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Hey Pandas I Know That Many Of You Are Suffering In Some Way So Do You Need Help?
Many people in today’s world are facing issues in some form or another and i really want to help and try to comfort you all. Share your problems in here and we all will try to give some sympathy.
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really ? do you mean it?
it's gonna be hard to explain
Ah omg I realise I can't talk
and I can't remember a lifetime
I'm sorry I don't want to sound like I'm complaining I don't poeople don't like hearing other people's problems
there's my father who's abusing me and threatening to commit me to an asylum if I tell on him or if someone finds out
I mean it's mean years and no one's ever done anything against it
and like I said it would be worse for me
but it's hard to hide abuse, scars I mean, I have lots of them burn mark slash marks chemical marks.. on my back legs arms shoulder..
hiding these's gotta be hard especially in summer when I still have to have a sweater and full pants on even if people look at me weird..
he's been the only parent raising me
he did as he wanted
he rose me saying I was worthless and so on
so I w have no confidence
and I realise around now all that he's done
all that I can't do now because of that
like trust someone or have confidence in me or stop apologising or trying to be discret and hide my problems
as a kid I didn't think being "raised" like this would change my personnality or change me for life
but I realise now what I can't do
like I can never love
someone because I would feel like I am not worthy
like I'm perpetualy being judged and I have to watch my every move and word (not not to be beaten but not to be hated again)
I couldn't be asleep with someone it would be too scary I couldn't fall asleep and I would just be too scared to do it
I have tried not to be shy and not to keep on talking donwn on myself but " you only talk ill of yourself you don't show off you don't talk about your life to others it annoys them they don't care about you " that's how I've been raised
and I TRIED not to be shy but I physically can't now I just realised
He did say no one could love me anyways
and he's right
he's intelligent I mean very intelligent after all
and with those scars now..there's less hope than ever
he owns me, and the worst ever would be if he did succeed in having me committed I mean he can do it anytime he would want like he said he just has to tell all the scars I have I did to myself like anyone would believe I would want to be ugly irreversibly for life clearly they have never been burnt by fire hot metals or chemicals not to even imagine how painful it is how excruciating it was.. but he'd sell them he's the adult after and I'm te girl he and his good reputation would be the one to be believed so as long as I keep on showing I can be useful to him and guess what he wants he'll keep me with him and won't commit me__ yet__ it's borrowed time really
I'm gonna have to spend christmas with him., being afraid of the fire place..
I would rather spend christmas on boredpanda where there are good people, well, there's at least one, which is better than here ^^ thank you Chinmayee Kalghatgi
I think there are also places that will like hide you from your abuser and help you out (a few years ago I helped a place that did that for women and their kids who needed to hide from domestic abusers). Not to mention idk how successful he could be if he could actually send you to an asylum. Like you said you have a lot of scars so it's not like it would be easy to dismiss those as proof of abuse. The problem is would be what he does to you if you do try to seek help.
When i was born my blood dad lets call him sperm donor abandon me and my mom on the streets i grew up a shy and quiet kid my mom had many boyfriends some would beat me without my mother knowing one of them would throw me across the floor cussing me out i was always quiet cause i felt if i said the wrong thing i felt like i would get beat more so i stayed quiet. when it was my birthday i was turning 9 one of my 18 or 19 year old cousin said he had a present for me in the bedroom he shuts the door behind me and rapes me after i exited the room i hid every time he would enter a room i hid when he would come by i would run and hide. i felt so scared. but there was one person that helped comfort me it was my grandpa he wiped all my tears then the most tragic day arrive i was moving away from him with my abusive moms boyfriend and her i was crying when we moved . shortly after we came back because my mom broke up with him i was the first to enter the kitchen noticing my grandpa on the floor.
theres more its just that it is hard to say/type
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So, Chinmayee, I am having a little trouble with Turtle. You see, he won't stay away from the cacti! No matter how much moon cheese I give him, he simply isn't full. The only thing that fills him up is cacti- but he's very allergic. The spikes keep cutting his throat and I've tried cutting them off, but I think that there's something else in the cacti that he's reacting to. I want to take him to the vet but someone gave them corn and now the geese are chasing them. It's been so hard with all this pressure like a drip, drip, drip that'll never stop. 'Cause my math is worse than my speeling witch is horribal and I'm not alowed to talk about my favorite celebrity, Bruno, even though I really really want to. Things are tough, y'know? I'm gonna need a whole lot of 'G'night, mate's to get me through this I think.
Get some tomatoes and moon cheese and bread. It has ben proven that turtle likes it. Put anti- turtle spray on the cacti. The corn will come out on its own. Just lock up turtle before the corn comes out. Take maths and throw it out and speling dont mater. How many times should i tell you that we dont talk about bruno? But if you want to talk about him then sing the song
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When i was born my blood dad lets call him sperm donor abandon me and my mom on the streets i grew up a shy and quiet kid my mom had many boyfriends some would beat me without my mother knowing one of them would throw me across the floor cussing me out i was always quiet cause i felt if i said the wrong thing i felt like i would get beat more so i stayed quiet. when it was my birthday i was turning 9 one of my 18 or 19 year old cousin said he had a present for me in the bedroom he shuts the door behind me and rapes me after i exited the room i hid every time he would enter a room i hid when he would come by i would run and hide. i felt so scared. but there was one person that helped comfort me it was my grandpa he wiped all my tears then the most tragic day arrive i was moving away from him with my abusive moms boyfriend and her i was crying when we moved . shortly after we came back because my mom broke up with him i was the first to enter the kitchen noticing my grandpa on the floor.
theres more its just that it is hard to say/type
Load More Replies... So, Chinmayee, I am having a little trouble with Turtle. You see, he won't stay away from the cacti! No matter how much moon cheese I give him, he simply isn't full. The only thing that fills him up is cacti- but he's very allergic. The spikes keep cutting his throat and I've tried cutting them off, but I think that there's something else in the cacti that he's reacting to. I want to take him to the vet but someone gave them corn and now the geese are chasing them. It's been so hard with all this pressure like a drip, drip, drip that'll never stop. 'Cause my math is worse than my speeling witch is horribal and I'm not alowed to talk about my favorite celebrity, Bruno, even though I really really want to. Things are tough, y'know? I'm gonna need a whole lot of 'G'night, mate's to get me through this I think.
Get some tomatoes and moon cheese and bread. It has ben proven that turtle likes it. Put anti- turtle spray on the cacti. The corn will come out on its own. Just lock up turtle before the corn comes out. Take maths and throw it out and speling dont mater. How many times should i tell you that we dont talk about bruno? But if you want to talk about him then sing the song
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