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September is National Suicide Prevention Month, and throughout the last few weeks, Instagram has become flooded with empowering survival stories, raising social awareness on the illness. A new hashtag, #faceofdepression, is adding an essential layer of depth to the public conversation about hidden depression symptoms, and it's one we just can't ignore.

What do depressed people look like? What does someone with suicidal thoughts appear? What does depression feels like? Of course, many of us would probably picture a crumpled-up, crying shell of a person on a bathroom floor. However, the reality that #faceofdepression is trying to explain is that people who are struggling with feeling depressed often hide it in their everyday lives - meaning that they look like just about any other person you'd pass on the street.

One of the most touching contributions to the campaign was a video shared by Talinda Bentley, widow of Linkin Park singer Chester Bennington, showing him laughing and smiling just 36 hours before his tragic suicide. Don't take everything at 'face' value. If you think or know someone is showing the signs of depression, ask the hard questions before it's too late.

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24/7 if you or someone you know needs urgent treatment of depression. Call 1-800-273-8255 or go to their official website to live chat with a counselor.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is really powerful! I'm a nurse and I pinned this to my nursing board so I can show my fellow nurses. Thank you for sharing your story, just by ready this I know that the world would not be as bright without you in it ❤

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Chester Bennington's suicide hit me incredibly hard. Whenever I was going through dark phases or sad times, I've always turned to Linkin Park music to get me through it. His raw intensity made me feel like someone understands darkness, and that I have someone to turn to. For many of his fans, his suicide has left a void that will not be filled anytime soon. I thank his bandmates for their heartfelt tribute. Their message was spot-on.

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You can't tell can you? You can't tell by the look in my eyes or the sound of my voice even. You're thinking "You're smiling though!"

Yes. Yes, I am smiling. I smiled for you. I smiled so I don't make you feel bad. I don't want you to feel like I do. I also don't want you to feel like there is something you can do to make me "feel better".

There isn't anything anyone can do. I have to work through it on my own. The worst part is that this bout snuck up on me. I recognize the familiarity of it all though.

Empty
Lonely
Heavy
Tired
So tired
Everything is loud
Everything is annoying
I have no patience
I want to be left alone
I want to stay in bed
I don't want to work out
I want to eat everything without cooking anything

The best part is that I haven't felt like this in a very long time AND that I recognize it for what is. I'm the one who bakes and does crafts. You see that on the outside but you don't see the darkness inside.

For those that are also suffering....PLEASE SEEK HELP. Treatment is different for each person. Do what is best for you. I'm doing what works for me while I get back to Monique. So for now - I smile, and let people know I'm struggling.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

THIS! She describes it so well... "The worst part is that this bout snuck up on me. I recognize the familiarity of it all though. Empty Lonely Heavy Tired So tired Everything is loud Everything is annoying I have no patience I want to be left alone I want to stay in bed I don't want to work out I want to eat everything without cooking anything "

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My daughter as well. The night before she ended up in the hospital they went to the daddy daughter dance and had an amazing time. Thankfully she's still alive today and learning to beat her illness. She was 8 at the time

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Mercy. Hurts to look at her, hurts to learn how young she was, I hope things are better.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

And this is why everyone needs to learn to listen. Appearance is not everything.

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This is my son , right before going to his computer to look up how to properly hang himself. Two days later he followed through.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I am so sorry :( I could not imagine the loss of a child this way. I have 4 teenagers. My heart is breaking for your family.

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This is depression in our home. I tried to hang myself in my attic when the board broke and I broke thru the ceiling alerting my family. I fight every day. My husband tries his best but can't break through. I don't understand it. I don't know why I can't get rid of it. I have a wonderful family. I feel selfish, lost, sick and angry at myself. My brain has always been a little scrambled and I've fought just to make it thru school, I can't keep a job. I can't stay in task long enough or I take too long. I leave before I get fired. It's hard to feel worthless and I hate feeling like a burden to my family. I have so much pain inside. I'm in therapy I have meds. All I know is even though I feel like suicide would make life easier for my family, I also feel like if I could just get my head fixed and could be someone worthy, I really would like to stay around. I have been trying for so long I don't know if it's gonna happen for me. Today I am here. We will see how tomorrow goes tomorrow. I take it day for day and some times hour by hour. Sometimes i think If I can get through one more hour I'll go to bed and I'll sleep til tomorrow and see how it goes. Today has been ok. I'm trying to find something good today to give hope for tomorrow. Today I try.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Not just hour by hour honey... minute by minute, second by second!! I've been there... Take care xx

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#9

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My #faceofdepression and yes it is possible to be depressed with a child.

Hearing, "You don't have a reason to be depressed with her around" doesn't do shit but make me feel worse about myself

Being told, "All you need is exercise and a good diet" just makes me want to throat punch you even though you're coming from a good place

Depression keeps you from doing things you want to do because it's literally a chemical imbalance in your brain.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

yes ,been there, well meaning people saying utterly stupid things. I hate " We've all been there" They are trying to make us feel they understand but succeed only in showing how little they understand. No you havn't been there - you have NO idea. Your daughter is adorable ,you are doing a great and brave job as her Mum. I pray you find something that will ease your pain and make your smile real on the inside too

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This is my boyfriend two weeks before hanging himself. Will never understand it...

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Posts like these can hit very close to home. Please reach out for help if you struggle with thoughts of suicide. It can be prevented. There is help available in your country, take a look: http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

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This is what depression looked like not long before we lost our beloved Luke. Depression is a SERIOUS illness. Don't dismiss people who are hurting.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Depression is like a worm, crawling under your skin and eating your flesh without anybody noticing. Because no one cares about what's inside of you. And everybody overreacts when something's seeable. But when "something" is noticeable is when you need people not to see, then you smile, every time for no reason, so they won't ask what you don't want to talk about. Because no matter what, when and whoever pretends to be here for you, everything looks fake, sounds wrong, and it hurts to realize how much you suck at life. And someday, it becomes too painful, you want to run away but everything's the same wherever you go. This is at that point that "suicide", "silence" and "darkness" start to look sweet, inspiring, necessary. Depression is a worm that deforms reality and makes "freedom" and "peace" rhyme with "death". I feel sorry for y'all, I wish your beloveds could have found a better way to relieve themselves from this pain.

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Bipolar disorder here,(with a heavy emphasis on the depression side)...I get up, put on a full face of makeup, wear a fun dress, all while struggling with depression, anxiety and sometimes suicidal thoughts..

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Currently at the doctor seeking help, most have no idea what I'm going through and that I cry in the shower or in the car on my way home from work or can't sleep at night because of panic attacks

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

These are some crazy criteria - if you cannot get up from bed or do not brush hair, it is way too late. Also, there is functional depression, where everything looks OK from the surface. Only looks.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

As someone who is going through depression, ptsd, and suidice attempts etc, i feel like i can see it in the eyes of others when they are hurting. Makeup or no make up. I wish the best for all of us. Thank you and everyone else for sharing

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Major Depression & PPD here. 3 weeks pp with #2 & going to the doctor is helping. Most times I feel like I'm drowning but last couple of days it's been easier. Sometimes just talking about it can be cathartic. PLEASE seek help if you need it. It's not failure. Sometimes you just need a little more time to get your shit together and that's ok, because being a functional parent is hard fucking work.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

You need to take care of you to be the best parent you can. I'm glad you're finding talk therapy helping. You got this :)

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I dont know what happened to you, but whatever, you look beautiful

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I get you; I struggle with feeling like a failure every time I need to go back on medication.

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The face of depression. Sometimes it looks optimistic. Sometimes it doesn't. And having a smart, beautiful child doesn't mean those feelings don't exist or that they're not valid. She loves me on my good days and my bad days.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I identify with this so much. Even on the bad days I find a reason to go on in my daughter. Because she just sees her mom, not the depression.

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I Suffer From Fybromyalgia, Arthritis And Anxiety. The Years Have Been A Struggle.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

You are so beautiful! Love your eyes, definitely a caring emotional person in there :)

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

People need you, and love you, I promise. Even while crying, in bed, red wine or whatever ;)

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I know it won't help you, but you are a very beuatiful woman! I love your eyes.

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When people think about depression, they tend to have a very specific idea of how it manifests itself. I'm in the middle of a very real depressive episode and here I am at work with my plants and headphones

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I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for years and years. I started experiencing symptoms around 12 and wasn't diagnosed or treated until I was 25. (Early on docs told me I didn't seem depressed.) Once my kiddo was born, my postpartum depression fused with my everyday depression and I almost lost it. It was my dream to be a happy SAHP, and even though I stayed home for over a year, I felt worse and worse every day. It took all of my energy to make sure my baby was taken care of. I developed severe sleep apnea, gained a lot of weight, and couldn't function outside of my parental duties.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Being a mom with or without depression takes so much inner strength. Bless you for fighting and starting so strong. Been there, know that feeling

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Depressed Since High'school, Drop'out, One Suicide Attempt, Severely Agoraphobic. In My Country Having A Mental Illness Means That "Your Parents Didn't Beat You Enough", Or, "Your Husband Should Throw You Out Of The House, Maybe Then You'll Get A Job". So I Learned To Smile Even In My Worst Days.

Depressed since high'school, drop'out, one suicide attempt, severely agoraphobic. In my country having a mental illness means that "Your parents didn't beat you enough", or, "Your husband should throw you out of the house, maybe then you'll get a job". So I learned to smile even in my worst days.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

It's not just your country, middle-and-east europe still has room for improvement in the field of mental illnesses. I hope you have more good days than bad and wish you strength to get to the good ones!

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Me, Two Days After A Failed Suicide Attempt. People Don't "Look" Depressed Because Depression Isn't A Facial Expression.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Me, Two Days After A Failed Suicide Attempt. People Don’t “Look” Depressed, Because Depression Isn’t A Facial Expression.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Stuck in a panic attack, yes, that's sweat running down my Face. Battling for 15 years now, the fearless good times in between two bad phases are the reason I'm still fighting. Nevertheless I'm tired to explain what a panic attack feels like or what the reasons are I'm suffering from this disease. It's not my fault and I don't want to feel guilty anymore.

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GAD and depression for probably two decades. My childhood nickname was "smiley". My positive attitude gets remarked on often. My brain still fires weird regardless.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I def relate. Sometimes the bigger my smile is in public, the more severe my depression is...and that is confusing understandably to a lot of people around me. Pls remember you are beautiful and worthy of happiness!

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I have suffered from depression for more than 2 thirds of my life. Think about that. Most of my life has been in pain and misery. Most of my life has been spent fighting my demons of suicidal ideation and convincing myself to stay, to keep fighting. There are days, even now, that I can draft my goodbye note in my head. There are days I can almost convince myself that my son and my family could be better off without me. Yet, this is no way makes me an unfit mother. One thing I never fail at for my son is loving him. Showing him he is loved. I know some of you say "you shouldn't have children if you are mentally ill" and to you I say: Eat a bag of dicks. My son saved my life. My son saves my life every day. I will not keep from him that I am sick when he is old enough to understand. I'd rather he see me battle my mind, than think even a fraction of my pain was caused by him.

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I've Been Diagnosed With Borderline A Few Weeks Ago. My Head Needs Rest, My Puppy Needs A Hug

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Got diagnosed with borderline a few months ago. Hard to hear but all fell into place. The depressions are hard, very hard. Thankfully i've been diagnosed, got a great counselor and am attending group-therapy. Keep strong everyone and thank you all for sharing your stories.

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Two Months After Attempting Suicide And While I Was Considering Trying Again Every Day. Every Person Who Meets Me And I Tell I Have Depression Say; 'You Just Don't Seem The Type!' There Is No Type.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Two months after attempting suicide - while I was considering trying again daily. Everyone who meets me and who I tell I have depression say: 'You don't seem the type!' There is no type.

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The Last Images We Have Of My Eldest Son's Father. Mother's Day 2012. We Felt He Was Making Improvements, But Jesse Completed Suicide June 12, 2012.

The last images we have of my eldest son's father. Mother's day 2012. We felt he was making improvements, but Jesse completed suicide June 12, 2012.

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About Three Hours Before A Massive Panic Attack That Ultimately Ended In Self Harm.

About three hours before a massive panic attack that ultimately ended in self harm.

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#40

When You Put On Your War Face But Inside Is Where The Battle Happens.

When you put on your war face but inside is where the battle happens.

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I Never Feel Normal, Accepted Or Accepted. I Struggle Always. I'm Thankful For My Support.

I never feel normal, accepted or accepted. I struggle always. I'm thankful for my support.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Dude, you cool, you remind me of the singer Banks visually. Be strong!

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The Guy In Red Was My Dad, Less Than 2 Months Before He Took His Life. He Was 60 Years Old. He Told Us As Kids That He Had To Talk Himself Out Of Suicide Every Day. He Succeeded, But Not Without Letting Every One Of His Loved Ones Know How Much He Loved Us. I Miss Him Terribly, He Will Never Get To Meet My Kids Or Walk Me Down The Isle.

The guy in red was my dad, less than 2 months before he took his life. He was 60 years old. He told us as kids that he had to talk himself out of suicide every day. He succeeded, but not without letting every one of his loved ones know how much he loved us. I miss him terribly, he will never get to meet my kids or walk me down the isle.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I'm so sorry for your loss. I am so sorry for his struggle.

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Taken Few Days Ago... Face Of Depression, Anxiety, Ednos, Bpd And Suicidal Thoughts. I'm Ashmed

Taken few days ago... Face of depression, anxiety, ednos, bpd and suicidal thoughts. I'm ashmed

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

You should not be ashamed. Would you be ashamed if you had cancer?

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Depressed For Years, Nobody Noticed Till Last Year, It’s Amazing How Depression Can Hide

Depressed for years, nobody noticed till last year, it’s amazing how depression can hide.

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Decided To Get Out Of Bed For The First Time In Months To Look Nice For A Picture

Decided to get out of bed for the first time in months to look nice for a picture.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Scarlet Johannson is that you? (Don't know if I spelt her name correctly) you do remind me of her but I hope you can fight through this tough time I'm struggling atm

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This Is What Depression And Anxiety Looks Like. I Was In A Bad Place. I Am Fine Now, But Sometimes It Comes Back, And I Hate It. Luckily I Have Got A Support System Around Me That Helps Me Through When Out Gets Bad. But Most People Would Never Have Guess When I Struggle!

This is what depression and anxiety looks like. I was in a bad place. I am fine now, but sometimes it comes back, and I hate it. Luckily I have got a support system around me that helps me through when out gets bad. But most people would never have guess when I struggle!

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"You're Young And Smart" They Say. "Depression Don't Exist" They Say.

"Depression? But you're young and smart" they say. And here I am with 11 suicide attempts.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

you are very pretty! I want to grow up and be as pretty as you and maybe my moms.It will all be okay

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Anxiety And Depression For Many Years, I Put A Mask On I Guess At Times And Try To Make Out I'm The Fun, Smiling Happy One, But What Goes On Inside Is Darker At Times. Worry So Much About Things, Its Like The End Of The World When Changes Happen. I Get Paniced By Things, Angry And Distant Or I Breakdown And Cry. Its Not Only Mental But Physical Too, Ibs And Stress Symptoms That Make Me Feel Weak And Tired. My Artistic Part Of My Brain Does Help Break Things Up Time To Time, A Way Of Expressing Something That I Cant Feel. I Wish At Times I Could Eventually Feel More In Control, But Then I'd Be Scared Of That Feeling.

Anxiety and depression for many years, I put a mask on I guess at times and try to make out I'm the fun, smiling happy one, but what goes on inside is darker at times. Worry so much about things, its like the end of the world when changes happen. I get paniced by things, angry and distant or I breakdown and cry. Its not only mental but physical too, ibs and stress symptoms that make me feel weak and tired. My artistic part of my brain does help break things up time to time, a way of expressing something that I cant feel. I wish at times I could eventually feel more in control, but then I'd be scared of that feeling.

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Depressed For 4 Years

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#facesofdepression You Would Not Know When I Go Out Into The World What I'm Fearing Inside. It's My Anxiety That Causes Depression And Sometimes That's Taken For Laziness Or An Unabitious Work Habit. It's Anything But That. It's Pure Fear That Leads To Depression That I Haven't Accomplished My Goals Or Raised My Son Right Etc Etc. I Can And Will Overcome This.

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A Day On The Beach With My Beautiful Family. All The Time Hiding Deep Suicidal Thoughts. Men Are Not Allowed To Be Depressed. Two Overdoses, Hours Of Researching Ways To Die, Even Planning A Trip To Dignitas To Take The Pressure Off My Family. #thefaceofdepression #nolife #needhelp

A day on the beach with my beautiful family. All the time hiding deep suicidal thoughts. Men are not allowed to be depressed. Two overdoses, hours of researching ways to die, even planning a trip to Dignitas to take the pressure off my family.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I noticed on this that most of the men that are shown here actually committed suicide. It is awful man. Men don't seem to open up like women. They don't display their emotions like them. They just do the terrible deed and that is just that. It is brave of you to admit your struggle. The darkness will pass in time but it is a wait and the struggle can be like making it through a nightmare, but it will end.

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This Is My Son Haiden ♥ This Was His Smile I Remember Everyday Even The Night Before 19 Years Old He Left My World 18.10.1997 - 06.07.2017 Fly High With The Angels My Beautiful Handsome Baby Boy Xxxxxxx 💕 🌟 ✨ ♥

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

My beautiful handsome baby boy Haiden ♥ suffered with anxiety and decided to leave my world :-( this was his smiling face always even the night before. Age 19 forever in my heart 💕 fly high with the angels my beautiful handsome son Haiden Meare 18.10.1997 - 06.07.2017 💕 🌟 ♥ ✨ XxxxxX Love Mum XxxxxxxxxxxX

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Suicidal On And Off For The Past 9 Years

Suicidal on and off for the past 9 years.

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Each Time I Say I'm Feeling Suicidal I'm Told "What About Those Who Love You? Did You Think About Them?" And I Keep Saying That The Day I Finally Succumb To Suicidal Depression Everyone Will Be Calling Me A Coward, Asking Why I Didn't Reach Out To Them, Saying That They Never Expected It From Me...such A Strong Woman. I Reach Out All The Time. Everyone Is Always Busy. They Have Their Own Problems. I'm Too Pretty To Be Thinking Of Suicide...as If I Woke Up One Day And Decided To Go And Buy Bipolar Disorder That Weighs Heavily On The Depression Side With A Handsome Serving Of Anxiety And Suicidal Thoughts. I Didn't Want This. I Never Asked For It. If There Was A Way I Would Gladly Throw It Away. It's Like A Leech With Its Mouth Hooks Embedded So Deep Into My Back That If I Try To Pull It Off, My Whole Back Is Pulled Along With It. Nobody Knows How Many Times Per Week I Think About Suicide, Or Cry At Night, Or Just Anytime Really. I've Been Diagnosed With Bipolar Before But I Can't Afford Meds Now So That's Fun. I'm Drained Every Single Day By Dragging My Own Self Around. I'm Running Out Of Energy To Continue. And People Want Me To Be Thinking About Others, When I Can Barely Deal With My Own Self. Depression Has No Face Unfortunately. Bipolar Disorder Is So Misunderstood 😭😭"But You Were Happy Just A Few Minutes Ago " Yeah Well, That's Gone. Can't Find The Happiness Anymore. Don't Know What Happened.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

"You're too pretty to be thinking about suicide. What about everyone who loves you? Don't let the devil blah blah blah" Bipolar, weighing heavily on the depression side, along with anxiety. Cocktail 🍸

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I Always Say I Am Happily Depressed

I always say I am happily depressed.

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Fighting 20+ Years. Depression, Gad, Number Of Issues From Childhood. I Have A Plan And A Note

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#59

Most Of The Time, I Can Hide My Depression Well. Here Lately, Not So Much....

Most of the time, I can hide my depression well. Here lately, not so much...

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The Face Of Depression #youdontlookdepressed

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

You're one of the most beautiful persons that I've ever seen, you look like a fairy. Please, I struggle too, I know how it's like, so stay strong!

#61

This Is My Beautiful Popular Hilarious Son, Weeks Before He Killed. The Whole Town Was Stunned. Never Give Up Helping Your Child .

This is my beautiful popular hilarious son, weeks before he killed. The whole town was stunned. Never give up helping your child .

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#62

Just Because You Can't See Depression It Doesn't Mean It's Not There!

Just because you can't see depression it doesn't mean it's not there!

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#63

He Gave Up 7 Years Ago.

He gave up 7 years ago.

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#faceofdepression

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is the face of depression - Chinese, CA resident, early 30’s, has a large happy dog, holds a master degree and works as a dept head for a billion dollar tech company. This is the face of depression- smiling ear to ear in Bali on a meditation retreat. I went to Bali to die, simple as that. It’s a beautiful place and i just wanted to quietly slip away. I didn’t want to say goodbye, I didn’t want my friends and family to find my body, I didn’t want to make any noise... I simply just wanted to disappear. The face of depression is never going to be what you think it looks like.

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Depression Has No Face - Behind A Fake Smile, I'm Truly Broken...

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

There's no words to express how I feel sometimes. There's no a single thought, sound or breath of air I can muster that could ever explain how I feel when I am low. Of many attempts on my own life, I've not been successful yet. I say "yet", with hopes that it will never happen. Sometimes, it becomes so unbearable. I have to fight myself to keep from fading to black. Talking about my issues never helped, I've talked until my jaw hurt. Neither being around my favorite people, enjoying my favorite food or drinks, nor when I'm in the middle of a hobby I'm enjoying. When those times come, I have total loss of control of my emotions. My mind doesn't stop, memories flow from the darkest parts of my mind, and flood the foreground of my current thoughts. Whatever joy I have in my mind gets completely overrun by the shadows of my mind, and the storm begins. The thoughts race like lightning, and my tears fall like crashing thunder. Some storms aren't so bad, but some completely destroy me...

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#faceofgadwithseverepanicdisorder Hi, Im 37. I Had My First Panic Attact At 4. I Never Told Family. At The Age Of 13 I Would Cry Myself To Sleep And Would Occasionally Cut My Arm. I Demonstrated Destructive Behavior To Myself,others, And Everything Around Me. At 19, The Panic Attacks Came Back. I Started Never Leaving My Apartment. At 21 I Had A Episode Of Non Stop Panic Attacks. If I Wasnt Sleeping I Was Having One. I Then Admitted Myself Into A Phsychiatric Hospital. Since Then Ive Done Pretty Well With A Few Relapses Here And There. But I Always Have The Fear...when Is It Going To Strike Again :/

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is a face of someone that has battle GAD and severe panic disorder. It started at 4 with panic attacks in certain situations. I would shut down and turn inward almost paralyzed with the feeling I was having. But I never told anyone... Through middle school and early high school I battled depression. I would cry every night before bed and then as I got older I turned the sadness to anger. By 19 I had been in a abusive relationship. The panic attacks that I once remembered as a child came back. I barely left the apartment because I tended to get them more if I left the house... I moved home because I couldn't hold a job because of the panic attacks. At 21 all I could do is sleep and if not,I was having a panic attack.I admitted myself into a Psych. hospital and was diagnosed. It has got better over the years. I'm able to cope better or know when I need a change of medication.I do relapse sometimes and still don't leave the house much. But I try to stay optimistic.

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It’s More “manageable “ Now, But Some Days It Is A Struggle To Get Out Of Bed.

It’s more “manageable “ now, but some days it is a struggle to get out of bed.

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The Nights Are The Worse..the Weekends Too..and At Any Given Time In An Ordinary Day....i Hate My Life And All The Meds.

The nights are the worse..The weekends too..And at any given time in an ordinary day....I hate my life and all the meds.

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Smile On Outside Broken Inside

Smile on outside broken inside

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Depression Has No One Look, Who Are You? Is A Tough Question For Me, The Person I Am When I Wake Up And When I Go To Bed Is Much Different Than The Person I Am When I Cake Makeup On My Face. I Am Happy On Camera But Am Dying Inside. Wish People Knew, But It's A Critics World And I Am My Worst Enemy. Depression Runs My Life And No One Ever Has A Clue, My Smile And Charm Hide My True Self. We All Have Our Masks. Depression Comes In Many Forms. Staying Strong One Day At A Time. We Can Beat This Together 💜

Depression has no one look, who are you? Is a tough question for me, the person I am when I wake up and when I go to bed is much different than the person I am when I cake makeup on my face. I am happy on camera but am dying inside. Wish people knew, but it's a critics world and I am my worst enemy. Depression runs my life and no one ever has a clue, my smile and charm hide my true self. We all have our masks. Depression comes in many forms. Staying strong one day at a time. We can beat this together.

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Danielle Hogan 16 Yrs Suicide By Hanging

Danielle hogan 16 yrs suicide by hanging

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Top Left: I Felt The Best I Have In A Long Time.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Top Left: I felt better than I have in a long time. I "look" depressed, but just was mostly just playing up the dark outfit I was wearing. Yes, depression was lurking...but that was a good day. Bottom Left: I couldn't make myself smile and was taking a picture to make my recent inexplicable burst of tears wasn't completely visible. Right: One of the harder days. I tend to put more effort into my appearance when I'm doing really well or really terribly...more effort to cover it up and hopefully trick my brain and those around me into believing that I'm happy. I smile more. Tell me again which one is the face of depression.

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My Faces Of Depression And Suicidal Thoughts (As Well As Gad, Bpd, Cptsd, Etc) Vary Quite A Bit. Sometimes I Try To Hide/combat It By Smiling, Making Faces, Using Snapchat, Etc. Sometimes I Am Too Overwhelmed To Hide It And Sometimes I'm Tired Of Feeling Like I Have To. There Needs To Be A Lot More Understanding And Awareness Of Mental Illness.

My faces of depression and suicidal thoughts (as well as gad, bpd, cptsd, etc) vary quite a bit. Sometimes I try to hide/combat it by smiling, making faces, using snapchat, etc. Sometimes I am too overwhelmed to hide it and sometimes I'm tired of feeling like I have to. There needs to be a lot more understanding and awareness of mental illness.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I had all that as well. My meds would never work. I had a certain problem with them making it to my brain. They found EnLyte and my pills worked. And I even was able to get off some of them! Hang in there!

#75

This Is Major Depression And Major Anxiety

This is major depression and major anxiety.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

the road has been long and the thoughts may get weary but your keen sense of seeing us out here is present - we'll be here till the end , <3 4 U

#76

No Face Or Age; The Most Recent Is Where I Am. It Was A Week Ago. I’m Okay These Days With Some Severe Dips In My Anxiety Levels Which Tends To Push Other Things Too. Nothing Bad, It’s Just There.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

5th grade I attempted to kill myself. I won’t go into the details, and it’s obvious I lived. I was in counseling in 4th grade while my legal father (disowned) tried to prove my mom did something that he obviously imagined. As living with him grew worse, so did my mental health. I was pulled from counseling when it was obvious I wasn’t okay. It was brushed off. For years afterward, I had some huge issues with Myself and had a lot of breakdowns. Anxiety came as a symptom, I think, of it. The anxiety is now my main issue, but when it flares, it can bring me down pretty far. I experienced my first panic attack Halloween of Junior year. A memory came back from living with my legal father. I smile, I make terrible puns, I love my puppies - animals in general, and am working towards a career. I’m also human, and so these things happen.

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The Other People Look Beautiful, But I'm 71 And Ugly And I Still Remember The Times I Wanted To Die...

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

It's a struggle to feel worthy in this world. Twice, at my lowest points, I tried suicide. Thankfully, I had a very understanding doctor (General Practitioner) who took the time to sit and talk with me, and really LISTEN. He started me on medications, and now I am still taking them... I guess for a lifetime. Every time I "feel better" and think I don't need them anymore, I relapse into a state of "a black cloud hanging over me". Sometimes I think I don't have control over my own brain. Depression is a mental illness that affects ALL AGES, and needs to be recognized and not stigmatized.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Stay focussed, don't become an epitath and good memories - please...

#80

My Youngest Son Died Of An Overdose On 8/1/1989. It Was The Most Devastating Loss For Our Family.

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Children Get Depressed

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My Depressed Face 1 Week Before Overdosing On Meds! Woke Up In Hospital. Still Fighting My Illness Everyday.

My depressed face 1 week before overdosing on meds! Woke up in hospital. Still fighting my illness everyday.

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This Is Me After 2 Hours Of Sleep...wouldn't Think That I Guess? I've Been Struggeling With Depression And Suicidal Thoughts For 15 Years+, I Always Try To Smile Not To Show How I Really Feel...

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is me after 2 hours of sleep…wouldn’t think that I guess? I’ve been struggeling with depression and suicidal thoughts for 15 years+, I always try to smile not to show how I really feel…

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This Is Me.....#faceofdepression.

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Body Of An Eating Disorder

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#89

This Is What Depression Looks Like

This is what depression looks like.

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I Think About Suicide, But I Don't Want To Tell Anyone Because I Think I Will Go To Jail For Being Suicidal. I Know I Have Kids And I Know I Can Beat This Disease But The Thoughts Are Always There. #faceofdepression

I think about suicide, but I don't want to tell anyone because I think I will go to jail for being suicidal. I know I have kids and I know I can beat this disease but the thoughts are always there.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Keep the good fight and let those thoughts fade away whenever they come by.

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#91

Even Though I Am Screaming Inside, I Have Become A Pro At Portraying That I Am Perfectly Fine.

Even though I am screaming inside, I have become a pro at portraying that I am perfectly fine.

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A Sneak Peak Of Life Inside A Mental Health Hospital. Half The People I Was In Hospital With Have Killed Themselves, Even When They Seemed To Be 'Getting Better'. I'm Still Here.

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Healing Comes

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Two friends of mine worked on this picture. It really spoke to me. Green represents healing. There IS hope!

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Hours Before I Almost Attempted Suicide

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is me. I have ptsd, depression, panic disorder and whatever else. This was taken maybe two hours before i almost attempted taking my life at my college. I had everything i would need and the thought wouldn't stop. The only reason i didn't follow through was i received a text from my friend telling me that she was excited to see me tomorrow. Little things like thaf can change someones life.

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Being Strong Is Only Half Of Feeling So Alone.

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My #faceofdepression

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Let Us Build Our Society By Encourage Each Other To Stay Lively And Hopes!

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Fighting Every Day

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

In Japan people think having teeth like yours is tha bomb - it's a fashion statement there and people have their teeth fixed to look like yours !!

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You Wouldn't Think ...she's Always Do Funny.

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You Tell People Your Depressed But They See You Joking And Being Such A Funny Person They Couldn't Possibly Believe That You Are At The Edge. I Say Edge Refrencing How Close I Come Almost Daily To Ending It..wake Up Everyday ..heavy Thoughts Weigh On My Every Moment..unhappy With Myself...feeling Lonely And Helpless...why Cant I Just Be Happy And Not Fight With All Of These Thoughts Loose In My Head..

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This Is Me.....#faceofdepression.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Are you in any short-movies ? I would volunteer to be nice to you and would find out if you are worthy.... take a chance ?

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Always Fighting It... Put A Rope Around My Neck, Put Blades To My Skin, Stared Down The Barrel Of A Gun, Stood At The Edge Of Many Buildings And Places Looking Down... I Know Its Not Supposed To Be My Fault, But I Hate How Much This Hurts The People I Love, And I Don't Want To Hurt Them Anymore...

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#106

Doesn't Look Like Depressed. Believe Me It's There. I Usually Don't Grow Beard. I Usually Don't Have Large Eyebags.

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The Face Of Depression Isnt Always Crying. It Can Be Uncontrollable Anger, Frustration, And Confusion. It Can Be Cuddling Up With Your Long Term Partner, And Your Brain Is Still Telling You He Doesn't Actually Love You And He's Only With You Because He Feels Sorry For You. It's Waking Up In The Morning Feeling Exhausted Even Though You Slept Well Because Of The Horrible Lucid Dreams And Memories Your Brain Decides To Recount For You While Your Rest. It's Battling Every Day To Remind Yourself That You Are Loved, And Cherished, And Valued, Even Though You Feel Like No One Would Even Notice If You Didn't Turn Up To Uni Or Talk To Them For A Few Days. Depression Is Feeling Like You Aren't Worth The Air You Breath, And Feeling Guilty When Loved Ones Take Time And Effort To Buy Them You Nice Presents And Do Meaningful Things, Because You Don't Feel You're Worth It. It's Constantly Apoligising To Others For Your Behaviour, Even Though You Know You Can't Control It And Just Wish Others Would Realise You Aren't Doing It Deliberately. Depression Becomes A Way Of Life, A Constant Fight Amongst The Rest Of Life, And One That Feels Like You Never Really Win, Only Postpone. But I Know I'll Get Through, Because I'm Already So Much Better Than I Used To Be.

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My Little Brother Caleb Jerimiah Castillo 23 Yeas Old To The Right Took His Life One Week After His Birthday A Year Ago He Was Incredible Odd To Some But Always Full Of Life And Jokes Left His Family Behind Passed His Pain To Us You Never Know The Battle People Are Fighting 'This Should Not Be The Way People See As Out Of Their Pain You Can Help A Simple Call To Check On Them A Visit

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Suffering From Depression We Get Used To Hiding It...

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Trying My Best To Raise Awareness Of Depression And Other Mental Health Illnesses On Facebook With Depression Friends. Been A Very Difficult Few Months And So Few People Understand How Exhausting It Is To Just Function On A Daily Basis. I'm Lucky I Have Support But How Sufferers Cope On Their Own Is Beyond Comprehension. Nhs Services In The U.k. Are So Overwhelmed That You Can Wait Weeks Or Months To Get Help, For Some This Is Too Late. You Never Need To Feel Alone As There Are So Many Out There Who Are Suffering In The Same Way.,,,

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He Knew Where To Get Strength From, But In The End It Was Not Enough

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I've Been Suffering From Depression Since I Was 14 Years Old. I Was Not Treated Nor Diagnosed Because My Parents And Everyone Around Me Thought I Was Ok Although I Was Clearly Not. I Attempted To Take My Life Many Times. Fast Forward To The Present Day, I Am Diagnosed With A Type Of Bipolar Disorder And Mild Ocd And Suffer From Severe Anxiety And Panic Attacks. I Was On Medication For One Year (Depakine Chrono,zoloft,xanax) And They Helped Me. During Summer I Had A Major Manic Episode Which Led Me To An Urgent Hospitalization In A Mental Clinic. The First Picture Is Taken After I Was Given Many Sedatives And Had A Depressive Episode. Here I'm Lying Crying On My Bed In The Clinic. The Second Picture Was Taken A Month After I Was Out And I Was Ready To Drink My Problems And Pain Away. What Hurts Me Is That Even When I Was Lying There, Totally Succumbed To My Illness, My Mother, Nobody Thought My Pain Was Real. "It's All In Your Head, Stop Taking Pills And Get Out Of Here". Mental Disorders Are Real. Stop The Victim Blaming And Imposing Your Personal Views, Demanding Us To Be Happy.suicide Is Too Real. Listen To Those Who Suffer, Don't Make Them "Prove Their Pain" So You Can Believe Them And Do Not Belittle Their Pain Or Dismiss It Entirely. Depression Is Both Those Faces. For Those Who Suffer, Please Get Your Treatment/therapy Or Call A Suicide Prevention Line. We Need You Around. I Know You Hurt But There Are Still Happy Moments For You To Live, I Promise!

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I've been suffering from depression since I was 14 years old. I was not treated nor diagnosed because my parents and everyone around me thought I was ok although I was clearly not. I attempted to take my life many times. Fast forward to the present day, I am diagnosed with a type of bipolar disorder and mild OCD and suffer from severe anxiety and panic attacks. I was on medication for one year (Depakine Chrono,Zoloft,Xanax) and they helped me. During summer I had a major manic episode which led me to an urgent hospitalization in a mental clinic. The first picture is taken after I was given many sedatives and had a depressive episode. Here I'm lying crying on my bed in the clinic. The second picture was taken a month after I was out and I was ready to drink my problems and pain away. What hurts me is that even when I was lying there, totally succumbed to my illness, my mother, nobody thought my pain was real. "It's all in your head, stop taking pills and get out of here". Mental disord

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You Learn To Hide It. Because Nobody Wants To See It.

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This Was A Picture That Was Taken By My Than Boyfriend, Who Is Currently My Husband Of 2 Years. I Been Depressed Since I Was Very Young. I Remember Before I Was Even 10 Years Old Telling My Mom I Wished I Was Never Born. I Never Socialize Much, So Kids Made Jokes Of Me, Calling Me Weird And Cruel Names, Which Just Deepen My Depression. It Was Until I Was 16 That I Seriously Thought About Dying, And Had A Knife In My Hand. Called My High School Boyfriend And He Just Hung Up On Me. I Ended Up Pushing The Knife Into My Wrist, But It Wasn't Deep Enough To Be Fatal. I Cried Every Single Day, Wondering Why I Was Put On This Planet... To Be Unhappy, Or To Be Loved? All I Wanted To Do Was Sleep The Days Away, I Gained Weight Badly When I Was A Teenager As Food Was My Only Comfort. The Older I Got, The More I Withdrew From The World, Wanting Nothing To Do With Anyone. Even My Own Husband. I Am 33 Years Old Now, And I Am Still Depressed After All These Years. I Hardly Go Out. Basically Just To Get Groceries And Check The Mail. Otherwise, I Am Home, On My Computer, In My Own Little World, So I Don't Have To Think About Mine. I Joke, I Laugh, I Smile, I Kiss, Say I Love You, And I May Mean It In The Moment, But Once I Am Alone To My Thoughts, I Just Wanna Disappear. Don't Wanna Feel Anything. Only Reason I Made It This Far In Life Is Our Lord Jesus Christ. I Know With Him, I Will Be Happy, For Once In My Life. And Suicide Won't Allow Me That. So I Stay Busy, Not Let My Mind Wonder Too Much, And Let Myself Be Taken Into Other Worlds In Games And Books. It's Hard To Battle, But I'll Get Through It... One Way Or Another. I Will Die Of Old Age. In This Photo, I Was Depressed Even In That Moment I Was Smiling, And This Is His Favorite Picture Of Me. So As Everyone Says, Depression Does Not Have A Face. Those Who Are Depressed Don't Want The Ppl Around Them To Know, Or Want Your Pity. So We Fake A Smile, And Pretend We Are Happy. Although We're Sad And Feel Worthless, In My Heart Of Hearts, I Love My Family And Don' Want This To Bring Down Their Lives And Worry About Little Old Me.

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I Use Humor To Cover Up Everything. No One Knows. No One.

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There Is No Face To Depression. Does This Face Look Sad And Tormented To You? My Brother Lived To Make People Laugh And Smile. He Was The Light And Everything In My Life And Losing Him 4 Years Ago Has Made Every Single Day A Struggle. He Hung Himself In The Woods Where No One Would Find Him For Almost A Week . I Suffer From Depression Too. But Most Would Not Know At First Glance. Now, The Memories Of Mikey And Having My Darling Two Girls Are What Keep Me Going. Even So, It Is A Struggle. It Hits Without Warning. Get Help When You Need It My Darlings. Please.

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This Is Depression, Even When It Doesn't Show

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If Its All Just In My Head, Why Judge It By My Face?

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Suffered Depression And Anxiety All My Life

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Me And My Soulmate.

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Battling To Stay Alive Every Day. Even Though I Love My Grandsons...i Still Fight Depression And Suicidal Thoughts Every Day. Even Today....my Birthday

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The First Photo Was When I Felt Like A Need To Take A Selfie Because My Outfit Was On Point That Morning Before I Go To School And I Just Smiled For No Reason So I Added Up A Peace Sign And Posed Cutely. Then In Like 3-5sec Gap Before The Next Continue Shot.. Instead Of Thinking For What Next Cute Pose, I Just Lost Myself At The Moment And Thought Of Nothing But; Of How Boring My Life Is, How Worthless I Am, How I Hate Myself For Being Fake And Being Good With Hiding Something That Is Wrong With Me, I Don't Even Know What Is.. Wrong With Me. Depression Is No Joke, Yet Everytime I Talk To Someone (Even My Family) They Just Say "You Should Pray More." "That's What You Get For Being Lazy." "Stop Being Like That, It's All In Your Head." "You're Just Being Dramatic Again!" So, Should I Cut My Head Off? When They Saw The Cuts On My Wrists, The Bruises Around My Neck, And The Knife I Always Bring With Me. Instead Of Trying To Help Me, They Get Mad (Which Is Understandable Because I Hurt Them With Me Trying To Kill Myself Again And Again) And Just Leave Me, Then Repeats Those Lines. It Doesn't Help, Tbh. And Since No One Can Help Me But Myself, I Distance Myself From The People I Love And Go Stroll Around Just For Me To See How Beautiful Life Is, It's Hard But Hey.. I'm Still Trying To Save Me. 🙂 #depressionsvcks #faceofdepression #faceofsurviving #faceofawarrior #mentalhealthawareness #youllbeok

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#126

Suicidal. But Fighting It Every Day.

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#127

The Only Things That Keep Me On This Planet Are My Two Sweet Sons

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#128

Depression Has Many Faces. I Have One Of Them.

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This Is Me. I Smile For Now But Throught Out Each Day I Have Suicidal Ideation, ( I Am The Short Fat One, Lol. ) I Have Attempted Suicide Many Times. I Have Bpd And I Switch From Upbeat And Happy To So Deeply Depressed And I Do So Rapidly. The Second To The Last Time I Attempted Suicide. I Told No One I Was Feeling Badly And I Ended Up Getting Last Rites. I Researched The Best Way To Die. I Think About What Days I Can't Do It, Ie, Someone's Birthday That Is Close To Me, Etc.. But Some Times I Cannot Even Let That Stop Me. To A Lot Of People I Seem Normal. But The Deep Fears I Have, Not Being Able To Work, Health Issues And Just Plain Feel Like I Have No Purpose Or Desire To Live. This World We Live In Seems Like Hell To Me. I Don't Want To Be Selfish. When I Feel Suicidal My Perspective Is At Odds With The Reality Death Seems Like A Dream To Me. Every Day I Think It And Every Day I Fight It. I Think I Will Be One Of Those That Finally Reaches My Goal. I Just Never Know When.

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#130

I Struggle. Every. Day. This Picture Is After An Otherwise Extremely Successful Day.

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Me, Christmas Day With My Wife And Daughter And Father A Month After Being Hospitalized For Mental Breakdown And Self Harm.

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#132

Just Because You Can't See It... Doesn't Mean It's Not Real.

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#134

I'm The One In The Glasses. Taken A Few Hours Before I Drank A Bottle Of Whiskey, Swallowed An Entire Bottle Of Ambien, And Sat In My Car With A Loaded Gun. Spent Two Days On A Ventilator.

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I Look Happy. At That Moment, Maybe I Felt It For A Brief Moment. I Don't Really Know, Since Happiness Is A Feeling I Don't Truly Recognize Anymore. Thankfully I Am Getting Help And Now Take Several Medications (Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar) And Slowly I Am Starting To Get Better. Being Public With My Struggles Has Lifted A Huge Weight Off My Shoulders. I Am To End The Stigma. #faceofdepression

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Depression/mental Illness Has No Face.... To Look At Me Here You Would Never Know That Just A Few Hours Before As I'm Driving Down The Highway I Thought To Drive Off The Over Pass And End It All, Thinking My Family Would Be Better Without Me. I've Never Shared These Thoughts Until This Moment Right Now.... I've Struggled With Depression And Anxiety For Most Of My Life, And Nobody Knows It But Me! #mentalillnesshasnoface

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I Have To Be Strong. I Have A Husband Who Loves Me, Two Beautiful And Perfect Children. Some Days The Pain Is Unbearable

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Masking My Feeling With Selfies

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This is my first post even though I've read BP for aaages. I actually recognized an old friend on here and was inspired to post for the first time. I don't think anyone would guess that I have depression, anxiety and have had serious suicidal thoughts. I came close to acting on them but I got help just in time. When I was 17 I thought it was just a blip and a reaction to events at the time and that the depression would go away. Over the years I've learnt that it never goes away. It just gets quieter and quieter but its always somewhere there in the background. I agree with so many of the previous threads. I don't think other people really understand it. You can be smiling and be depressed. They see the image we want them to see.

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This Is Me At Age 37 . Tried To Kill Myself At Age 12, 16, And 18. I Have Four Boys Now I Raise By Myself. Yes I'm Still Depressed But I Have Kids To Raise I Have Tried Any Suicide Attempts Since I Have Them. I Do Break Down And Have My Freak Out . Still Here Cause Of Them.

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Me With Friends At Afternoon Tea. Was Found A Week Later Overdosed On Benzodiazepines For My Ptsd.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I am the young man holding the blue cup with crossed leg. Beside of me, in glasses with fingers snapping, is my best friend from uni. Life was in many ways at the highest it ever was at a world renowned top university with actual friends and faculty who still love me. But after growing up poor in a sexually and physically abusive rural home, my body remembers wounds that I'd rather will myself out of. Due to zero support at the time, I was not able to address severe depression. I have attempted multiple times and have even been considered treatment resistant. Everyday is a battle from hell, with suicidal thoughts and paralyzing panic attacks at work or even on a dinner date with my partner. For whatever reason, I am still breathing. Not happy at all but I am working and breathing...I wish us all healing and light.

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I'm Not Depressed, Right?

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It's So Hard To Wear The Mask Daily, You Know, The One That Says 'I Am Fine, I Am Happy, I Am Confident.' Especially When It Took Every Ounce Of Strength To Crawl Out Of Bed, To Shower,brush My Teeth, And Take Care Of The Family I Love. I Put On The Mask So My Kids Don't See My Pain, To Avoid The Looks And Questions About 'Why?'

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#144

These Are My Many Faces Of Depression

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No Mask, Just Me. The Face Of Depression, In Both Images.

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This Is A Face That Fights Mental Illness. I Was Born This Way. Its The Invisible Disease That Most Don't Want To Believe In. I Live Minute By Minute. I Have Pushed Everyone Away. I Isolate So Nobody Sees My Struggle. I Am Now A Lonely Depressed, Anxiety Ridden Person. Been Yreated For 20 Plus Years. This Illness Does Not Get Better With Age. I Know This Is Not The Life I Wanted But Its The Life I Was Given. I Have Attempted Suicide. Sick Part Is I Wish I Would Have Succeeded. God Still Has Me Here For A Reason. Most Days I Am Not Sure Why.

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5 Days Before My 6th Suicide Attempt In January 2017.

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Bringing The Best In You...while The Pain Spreads

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#150

I Have More Happy Days Now Than Sad And I Know How To Prepare For Those Sad Days. It Doesn’t Mean I Don’t Suffer...

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Depression And Anxiety Have Been Constant Companions Throughout My Life. I Hate It.

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2 Weeks Later

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

2 weeks after a time in which I was treated worse than ever in my life due to xenophobia, I wrote a hateful letter cursing my family and sat for some ten hours in front of two glasses of wine and two grammes of propanolol. I was very close. I went out for a breath of air to agonise over how much I would hurt someone in particular by leaving, and how much I would hurt myself by staying. That was long enough for some random woman to drink all my wine. The next afternoon I was in the hospital due to an unexplained seizure.

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The Face Of Depression. No One Would Ever Know!

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My Rainman ~~~ This Is My Grandson, We Were Celebrating His 21st Birthday!! 1 Month Later He Took His Life In His Parents Garage. The Worst Part Is There Will Never Be An Answer, As To Why??

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#155

Suicide Hurts Those Left Behind The Most, Miss You So Much My Daughter.

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#156

Not Being Able To Describe The Way You Feel

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#157

The Only Reason I'm Smiling, Is So You Don't Have To Worry.

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#158

This Is A Face Of Depression. Although This Picture Doesn't Show It, I'm Considered By Many To Be On Of The Funniest People They Ever Knew. I Think Down On Myself, Have For Years And Even Contemplated Suicide More Than Once..

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#159

Suicidal Since Being A Little Child. First Attempt At 14. Now Mother Of 2 Wonderful Children, Still Struggling... #faceofdepression

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This Is The Face Of Depression, Anxiety And Suicide. I Have Everything To Live For - Beautiful Daughter, Precious Grandson - And Yet, I Suffer With Unbearable Emotional Pain. I Keep A Smile On My Face So You'd Never Know The Turmoil Within. Depression Doesn't Discriminate Based On Age, Sex, Race, Education, Social Status, Wealth ... We Are All Susceptible.

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#162

Its A Journey, Its A Struggle, Its Okay To Not Be Okay.

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5 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I am so happy to let the whole word know how this powerful spell caster saved my marriage.Everything was going down the drain as my husband can not stop cheating on me with other women. It became used to always heating on me. I tried to make him stop, but I couldn't help the situation, the more I tried, the harder it becomes. At times we will fight and go apart for some months and we will come back again just because of our kids. One day a friend told me about this spell caster who helped her too, his name is Dr.usman, she said he uses white magic spells to solve spiritual problems. I decided to give it a try, I contacted him and he told me it will take just 72 hurs and I will see great changes in my husband. He actually cast a spell, believe me after 72 hurs of the spell, my husband was confessing different names of woman he has slept with. He begged for forgiveness and never to try it again. From that day till now, my mind is at rest. My husband dislike every other women on earth exc

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This Is The Face Of Depression...taken 2 Days Ago While I Sat At The Lake And Cried; As I've Been Doing For Months. Things May Finally Be Going Right In My Life Financially, I'm Making A Huge Move And Life Change That Is A Very Positive Thing. All I Can Do, When I'm Alone Is Try To Breathe And Not Panic And Not Be So Wildly Terrified. The World Only Ever Seed The Smile, The Girl That Will Do Anything For Anyone, Will Always Help... I Am Crumbling Under A Mountain Of Grief And Fear But No One Sees It. If I Let It Show, I'm Terrified No One Will Care. I'm So Tired Of Always Being Strong.

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#164

A Legacy Of Depression - These Are The People Left Behind After The Suicide Of Their Father. All Four Of Us Have Suffered Major Depressive Episodes. Three Of Us Are On Medication For Depression. They Were 3, 1 & 6 When Their Dad Hanged Himself.

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#165

Me Last Year, While Deciding Whether Or Not To Kill Myself That Night.

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#166

I'm Falling Apart Inside But Desperately Trying To Hide It On The Outside. Never Feel Good Enough. #depressionsucks #panicattacks #anxiety #justdontwanttogoon

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#167

3 Suicide Attempts Later And Countless Panic Attack...but I'm Still Kicking!

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#168

Finally Happy, In Love, And At Peace. Felt Screwed Up Even During These Pics Though. Some Of It Never Goes Away.

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#169

My Son Lost His Battle With His Demons 11:11:16

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I Will Win.

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Me Still Taking Depression Medicine

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I've Struggled With Depression And Extremely Low Self Esteem Since Early Childhood. I Was Diagnosed With Manic Depression When I Was 15 And Can Sometimes Fall Into Pits Of Uncontrollable Sadness. I Want People To Know That Having A Smile On Your Face Doesn't Invalidate Your Illness. No One Has The Right To Tell You That You're 'Not Really Depressed'; Rather, Your Smile Is A Testament To Your Strength And Resilience

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Morning And Afternoon

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I suffer from depression, panic attacks and anxiety disorder. I've been suicidal most of my life. My first attempt was at age 14 and I got sent away for awhile. I had a major breakdown at age 23, then again at 33. I don't even remember not thinking about dying in all honesty, its something I've always carried around with me. I remember a friend of mine checked herself into Silver Hill because she had thought about it, I was frankly astounded: I have thoughts ALL THE TIME!! I always shared this with my beloved Grandmother, she wasn't depressed but accepted suicide as an option, idk, its vague now but for whatever reason, as a child I accepted it was okay. Ironaically, when she died a few years ago, she took my suicidality away and now I don't want to die. However, with all the stuff that's been happening, I tried again a month ago and wound up in the psych ward. This was a day I woke up hopeful, put on makeup and later contemplated driving into a tree. Its been unbearable lately.

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With Or Without Makeup, Alone Or In Public, I Feel Everything Inside & Outside Of Me & It Hurts, Manifesting In Chronic Pain From Dystonia Which Hurts Too, I Always Hurt And Cling To The Thinnest, Most Precarious String Of Hope To Heal.

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Husband Of A Beautiful Wife And Two Amazing Kids

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Still Depressed, For 4 Years

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Depression is like lightning... if you get stuck with it, you're forever stuck with the aftermath. Sure, there are precautions to prevent most but overall it's chance. I tried to end my life 3 times in 4 years, and I struggle with self-harm, PTSD and depression. I'm in college, and it's still surprising to find myself here.

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This Photo Was Taken A Few Hours Before One Of My Breakdowns... You Would Never Be Able To Tell Based Off My Demeanor That Ive Attempted Suicide Twice In The Past Two Years Alone And Thought Of It Even More. You Wouldnt Know The Destructive Things Ive Done To Myself Because Of How Ugly And Worthless I Feel On A Daily Basis. You Would Never Know When I Say Im Taking A Shower, I Really Just Want To Cry In Peace. You Wouldnt Know Because No One Does But Me. Not My Family, I Have No Friends Because Of My Depression And Anxiety So No One.. Im 21 And Not A Single Person In My Circle Knows The Mental Battle I Go Through Nearly Every Day Since I Was A Teen. My Parents Have No Idea, Nor My Siblings. Actually I Wear A Smile More Than I Dont To Cover It Up.. Like Im Ashamed Of My Feelings. People And Family Think Of Me As A Bubbly Happy Girl When All Theyre Seeing Is My Mask.. Dont Assume You Know Who A Person Is Because Of What You See. Just Because A Person Is Smiling Doesnt Mean They Arent Dying Inside. Im Screaming Under My Skin And No One Can Hear Me.. Please Listen To Those You Love And Care About. Ask How Theyre Doing Even If They Seem Ok. Those Of Us That Suffer From This Shit Usually Try To Give Subtle Hints As To Our Pain.. Just Dont Belittle Or Make Theyre Feelings Seem Inconsequential Like My Mother Does When I Tried To Talk To Her. Mental Illness Is Very Real, And For Those Who Dont Suffer From The Symptoms That I And Many Others Do - End The Stigma.

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Hi there. I feel like I am struggling with this too but idk. I tried to hint to my mother a few times but she tells me that I'm 'not like that'. She says that everyone goes through the same things as I do. She says that because of how I portray myself. Happy, bubbly, quirky. But she doesn't know what I think at night, or when I cross the road. She doesn't know what I think about when I go to bed at night. She doesn't know that I am struggling. I am so so stressed, but unmotivated. I do art, but I don't even like it anymore. I still love it, but I just want it all to stop. I just want it all to stop so that I can breathe. Just for a little while. I really do hope you find a loving community, if you can't, you can find me on my Instagram if you wanna talk :) : @brend.duhhh.draws

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This Is Me, 2 Weeks Before I Had Myself Committed To A Psychiatric Hospital.

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#179

In School: I'm Just Tired, At Home: I Just Want To Die

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Me I Fight With Depression, Anxiety, Agoraphobie And Panic Attack Any Day. At Time I Don't Know I Will Win Or Lose. But I Fight. It's Not Easy. It's Too Heavy At Time. I Still Alive. But I Never Know What Will Happen With Me Next 10 Minutes.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Me i fight with depression, anxienty, agoraphobie and panic attack more than 10 years. Every day. Every hour. Every minute. Every second. At time i feel myself better. But my mental disorder has returned. It's my life. I am still alive. More part of my friends doesn't know about my mental ilness. They thinks i am ok, becouse i don't show my bad conditions to the public. I am crying alone. And i dont know i will win or not. Just fight.

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This Is My Boyfriend Just 2 Weeks Prior To Him Taking His Life. I Had No Idea How Much Pain He Was In. He Hid It So Well With That Big Smile.

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It's A Brendan Thing

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your post inspired me. I truly wanted to give your son a voice. I hope this doesn't upset. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cNjUO8_Vuw

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I Smile Every Day Even If I Feel Like It's Not Worth It. It Is. Keep Fighting. :)

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#184

Sometimes My Mind Is Spinning But With My Son And My Animals I Keep Trucking On

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#185

My Rainman ~~~ This Is My Grandson, We Were Celebrating His 21st Birthday!! 1 Month Later He Took His Life In His Parents Garage. The Worst Part Is There Will Never Be An Answer, As To Why??

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Just A Little Ppd, Mdd, And Situational Depression Due To The Cheating S/o I Was With. My Well Meaning Dad Commented How Happy I Looked And He Was Glad. If My Face Had Shown How I Was Thinking And Feeling That Day I Would Have Missed Out On Some Great Shots Of My Precious Girlies And Family. All I Wanted To Do Was Run Away And Die, But I Sat And Smiled For The Camera Instead.

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#187

I Live With Bipolar Disorder And Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I've Attempted Suicide On Multiple Occasions But I Like To Believe Things Eventually Look Up.

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#188

Depression Can Look Like This. Suffered Since I Was A Teenager. I Am A Wife, Mother, Grandmother And It Doesn't Matter How Old You Are Or Your Economic Situation, Depression Has Many Faces.

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#189

I Became So Good At Hiding Myself That I Don't Know Who Am I Anymore

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This Is What Depression Looks Like... These Were Both Taken On Separate Weekends, But Both Times I Didnt Think I Was Going To Get Through It. I Have Become A Master Of Disguise, I Am The Problem Solver, So Often That Those Around Me Wouldn't Have Any Idea How Close I Was To Suicide While Looking Them In The Eye And Solving Their Problems.

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#191

Everyday Is A Battle To Keep My Head Above Water.

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#192

Depression Anxiety Ptsd Bipolar Disorder Ocd It Has No Lines That It Will Not Cross There Is No Boundaries And It Will Not Go We All Can Fall Prey To It We Fight Everyday We Fight To Live We Fight To Stay Strong Sometimes We Are Only Strong Because We Have No Other Option There Are Other Days When We Just Want To Crawl Into Bed And Disappear And Act Like Nothing Matters And Nothing Exists Because In Reality And That Moment We Do Not See Hope We Do Not See Something Better Always See Is The Dark Having Us That Weighs Upon Our Chest As We Search For A Reason To Live So Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover We May Be Smiling But We Have Learned To Wear Our Masks We Have Learned To Where I Plastered Smiles We Have Learned How To Pretend Like Everything Is Okay What In Side Everything Is Already Falling Apart It's Not That We Are Pessimist On The Contrary We Search We Cry We Beg For Just One Reason For One Little Ounce Of Hope To Live Another Day

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#193

Sometimes, The Ones Who Smile The Most Are The Ones Who Are The Most Broken.

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Me In The Blue With My Sister Toni

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

hi my name is sue this year I took an over dose five times yes lucky to be here.The fight every day to stay here is so hard I hate being like this but its not going to go away its a battle every day every moment I really do try hard to keep it together.Mornings are hard its all timing I have to jump up as soon as I wake up no thinking just get up but the feeling is always there right beside right there so dark so very dark .I do put on such a good act you do not really know me as I wont let a lot of people in .I put my make up on and get dressed and smile and hold my head high.. That feeling even comes out with me we are stuck together and its took its toll on me many times as some people close to me can tell now ''The reason why close friend can tell now they stayed with me on my bad days as well as my good days I really thank my sister Toni, Alison, and another close friend thank you for being so understand and never giving up on me .life is going to be hard I want to stay

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Bpd Doesn't Have A Face. Be Kind For You Don't Know Others Internal Struggle.

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How Would You Know What's Behind The Mask?

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Depression Doesn't Have A Face. Depression Can Make You Mask Your Pain With Makeup Thinking It Will Make It Better. I've Been On And Off My Anit Depressants And Tried To Commit Suicide Twice Now. I Got Caught Once, Talked Myself Out Of It A Second Time. Depression Is Wanting To Stay In Bed Because You Feel Alone Even When You Have Several Friends Messaging Asking If You Want To "Hang". Depression Is Crying In The Middle Of A College Course For No Reason.yet A Lot Of The Time I Go Out With Friends And Try To Ignore Depression. Everyone Has A Way Of Masking It. Ask Someone If They're Okay, Even If They're Smiling.

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Took This Selfie With My Son. He Looked So Much Like My Son Before Him Who Died. I Was Immediately At War With Suicidal Thoughts.

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This Is Me. Just A Girl Who Likes To Talk, Have Fun And Smile. People See Me As An Energetic, Happy One. But Actually I'm Depressed For A Last Few Years. They Say, 'You Are Young' Or 'Oh You Gotta Be Kidding'. But Deep Inside I Always Battling With Myself. I Harmed Myself A Lot. I Cried A Lot. I've Been Quite For Long. I've Been Broken. I Was Everything You Imagined. I Feel Empty. All The Time. And Then I Feel Anger. Hate. Then Love, Peace. I Can't Understand Myself. And The Horrible Thing Is, There's No One To Help. I Didn't Find A Good Doctor. And A Good Talker. I Left Everyone. I Hurted Them. And I Loved Them. Everyday Is Different Than The Other. I Can't Sleep. I Can't Stop Thinking About Hurtful Things. Someday, No Tears. Someday, I Enjoy The Blood From My Veins... I Don't Know What To Do. But I'm Still Living. I Hate My Hair, My Face, My Skin, My Body. But I'm Still Living With These. I'm Ashamed Of My Thoughts. And I Don't Know What'll Happen Soon. But I Hope I'll Feel Better. And I Want To Help Others Like Me. We Can Beat This. We Can Stand Against Depression. But First, I Need To Make Myself Better. Then, I'll Help Others. That's My Motive.

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This Is Me. Just A Girl Who Likes To Talk, Have Fun And Smile. People See Me As An Energetic, Happy One. But Actually I’m Depressed For A Last Few Years. They Say, ‘You Are Young’ Or ‘Oh You Gotta Be Kidding’. But Deep Inside I Always Battling With Myself. I Harmed Myself A Lot. I Cried A Lot. I’ve Been Quite For Long. I’ve Been Broken. I Was Everything You Imagined. I Feel Empty. All The Time. And Then I Feel Anger. Hate. Then Love, Peace. I Can’t Understand Myself. And The Horrible Thing Is, There’s No One To Help. I Didn’t Find A Good Doctor. And A Good Talker. I Left Everyone. I Hurted Them. And I Loved Them. Everyday Is Different Than The Other. I Can’t Sleep. I Can’t Stop Thinking About Hurtful Things. Someday, No Tears. Someday, I Enjoy The Blood From My Veins… I Don’t Know What To Do. But I’m Still Living. I Hate My Hair, My Face, My Skin, My Body. But I’m Still Living With These. I’m Ashamed Of My Thoughts. And I Don’t Know What’ll Happen Soon. But I Hope I’ll Feel Better. And

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Depression And No Self Worth My Whole Life, No One Knew Until My Uncontrollable Break Down

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#202

Me, 3 Hours Before Attempting Suicide By Cutting My Wrists Open And Mutilating My Legs. Depression Doesn't Have A Face.

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This Is Me Getting Ready To Work, Usually I Throw Up My Breakfast And Talk To Kitty, Then Leave

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All I Want Is To Have Piece Of Mind And Be Happy. Most Of My Selfies I Take In My Room Because Most Days That's The Only Place I Have Enough Gumption To Be. I Hide My Anger Sadness And Confusion Behind My Smile. I Dont Want People To Feel Awkward Around My Depression. All I Want Is To Be Accepted And For People To Like Me. I Have A Constant Fear I'm Being Annoying And People Will Get Sick Of Me Put Me Down And My Anger Will Bubble Over. A Ticking Time Bomb.

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#205

This Is Me Hiding The Pain And Feelings Of Worthlessness. The Battle Is Real And I'm Holding On To What I Have.

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Face Of Depression

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This Picture Was Taken After I Had Been Up All Night With An Anxiety Attack. I Still Had To Get Dressed, It On A Fake Face, And Go To Work. I Have Been Suffering From Depression And Anxiety Since I Was 12; 28 Years. One Morning I Woke Up Went To The Store Bought My Mom A New Toilet And A Garden Hose. I Delivered The Toilet To My Mom And A Few Hours Later She Had To Talk Me Out Of My Garage. I Had Ran The Garden Hose From The Tailpipe Of My Car Into My Mouth. My Sister 2 Years My Senior Took Her Life By Shooting Her Self In The Head. Fighting Depression And Anxiety Does Not Make You Weak, It Makes You Extremely Strong Because It Takes So Much More Energy To Do The Simplest Thing Such Just Taking A Shower. I Tell Myself Everyday It Is An Illness Just Like Cancer Or Diabetes And If I Take My Medication It Can Be Controlled. I Hope Just One Person Hears What I Am Saying And Continues To Fight. If You Fight Then I Will Too.

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#208

He Was So Happy.

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#209

“it Does Not Matter How Slowly You Go As Long As You Do Not Stop.”

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Depression And Anxiety My Photo Journey

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#211

It Feels Like The Only Way Out...

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Face Of Suicide

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The Day I Slit Wrist

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#215

Drugs,,, By Jodie Rowe,, #195,, He Was So Happy

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6 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

From: Catherine RoweWednesday, August 24, 2016 Sifting through the memories, the good I try to keep you came into this world and kept me from my sleep kept telling you were special, why did you not hear? and now I have to wait to once again to hold you near, I cry every day Jamie and hold you to my heart I pray Jamie, the Lord will reunite us, never more to part. Love you forever Son, gone and never forgotten.

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Mums Wedding

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4 years ago DotsCreated by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

My Dear friends online, My name is amanda bella And i live in USA, ohio, I have to give this miraculous testimony, which is so unbelievable until now. I had a problem with my Ex husband 2 years ago, which lead to our break up. I was not myself again, i felt so empty inside me, my love and financial situation became worst, until a close friend of mine told me about a spell caster who helped her in the same problem too his name is Doctor Jude. I email the spell caster and i told him my problem and i did what he asked of me, to cut the long story short. Before i knew what was happen, less than two days my husband gave me a call and told me that he was coming back to me i was so happy to have him back to me. The most interesting part of the story is that am pregnant. Thanks to Doctor jude for saving my marriage and for also saving others own too. Continue your good work, If you are interested to contact the great spell caster email address: virgolovespell@gmail.com .