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I'm in therapy and really struggling with an existential crisis. My therapist tells me that only I can change my outlook on life and I guess he is right. The problem is that as much as I try, I can't shake off the feelings of futility and pointlessness of it all. All my previous coping mechanisms are failing and I don't know how I can climb out of the abyss. I have no dreams or ambitions and I am simply just existing. Any advice would be greatly appreciated please pandas.

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Birgit M
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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I‘ve also been in therapy for years, so I could tell you about the psychological techniques I was taught, but I am sure you know them all, too, and I know that they don‘t always work and that it‘s all a constant struggle. A few weeks ago you shared with us what it was like for you in a psychiatric hospital and while reading your story I thought what a talented writer you are. (Not even for the first time, your post about microwaving your dinner was hilarious!) Have you ever thought about writing a book (or maybe starting a blog) about your experiences? I don‘t know you, so it could be a bad idea because maybe you don‘t want to relive everything you went through by writing it down, but I‘ve always found that putting feelings down in words can be very cleansing. (A former colleague of mine wrote a book about his social anxiety and it has helped him and surely other people too.)

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2 years ago (edited) DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank-you for reading my article, and your compliments on my writing ability. I have considered writing a book (they say that everyone has at least one book in them, don't they?) and maybe that's something I could look at when I'm more motivated. Maybe if I start writing I'll get motivated and it will drive itself. Thanks again, best wishes.

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2 years ago (edited) DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Hi Scagsy. 'I try to do it but my thoughts are racing and don't slow down however much I try to focus'. With you totally on this Scagsy, I've a head that doesn’t shut the f uck up. Just wanted you to know that you're not alone with this. Yours s.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Same here. It's gotten to a point where I have just accepted life as it is and am waiting for my time to pass. One day at a time. It sounds like it sucks, but it is a lot better than it used to be.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Unfortunately I can't give you any advice. I will say this though: the way you put words onto paper is very talented and I love reading your posts. Take up writing and I'll read it, promise. You have a great sense of humour and a way with words so please... write it down. I think you are a brave and lovely human being. Hug.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank you Caro Caro. Even though you didn't provide any advice you lifted my spirits which is just as much appreciated. I am glad you enjoy my posts, they give me something to focus on and get the old grey matter working on something productive and it's lovely to be appreciated. Also, I love hugs - even virtual hugs so thanks for that. Please take this *hug* in return.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

For me to get out of this state it took multiple different trials of antidepressants/antipsychotics as well as counselling once per week. I was on Longterm disability for a year l, suicidal, and in the midst of covid isolation. It was about 6 months before I felt like it was possible to maybe find a purpose in life (I'm still looking). Also helped to know that I was not, by any stretch of the imagination, alone in this feeling of being lost. I ended up settling with finding experiences of micro joy. Stupid little things that make my mouth quirk up for a moment, noticing that I smiled, and then moving on. Lucky to have family and friends to share this micro joy with and be part of their brief moment of amusement too. Best of luck, fellow panda. It's possible for things to get better, even if right now it feels hopeless.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank-you for your words of encouragement. I am most grateful. I'm gonna try the micro joy thing as it is completely new to me. Hopefully it will have the required effect and things will look better. Thanks again panda.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Ambition and Goals do not need to be big. Take pride you are existing. Try to do one more thing like walk outside to the corner. That is it. Then you might start seeing you can take one more step. Watch a bird fly. Stop to hear it sing. Take a step back and see the world again as a child who had no goals but to exist. You can grow again. And if you need someone to talk to? I'm here as a friend.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I would so love to see things as a child again. I joke that if I could, I would perform a factory reset on myself and start over. I know that isn't possible but perhaps I could try to start noticing things again. Thank-you for your thoughtful words.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Not a recommendation, but just for consideration; psylisibin micro-dosing - it helps a friend of mine. Others have looked into therapy combined stronger doses; a guided trip at it were. We need to get over the fundamentalist BS fear of anything that they don't use. Its the MOST harmful crap that is legal - alcohol, tobacco, fast food...

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Is that a derivative of magic mushrooms? Would I be able to obtain it legally in the UK? I'm curious because I have never tried it and at this point if somebody told me to stand on my head, balancing a turtle on each foot while singing 'Why Does It Always Rain On Me' I would do it if it would help. I do smoke (cigarettes) but that's my only vice. I don't drink or gamble or do drugs so I allow myself that little pleasure 10 times a day. Thanks for your suggestions I will look into that.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

It sounds as though you are struggling to 'rewire' your brain. When we think about things or ourselves our brain creates neurological networks for these thoughts , beliefs and feelings. When we try to change this it feels like it's 'wrong' and our brain screams at us that the chane we're trying to make is rubbish. However if you continue to stick with the change (like telling yourself you are worthy of love) you will start to form new neural networks and your new thought will become more and more natural to think. Hope this helps, hang on in there and don't give up before the good stuff starts working

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Hi, you may have tried this, but if not I highly recommend it. EMDR, it actually changes the neural pathways in your brain, and diverts harmful and distressing thoughts to a safer place in your memory, so they are easier to deal with. It is brilliant for virtually all sorts of depression, traumas. I cannot recommend it highly enough. Sending big hugs too Xxx

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thanks for your excellent suggestion. As luck would have it my Psychologist and I have just embarked on EMDR and the results are quite staggering. I will be seeing him again on Friday.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Oh Scagsy, your comments are always so much fun, it breaks my heart to know how difficult things are for you. I struggle with futility and feel the same. Something that has worked for me is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy CBT and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, specifically noticing rumination and stopping it with grounding exercises in this instance. There are many other tips within those two modalities that would help.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Thank-you for your kind words. I've tried CBT and it didn't work out for me. I haven't tried DBT though so that may be an option worth considering. Thanks and best wishes.

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2 years ago (edited) DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I've had a few periods like this in my life. For me, it ended up being a sign that situations in my life that were a slow burn of anxiety, and I didn't realize my coping mechanisms were failing to keep up. One time it was coming out, the other was a job I thought I loved, but was a horrible fit in many ways. I don't have much advice identifying the underlying stressor, that was always the hardest part. It's ok to have intrusive thoughts, acknowledge and redirect. Kudos for the therapy, therapy is lovely.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Maybe whenever it gets really bad, think about some good memories when you were just really happy? I know nothing about this, just wanted to try and offer comfort

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Serious meditation that gives you a taste of samadhi will help you understand how the human mind works, how we can become slaves to our survival instincts and whatever harmful programming we've been exposed to, how to stop feeding those impulses and live with greater freedom in the present.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Consider some medication. Also Mindfulness, focusing on gratitude and getting involved in helping others or in a cause you believe in.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I'm on Lithium and have recently started a new-ish SSRI called Fluvoxamine. So far the drugs haven't had any meaningful effect and I have tried quite a few over the last twenty years or so. Mindfulness is one of the coping strategies that has lost its effect on me. I try to do it but my thoughts are racing and don't slow down however much I try to focus. Though I recently came off Flupenthixol which did help with that. The problem is the side effects were terrible - like Parkinson's disease, shaking and drooling. I will revisit mindfulness so thank-you for reminding me.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

With regard to my relationships, I just feel like I'm dragging them down with me so I try not to act the way I'm feeling and put up a front instead. I have AS so exercise is difficult but I will definitely try the other aspects you mentioned. Thanks panda.

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QUEERPHOBIA

Yeah it’s 2021 so it shouldn’t be here.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Yeah Happi, it shouldn't but it is. I can't help you but say that most of us (people) are not queerphobics. Bless you darling.

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Ban lobbying everywhere.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

The only country I know of that does this is USA. In my country, ironically we have very weak corruption laws, and still think that lobbying is legalized bribery

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#4

End all animal abuse. So much animal abuse in the world. ☹️

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#5

Is there similar platform to boredpanda where I can go if I am "up-to-date" here?

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#6

Empathy. Try to see things from other peoples' point of views.

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Ok, so I'm sick with some cold and I feel brain fog. Does anybody know what could help remedy this?
And no, it's not corona, I've tested myself twice.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Sorry your sick. Get a bowl of hot water with a few drops of Vicks vaporub or eucalyptus oil added. Lean your face over it with a towel over your head to create like a head sauna. The steam and the eucalyptus helps with decongestion. Tea with honey and lemon, hot shower (again, steam). Vicks under the nose and on the chest. Chicken soup, vitamin C and if needed pain relief. Hope you get well soon.

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#8

Everyone always thinks I'm dating someone, at school and at home, when really I'm not. I don't know how to get them to stop but I really want to seeing how annoying it's getting now that my crush is involved in the assumptions.

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

If your crush is willing to believe rumours, maybe reconsider, but if they don´t, just roll your eyes and say how bored everyone must be to create stories about others.. Justifying yourself to others may make you seem as deflective or defensive, so "what´s it to you/why do you care?" could actually be useful responses.

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#9

Make your fonts bigger!

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#10

How can we restore faith in tolerant liberal democracy and free markets? A.k.a. how to prevent totalitarianism and mob rule in the name of equality or conservatism?

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Assuming OP in USA. Such sea-change only takes place when a culture suffers a terrible shock that makes people believe that ANYTHING is better than what they had. IE Germany or Japan at end of WWII

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Pollution, poverty, racism

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#12

help me collect sticks , sharpen them and stab T.R.A.S.H. and then roast them an a fire

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

BTW T.R.A.S.H. stands for transphobic . Racist. Abelist/agist . Sexist and homophobic

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Ok so my best crud and me ( I will call her violet ) where in Art where I was showing my work to the teacher when I come back she has drawn a heart on my chrome book in pencil and when violet tried to erase it it wouldn’t come off so I huffed put my chrome book away and ignored her later and later that day she blows up on me for ignoring her for such a silly thing. Should I apologize?

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2 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

There are better and less destructive ways to show affection (if that was her intent), or play a prank. Vandalism is not one of them. What may be a silly thing to her does not mean others consider it as harmless. Try to speak to her calmly, and if she is still blowing up, ask her to fix the chromebook without causing further damage (acetone can strip off paint, but may be effective on a q-tip.)

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