and I hope you have a few friends you can rely on. I had none and my mom wouldn't let me call or write to my friends from my old town anymore or use the internet so it was like prison. I'm sorry for whatever you go through and hope you feel better
- Food
- Moths
- How tired I am
- Stupid conspiracy theories
My dog. How much I hate being an adult and my job. My niece and nephew. What to cook
I think about how I can fix my relationship with my father, but I can never find a solution
I'm still doing it now, 12 years after his death... A degree of forgiveness, where appropriate, and integrating past trauma into your current life so you can move forwards is an extremely tricky thing. I wish you all the best!
Hoping that things are going to work out well enough for myself in the distant future mostly.
- My corgi
- [insert random thought here]
- am I just a hunk of meat with electricity operating a mech suit?
- Bingo Heeler
- what should I draw?
- What was I doing again?
- Why am I in this room?
- Did I take my meds 2 min ago?
- Has anyone replied to my boredpanda comments?
- Can I draw a perfect circle?
-What was the teacher talking about?
- how do you freeze dry something?
- wait what was the question?
(If You can't tell I have ADHD)
I hope you get along with your random thought generator (a.k.a brain) and that it is kind to you in return. The answer to question 7 is 'to make the room a better place'.
My friend. He's taking a break from being online, but checks his messages once a day. I really miss talking to him, since we only communicate by leaving messages to be replied to hours later, and we used to chat for hours. I would never and will never tell him, because I don't want to guilt trip him into coming back when it's not good for his mental health, as I know he'd come back if he felt anyone was affected by him leaving for a bit, and it wouldn't be good for him.
Wondering what job I would actually rather be doing, what job I would be good at and enjoy, at the same time earning me a comfortable enough income. Unfortunately I no longer know what I enjoy. (This is an awfully depressing thread by the way 😀
I spent the best part of two decades doing precisely this. I now have a job I enjoy (I teach English as a foreign language in a far-away country) that allows me to earn a comfortable living. The struggle was very real, I hope you have the good fortune that I had (have).
Stress over problems that I create myself by avoiding everything and make them worse and worse
just start one of them. There's a kind of snowball effect. Once you just start one of them it isn't so bad. Speaking as a huge procrastinator.
The time my SIL asked if the sundail she gave her Dad 20 years ago still worked.
She was 52 years old at this time.
Best hire a sundial engineer to take a look at it. Some parts may need replacing. I think the sun is guaranteed to work for another 5 billion years or something but, better to be safe than sorry.
The Roman Empire
my parents, how old they are and that they won't live forever
My twin sister. She passed away in my arms 12 years ago.
> Pokemon (duh!)
> Black holes and space in general
> Hades (my cat but sometimes the god too)
> Pianos (I just love pianos, the music, the people who play it, etc.)
Theres probably more, I'm not too sure
When I think of the future, and then later I am the future, just the present and then I am thinking about the future...and then, yeah, I am stuck in a time loop.
"Life is what happens when we're busy making other plans" - paraphrased from Mr John Lennon.
My to-do list
My hubby's vital signs four times a day.
Workarounds for being alive and in this much physical pain while mentally exhausted.
When I can go to bed.
This is such a poweful piece of writing. You say everything about struggle in a few words. I wish I could say something comforting but...
The United states over reliance on China
Whether Rationalism ought to be valued above Empiricism.
All I've lost :)
Music
The f*****g love of my life. who has liked me for years, is my best friend and who I now like but am too afraid to confess to. but i think he knows
how i want to be with him all the time holding his hand
babies
life
my job
Human bodies
School
Death. No, I am not suicidal. But nearly died 3 times. That'll mess with you. Also, significant others in life. And what I can say to try and make people understand their narrow views are not always correct.
Every instance in which I was even slightly awkward in my entire life. My brain is a massive dillweed.
I will attempt to help you. When I was a sophomore in high school, I was sitting in my English class, waiting for it to begin. My classmate turned to me and said, "Kevin, do you speak Hanukah?" I righteously unloaded on her narrow-minded a$$. "Speak Hanukah? Hanukah is a holiday, not a language! It is the Jewish Festival of Lights! PSHAW! Should I ask if you speak Christmas?!" My other classmate leaned over casually and calmly said, "Yo, she asked to borrow a pencil." 😨😳🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️
How bad my condition in this world is and how much I hate life
Stress over problems that I create myself by avoiding everything and make them worse and worse
-My weight, even though I'm not Obese.
- Letting go of things from my past.
to start, this is a really sad thread.
anyways, I think about my friends, my family, tumblr memes, suicide, my scars, what we'll have for dinner, my past, and swirling voids of color
I love swirling voids of colour. I try to have them when I'm going to sleep. They are mostly purple and orange
Money. I hope one day I'll be wealthy enough to think about more important things.
Save tiny amounts every day now. Once you have enough to invest in something(s) that will provide a ROI, do so. Educate yourself about investment vehicles and tax laws. If you are thinking in terms of that undefined "one day," this is the path to wealth.
My stupid STUPID gender dysphoria. It's terrible. My parents would never buy me a binder and neither would my extended family because "you were created a woman and you need to have children." Birds of all shapes and sizes. I'll never forget the day I tried to come out as nonbinary to my aunt. She LAUGHED IN MY FACE. She grabbed my wrists and made me feel my breasts to "prove you're a girl." It made me want to die. It's horrible horrible horrible. Sorry for the trauma dump. I just needed to get it off my chest.
I've never even met your aunt and I already want to drop kick her into the sun. Hope things eventually turn out okay.
I think about how much I miss my son, it's been 5 months since he passed.
Well, im an overthinker so everything from the past week and tomorrow...
Specifics: track, family, food, meh pet, food, roblox, etc
- What to eat the next few days (decision on the meals, not if I have something to eat)
- Finally writing down 1 of the 3 book ideas I have
- My 2 dogs that passed away
- Suicide due to depression
The future with my partner, im an over thinker so all things, the good the bad and the uggly, I think about it daily, but love him to bits and hope its more good than bad!
My grandma, shes like doing rlly horrible rn and im really worried about her.
My friendss
and also my crush(?) idk, but he likes me back he said, but hes going through a bunch rn and i really hope hes doing okay
Swimming
and music:) we love music in this society
Days off. I’ve had two since the end of April, and they weren’t very restful. And I’m not a workaholic. Just trying to pay the endless bills.
-My siblings
-The fact that everyone around me is getting into these nice relationships and how I haven't been in one since 1st grade (lol)
-Anime, it's an addiction by now.
-Depressing c**p
-More depressing c**p
- School
How soft we as a society have become. Instead of preparing new generations for the road, we tell them that they are special and well prepare the road for them.
I imagine this post will not be popular, but I think many people think as John does. To be clear, I personally disagree with this - but it's a common narrative and worth discussing. I often think about how the newer generations will be materially worse off than previous generations in most 'western' societies. Not sure how this makes them softer. It shows how our current economic systems, once hailed as a miracle, are failing. Jobs that are fundamentally required for society to prosper - teachers, cleaners, service workers, nurses, etc etc - often pay barely enough to live (or not enough). We need to reconsider the very basis for how we live but as a society we continue to ignore this. "You're too weak" is a simple (victim blamey) answer to a complex problem and is therefore an accepted argument.
You know I go to a U.S. a public school when I say this…
What would I do if my school gets shot?
Just yesterday we had a false alarm level 3 lockdown (threat in building) and nobody realized. We were being loud and obnoxious. What if it was real?
Vote for a party that will outlaw military weapons, when you can vote. (IE when old enough).
How to answer questions with a non-confrontational.... outrage avoiding...sympathetic and caring response.
I usually remain silent.
bruh i read the title as something you drink just about everyday 💀 i need more iced coffee
How the heck to order something online without a debit/credit card, no bank account, no valid ID(other than a passport)....
you can get a major credit card backed gift card. if i wanted to go to a show i used to just go to the grocery store check-out lane and buy one of those Amex, MC, Visa gift cards people get in birthday cards instead of cash now. Sure, you lose a few bucks in value using them but i've even paid for hotel stays with gift card. Works the same and its anonymous if you need.
-My weight, even though I'm not Obese.
- Letting go of things from my past.
Ugh yes the weight thing is relatable. I'm no Jabba the Hutt and my weight is also related to mental health and medication but still.
Not something, but someone. When I started lukio (finnish high school basically) a month ago, I immediately saw this one cute girl and have had a crush on her ever since... She's a cute, lovely, and fun personality and I love her (no chance I'll muster up the courage to seriously talk to her anytime soon)
1) How much sleep am I gonna get tonight? 2) What happens if I don't get into college?
I relate so much to the first one. As for the second one, you’ll figure something out. I know that sounds dumb, but maybe unless College is really close, just try not to worry about it (trust me, I know how difficult it is to NOT worry about something)
The big f**k off spider that is in my house somewhere. Saw it last night and we couldn't catch itI'm Arachnophobic and I feel like I'm playing the floor is lava all the time because I don't want to put my feet down.
I just realized this isn't something I think about everyday but I have been thinking about it all day, and I do think about spiders a lot.
Retiring in five years.
It might seem like a while away, but you’re getting closer! Hang on, look forward to the future, and don’t forget to enjoy the present as well!
To avoid the answer I WANT to give, I'd have to say my cat.
Where did I put my phone?
Being in pain, wondering how I'm gonna make it through another day of pain, anxiety, humiliation and loathing at work to keep my family fed and safe, and trying to numb my mind in the little bit of downtime I have by playing cheesy games and reading ridiculous junk on here. Yeah, that. I'm not in a good place tonight. I'm just tired. I feel old and worn out.
After my grandma passed away, I think a lot about how short life is. I can't stop thinking about the people I love and whether this is my last conversation with them.
My grandma passed away recently too. I think it messed me up a little bit, way internally, in a way I don’t really notice.
my family and friends oh and my ukulele and flute
My first cup of coffee. Usually around 6am. It's generally the first thing I think about and do after getting up (unless my bladder tells me otherwise)
I wake up and I go check all my plants. I think about them a lot. I’m also obsessed with my diet because I’m building muscle so I think a lot of ways to switch recipes that relates to my diet and clean eating. I think about having a farm everyday. I think about how I feel like a slave just working to pay bills. I think about my son a lot and what did I do right on this earth to deserve such a good young man (I was a rebel kid). Last, I think about having that farm on a private island away from people, just need animals and plants with me.
Friendly advice - try to avoid comparing your life to that of a slave. I completely get where you are coming from but the vibe is a little off - some would argue that it diminishes the trauma and complex racial issues of slavery. I recommend saying that we are returning to a feudal society. You work to keep the lords of the manor rich, while you make a subsistence living.
My parents. My Dad died in 1993 and Mom in 2013.
Also, how lucky I am to have married (in 2014) the man I had a crush on all through high school (1975 - 1979). We got together in 2012.
I think about my late parents everyday too.. and everything that was lost with them. Also.. Awesome for you.Yay love. Upvote Love.
I think about my health, everything I've learned about PTSD. All the symptoms that explain so much. Different, oft ongoing, traumas from childhood on that have informed every part of my life . I think about how I could never conceive conceiving of getting healthier and now I am . I still have decades of life ahead of me and now I move forward with awareness.
Pandas , look up the physical symptoms.. it may tie many things of issue you have together. Gut problems, migraines, illusions, pain, etc.
My depression, anxiety, agoraphobia, gagging, etc..all just PTSD..and that's something I can digest fixing.
An interesting facet of this is that these days, most of us are coping with PTSD. If you break it down, the trauma portion of the condition is becoming constant for us. It doesn't have to be combat trauma or openly violent trauma to cause a person stress. When we learn of the latest icky thing that humans have perpetrated on other humans, it is a form of trauma. Since this flow of "ick" has become a daily onslaught, it is no wonder more of us are exhibiting symptoms of the disorder. I believe that hate has become an obsolete way for humans to approach their world, and that if we can collectively get beyond it, the PTSD we're experiencing will evaporate. IMHO.
Not being here. Not in a I'm depressed and want to die kind of way, just an, I'm really tired and don't wanna do the things anymore.
i add comments just to do something. you did too. try finding something to be grateful for everyday, it helps me, .it doesn't have to be big, it can be silly. today i'm grateful kids can have crayons..it used to be a less colorful world with no kid art. yesterday i was grateful for cooking oil. it may not be for you but perhaps someone else reading this.. wishing you more "spoons" (spoon theory)
What I could’ve done better yesterday
Now think about cats. Fluffy cats, purring cats, cats knocking over stuff and generally being catholes, and my invention of the word catholes. (Did I distract you for at least a couple seconds?)
The fact that I am orphan and my children will never get to meet their grandparents.
I think about what is causing that hum that gets louder everyday.. it's kinda E minor.. Why doesn't everyone hear that hum??
I hear it at night/evening. I have a white noise machine or use ear buds to sleep. But you might want to let a doctor know, too.
Are Pandas who post rude comments having problems in their personal life?
I'm pretty sure Pandas in general are having problems in their lives. It would be extremely odd to meet someone who is not having at least *some* problems. I would be suspicious of such a claim to the contrary.
How recycling has become a farce. I think about this every day because of the ongoing argument I am having with my wife and MIL about the whole practice. I have explained over and over that merely placing plastic, glass, and paper items in the green bin is not enough. They need to be cleaned (at least rinsed and free of detritus), folded, and prepared correctly to be accepted at the recycling facility. I have explained that the items are purchased by other manufacturers to make new products, and that if the buyer finds something wrong with the load, they don't buy it, and it goes to the landfill anyway. In addition, just because a container is plastic or glass, it does not automatically mean it can be recycled. Finally, even if my family follows all of the steps correctly, makes sure we are only placing acceptable items in the bin, and quits putting random sh*t in there, it still won't make a lick of difference due to the fact that PVC pipe manufacturing (just one of a bazillion industries) pollutes more on a daily basis than we will ever make up for.
Our city (or parts therof) make you separate out glass, aluminum and some plastics. All goes in one blue recycle bin, separate trucks pick it up. But it all goes to the dump because it costs the city too much to actually recycle. (I've spoken with collectors/former collectors. The city very rarely actually recycles, they just do it because they got government money if they started the programs.)
Those of you who know me, know.
Can I add another one? Time! And the nearly incomprehensible absurdity of its scales.
For instance, there have been roughly 43,550,000,000,000,000 seconds since the Big Bang, but the smallest length of time ever measured is 0.0000000000000000247 seconds (247 zeptoseconds), or about the amount of time it takes for light to cross the diameter of a hydrogen atom. There are more zeptoseconds in one second than seconds in the current age of the universe.
“One-one thousand…” 100 quintillion zeptoseconds flash by! “Two-one thousand…” Another 100 quintillion zeptoseconds flash by!
On the other end, there’s the vastness of deep time. For instance, our best guess says that the last black holes will have evaporated away in 10¹⁰⁰ (one googol) years from now. That’s something like a hundred million billion billion billion billion billion billion billion billion billion times the current age of the universe. Also known as a buttload of zeptoseconds.
A googol years? Bah! How about a googolplex (a 1 followed by a googol zero) years? Or Graham’s number years? Or tree(3) years? Or any other stupidly large number to the power of another stupidly large number of years times another stupidly large number? It just goes on and on on and on…
And here we are, right in the middle of it, living our 70 or 80 years. I think about this every day.
I’m sure I made some math errors.
My kitten, Rosie. She means the world to me.
Also the book I’m writing at the moment.
I’ve finished a few books, but my parents won’t let me publish them till I’m 18. 🥲
I have only finished one book, but my stupid brain wants me to re-write that one and the sequel completly in 3rd-person
Anxiety. I'm holding it together with temp jobs.
good you got that..i'm just getting near that point..
How lucky I am to not be stuck in the rural rust belt US state I grew up in.
How much I miss my family, haven’t spoken them in years even though I tried to keep a relationship. Being gay sucks sometimes. At least I have my friends and chosen family.
How happy I am that nearly 7 years ago I became Vegan. I have always loved animals, I felt my mind just explode that how could I eat and use the wonderful creatures that I adored!!! Answer = don’t eat or abuse them
How to get through the day without anything that will trigger my episodes
My daughter
My boyfriend
When I'm going to be able to sleep
Food
The distinct possibility of the Australian ‘Voice to Parliament’ referendum causing violent street protests, looting and physical violence.
Wow so are you a racist? Because only a racist would think that a 3,8% population is going to "loot" and be "physically violent" and pose any threat. White settler colonists genocided the first nations to near - extinction, and now you are scared they might actually ask for rights of representation in your parliament??! I am south african. It is VERY telling that our racist whites move to Australia as their first choice.
Watching the news and feeling like we are in the beginning of a disaster movie
Beginning? Have you not heard about the flood in Libya that has killed an estimated 11,300 people?
Are Pandas who post rude comments having problems in their personal life?
Most of them probably. Though I am forced to concede that there are a few bum holes
What job can I do if I lose my current one which is over in a few weeks (retrenchment).
I wish you luck finding a new job if you lose this one, although I hope you don’t
What I could’ve done better the day before
Remember, think dogs! Or was it cats? Or… dragons? CATDRAGONS
What people have to put up with the incels on this site IRL.
How hungry I am
*she says, while eating a samosa*
For yeeeeears I confused mimosas with samosas. Seriously.
My ex :( she cheated on me.we just made so many memories together. 😭💔🥺
I think about what i should do today. (It always ends up hanging out with friends.)
At least 20 thoughts. 😅 school work furture past what i need to get done what i been putting off. You know how it can be.
I think about the future, whether I can achieve my goals and dreams this year or about what I am going to have for dinner.
Death. I often think about death. When I start to fall asleep at night, I wonder, “Is it going to be like this when I die? Is it like falling asleep? What will happen next? Are we panicking? Are we aware of this?" Then, I try to reassure myself by telling myself: Death is natural, it is part of life.
I thought about changing my gender identity IRL. Yes, I'm not actually recognized as nonbinary but I considered it many times. I'm just not sure how my parents and peers will react because they don't like trans people.
I’m thinking if doing the same thing also, but I’m kinda in the same situation as you :/ transphobia sucks. I’m always here if u wanna talk about these types of things though!
My bipolar disorder wasn’t diagnosed until I was in my mid 40s, even though my mom & teachers knew there was something “not quite right” with me. Every day I wonder how different life would be if I’d gotten help earlier.
How blessed I am to have overcome all of the trials in my life - cancer, divorce, job loss, losing husband to suicide, miscarriages. What was designed to destroy me has made me the powerful, independent woman I am today.
How horrible humans are and how there are so many things done in the age of exploration and prior that can't be undone. One for example is how Europeans stole the Native Americans' land, and by the time it was going to be given back, it would make thousands homeless
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i think about how my grandparents were born in the nineties .
Oh, you know.....
No… I don’t think I do… but if I do know, then I don’t want to know
uhm probably drawing/painting
What music I'd like played at my box party.
*Why are there so many Lantern Flys
*Why dont Lantern flies light up like Fire flies
My sexuality (aroace)
My gender too — gxrl, maybe, idk, who knows anything anymore, gender is a social construct, I give up, I’m probably cis anyway
Amphibia
Dork Diaries (the new book comes out Sept 26!)
My fanfics (the ones I’m writing, not reading)
My book(s) (also ones I’m writing, not reading)
School — because unfortunately, I’m in school. (Well, it’s not that bad, I don’t mind it. At least I got all my homework done during school today so I don’t have to do it tonight)
Idk, random thoughts
Lots of daydreams correlating with my fanfics and books
I am always thinking about something that has happened or something about school.
Why was I targeted to be molested by a family member. I am sick of reviewing this daily. I avoided relationships in school and found a wonderful partner after I left home. Damn, he doesn't even know (but suspect?) this happened to me.
I am currently on a waiting list to be examined for ADD. Every day I wonder if the things I do are symptoms of ADD or just me being weird. I am 39yo and my appointment is in 3 years. Yes. 3 years. I also feel frustrated that nobody noticed before that I could be neurodivergent (I am gifted and have autistic traits. Found this out last year). And I fear that the next three years will be awful because of me not knowing if I have ADD or not.
All day every day I'm thinking about when I can be alone again. When I'm alone I'm thinking about how much alone time I have left. It's the only way I'm truly comfortable.
if I will be able to pay rent this month. I make $19ph 40hper week rent was raised outta spite
How one of my former support workers left for a new job a few months ago and how I can't wait to see her again in a few months time.
The future: by the end of the school year, I will have to part with everyone I have been with for years and gotten used to, as we are all going to different places. Whether or not I will stay in touch with the most special person in my life.
Let's see. Every day
What the barometric pressure is. High equals swollen joints.
Food. I'm abroad right now and can't find enough vegetables. Very meat focused culture.
How fortunate I've been and am.
What is wrong with people? Generally time to stop reading the news
Oddly, world economy. Finances have always been an obsession.
The blessing that is my family. Here and passed. My heart bursts.
I think about the families I met while I volunteered at a charity hospital in Karachi, Pakistan. These families know the actual struggle of being poor, not having much in a developing country were having "much" isn't "much" at all compared to the rest of the world.
And yet, when their child became ill, they gave up everything. They left their homes and families in their villages far far away, used what little they had to come to this strange, new city where they might not even know the language. They don't even know if they have enough to able to return home. They don't know while waiting in the outpatient line if they will be admitted today. All they know is that their child is sick and in pain - they don't even understand what "cancer" is when the doctor gives the painful diagnosis. Yet, they still have hope. Yet, whenever I interviewed them for their stories and asked the closing question, "How do you feel now that you're at this hospital?", the answer was always, "I'm happy" or "I am content".
We have quite a few things to learn from this.
It’s kinda stupid : once i saw a photo that said make sure you always have your materials before you start a project, and the photo was a empty toilet paper roll.
I'm a T in LGBTQ .. the list of things that I think about every day is too long.
Is it possible for humanity to survive? Climate change is accelerating and we are one major drought or the ocean currents stopping away from massive starvation. Will any of us be willing to voluntarily undertake euthanasia to let the young survive or will we all just die fighting? Covid showed me that as a species, we have the skills to deal with catastrophe but it also drove home the idea that we are willing to let millions die to avoid personal inconvenience.
1. The fact that I have to live another day as a girl. I hate it, but I’d rather be miserable than risk my safety I suppose
2. The fact that my parents will probably find out that I have bp. Technically, I’m not really supposed to be active on my social media accounts, but most the community here is really supportive and caring. I know I’d probably be banned if they found my account, which is something I worry about a lot
By risk my own safety I mean come out. My parents are transphobic af.
did I remember my phone, wallet, keys, USB drive, EDC stuff and to brush my teeth? then, I hope I can get to sleep at a normal hour, fast forward, its 1am, nope. rinse and repeat.
- The Apocalypse
- How much I want the b*stard (my father) dead
- How f*cked up school is
- How f*cked up Canada and the U.S. is
- My novels, which my parents can't find out about
- The letter I'm going to write, declaring my sexualities, to my mom once I move out
- My boyfriends (read bio for info on that)
- How much I don't want to have a mental break
- The fact that I lack emotions and rarely feel anything other than hatred and anger
So yeah I'm a severely f*cked up 13 year old.
