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It’s been kind of a hard day, but I’m hoping things will start looking up soon.
I'm doing better. I am still very mute at school, but working on it. Still having a hard time with lots of anxiety.
I'm glad you're doing better but I'm afraid there's no quick fix for anxiety. It's a horrible and debilitating condition and I hope you have some support from family or friends. You have already taken a huge step by reaching out on here so try to keep those small victories in mind when you feel bad. Good luck and I hope you continue feeling better. It's a marathon not a sprint. (I was doing so well but I had to throw a cliche in at the end didn't I?!)
I feel so useless and without a purpose. :(
It's been such a long day. I went to school (freshman here) and got my period so.. yay. Luckily I did have some pads but I feel like crap. Also, I have a condition (not sure what it is, please tell me in the comments if you think you know) where if I exercise a lot or do like running, the air seems to get really cold and then my chest hurts like my lungs hurt really bad and my PE teacher is very understanding but I cried a bit in PE today because I felt so weak and stupid because everyone was y'know doing the workout and I was sitting on my mat trying to breathe and not cry. So yeah. Bad day. Life happens though.
Yeah, sounds like a really rough day. I’m really sorry! Things like that always seem to happen in freshmen year. I’m glad your PE teacher was kind but that doesn’t make it better. I have a medical condition that keeps me from doing the stuff in PE too sometimes and it really sucks, I’ve definitely felt weak and stupid because of it but please remember that you’re not! I hope things start to look up. :)
This week has been absolutely s**t. I got into trouble because I had to do a performance in Drama but I could bearly speak so I said i couldn't do it but my teacher didn't care. My parents found out that I am too nervous to order food so they are trying to get me to order food to the point they are getting the school involved, my friend group has started to fall apart and I hate it so much. I wish this week never happened or it happened differently at least. At least I have a holiday for a week
I should probably mention that I'm ordering food in the school food hall
Counting down the days until death finally comes for me.
Decent. Sort of. Not really. I got smacked by a guy I really like twice the other day, so that's given me some inner conflict. Honestly I think my friends are more mad at him than I am. I've got a lot on my mind but its all just so blurry.
Wow. I... wow. I hope that you're ok but that could be considered assault in some circumstances. Context?
Not wonderful. I'm just in a really bad mental state right now. I overthink everything, I feel like I annoy everyone, and I'm just overall anxious and depressed. I don't want to tell anyone because I'm supposed to be the shoulder to cry on, and I don't want anyone else to have to feel as bad for me as I feel for them. I still wish just one person would look me in the eyes and realize I'm in no way okay despite what I say. I wish someone would genuinely ask me what's going on and let me just dump everything on them.
I also don't say anything about this because I'm afraid of being weak in any way shape or form, but I am. I don't want anyone to know that I'm not really strong like everyone thinks I am.
I’m alive. I got out of bed today. Not ready to make any changes or talk about it because that’s just not something I’ve ever been able to do. I’ve stopped responding normally to people who ask how I am. Now I answer with the most ridiculous thing I can come up with. Yesterday some random coworker I ran into asked how I am. So I told him “still trying to breathe in reverse but it’s not working. I’ll keep at it”. He just said “Right. Never stop trying!” Ha. Yeah, I’ll do that. Last week I said “Wait! You can see me? Damn. Guess I’m still alive.” I’ve said all kinds of crazy stuff. Way worse and more suicidal stuff that I won’t repeat for sake of TW. They think I’m freaking hilarious. Even family. Honestly I’m so tired of trying to be super hyper and funny all the time but I can’t seem to stop. They think that’s my personality but it’s not. Not their fault that I’m never honest with anyone. Pretty sure I’m bipolar.
So that’s how I am. I need sleep.
I feel like I'm stuck in a cage of who I am supposed to be. Inside I'm screaming to get out and be myself. Thing is I don't even know who I am. I haven't been happy in such a long long time.
Waiting for the side effects of a new medication to go away after I was taken off of it. Very tired, constantly dizzy, bad headache, increased seizures. It did have one benefit, sciatic nerve pain was reduced. So, feeling kind of blah.
I feel really feverish today :( But its not real fever, just a symptom so things like an aspirine won't help me
So my cat gave birth a few weeks ago and a boy from my maths class is taking one of the kittens and he came with his mum and older sister to see the kittens today’s day I recognised him and I was sitting there shaking trying to remember how to talk and breath and he was sitting with my dog cuddling up to him being a sook and yeah that happened also someone who used to be a good friend told me to go kill myself a few months ago and I was dealing with self harm at the time and I feel so detached from everything like I’ll get home after school and sit there trying to remember how I got there also I think I have a problem because I think I like my best friend but I’m not sure and I came out as bi a few months ago.
Really? I'm very worried about two of my adult children. Once you become a parent, the bond, the love, the concern for that son/daughter never ends--no netter what their age is.
Really? I'm very worried about two of my adult children. Once you become a parent, the bond, the love, the concern for that son/daughter never ends--no netter what their age is.
