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I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
I Create Fantasy-Inspired Beasts And Animals Out Of Polymer Clay, And Here Are 40 Of My Best Sculptures
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Well, recently I had a serious depressive episode. I grew up in very abusive homes, and my parenting strategy was to get a parent educator and, within reason, err on the side of loving and doting on my kids. Aside from my mental illness, I was working three jobs and both my kids are both special needs. My daughter is violent, strong, and I tried for over a year to get professional help for her. I knew she would have a hard life if she didn't get straightened out before school. My behavior was this bad as a kid, and the social repercussions gave me depression and low self esteem. I was heartbroken thinking my daughter was going to grow up with those issues. I was terrified she was going to grow up to be like me. I couldn't bear to see that, so I was considering giving my kids up or leaving. But I knew if I did either, and continued to live, I would feel worse. I became suicidal. After two extended hospitalizations, I am well. But I had to lie and say I had thoughts of killing my daughter. I'm ashamed. But the first time I was hospitalized, I begged for help, it was promised, but never came. So I had to go beyond and force the hands of the social workers and child mental health people. We have services now. I still have my kids, and never stopped loving them.reasons-people-dislike-their-children
I have a 31 year old daughter. I tried to get pregnant and was thrilled when she came. Her father and I divorced and did everything I could as a single mom to raise her right. When I remarried she hated that she was no longer the center of attention and everything went to hell. She was later diagnosed as bi-polar and has it is bad enough that she is on disability. She rebelled in high school and even tho we sent her to college she wouldn't go to class and snuck back to spend time with her boyfriend. One semester was all it took and we gave up. She ended up on drugs, and her addictions went from Meth to Oxy to Heroin. She stole from me, I had her arrested. I have done everything I could to help her and she is still troubled. While I don't hate her, I hate what she is right now. She will still steal from me given the chance. She was over last week and stole my dish washing liquid, the silver coins out of my change cup and some things out of my cupboard. Had she asked, I would have given them to her. She also stole a bottle of Vicodin from when I hurt my rotator cuff a few weeks ago. She is my only daughter and every dream I ever had for her will never happen.reasons-people-dislike-their-children
i'll do you one better, my whole father's (huge) side of the family all genuinely dislike or don't love me(including 5 halfsiblings, 8+ aunts and uncles, my (now dead) grandmother, numerous cousins(that I went to the same school as/had the same uncommon last name)), because my dad cheated on his wife of 15 years, with my then 20 year old mother. I was the bastard baby produced from that. In addition to that mess, my mom has serious mental issues with violent, hateful tendencies, so there's not much room for a loving mother-daughter relationship there. So, long story short, I have a huge family, but I have no family.angelcake reply
I am going to differentiate between love and like. I was 31 when I had my son and he was and still is much loved and much wanted. However there are far too many days that while I love him I do not like him in the least. He has a learning disability, it is not an intellectual disability as opposed instead it is a severe organizational skills disability. All of the things that most of us to do fairly easily, keeping our schedules sorted out, doing multistep tasks and such are very difficult for him. Dad and I have been extremely supportive, we've made sure that he's had tutors, that he has helps as he needs it, pretty much everything we could possibly do either financially or by being supportive we have done. He is currently living in my basement rental unit because at 22 he needs his space as much as I need mine. He's in college, this is after blowing three semesters at university because he couldn't be bothered doing the work. College has gone better but because of his learning disability I still have to make sure his schedule is sorted out, that he gets places on time and such. It's incredibly tiring and stressful for me. he has another five semesters left in this program, his dad and I are financing school as well as sharing the cost of living expenses. He works but only part time because of school commitments. I suppose I'm writing this because I'm frustrated. In some ways he's incredibly mature and bright, he's articulate, he's smart and when he's in a decent mood he is enjoyable to be around. unfortunately he is lacking in self-confidence, both about his intellect and how people perceive him, he struggles to keep things together, suffers from depression [which is not his fault]. He's had a rough couple of years, bad choices in girlfriends and such. I wish he would do something positive to help himself out, I know he will always need some degree of help to keep him on schedule, such is the nature of his disability [it's called executive function disorder if anybody is curious] but it would help tremendously if I didn't feel like I always have to be on his case to make sure he gets things done in a timely manner, that he's on time when he's going places etc. despite his rough time he has a good life, he has a few good friends, a place to live, school is taken care of but none of it seems to mean anything. Anyway I felt like this was as good a place as any to vent, thank you all for listening Reddit.
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I was 17 and found out the 22 year old sex friend got pregnant despite her on birth control and me using a condom at least 50% of the time. I told her to get an abortion which she said no to originally because she really actually wanted to have "my child" She tried convincing me with stuff like: with both of us as parents the baby'll be gorgeous, she'll have my smarts, I won 't have to change my lifestyle since it'll be better to be educated, her parents can help out etc. etc. etc. I didn't buy it. I finally convinced her to abort but she said we needed to end things so I ended up one less sex friend. Fast forward 6 years I've been in an accident that left me quadriplegic two years ago. I get added on facebook by my former sex friend. SHE HAS A SIX YEAR OLD DAUGHTER. I didn't feel betrayed...I FELT TERRIBLE. She may have had the child against my will but I JUST LEFT HER TO FEND FOR HERSELF FOR SIX YEARS. WHAT KIND OF INHUMANE ACT IS THAT? She told me she just found out I had my accident even though it was a while and not to worry about money or being a father figure to OUR daughter. I'm hounded by all these conflicting feelings. I don't need to be a father figure because her fiancé will take care of it. I want to. I don't need to help support? I want to. I don't need to care about them? I want to. I cant help out because I'm crippled? I want to. Im not allowed to be near them because it'll interfere with their newly wed life? I feel like the life I should have had doesn't want me. I never wanted a daughter but that doesn't matter because she went ahead and had her anyway. I should help her instead I'm out partying and dating frivolously until I ended up quadriplegic. I want to be able to support her but I can't. I don't even know anymore but I've built up so much resentment...and JEALOUSY that I..."dislike" them.This Panda hasn't followed anyone yet
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